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December 31, 2008

Tagged-tentang Pompuan?

well, shank speselly request kat aku suro wat tagged ni..kat blog dia dia pun dia tulih..actually tagged ni ttg laki but dia tagged aku so xkan la aku nk tulih pasai laki kowt..musti r pasai pompuan..SPOILER ALERT!!! aku bru pas break so suma yg dibwh ni amatlah berbeda dr yg sblom2 ni ttg pmpn yg aku gambaqkan..maybe a lil bit demanding kowt kali ni..of cos r kan..bru break..xkn nk crk yg sama jew..nk imrpove r ckit taste2 aku..ha3.

Ciri Perempuan Idaman Anda :

+first of all aku xminat gurl yg cerewet..ckit2 aku ble tolerate lg tp kalau dah melampau2 aku pun xble tahan..+

+terima aku seadanya..strongly bout my smoking probs..FIY, im not planning to stop in the next couple years..seriesly..+

+sweet..i mean perwatakan yg sweet.susah r nk explain dlm kata2..senang cita bila aku usha dia aku rasa dia sweet+

+cute..aku pun xtaw napa..aku jenis yg minat gurl yg cute..dr dulu fact ni xubah.cute bg aku xsemestinya baby face, shorty(no offense shank..he3), or childish..again, seseorg tu kdg2 aku rasa dia cute walaupun org len pikir sebaliknya+

+xkuat melawan kata..kira mcm xsuka argue byk2 ngn aku..aku ni dah x r ble kalau bab2 argue ni.musti nk menang pny..kdg2 benda2 ckit2 pun still nk argue..tp aku xmau r terlalu menurut kata aku..when the time is rite, if shes noe how to fight bax. that will be the perfect gurl to me.+

+unik.dr segi perwatakan @ penampilan..well, some might label unique as freak @ pelik tp aku xkesah..kira laen dr yg len+

+indie..indie disini maksudnya kalau dia pandai take care dirinya sendiri..x terlalu dependent sgt.. n not to indie sbb nnt aku rasa tercabar plak..kira kdg2 or in certain part of life dia still bergantung kat aku..+

+manja..eeew..gelinya time aku tulih ni..tp seriesnya aku suka gurl yg manja+

+smart..kira ble pikir untuk diri sendri r.noe when to speak n when is the rite moment to keep quiet..+

+respect..aku ni jenis yg susah nk respect org..eventhough yg oldies.."respect the ones that respect you" aku pgg prinsip ni..so kalau gurl yg aku nak musti r tau respect org len so dat bru balance..+

+opposite ngn nabila, aku xmau gurl yg lg tinggi dr aku..tinggi skit ble trima lg..besa r laki kan..ego lg tinggi dr ketinggian sendri.+

+mixture blood? ble r..agaknya..+

+well dressed..not to whore-ly not to alim-ly..kalau alim sgt dressing dia mana nk padan ngn aku yg style mcm org gila ni..rambut mohawk+awek berbaju kurung?..go figure.kalau whore-ly dress pun aku xble blah gak..well dressed bg aku kira xover sgt n ortodoks sgt.+

+ok ngn parents ngn sibling aku..kira ble ngam r.+

+last but not least, VIRGIN.no komen..+


Perempuan Yang Tak Pernah Anda Minati Sepanjang Hidup :

+sepanjang hidup? wow..mampuih r..ada ke? ada kowt..hah..gedikz..seriesly aku xminat gurl yg gedik..manja ngn gedik 2 benda yg berbeda ok.+

+shop-a-holic maniac n addicts..point n aku ble tolerate lg..besa r gurl.aku paham..shopping is\their hobby, most of them..so, kira yg shopping berpada2 r..sebulan sekali ke, dua kali je ke.orait r tuh.3 kali sminggu pun aku ble wat2 pejam mata g r.jgn r sampai sebulan seploh duploh kali..aku pun kuat shopping gak..bukan kedekut tp mcm dah membazir sgt dah tu..+

+overdress n to HOT for me to handle..iman aku lemah kowt nafsu aku kdg2 membuak2..jgn r uji kan..payah nnt+

++ngada2? sma ke ngn gedik? kalau xsama kira r ek..aku bkn tahu sgt mengklafisikasikan org ni+

+judgemental..suka sgt judge org..aku anti sifat ni+


Perasaan Anda Sekiranya Keluar Dengan Orang Yang Minati :

+hekeleh..ni pun mau tny lg ka? musti r sonok..+


Tempat Istimewa Yang Ingin Dilawati Bersama Pasangan Anda :

+aku xsure..tp pa yg pasti tempat tu musti spesel n meaningful for both of us+


Barangan/Sesuatu Istimewa Yang Akan Anda Hadiahkan Kepada Si Dia :

+bab2 brg2 ni utk yg istemewa aku akan bg my personal item..brg2 aku yg aku beli ngn duit aku sendri,aku syg gila2,aku jaga gila2,sentimental value.kira kalau ada gurl yg dpt brg personal dr aku dia mmg spesel di hatiku..so far, xdak lg la yg bertuah.+


Tajuk Lagu Yang Akan Anda Nyanyikan Untuk Pasangan Anda :

+Never Been Replaced-First Lady+


Rakan Yang Anda Tag Dan Mahu Mereka Buat PERIHAL :
+Suma blogheads yg membaca netry ni, tagged la diri anda sendri ek..nk list down byk sgt..sesapa yg terbaca entry ni juts wat je.xkesah..+

December 30, 2008

Noor Hajar Binti Mohamad Rasdi..I dedicate this for u, My Lil' Sis..

lil' sis..im proud of u..
7A's n 1B..thats damn good babe..(orait r b sejarah dah dia menci sejarah)..
one thing for sure, shes still gonna be in that prestige skool(skolah men sains tun syed sheik shahabudin..tol ke aku eja ni..ranking no 23 dlm skolah men mesia), not as shes expected, well she thought that shes gonna get an ass kick from that skool..shes even prepared herself mental n physical to fit in to normal skool(skolah harian r..)..sorry babe, trust me, u wont fit in..u too good to be in normal skool..one more thing, sejarah B? thats cool..just try to keep up cuz in form 4 there essay that u have to write in history subject.. n choose the rite stream okay..shes wanna choose accounting n bio stream..well, shes said she love math but hate bio, but they cant be seperated.so, do what ur big bro did..juts study to get pas.. which i did ok..i get 8E for bio..hahaha..accounting? good.. after this u can teach me accounting cuz im sucks in this fucking subject..haha(kalau la dia taw aku fail account kat U conpem dia xmau ambik accounting pny, u noe why cuz she look up high for me..in her mine, his big bro is some genius boy that have xtraordinary mind..ooh lil sis..u dunno how untrue that is)..well u beat me again on PMR..well i only got 7B n 1C for PMR..well i totally deserved that..n im proud of her..shes can do much better than me in academic.i admit that..im just somehow got lucky all the time.she n my big sis is the brain of the outfit..im just the mastermind of problems..haha..well Hajar i hope u read this entry(i noe u wont) so that u noe that im very proud of u..n i love u soo much..sometimes i just dunno how to express it..really..seriesly..but shes still love me more than big sis..i just dunno why..maybe its cuz that im the only bro she have n no matter how screw up i am, im just the one to turn in..n remember, no matter what, no matter what stream u choose, i'll alway support u..our family alway support u..dun worry.the pressure is not n u..u r the youngest..its not u that leads the way..big sis carry that respo..im next..u r the last..well, i really am glad that mummy drop the pressure of pursuiting u on medic(eventhough she didnt noe that shes applying the pressure on u, but i noe..), n now ur choice is wide open..just be anybody that u want..(well to be honest i still hope that u'll someday be a newscaster.so that everynite i turn on the TV on 8 n i ca proudly say that-that babe on Tv is my lil sis!..haha)..well thats all i wanna say to u, my lil sis..love u so much..now i just need to accept that u are no longer our baby gurl..u have grown up..all of us need to..u can be indie u just need to believe in urself more as much as we believe in u..n remember, i'll have ur back..im gonna take ur hand everytime u fall, im gonna shield up the bullet for u if i have to..cuz no matter what, u still r baby gurl in my heart..u r the reason i wont do any bad things in life cuz i dun want anybody hurt u..n im sorry if im being to tough on u..im just trying to build up ur confident on urself..thats all..

p/s-sumthing bout my lil sis-shes fragile.not confident in herself as much as all of us trust her..vunerable sometimes..soft hearted-really2 soft..softer than a feather..easily influece(this one is my own conclusion.)..not so indie as me n my big sis.so, as a big bro i have to take care of her..the respo lies on my shoulder.i really have to

December 29, 2008

I Woke Up In Different Bed

wow aku bgn pagi ini dr katil aku di kolej tersyang kolej malinja berselimut n dlm keadaan kesejukan.. kedah sejuk? wow..suatu perubahan yg ketara..maybe byk benda bru dah brubah sepanjanh cuti sem ni..maybe skrg kedah masih dlm musim hujan? xpa..aku masih ada full 5 bulan utk menguji teori ni..maybe kedah dah melepasi fasa kepanasan yg melampau atau akan kembali ke keaadaan sedia kala dlm masa dua tiga hari..hanya tuhan yg tahu

December 28, 2008

Shock n Awe

same room, sam rumates, different locker.. everything else seem right where i left it..yup, im back in UiTM Kedah..massive changes? nope..thanx god..well, since ramai yg argue napa aku xdak azam tahun baru well i think i just found one..aku nk brubah tahun depan n study rajin2 n bg naek blk pointer aku yg keep dropping..i dun wanna fail my folks.i'll do muy best..seriesly..i hope i can make it..please god..i need to make it..help me..

okay gtg..xabih unpack lg..barang byk xbeli g..katil xkemas g..locker xsusun g..well, i'll sharing my loker with azam again this sem..gud..ble paw rokok dia lg sem ni.hahaha..btw, aku xsempat g jumpa junior aku..sem ni sorang ja junior dok sebilik ngn aku..xtaw nama pa, asal mana, course apa. its ok..i have full 5 month to know him better..

one more thing, since im now in my beloved campus, i think im ready.. ready to be hurt again.ready to fall in love again..but this time, im gonna make it rite.. no more foreplay..im not gonna hook up with any gurl that just come by..im gonna search for Miss Right this time..if i dun find her, will stay single ja la..pa susah..bkn aku xble idup kalau xdak gurlfren..btw, i msg nabilah sblom bertolak td ckp kat dia yg aku nk blah dia mai cni, i ckp gudlux n bye2..i told u, were good.. no heart feeling..we still can be frens..we used to be gud frens..nothing gonna change that.. the chemistry we share, gonna make us pull it through though..just wait n see.im not bluffing..

Chow!!!1

GoodBye For Now

well its kinda sad tahts im gonna leave penang tommorow(teruk2 nk blk kedah ja pun..kn jauh mana..setgh jam je dah sampai)..so i guess this gonna be the last entry i wrote from penang(for now)..so a month n half past by while im hanging in penang on my sem break, what had happen?
  • I Got A Job at Kareoke Site
  • i Quit Kareoke job
  • i Got my old job back-Swenz Kopitiam
  • I broke up wif Nabilah
  • Im Single again..pewit!!!
  • i make a nu frens in blogs
  • i make nu frens in real life
  • i'd scandal with amoi Myanmar
  • i lost 3 kg
  • i gain 4 kg..wow!!!!
  • i fall in love but i ignore it..because its just another addiction
  • someone fall for me n i ignore it..im an idiot
  • i reconnect with my old buddies
  • i hanged a lot
  • i eat a lot
  • i sleep less
  • i smoked less

well thats all i guess..except for something that i rather not write bout it..well evnthough its kinda short sem break (at least thats how i felt) but a lot of things happened..so, yeah i love penang no matter what..i love seberang jaya precisely..no doubt bout that.u can say what ever u want dudes but penang its the best place in teh world..no matter where i go this is my home n this is where i will come home to..theres no place like home, man..

so gudbye for now..one thing for sure, my next entry wont be from seberang jaya, penang anymore.its gonna be from merbok, kedah..i love that place too..chow!

December 27, 2008

AZAM? HAHAHAHAHA

some babe penah tanya aku apa azam aku utk tahun depan..slamba katak aku jawap
"nope..i xdak apa2 azam utk tahun depan.."
pastu minah tu wat muka plek n usha aku smacam..and then she goes "Whatever..."ngn gaya n cara yg mmg menghina abih r..aku ckit pun xtrasa sbb well shes kinda a bitch so its do not effect/affect(aku xsure mana yg betul) me at all...well ple sgt ke kalau aku xdak azam utk tahun baru.. belambak kwn2 aku yg xdak azam tahun baru..i bet, Azam(bin Zakaria) pun xdak azam utk tahun bru..the truth is, aku penah menyimpan atau menyemai byk benih2 azam baru setiap kali tahun bru menjelma..seriesly! dulu setiap tahun aku akan wat 1o azam baru utk dicapai seblom akhir tahun..sepanjang idup aku, aku xpenah accomplish suma azam2 aku..why? maybe sbb aku ni mmg yg jenis hangat2 tahi ayam(i admit that)..sakit hati kdg2 benda2 yg ximpossible for me to achieve tp still aku xble nk achieve..its kinda sucks? well reality is. n plus as i grew older azam2 tu cuma sebagai prasyarat utk aku celebrate nu year.. tambahan, kenapa kita sma PERLU wat azam hanya tiap kali tahun baru tiba? kalau n brubah anytime kita ble wat azam kan..xpyh tggu nu year..n sumtimes we used it as an excuse.kalau nk brubah ttgu nu year? sbb tu aku dah lama retired wat2 azam tiap2 kali tahun baru ni..sbb aku taw one way or another i'll be dissappointed..so, i should spare myself..wat pa nk susah2 pikiq azam kalau aku sendri pun xmau brubah..kan? the time will come..suma org akan brubah..mummy aku slalu ckp biaq bdk2 remaja ni enjoy dulu hidup diorang skrg(but theres a limit) sbb bila diorang makin tua mereka akan brubah..as for example, time tok aku meninggal dulu ada sorang makcik ni tolong mandikan n mummy aku ckp makcik tu dulu minah caberet..n mmg negative habih r dia dulu n suma makpak zaman dulu xbg anak2 diorang berkwn ngn dia n looks how she turn out to be..dia skrg dah jdk hajjah n mengajaq bdk2 mengaji Quran..totally change..360 degree..so mummy aku slalu pegang tu..ida taw suma org ble brubah..but yes, some people dun..dah tua2 masih x sedaq diri pun ramai..so, its balance..apa yg aku nk cuba sampaikan ialah manusia ble brubah tp xble dipaksa.xpayah nk brubah time nu year..sebab ia sesuatu yg menghampakan di akhir tahun..so, spare urself..xpayah r wat azam tahun baru hanya sebab org len buat..kalau xmau wat azam xpyh wat..watpa n ikut org.. just be urself..some people maybe dun agree with it, so
RAISE UR MIDDLE FINGER N SAY FUCK U

Life Is Short..So Enjoy It TO THE MAX

im so sorry..i never meant to hurt u..but seriesly, u r overreacting.just take a breathe n cool down will ya?..im just trying to help but instead getting a thanks i get a angry voice throw out to my face? i will let u cool it out first then we gonna settle this ok?..
p/s-im goin bax to UiTM Kedah 2morrow

December 26, 2008

Lonely Soul On Christmas Nite

it may had saoud weird but its true..there lonely people on holiday season..i guess we can consider urself lucky because when holiday stop by, ur family are all here..having dinner together, chitchat n changing story of ourself..for now, i seems to not appreciate any of that but wait.the moment we lost it all, we gonna miss it all eventhough before this we might kinda hate it..i learned this last nite..cuz i dun celebrate christmas(literally..) so i spent my christmas nite hanged out at a beach..all by myself..just wanna calm my self out, relax n chill..out of nowhere i saw on gurl sitting on her car cried out silly but tried to covered it..i braved myself to go near her n asked her whats up babe..seriesly i said that..it suprised me that she went all out..i thought at first shes gonna chased me away or turned her face around but intsead she shared it all.bout how lonely she is rite now bcause she have to spent her christmas nite here all alone without her family(all in sabah rite now)..all she had rite now its the receipt form CIMB bank that written "extra 20" which is her christmas present from her parent..in my mind, that should cheer up moment if its was me, but shes different..all she want is to be with her family celebrating christmas together n blah2..i she said that now she really appreciated her family cuz they are far far away rite now..so, here we go guys..lesson of the day..go figure..

p/s-to prove myself that i wanna stay single rite now, i didnt hit on that gurl..no phone no, no name, nothing..i mean cmon, rite..shes alone, vunerable,sad n so on i can catch her in just a fingertip, but i didnt just to prove my point so dun ever doubt me again okay, asshole..

December 25, 2008

Merry Christmas.

i would like to wish merry christmas to all my frens..
this is malaysia n we r malaysian.we celebrates every holls..
merry christmas everybody

A Beautifool Letdown

Sorry guys..i cant make it cuz i felt asleep.i really im sorry.next time ok..i promise..dun worry Kassim Mustapha wont gi anywhere, n im still in penang for the next 4 days.we can still hang out..plus, dun ever forget our plan for chinese new year,ok..im really sorry..
We, all the boys of Swenz kopitiam promised to hang out ang Kassim's at 1am..i didnt make it..i felt asleep n woke up at 4am..well, in my defense, im fucking tired okay n im not feeling so well n furthermore i already set my alarm at 1230am..

December 24, 2008

Congrats..

i wannna make this a entry a long time ago sine the first day he did..well, i would like to congrats Jeff Hardy for winning his first world title..now, both Hardys, Matt and Jeff are champs again at the same time but its different this time..theyy are not holding atitle together which they good at in tag team division, the best i should say..but this time both of them are world champion..matt hardy the current ECW Champion n Jeff hardy the new crown WWE Champion..it is historical..the as historical as Wrestlemania 20 when late Chris Benoit won his first World Heavyweight Championship n at the same time his best buddy, late Eddie Geurero was a WWE Champion at that time..The Hardys will be the next WWE Hall Of Fame..Team X-Treme will never die

p/s-yes..im a big fans of wrestling..dun ever give the words saying that wrestling is just acting..i noe it..still, i love it..

Responsiblity Doesn't Come Easy


biar diduga lautan gelora,
biar ditiup angin taufan,
akan ku teguh pertahankan jua,
demi darah dagingku yg ku cinta.
tsunami bersidai di pesisir pantai sekalipun xkan ku undurkan diri selagi mereka tidak ku pasti selamat di sisi..janji sumpah ku ungkap kan pada ibu, akan ku tunaikan selagi mampu..kerana aku hanya seorang diri, lelaki kedua dalam keluarga selepas ayahku..jiwa raga mereka, tanggungjawab yg harus ku pikul..tanpa paksa,tanpa dendam, hanya atas nama cinta dan sayang..ya, memang aku tidak seratus peratus menyukainya namun apa dayaku..aku tiada abang..akulah abang, akulah adik lelaki..demi mereka, snaggup berkorban.dia kakakku, dia adikku..

December 22, 2008

well, u guys can say what u want but i cant help it..im a short fuse,dirty fuss, hot tempered and all the things what similar to anger n bad emotion...well the things is, i got angry again today at work..well of course..to whom who have or had work in a restaurant/stall/kedai mamak/kopitiam for sure gonna say the same things..its fucking busy n tiring n sometimes we just lost our tempered..i tried to control it today but it gets over my head..literally..well i got pissed n i kick the damn door in that silly kopitiam..even my boss was stunned n lost his words to say..he just let it be..after the anger-stupid-action move i just cant take it anymore..i left my bar..just let the order keep coming..i went outside the shop, light up my CIGGY n puffed..oh God thats damn good..after i finish it..i when back in with a smiling face.. everyone gave me the Is-He-Crazy-Or Smoke-A-Pot-Just-Now look..well, even after that moment my work just got more n more i managed to handle it with a happy face, thanks to a simple damaging,poisoning stuff called cigarette..really though..ciggys help me relax..i become mellow-er then before after i started smoking..so say what u want, laugh ur ass out of me, ciggys is my bestie..well, one of mine..i guess i make a judgement call.wether i choose a angry son of a bitch wannabe or lung-cancer dude that have a dead wish for the next few years..i choose lung cancer dude..at this time, the reason that i can think bout is ciggys make me relax..ciggys control my anger, mellowed me down..a lot..if i chose angry SOB im gonna die anyway cuz of the anger eating me alive from the inside or get kill by somebody i pissed out of..so, its a fair choice..i end up dead anyway so better choose the one with a style..plus, its my tagline "LIFE IS TO BE ENJOY NOT WASTED" rite? plus, who ever have other things to say im just gonna raise my middle finger n say FUCK U..what can i say, i dont break easy...
CHOW!!!

December 21, 2008

Honesty-GO FUCK URSELF UP!!!

i noe..i should noe better..

"dont judge a book just by its cover"
"dont judge a thesis just by its title"
"dont make a judgement call"

but still, i made one..sorry dude..i still new with this stuff...it is hard for me too..to accept it? its might take time..to deal with it? i takes a lot of me..god, i wish i didnt told me..god, i wish im not busy-fucking-body enough to ask u..gimme some time please..dont let this matter ruin our frenship..we had a long run..nobody, i mean nobody, go through together what we'd been through..we been to hell n back..so i will make this out.just gimme some time..its really got into me,okay..but seriesly, thanks for being honest with me..thats ean a lot..i guess u owe me this time huh? hahaha..okay2..that all i need to say..

+my frens admit he's gay..+

repost-No Tommorow

If there is no tomorrow,
what meal will I have for the last time,
Will it be Chicken McDeluxe or any of it kind
Do I really gonna have appetite or its just dying
Will I enjoy my last meal or maybe I just gonna start crying?

If there is no tomorrow,
Will I ever change?
Can I ever be tame?
Will I keep playing game?
Will my life will ever be the same?

If there is no tomorrow,
Will I ask forgiveness for all the wrong things I done?
Or just sit down pray that all of it will just be gone
Sorry, will that be my last word on my last second
Or I just be as bastard as I am that have no U-turn

If there is no tomorrow,
I know deep inside my heart will crash
Too much pressure, some haven’t been test
So many thing aren’t achieved
Some, I take it to my grave

If there is no tomorrow,
Will the world stop spinning, people stop running
Allies stop ass-kissing, enemy stop gunning
Is that even possible?
Or the world remain as terrible

If there is no tomorrow,
Will I be afraid, will I even care?
I got nothing to lose, not much to spare
Freaking out never in my vocabulary
Knowing I won’t be able to live, that’s not really scary
But,what about everybody else, how will they feel?
The fact of knowing the world gonna end, that’s worse then gets kill
Maybe its too late but its never that easy
So, brace ourself, the day will come, we’ll see..

rite this is whats on my mind..i noe.its kinda twisted but is the thought that will alway on my mine n spare myself from doing anything stupid because if there is no tomorrow, it will be too late for me to to do what Earl(from TV Series My Name Is Earl) do best, cross the lists of wrong doing n make it rite..we all done some bad stuff in our life..better start crossing it now, because the day will come where there is no tommorow n we'll gonna regret it..now i remember why i wrote this poem.to remind myself

December 20, 2008

Silly Or Misery?

kadang kita xmenyedari sesuatu itu mellainkan kita mengalaminya sendiri..2 hari lepas around pukui 12 tgh mlm cmtu sedang kami sekeluara rancak bersembang perut aku bergendang..series lapaq..aku xmkn dinner kowt ari tu..so aku offer nk gi beli burger dkt blakan umah aku..burger brader tu peh mmg series xtipu..so, lepas ambik order suma kat ahli2 keluarga yg len aku naek atasa ambik sweater aku nk kluaq nk g beli burger..lepaih dah order aku wat r tabiat aku yg agak mereng..jalan2 sekitar kawasan umah aku tetengah malam..series mereng tapi time tu aku pikiq dr dok nga2 ja tggu brader burger tu wat bek aku jalan2..aku jumpa satu spot..aku lepak kat citu nk membakaq rokok..sambil dok pam tuh otak melayang ntah kemana..tetiba ada brader ni teguq aku..dia angkat tgn first..then tanpa segan silu dia paw aku..ayat memang menagih simpati r..malangnya nasib dia time tuh aku bwk kotak rokok aku..aku bwk sebatng tu ja kalu x mmg aku bg je..aku kata r kat dia xdak..dia dgn sangapnya ckp "cutting ble?"..aku pun kecian plak nk kata tak, so aku kata r "jap2 bg sampai setgh dulu"..pastu ntah mengapa selepas dia ngn muka xmalu nya dah paw n mintak steng dr aku dia tetiba cuak n malu..dia kata "xpa2..sorry ek..'..pastu dia blah..time tu aku terpikiq..wow punya sangap mamat tuh sanngup paw aku..sanngup nk cutting g..wat kalau aku ada aids ke apa k, aku bg kat kat dia cutting mau xberjangkit..kira tahap dewa pny sangap r dia tuh..pastu tetiba aku tersentap n terpikir..aku mcm tu gak k?? kalau aku smapai tahap dia pny sangap gila babi sanggup ke aku paw someone yg totally stranger? aku xsanngup tp aku xtaw maybe akan berlaku benda tu sebab aku xpenah lagi sampai ke tahap dia..plg koman pun aku paw member2 yg aku kenai ja la..so, is it silly or misery? is that dude being silly or he really in misery??

pastu abih pa, aku g blk kat brader burger tu ambik oder aku n blah...

end of story..

greatness achievement

wow..aku baru pasan..entry aku dah cecah seratus..
pewit!!! seriesly aku xpenah sangka aku akn lekat ngn dunia blog ni..aku first2 igt hanya akan hangat2 tahi ayam jew..tapi aku dah terpaut dah..so, thanx la to all the people wat view blog aku..samapi 500 lebih viewer..dulu time aku awai stat ada la 40 viewers..thanx..i appreciate u'all.all the nu frens that i bond from this blogging activities i hope ur frenship will never dies..eventhough we never confront each other face to face but we can still be frens..thanx u all..sorry kalau papa entry yg aku tulih ada menginggung prasaan sesapa.aku xpenah berniat(maybe sumtimes ada niat) tapi yg pasti pa yg aku tulih daam blo LiFe is To Be EnjoY Not wasteD ni mmg jujur dari hati n tanpa prejudis..kadang2 kata2 aku mmg lantang dan menyakitkan tapi itulah kebenaran yang sebenar yg kita sendri kdg2 alpa tidak menyedarinya..segala crita2 yg aku post ada makna tersendirinya dan punyai sebab munasabah kenapa aku post..mungkin cita2 itu istimewa buat aku..pengalaman yg seems silly but important for me..so, aku maleh nk berleteq panjang, skali lg tahnk you suma..

Tagged Tagged Tagged

1) poskan gambar 4 orang yg anda rasa mukanya photogenik
2) perkenalkan mereka / link dan kenapa korg rasa mereka photogenik
3) tag 10 orang.







this is irene ong..i think shes photogenic..look at her.shes cute, beatifool..









hehehe..ni member kamcing aku kat campus..member "knuckles aku"..nama dia safena izfazura..shes one of my bestie(see again..im using this word..im attach to it alredy)..saf bagi aku amat fotogenic sebab semua pic da xkira dia senyum @ x dia akan tetap nmpk happy..by that mean, fotogenik bg aku ialah org yg bila pic dia disnap pic itu akan sedap mata memandang..so saf, u mmg fotogenik kalau ikut persepsi i...

seriesly aku xkenai sapa minah ni..satu hari tuh aku bukak laptop aku tgk2 gamabq dia ada dlm folder pic aku...maybe member2 aku yg guna laptop aku sblom ni ada copy paste gmbaq dia..who ever u are, sorry im using ur pic without ur permission..to be fare, i think u are photogenic..





ok ni Dyla.aku xpenah meet her in person n aku rasa dia fotogenik..sebab bg aku dia dress up camna pun dia still namapak independent n happy..walaupun dia dress up ala2 gothic ckit still nmpk happy..



lastly nk tagged hanna-j, izni,rekha,orked, nadhsamuel...cukup r kowt..

December 19, 2008

Tagged Debts..

as promise, aku akna wat tagged yg aku kena..LotsOfLove n hanna-j yg tagged aku..firstly tagged dr LotsOfLove..


FIRST TAGGED


1. Sesiapa yang kena tag, 10 sesuatu berkenaan orang yang men'tag' dia.


+Nama dia LOtsOfLove..real name sumpah aku xtaw..+

+shes a christian sebab cleebrate christmas..xjadik masalah kat aku sbb aku ni kawan ngn suma org..free thinker pun aku kawan..as long as we can click+

+dia asal sabah..+

+cian kat dia dia xble blk celebrate christmas kat sabah..sorry ek..celebrate kat semenanjung pun ok gak..he3+

+shes very nice..seriesly..walaupun kami kenai kat alam cyber je tp hati kecil aku kata dia seorang yg baik+

+currently dia menetap kat KL..+

+tgh study kowt skrg..+

+age dia aku rasa above 20..kan?+

+ok this may sound weird but this is what i think..muka dia aku rasa macam MAS AF2..seriesly..sebijik..P.O.V aku r..+

+lastly aku nk ucap merry christmas kat LotsOfLove..gitau real name ble?he2..+


2. Orang yang kena tag kena tulis tentang dirinya


+xpayah r kowt no?? byk dah tulih pasai diriku ni..he2+



SECOND TAGGED



1.Do you think you're hot?

+hot is subjective..aku xrasa r aku hot..+

2. Upload your five picture of you.

+satu ckup la ek..sbb aku xhot..he3+

3. Why do you like that picture?

+sbb aku rambut mohawk time tuh..first time wat..heppy gila babi..time tuh bru je potong truih aku snap pic..+

4. When was the last time you ate pizza.

+2-3 hari lepaih...+

5. The last song you listen to?

+staind-believe..aku skali dengaq lagu ni truih suka..+

6. What are you doing right now besides this?

+update window..+

7. What name you prefer besides yours?

+byk nick aku ada. aCe+, RuckFules, Angel Of Desruction, VooDoo Kin Mafia, FuLLtiMeKiLLeR+

THIRD TAGGED

30 questions about the first person that comes into your mind
Don’t change the person.

Does he or she have a boyfriend/girlfriend??
+Special or just friends? is special, nope, i dun think so, if just frens, Lots of them+

How old is the person?
+19..turning 20 this February..+

Has he/she ever cooked for you?

+never..bertuah dia nk masak kat aku..+

Is this person older than you?
+yup..a year older+

Have you ever kissed this person?
+GOD NO!! we r straight..+

Are you really close to him/her?
+yup.hes one of my besties(napa aku suka plak guna word ni ek??..i wonder)+

How many times do you talk to this person in a week?
+rarely..even text message..we both busy with ur study..+

Do you think that person will repost this?
+nope..he doesnt have a blog+

Could you live with this person?
+tricky question.. live as housemate, yeah..live as maried, no!!!+


Why did you choose this person

+simple.cuz he was the 1st person pop from my mind+

How long have you known this person?
+3 yers now.+


Have you ever been to the mall with this person?
+a lot we even xpuasa together2 in the cinema..thats a sweet memory taht i wont forget..jgn ikut..dosa weh!!+


Have you ever had a sleepover with this person?
+cant recall+

If you ever moved away would you miss this person?
+not really.. we a seperated now but still be click+

Have you ever done something really stupid or illegal with this person?
+kalu xposa tuh ble kira illegal x? kalu ble hah yg tu r..plus kalu smoking pun kira illegal..+

Do you know everything about this person?
+a lil..otw though+

would you date this person's siblings?
+err... he have a hot sista..seriesly i dunno..maybe but is shouldnt+


Have you ever made something with this person?
+sumthing as a thing that can be touch by bare hand? yeah i think so..+

Have you ever worn this person’s clothes?
+never..+

Have you and your person made up a hand shake?
+of cos r...rite dude?+

If it was “freaky friday” would you switch bodies with this person?
+nah, i pass.if is a gurl i will..ahahaahahaha+

Have you ever heard this person sing?
+a lot of it, but i never get sick to it+

Do you and this person have a saying?
+Nah... +

Do you know this persons f'ster password?
+nah..is his privacy n i wont nevr violated it+

Have you and this person ever gotten into a fight?
+hmm..nevr i guess..+

have you and this person gone clubbing?
+together? nope..+

Do you know how to make this person feel happy?
+hell yeah..+

Do you and this person talk a lot?
+we are a very talkative type of people..+

Do you like this person?
+of cos+

Do you want to go out with this person?
+of cos..+

Do you want to be friends with he or she forever?
+till death+

Who is this person?
+RethDayat Yusof..sorry, dia yg cross pala otak time nk tulih tagged ni..+
I wanna tag:

Whatever Happen Take It As A Lesson (Saf..pinjam statement u jap ek..)

first of all, alhamdullillah..result aku xr membanggakan sgt kalu sesetgh org tgk tp aku amat bangga ngn result aku.seriesly..i dun deserve that type of result...aku cuma fail satu paper jew.. ACC114 (mmg dr dlu aku fuck paper ni..tp aku mmg dah agak akan fail..cmon la..8 jam ja aku study subject ni spnjang sem..mmg aku deserve fail pun..xpa2..sem ni aku wat early preparation)..other paper, aku pass.series aku sendri xpecaya.. BEL260-B..CTU-B+..Eco- C.. koko -A (xsia2 aku pengsan sebab kesat..dpt gak A)..PAD160-C+...PAD 170-B- (ok stop rite there.paper ni aku plg terperanjat skali aku dpt B-..after all i been through this semester involing this paper still i passed it..dah kena sumpah ngn lecturer n aku maki lecture depan bilik dia n dia dgq n still ble pass, i im position where i shouldnt argue or be dissappointed..)..thanx madam junaida (eclass ke ckp ni..ntah hanya aku yg tahu..)..well, aku dah berjanji ngn diri aku se ni aku xmau maen2 dah..nk bg up pointer aku blk(currently 2.54)..so, mcm yg Saf ckp r, whatever happen take it as a lesson..yup this is a lesson for me..thanx to all my lec last smester..thanx so much..

December 16, 2008

aCe+ Versus The Result

sorry..
im kinda busy rite now..
a lot og things in on my mind..(seriesly..a lot)
to hanna-J n LotsOfLove..sorry i wont be able to do ur tagged rite now..i promise i'll do it when i have time..
i just wanna wish all UiTM kedah students gud luck..result kluaq esok weh...
wish me luck to okay..
chow!!!

December 14, 2008

Honest Opinion..

well since my last tagged i got many respond (ya rite because i tagged 10 people man).. so this is what think bout me..

IZNI
1. full name dia Adam Ar-Rashid Bin Mohamad Rasdi.
2. dia study kat UiTM Merbuk. taking Dip in Public Admin.
3. umur dia 18 tahun. hehe tak cukup umur lagi!
4. dia punya rambut mohawk. kan?
5. aku pernah tengok dia kat UiTM.
6. dia sangat benci guard kat UiTM.
7. dia orang Penang.
8. dia first person yang bagi aku tag.
9. dia baru break. so sekarang dia single mingle.
10. dia blog addict. dia mengaku kat shout dia.

My Respond to Izni-
-i xpenah jumpa dia kat campus..maybe penah selisih r kowt, tp xprasan..mohawk dulu,sblom kena saman ngn pak guard UiTM..pastu aku trus fuck pak guard..actually sem lepaih aku dah ada kes ngn pak guard,aku sound pak guard dlm blik guard kat entrance campus tuh..actually nk kata aku benci suma pak guard xfair r..ada gak pak guard yg bek2..tegur elok2..sesetgh jew yg cam cibai..blagak mcm polis dlm campus..sapa ntha ckp kat aku pak guard ni suma polis reject tu yg act cmtu tu..ha3..blog addicts? ya aku mmg ngaku kat shout aku..mau x nya..balik2 keja xmandi xmakan trus bukak blog..mak aku pun sound..he3

FAIRUZ

-Nama dia ADAM AR-RASHID...sedap nama kawan aku ni kan??
-Dia ni cute...Cute sgt2...
-Dia ni ada chinese look...Dulu mati2 aku ingt dia cina...hhehehe..
-Dulu time skool,dia pkai cermin mata skema...hehe..sorry...Tp still cute..
-Dia ni kawan abg angkat aku,syaiful...Apa cerita dia sekarang ni...
-Dia sudah kembali single...Sesiapa nk ngorat silalah..Aku izinkan..hahahahha..
-Dia org penang...Loghat penang dia lg pekat drpd aku...Jgn main2...hahaha
-Dia seorang penuntut UiTM...Pandai btol kawan aku ni..hehe
-Dia ni seorang yang giler2...Aku suka jadi kawan dia...
-Dia ni sukar diramal...Susah nk ramal sifat sebenar dia...Tp apa yg aku tau dia ni mmg baik!!!~

my respond
- thanx fairuz..nama aku memang sedap..aku sendri pun suka..mak aku yg bagi nama tuh.tuh pun dia cita jenuh seminggu gak pkiq nk buh nama pa..bab chinese look tuh aku maleh nk komen..panjang berjela nnt jadikk..t r aku wat entry pasai chinese look tuh..syaiful sehat..dia skrg tgh study kat cheras under jabatan kesihatan kowt..dia wat cos pa aku pun dah lupa..jarangcontact ngn dia skrg..dia bz aku pun bz..plus, cuti xsama..gila2? kdg2 aku ni oever acting n gila2..kluaq jalan2 tgh2 mlm pukui 3 pagi g McD? gila x? kdg2 saja2 jalan g karoke..he3.joging pun penah..my life start after 12am.

LotsOfLove

1. namer dia aCe+. Ni yang aku tw.
2. kenal dier kalau tak silap time menjelajah kat blog Dyla..
3. Gud blogger of course and biler aku menyemak kat blog dier, dier trus berkunjung kat blog aku and friend d alam maya ar.. haha..
4. Mempunyai sifat berterus terang..
5. Gud friend i guess.. kwn ngn sesaper jer xkira bangsa or wht so eva..
6. Entry2 dier menarik dan aku suka penggunaan ayat2 nyer..
7. Sentimental..
8. Rambut cacak2.. tajam siot..
9. Single coz bru jer break off with her gf.. katanyer dia nk stay single krg.. so, not available ar.. haha.. No form available k..
10. Kejam.. coz dier koyak2 and buang gmbr dier and gf kat laut.. haahahahahaaa. kenyang jerung.. mmmm..

My Respond
-heh3. aCe+ tuh nick jew.he3..kira dyla la wat kita bertemu ek..thanx dyla..lotsOfLove ni pengunjung setia blog aku..slalu ada.rasa di appreciate plak.ha3.trus trang? maybe thats just who i am..xmen r ckp blkang2 nk ckp straight to the face r.he3gud frens? la la kowt..aku ni mmg xkesah kesah bangsa @ agama time berkawan..pa salahnya kan berkawan ngn bangsa len..ble gak kita blajaq pasai bangsa diorang..sentimental? no comment..rambut cacak2 ni stat dr form 2 lg..dulu rambut aku sikat tepi kowt..ha3.yup mmg single pun n yes not avaible at the moment..nk relax jap n enjoy jdk single..maybe nnt r kalu hati dah terbukak nk menyintai org len n rasa dicintai (ya agak sentimental la aku ni..pandai tol LotsOfLove ni judge aku.respek!)..bab koyak gamabq buang dlm laut tuh aku pun xtaw napa aku wat cmtu..dah tergerak ati nk wat cmtu time atas feri aku wat ja la..he3

p/s-thanx suma yg comment ttg diri aku..tahnx a lot

December 13, 2008

Tagged Addicts..(AELYNNE)

1. Sesiapa yang kena tag, 10 sesuatu berkenaan orang yang men'tag' dia.

+Name dia Intan Syazleen Binti Abbas ( *agak comey bukan?*-ni statement dr dia so korang judge r sendri comey k x nama dia..bg aku comey r gak..he3 )

+nama pendek dia Intan+

+nickname Aelynne+

+ Dia tgh Study kat UPM Serdang+

+ Course Computer and Communication System Engineering+

+Perak mali+

+ Masih single...but NOT available.(statement ni pun dia gak yang wat sendri)+

+Umur 21 taun.+

+blog page dia cantik gila..series..+

+aku bru kenai dia seminggu lebey jew..he3..+

2. Orang yang kena tag kena tulis tentang dirinya.

+nama aku Adam Ar-Rashid Bin Mohamad Rasdi+

+Umur 18 jew..next year bru 19+

+Tgh study kat UiTM Kedah+

+Tgh wat Diploma In Public Administration+

+Asal Penang+

+Recently Break up..So single r skrg+

+Buat Masa sekarang aku nk stay single jew xmau couple2..+

+Join blog since August 2008 kowt kalau xclap+

+skrg tgh keja kat Swenz Kopitiam wat part sime smabil mengisi masa lapang yang kosng time sem break ni..so jgn tanya mana aku pegi time pukui 9am-6am..tgh bancuh ayaq time tuh ok..+

+tu ja la kowt.+

3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their name

+nak tagged hanna-J (ni org yg wajib di tagged), Izni (ni pun sma..wajib di tagged), LotsOfLove, Fairuz Zi, NadhSamuel, Shank, Orked, Mrs Bubu and Adila si Idung Besaq

December 12, 2008

Journey To The Center Of Mind

KADANG2
kita terlalu asyik enjoy dengan hidup yang baru ditempuhi sampai terlupa apa yang kita harungi untuk sampai ke aras yang membawa kita ke puncak..onak duri,suka duka, pahit manis yang dialami sebelum ini bagaikan terhapus sekelip mata tanpa diduga kerana kita sudah bebas dari kekangan masalah yang merumitkan keadaan..jangan sampai nanti suatu hari, kita jatuh tergolek dan tidak mampu bangun semula kerana kita sudah lupa bagaimana hendak mengharunginya..bak kata Zul kepada Puteri (Puteri Impian 1)-"Jangan Terbang Terlalu Tinggi, Kalau Jatuh Kita Akan Parah"..

KADANG2
Kita terlupa asal usul kita kerana terlalu ghairah mempelajari ilmu dan adat orang lain..bahasa orang lain..jati diri kita dikikis sedikit demi sedikit dan dipenuhi dengan gaya yang baru yang kita rasa lebih selesa dan senang untuk dipraktikkan.asal usul, adat istiadat yang dijunjung kemas oleh nenek moyang kita dilupakan begitu sahaja hanya kerana mentaliti kita sudah dikongkong dengan tangan halimunan yang membuat kita alpa.susah,payah, membebankan kaat orang muda masa kini jka ditanya tentang adat2 yang perlu disanjung.. bak kata Che Det- "Melayu Mudah Lupa"..

KADANG2
kita menyayangi orang luar lebih dari yang sepatutnya, lebih dari kita sayang darah daging kita sendiri..teman istimewa dihati di tatang bagai minyak yang penuh, ibubapa yg bersusah payah membesarkan kita dari sekecil tapak tangan sehingga besar panjang jarang ditegur, malah berjumpa pun payah..SMS dikirim pada "Si Dia" seribu sehari, kepada orang tua, seminggu sekali tampak mustahil..hormat entah berlepas kemana, budi bahasa terbang melayang.inikah kita..jangan lupa kata pepatah-"Syurga Anak Di Bawah Tapak Kaki Ibu"..


p/s-hanya memperingati agarr kita tidak hanyut lebih jauh..khas buat semua yang sudi membaca.tiada kena mengena dengan yang hidup @ yang sudah meninggal dunia..

December 11, 2008

What If Part 2

Band-SIMPLE PLAN
Title-WHAT IF
Album-SIMPLE PLAN

What if I lead the way
What if I make mistakes(Will you be there?)
What if I change the world
What if I take the blame(Will you be there?)

I remember going back
To the place we used to lay
But I keep losing track
And now the days they all turn black
And our dreams all start to fade
But there's no turning back
Cause the world keeps turning(Why do you tell me you care if you're not going to change?)

And my heart keeps burning(Why do you tell me you care?)

What if I change the world
If I lead the way
What if I be the one
That takes the blame
What if I can't go on without you
What if I graduate
What if I don't
What if I don't

Now I'm slowly giving up
As the world keeps losing faith
And you still turn your back
Now the path I follow
Takes a toll on me
On you
But there's no turning back
Cause the world keeps turning(Why do you tell me you care if you're not going to change?)

And my heart keeps burning

p/s-i really like this song,evnthough its not a single..its quite similar with my life,my past, n whats gonna lead my way in life..this song is the reason why i posted the entry What If

December 10, 2008

The Brightest Stars Falls First..

once, when i heard bout it, i dun believe it (well to be honest the first time i heard it is in one of gossip girl season 1 episode)..is it true? i asked before..why should the brightest star falls first? shouldn't it stay lighten up in the sky? well, what can i say here is the only reason brightest star gonna fall isnt because of itself..jealousy n envy burn it out..so to all the stars in the sky, do shine..just make sure that u dun burn urself up..or other stars or the falling star burns u down

December 8, 2008

What If...

WHAT IF... i didnt pass PTS n didnt jump class from standard 3 to Standard 5?
+I Will be celebrating rite now n still looking for a job to feel in my time+
+im sure not gonna be Swenz Kopitiam Longest Worker in the history+

WHAT IF...I never change skool from Penang Free School to SMK Tun Hussien Onn?
+i'll be a diferent type of person..more bastard than ever i guess+
+i wont be able to know Dayat,Syazwan,E-in,Rizal,Imran,Irene,Mei Chin..+
+I wont have as many girl friends as i have today+
+i'll be gay+

WHAT IF...I didnt get 3A's in my SPM?..better or worst
+For sure i will not be a UiTM students+
+i wont be having a lot of frens from all differents state+
+i wont be a smoker,maybe?+

WHAT IF...i stop smoking?
+healthier lifestyle+
+ill become a nerd+
+azam, meor n me wont be a click ..+

WHAT IF...i didnt hold too much anger inside of me?
+i wont be a plastic n fake all the times+

WHAT IF...i share some of the pain and secrets long long time a ago?
+time will heal it all+
+i'll become more jovial then ill ever be+

WHAT IF...i didnt runaway from Laila the nite she offer me?
+i'll be deflowered+
+i'll become sex addicts+
+asshole of course+

WHAT IF...nabilah n me didnt fall for is other?
+i wont be single rite now+
+i' wont gain 6kg in 4 month+
+i will never finish House Of Dead 4+

WHAT IF... i didnt fall for Lyn?
+i dunno+


WHAT IF...I didnt start blogging
+i wont be in front of my laptop rite now+


there so much things n so many decisions we had made in life n the impact, we are facing it rite now..some are good, some are rash, but i never regret any one of mine..because all th decisions n mistakes i made in my life, make me who i am..the person u r seen known as Adam wont be as what he is today if not because of the past he had before..so, yes i didnt regret any of it..ya, some of it a really stupid move but i still proud of it because theres always pros n cons in each angle of anything..

December 7, 2008

spesel request prom hanna-j..

akak aku yg sorang ni suro aku wat entry pasai burfday prezen yg seswa utk guys..hm..ntah r.setaw aku kebanyakkan (bkn suma ok..) guys bkn nk sgt burfday prezen time dbay..seriesly..just jgn prank cukup r..guys slalu nerves gila2 babi time bday sebab takut teluq,tepung, ayaq longkang, cat, nescafde hinggap ke kepala..so kalu xdak suma tuh pn guys dah suka dah..haha2..well, seriesly r, guys jarang r celebrate bday..sesam kwn2 sendri pun walaupun igt bkn wish pun..so, conclusion dia wish pun dah ckup bg guys time bday..kira rasa d-appreciate r..he3.but sumtimes ada gak guys yg gedik2 nk adiah time bday..ha2..kira tahap mengharap gila babeng r..kalu xdak org wish siap r dia musti masam muka (sapa yg trasa ambik suma..aku taw ang pn baca blog aku.ha3)..plus, type yg cmni r yg slalu kena prank..mengharap sgt org igt bday, nah ciap..dia yg xble nk lupa bday dia nnt.ha3..hm, ok2..2 hanna-j this is a list of prezen dat suitable to give to a guys on their bday..

+jam tgn (guys ngn jam xble dipisahkan )+
+satu katon rokok utk yg smoker r..(sapa yg dpt prezen ni mmg heaven r idup dia time bday.)+
+t-shirt (yg spesel bukan simple graphic tshirt jew)+
+perfume. (guys jarang yg ada perfume..klau nk lg kick beli dunhill pny..peh..tp xmau petaling street pny r)+
+sumtimes yg hakmilik kita n bg kat dia..(ni utk sumone yg spesel r..kalu guys dapat brg hakmilik gurl esspecially musti kami suka pny r)+
+sumthing yg girlie (utk guys yg romantic)+
+songkok @ baju melayu (khas untuk yg nk dikutuk time bday..kira hadiah xikhlas r..)+
+dvd games or anime (bg yg ori pny)+
+kasut pun ok gak r (tp ni nomel sgt r)+
+poem tulisan tangan ygg dicipta sendri (ni pun sumthing yg spesel gak)+
+benda yg dia suka tp di xdak lg+
+lastly, kiss on the cheek.he3 (ni pun utk sumone yg spesel di hati ja la)+

well, akakku..ni ja la kot list brg yg ble dibuat adiah utk guys..mcm yg ckp td r, plg koman pun wish cukup r..guys bkn kira pa pun..org igt pun kami dah suka dah..xkesah st.its not a big deal..kalu rasa mcm lekeh sgt bg wish je, beli r kek coklat..ok gak..btw, bday adik 17 apr..jgn lupa..ha3

December 6, 2008

What The Hell Was That??

seriesly, what the hell? whes relly into me..i noe it becuz i can feel it..its all bout insticnt..n my lil' heart said that shes into me..n shes kinda sweet, caring, SINGLE (this one is for sure), cute sepet eyes n well dress, open minded n many more great qualities.. why on earth did i ditched her away..practically Crystal helped out on to inroduce me to her..we hang out n we click on many differents level..shes oepn with my smoking probs.. but the most important things SHES INTO ME.. n shes ask me out..to go on the date..watch a movie,just two of us..single guy n gurl going out on the weekend..perfect timing to get hit..why? why? why? why im blur,stupid enuff,mangkuk enuff, bangang enuff to said that.. when she asked me out, why i said "sorry im taken".. im totally fucking single..i can date anyone..why did i said that?

FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK..

u miss that shot adam..u really miss the shot..shes really wants u..its shows..she looked very suprise n dissapointed when u said that..im so screw this time..opportuniy like like wont swing by easy..Crystal clearly wont help me again on mactthing me with anyone again..silly move.

December 5, 2008

Aku Koyak Dan Buang Gambaq Kami Berdua Dalam Laut 3 hari Lepas kami Break

aku pun xtaw sebab pa aku wat.rasa mcm bodoh r plak.tapi aku dah wat nk wat cmna..mmg agak kebodohan or KEBABIAN bak kata adikku aimi..nk kata aku frust menonggeng lepaih kami break up tuh xdak r plak..ciap ble kata "YES..IM FREE AT LAST LAGI"..pastu ble plak pi celebrate karoke lg..peh..nyanyi plak lagu Andai Dapat Ku Undurkan Masa- AXL (betui ke tajuk dia ni??!!)..lagu bajet jiwang..ha2..aku nyanyi ciap tergelak2 lagi mua.. pastu ngn makan kat McD tgh2 malam..sepbek Akram ada teman aku..ha3..so? aku frust ke? xdak r..maybe time atas feri tuh time aku tgh shiok2 layan prasaan ambik feel angin laut tringat plak gambaq aku ngn nabila ada dalam wallet aku..pa lagi.aku ambik bawak klauq usha dulu buat kali terakhir pastu koyak tang muka dia muka aku aku jaga leklok r..pastu buang dlm laut..hahaha..Klise' kan? ntah ar..aku pun xtaw..tapi yg pasti im already get over her..the moment after i finish my break up meal at McD..ha3..maybe sebab tim etuh feeling kowt..hahaha..biaq r..benda dah wat..ha3





p/s-ni gambaq tuh..he3

December 4, 2008

Secebis Pandangan

kadang2 kesukaran mengajar kita untuk melihat dengan terang dalam kegelapan,
kadang2 keperitan mengentalkan jiwa untuk terus berjuang,
kadang2 kesukaran mengukuhkan apa yg rapuh untuk teguh melangkah
kadang2 kealpaan membawa padah yg durjana..

+++++

Ya, kita semua manusia biasa..alasan yang amat tipikal untuk digunakan pasa saat kesilapan dilakukan..tapi jika ber ulang2 kali, lemau benar rasanya untuk ditelan dengan hati yang membara..

++++

Sekilas pandang, kita terlepas menangkap hati2 yang terluka dengan sifat kita yang selama ini disangkakan ideal dan disukai ramai..kita patut lebih tahu bintang yang sirna lebih terang itulah bintang yang paling mudah untuk tersungkur dan membelah awan lalu mencium muka bumi..namun, kita tetap dengan ego kita untuk keraskan kepala, pekakkan telinga dan butakan mata..sampai bila?

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keadaan memaksa, tapi pilihan ditangan kita..keputusan yang berburu bakal diakhiri dengan penyesalan yang tiada berbelah bagi..pilihan dibuat harus dengan minda yang stabil..namun kita terlalu mentah untuk memerangi semua ni..apakan daya..

++++

pasangan kekasih molek bersama,
hati bertemu mata bersua
curang hatinya tiada di duga,
penyesalan ini pengajaran buat semua

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pernah terfikir untuk melarikan diri, tapi ke mana hendak dituju? mampukah kita hidup di atas bumi yang nyata tanpa sebarang perlindungan dari org yg tercinta? mampukah kita tidur lena dibuai mimpi enak dikala kesejukan menusuk tulang semasa menumpang alas di kaki lima? senangkah jika kita mahu hidup atas daya usaha sendiri? mampukah? jangan buat keputusan yang bodoh..fikir positif dan negatif keputusan yang bakal diluahkan..penyesalan tiada penghujung menanti atau hidup bahagia dibuai mimpi.

tagged lg..dr Shank..

Senaraikan 8 perkara rawak tentang anda kemudian tag 8 orang.

1) well, satu benda yg plek tentang diri aku yg korang suma patot taw ialah aku amat tidak teramat suka aka benci aka meluat aka FUCK aka suma curse2 words yg ada dengan sayuq..veggies..yup..aku ni karnivor..aku makan daging ja.aku langsung xmakan sayuq.sama ngan dua sis aku yg len..dalam family aku mak hanya mummy ngan abah aku ja yang makan sayuq..kami 3 x..aku xtaw pasai pa..dalam pala otak aku kalau makna sayauq tuh macam makan rumput, makan rumput macam menatang r plak..dulu time kecik2 mak aku slalu paksa suro makan sayuq but time aku form 1 aku masuk Penang Free Skool and duduk hostel so mak aku xble control aku makan sayuq ke x dah..hahaha

2) FUCK kasut..aku xsuka pakai kasut..bukan la xsuka macam xsuka makan sayuq tuh, kalau terpaksa aku pakai r.kalu sayuq tuh terpaksa pun xmakan..kalau tanya aku ada brapa pasang kasut jawapan aku sepasang ja.kasut kulit..kasut yg aku terpaksa beli sebab UiTM ada rules tiap ari Senin ari koperat or KEPARAT yg memaksa suma student untu berpakaian formal pada hari tersebut..tapi len2 hari jangan harap r aku nk pakai kasut..aku pakai slipar ja xpun sandal aku..

3) benda ni ble suma benda yg kita xsuka x? kira ble ja ya la... aku xsuka baju kolar..FUCK GAK..tapi benda tuh jadik probs sebab clash ngn rules UiTM skali lagi..UiTM requires all thh student to wear a collar t-shirts..skali lagi FUCK..betui,series aku memang xberkenan langsung ngnn baju berkolar..sblom aku nk register masuk UiTM sem lepaih dekat rm1000 aku abih spent beli baju berkolar sebab aku selai pun xdak, nk masuk U cmna..huh..bazir ja..suma warga2 UiTM Kedah tolong vote akuu nanti..aku nk bertanding jdk MPP..n aku akan cadangkan kat mak leha supaya lupuskan peraturan baju berkolar ngn kasut tuh..ok?

4)lagi benda yg korang perlu gtaw pasai aku ialah akuu ni keras pala gila2 babi.huh..leteynya tulih..xpayah eleberate la ek..paham2 r sendri..

5)aku xsuka org kata aku salah kalau aku betui..aku akan fight sampai mati..seriesly..baca entry SESIAPA YANG BERKENAAN utk closure yg lebih dekat..

6)aku ada dua personaliti yg berbeda.satu yang ala bastard, asshole,a dick suma yg jahat2 ala2 notty2 xkesah masa depan, ala azam bin zakaria r senang kita.n seken personaliti aku ialah ala caring, lovely, romantic, sweet, willing to die for sumone...kdg2 dua2 personaliti tuh kluaq skali kat sumon eyg spesel jew..so, kalu kdg2 korang tgk aku mcm setan n jap pastu jdk bek plak, paham2 r.sebab tuh kawan2 aku suma ada terbahagi duakelompok..yg baik n yg sampah..n sebab tuh aku ble click ngn apa macam jenis org pun..suma aku ble wat kawan

7) kalaulah terjadi satu hari nanti suma org dalam dunia ni mati n im the soul survivor, aku rasa aku ble hidup..sebab kadang2 aku suka been lonely, tanpa gangguan sesiapa, tanpa gelak ketawa kawan2, tanpa crita2 yg melucukan n kadang2 aku perlu untuk memberi masa untuk diri aku sendri.aku suka kesunyian..n sumtimes i juts need a break.sebab tuh kadang2 kalu kat hostel asram aku dulu or even kat campus aku pun sumtimes kalu dah lama sgt aku dok kat san aku akan balik umah..bkn untuk jumpa familu.aku hany dok dlm bilik sorang diri,meyendirikan diri.

8)aku suka ckp sorang2..well,sebab tuh aku ckap aku ble idup sorang tanpa orang..sebab aku sendri akan menjadi peneman diri sendri..aku juga yg kadang mengajaq diri sendri utk membuat jahat..aku juga yg membawa diri aku sendri kejalan kebenaran n keinsafan..bukan org len..aku hanya akan dengaq cakap aku saja..aku xkan dengaq turut perintah sapa2..ada org penah question, "abih ang wat gak apa2 yg mak ang suro wat walaupun ang xsuka?".. ya, mmg aku xsuka..tapi mak aku suro aku xbaek melawan n aku memujuk diri aku supaya menerima arahan mak aku..so technically aku snedri yg mau buat benda tuh..so, aku dengaq ckp diri aku sendri..bukan mak aku...

p/s-nk tagged hanna-J jew..len suma dah kena tagged dah..

December 2, 2008

Not Again....

Dear God, please help me...let me get through this.i cant stand it anymore..i try my best to keep my heart secure, to block it from been hurt by anyone, please just let this time its just another addiction of love..not the real love..no..no..no.. i cant fall in love..not again..not in this time period..no, this is not happening..please...let me out from this love curse dat just make me fall for anyone that close to me..please..too much heart been broke...too time bee sacrifice...i need a break..really really need a break.plus, it just been two week since i broke someone heart..not mention mine been broke too..now it is not a perfect timing for "Fall For You-Secondhand Serenade"..i dunno whats the things that make her tick..make my tick even faster..she just sharing a lil' secret..dats all..nothing more.maybe shes think that i can be trust..well, its obvious no one around there that can be trusted so she choose me..nothing more..Adam Ar-Rashid, u need to get over this..right now..let it go now..fly free n rip out the sky in blue.. be single..dun attach to any relation bond that only gonna make u fragile,again..n this relation its for sure gonna go down hard..no more long distance love, its not gonna work..keep u head in the game..be a bastard..for this case give urself an exception..sorry, i guess i cant fall in love with u..actually i shouldnt..no its got nothing to do with our different religion (for god sake i come from mixture marriage family, i should know better).. i do like u..but i cant risk our newly-re-attach frenship at stake..i really like u..as a friend.thats what u will u always be in my heart..i will try, god know that i will try to keep it that way...

December 1, 2008

Sharing Is Helping

Some, with fully egotic attitude will never let their heart open for sharing anything that they feel inside of them..they'll just let it through n fight it all by themself..loneliness,pain n misery is their besties all the time, caring,loving n shring is the common enemy day by day..hard to get,a Dick, an Ass, stupid lil' bastard..ya thats this the titles description that can be conclude to these type of people.never care, full of fake smiling n brutally judge by its leads that only gonna eat them alive piece by piece...

no doubt, i was one of them..ya, 100% sure..pure hardness covering my heart form being expose freely to mortal connection with any kinds.yes, it kill me by facing the non-angelic curse all by myself..waiting to break, hoping to survive..willing to sacrifices ones body, counting on any helping hand that want to help..but it a fucking experience..the pain,the pressure cannot be held my ones heart..it will break loose..its will get into the mind n spreads the disease of unpleasantness...that was what i am before..

now, as i started to care n share, the pain n misery heals little by little..slowly, the disease cured inch by inch...yes, sharing the pain will get in removed,slowly..still, i have to face the demon on my own but not all of it..some, i can let it go by giving the chance for somebody to feel it once, the try to seize it once, to be in my shoe..it helps..truely..n now i can wake up tommorow, facing the challenge,strut it down to the bottom of life,strong as never..all it takes, it just some pity willingness..willingness that already there,waiting for me to take it n used in as pain-healer..god i wish i done it long time ago so that i wont be as damn bitch as i am.all it cost, is my ego shield to be turn off for the right person.the person that we trust to share the tiny amount of weight that we carried on our shoulder for god know when..it help, even a little..

but remember, it has its cost..sharing to the wrong person might make it all become more complex than ever..might turn out worsen..suffering will be having an extra crunchy reinforcement.our dark world will become darken as more just because of the simple mistakes of choosing the right person.so are we ready to make that call? to choose to share? to choose to another problematic add-on that we shouldnt make? but if it is a right one, its worthless..if is a wrong one, there a price to pay..hell of a price..still, its a damn good risk that we should take because before its get heavier its enlighten it out first before our life turn deeper..as for me, i know i make a clear as a blue sky judgement call.i know i make a right choice..i truly know

November 29, 2008

A Single Pic Have A Million Story


ntah la.since dp tagged sexy tuh dr izni aku rasa mcm nk wat entry ni.xtaw napa..its had sumthing to do wif pictures of cos..here a some of the pic that i think priceless n enternity..there r its own reasons......
musti pelik kan? musti mcm2 dlm kepala ttg pic ni..well actually pic ni bout kucing yg takut nk lompat dr tong sampah..ha3.aku pn xtaw napa aku snap pic ni..maybe aku rasa unique kot time aku tgk tuh..he3..btw, location kat Kolej malinja, UiTM Kedah.huhuhu

kalu tgk pic ni musti mcm2 kat pala otak hampa kan? pa kejadahnya benda ni..napa pic ni di-snap..angel mana..well, benda ni aku pggl dia nerdy..aku gantung dia kat cellphone lama aku motorola V3x..time aku snap pic ni aku buh nerdy atas meja n snap depan2 dia.Y? sebab aku boring time tuh.hahaha



ni Sam.keja skali ngn aku dulu time swenz kopitiam..walaupun dia dr vietnam but still kami close time keja kat citu.. aku plg terharu dia penah ckp bila boss aku tny dia sapa yg dia plg sayang n care kat swenz tu..dia ckp aku..sbb aku baek ngn dia.i noe.its sound a lil gay, but i noe he mean differently.


minah sebelah aku ni nama dia ah siu..time ni aku keja kat swenz kopitiam cuti sem lepaih..mcm kapel kan? yup..sum org yg keja kat citu pun kata kami husband n wife..based on the picture what we can see is two person who seem so happen n maybe in love..but the reality is, shes from Myanmar n she cant speak malay or english(well she tried to learn english on her own n shes getting better).. i have no formal communicate with her.just using body language but we still manage to be close n kena gosip..well, like i said.one single pic have its own story..


well ni pic aku ngn rizal dekat porch umah aku.. ntah r tp aku rasa pic ni spesel di hati.. maybe sebab aku dah kwn ngn rizal dah lama..mmg lama..n kami bertiga plus imran skali yg paham jokes masing2 n org len xkan paham lgsg..well tambah ni secong pic aku snap ngn rizal sepanjang our frenship..weird huh? well maybe sbb aku ngn rizal bkn jenis yg suka ambik gambaq kot.sebab tu r kurang ja gamabq kami..time ni kalu bru kluaq gi ronda..eh clap..kami g CC..lawan Command N Conquer.he3


well to be honest, aku xrapat sgt ngn ke3-3 org dlm pic ni..yg kedua plg kanan skali tu nama dia ashraf(skrg dia study sekampus ngn aku under Business Studies part 4 sem dpn.).sebelah ashraf Sharil..dia ni bek gila n agak loaded tp xsombong.ble r wat kwn..yg ujung skali tuh aku pn xtaw cmna dia ble terlepas msuk dlm pic ni..nama dia Fahmi xclap aku..bdk "capub"..pic ni aku entitled Cover Album sebab nmpk mcm cover album r gak..u see, walaupun kami xclick tp dlm gmbaq nmpk mcm we r the ebst besties in the world..rite? life full of suprises dude, n full of fakeness..



gambar ni mmmg aku syg sgt2..time ni aku ngn wan aka MaxeeMuse aka Syazwan Hasan keja kat swenz kopitiam..kami kawan sejak form 4 lg smpai skrg..time keja ni kami bru abih spm..actually wan nk ambik pic ni just a simple snap tp dia tertekan sequence mode..so kami dua org posing maut r..last plek sbb napa bunyi byk kali..las2 taw yg terclap mode.sequence mode.tu yg tergelak tuh.ha3..well to be honest, i miss spending time wif wan.dia ni cool gila babi..syg, dia dah study kat MMU.degree dah pun.its been 1 n half year now.susah dah nk hang out ngn dia skrg.tp still contact..bkn xcontact lgsg.dia pun ada band dah skrg.Lazy Morning.esok diorang akn perforn kat satu charity concert skali ngn BunkFace ngn Seven Collar T-Shirt..go luck bro.i luv ya..

November 28, 2008

Izni Tagged I..

1) Sertakan tiga keping gambar anda yang anda rasa paling seksi.
2) Tak semestinya tak berpakaian atau mendedahkan, mungkin anda rasa senyuman anda pada masa itu adalah seksi, sertakan!
3) Nyatakan kenapa gambar itu seksi di mata anda.
4) Tag 5 orang yang seksi.
5) Selamat berseksi!






sexy sbb aku xsuka pakai kot ngn pakaian formal tp aku rasa amat smart n sexy time ambik pic ni..



sexy sebab time ni aku xmandi pun lg tp rambut still smart.hahaha.

p/s-aku xlanggaq rules no.2 sebab dia ckp xsemestinya xberpakaian..





jgn tny napa aku kata gampaq ni sexy..





ok dah sexy/seksa dah suma..aku nk tagged sapa ek?
+akakku hanna-J+
+Mr.Devil+
+anbreen+
+adikku-aimi+
+orked+

hehehe..ciap r korang..hahaha


re-post..

MY SWEET LIL’ BLOOD ANGEL

I never truly love you
For God sake I know it is true
Maybe I’m really blind or stupid, but it’s the right things to do
Who cares, I just wanna be with you
My interests in you, its never cruel
Before I go to dreamland, I will always say “I love you”

Is my feeling to you love, I always wonder?
If its worth I’ll willing to trade my soul to the soul trader
I love you so much, whenever I high or sober
Simple curiosity cross my mind whether we’re soulmate
If its true, wow! It will be great
What if it’s not, my God hope it’ll not come true what I just said

Recently speaking I don’t really know what I feel right now
So many things in my mind, sorry I’m not willing to take a bow
I love you so much before, but I’m not really sure right now
We never fight at all, no such things as sorrow
We never share things, no offer for a borrow
I’m not sure our relation is love, today maybe what about tomorrow?

I really love you my sweet lil’ blood angel
It’s not I’ve someone else, but my heart right now really fragile
I’m so sorry babe, my cute shorty, my sweet dream goodnight, my girl
So many things up in my head, my mind been twisted and twirled
Maybe it’s good for us to keep the distance not just for now but for real

I’m sorry babe, maybe we are not meant to be
Maybe someone out here for you, or maybe I’m just being silly
I want us to be like before, when I say “I love you” daily
I just don’t want to know why but that really rare lately
Maybe, maybe, maybe we should break up, really
I know this will break your heart, it hurt me too, I’m really really sorry

My sweet lil’ blood angel, I release you
Fly and go to the place you really want to
I’m insist I really do
Fly high and rip the sky in blue
Don’t worry about me, fate and faith will find me my real boo
Its just that, that boo its not you….


yup.this the poem i wrote a few month back when im about to break up with her..but i change up my mind(then, i wrote the poem The Simple Kiss)..oh, god i wish i did break up wif her few month back..so dat it wont be this arkward..

November 27, 2008

We Saw Only The Things We Want To..

reality sucks.. i noe..but it is what it is.. we are the one who must learn to accept the truth..
it alway been sucking experience when we face it,but like it or not the more we keep running from it the more it will keep coming..

we saw only the things we want to..
all the good things, relaxing, problematic free situation or should we say
"heaven of mind"
we create this kind of fantasy dat we want to because we don wanna face the truth..
well, till when we gonna stay this way?

now..
Have a Gut To Face Ur Demon!
it is time to do so
its now or never..
take control of ur life now..
its about time..

November 26, 2008

I AM SINGLE

well on the exact moment of 11.48pm on Nov 25 2008, i adam ar-rashid totally freed myself from nurNabila aka My Sweet Lil' Blood Angel aka ~My ShiteRu~.. ya.. its true.. we break up.. so

I AM SINGLE..

finally.. im free from any love relationship,emotional bond wif anyone..
to be honest,i feel relief..i dunno why..maybe its bcause i wanna be single or myabe its bcause, i dunno why but i feel great.. well i have to admit we have a long run on each other..well babe, its good to be ur boyfren but we noe better.. we suited only to be frens not as a couple..thanx babe, for all the fun that we share, the moment that we live will never be vainshed from my mind..seriesly, i have to give a thumb up to her.. its the longest relation that i ever been into..ist been 6 month n 7 days..wow..i dun believe myself either..but dun worry..we had a clean break up..so, whats up world? brace urself.. because aCe+ is coming for ya..

CHOW..

p/s-its 1.08 am in the morning and i feel like going for a karoke..so,whos with me?

November 25, 2008

Whats Killing Me Softly

jealous?

ya im a jealous type.. but im dun really like to show it of.bcuz from my opinion its kinda like weak..showing to everyone that u r jealous on something its kinda like showing that u r vunerable..showing the inner side of u..letting people taking advantages of that jealousy..ya its rite people will take advantages of that jealousy..thats why i dun like showing it..but to be honest i cant pretend all the time..its killing me softly.dun ever try to make me jealous bcuz i will put the jealousy away and its will turn to angry or rampage so dun try me..dun try to make me jealous bcuz u dun want to suffer teh consequence afterward..trust me

November 24, 2008

Have You Ever

Have u ever lied straight from ur face and pretend like nothing happen?
I Have...

have u ever caught red-handed but still denying it?
I Have...

Have u ever runaway from ur probs?
I Have..

Have u ever pretend like nothing happen but deep inside it matters to u?
I Have..

Have u ever do something dat will haunt u down till the end of time?
I Have..

Have u ever loose control?
I Have..

Have u Ever ever though of suicide?
I Have..

i had tried,done,thought many awful thing before.. but, i thing its for sure.. it is all in the past.. i wanna change.. i wanna be sumone better..better then ever..better then before..this is me..genuinely say,

I WANNA CHANGE..

November 23, 2008

aku di-tagged oleh Nabila Syazwani aka Shank

1. The last person to tag you was?
+b4 dis one?.. some babe from the net under the name of Punk-Gurl Not Dead+

2. Your relationship with him/her?
+Pen-pal..chatting ngn blog ngn YM ble kira pen-pal ke?..hentam ja la+

3. Your 5 impressions towards him/her?
+Fun+
+Cool+
+Indie+
+Kinda Cute in her Punk'ish way+
+ntah..bkn kenai rapat pun+

4. The most memorable thing that she/he has ever done for you?
+she fuck up me..her words eventhough its harsh but its impress me..daring siot minah ni+

5. The most memorable word that she/he has said to you?
+I Am Who I Am,I Love Who ever I Am..i used dis tagline too n its so memoraable bcuz she said dat its just popped out her mind at the moment+


6. If she/he becomes your lover, you will
+cut my hair n style it with mohawk for the rest of my life..im compatetive ok..he3+


7. If she/he becomes your enemy, you will
+Kick Her In her small ASS..ha3+

8. If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on
+My Cursing Way n styles.. its not hard enough,she said+


9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is
+Indie'er than me..ada ke pekataan indie'er??+


10. The most desirable things to do for him/her are
+Make her change..bg dia jdk minah bertudung or sumthings..confirm gempak..ha3+

11. Overall impression towards him/her is
+she s beuatifoll in her own way+

12. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
+pehal tetiba plak soklan camni ni??+.

13. Who is your ideal?
+suma org ble..aku ble msk ngn suma org..jgn tooooooooooo nerdy dah r..he3.sorry+

14. What do you hate about yourself?
+Nothing..i love myself+

15. For the people who care for you and like you, say something about them?
+ILOVE YOU ALL TILL THE END OF TIME...THANX+


16. 5 people to tag answer :
-ntah r..xmau tag sesapa ble

November 22, 2008

yes!!! aku dah dpt keja..
gtg.. nk bersiap g keja ni..hu3

Jugdement Call

"Don't Judge A Book Just By Its Cover"

yes!! dats wat i love to say.. yes dats my thrid principles of life.. yes dats what i will tell my duded if they say sumthing or 'fuck' someone because they dun like his/her appearance..yes, i damn look like a saint that trying to change the world n trying to change people perspective on sumone but still...

why i make the judgement call?
sumtimes without my notice of cos, i make a judgement call on someone..
why dis happen?
should i be the on ethat do not judge bcause im da asshole dat will always tell evryone not to judge..

well i guess im just a normal human..i make a judgement call every single minutes..not just bout my life but bout people around me..

yesterday, around 4 Am i went out from my house walking in the suburbian area in my house,smoking of cos.. yes, i noe what will be in ur mind, WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS GUY DOING OUT EARLY IN THE MORNING..

THERE!!!

a judgement call had been made.. again, dun judge a book just from its cover..
i just walking around on no actual prupose..just wanna sightseeing the area of my house had i had live in 4 almost 11 years..

back to the story, as i was walking around i came across one chinese dude..kinda well dress,not all compang camping type..he's picking up empty cans from the dustbin..yup..its true..early in the morning,picking up cans.. well, to be honest i made the judgement call at that time..

what the hell this is this dude doing picking up cans early in the morning?
is he broke or sumthing?
is his appearance just a fake?

well all the negative thought just came on coming till i reached home..but then, before a close my eyes to get some rest for the day an hour later, this thing pop out back..but its a different thought..by that time i realize, why should i judge him..well, even if its true that his broke so what..he didnt steal anything or harm anyone..he just wanna pick the cans n sell it for some penny..maybe dats not the real storyy, maybe he is well being but he just wanna make an extra income. or dats maybe he's hobby.. who noe which one is the truth? but, to make it all different its the judgement call that we make..lets put its dis way..if i kept having all the dirty -ve thought bout that dude,what if one day i bum to him sumwhere its..at that moment of cos i will remember all the -ve thought that i had b4..n 4 sure i'll be like this

"weh,hampa taw x mamat tadi tuh punk makan sampah"

or

"weh,mamat td tuh dia bkn kaya mana,miskin ja..dia kutip tin mlm2 buta"

or

"cian mamat tuh..juai tin untul support faimly"

or any other similar stories,but who noes the real story? the truth behind that guy..maybe he have his own reason..maybe he is broke n need those cans to support his life but only god noe..but if we make the judgement call on that guy thats gonna change the whole perspective on him,for sure..all the negative look will be on his back while he turn away just based on unknown reason or fantasy that been created..so, dun judge..unless all the truth r reveal or the real reason its there..

DONT MAKE THE JUDGEMENT CALL UNLESS WE ARE SURE ABOUT IT

November 21, 2008

The Tough Choice

lost a frens,gain anu frens..
lost a gurlfren, u gain a nu pain..
loneliness..
my friends thought me back..
im totally disagree..
lost a gurlfren u gain bax ur freedom..
free to the loved..
free from any attachment.
free to giv a flying kiss to any random hot gurl..
free to wink to anyone on the street..
free to hang out with ur frens anytime
free to choose anything u want in life without refering to anyone..

but, theres a price to pay..
loneliless will be ur besties..
jealousy towards ur frens who in love will bust out..
self esteem sumtimes runaway from u.
appearance seem useless to be show off.
ciggys n movie becomes ur pillow n bed..
live sex chat is ur nu frens in midnite..

u see.. thats da big different bout having a spouse n being on ur own..some people prefer being alone bcuz they have been alone since god knows when but some others, who have been in relation b4, these is whats their situation might end up with.. so choose wisely..
which one u wanna choose?

November 20, 2008

ANARCHY N ANARCHISM..

well according to wikipedia.com anarchy can be defined as


+"Absence of government; a state of lawlessness due to the absence or inefficiency of the supreme power; political disorder."+

+"A theoretical social state in which there is no governing person or body of persons, but each individual has absolute liberty (without the implication of disorder)."+

+"Absence or non-recognition of authority and order in any given sphere."

+Without government or law+

+A society free from coercive authority of any kind is the goal of proponents of the political philosophy of anarchism (anarchists)

anarchism in the other hand means

Anarchism is a political philosophy encompassing theories and attitudes which support the elimination of all compulsory government, i.e. the state. The term anarchism derives from the Greek αναρχω, anarcho, meaning "without archons" or "without rulers", from ἀν (an, "without") + ἄρχή (arche, "to rule") + ισμός (from stem -ιζειν). It is defined by The Concise Oxford Dictionary of Politics as "the view that society can and should be organized without a coercive state." Specific anarchists may have additional criteria for what constitutes anarchism, and they often disagree with each other on what these criteria are. According to The Oxford Companion to Philosophy, "there is no single defining position that all anarchists hold, beyond their rejection of compulsory government, and those considered anarchists at best share a certain family resemblance".
There are many types and traditions of anarchism, not all of which are mutually exclusive. Anarchism is usually considered to be a radical left-wing ideology, and as such much of anarchist economics and legal philosophy reflect anti-authoritarian interpretations of communism, collectivism, syndicalism or participatory economics; however, anarchism has always included an individualist strain, including those who support capitalism (e.g. market anarchists: anarcho-capitalism, agorism, etc.) and other market-orientated economic structures, e.g. mutualists. As described by the 21st century anarchist Cindy Milstein, anarchism is a "political tradition that has consistently grappled with the tension between the individual and society." Others, such as panarchists and anarchists without adjectives neither advocate nor object to any particular form of organization. Anarchist schools of thought differ fundamentally, supporting anything from extreme individualism to complete collectivism. Some anarchists fundamentally oppose all types of coercion, while others have supported the use of some coercive measures, including violent revolution, on the path to anarchy.



well if u ask one particular guy name Adam a.k.a aCe+ he would said dat anarchy is a self-lead philosophy..yes it is against any type of government or any supreme authority but it the mean time its build up urself internal self which need to be build..
it help us to learn how to survived if we r on anarchy rules.. it help us to be indie..it help us to grow n be the man should we should be..plus, why should we be anyone dogs? following orders n let "them" feed us..why dun we be our own boss n the dogs on our own..no master,no free feed that only gonna left us to be obey.. plus,

who need a government if it is corrupted?....
who need a government when all of the individuals in it plays above the law n constitution while everyone else whom they refer as rakyat have to be loyal to the law?..
who need government who stupid enough to make a decision for themselves but they want to make one for us?...
who need government n law or constitution is not all of us are adment to it?
who need a government that limitise our freedom but they refer themselves as a democratic government?

*RAISE UR MIDDLE FINGER AND SAY FUCK U!!!!*

we dun need government that only gonna destroy us in the end..it is better to stay on anarchy if we have any type of these government..

well, thats what Adam a.k.a aCe+ said..wehther u believe if, its up to u..

November 19, 2008

*Past Is Past*

kenapa sesetgh manusia amat sukar untuk menghadapi perubahan dalam hidup? kenyataan yg pahit untuk ditelan oleh sesetgh insan.. walaubagaimanapun liku2 itu tetap diharungi jua walaupun apa carapun kita guna untuk mengelaknya..tanpa kita sedar, suatu hari nanti kita bagai berada di dunia yg berbeda hanya kerana terlalu taksub untuk menjauhkan diri yg menerima perubahan yg sedang berlaku..

masa pantas berlalu.sedar xsedar usia kita kian menggapai langit..usia mendewasakan kita dr persepsi fizikal..namu mentaliti manusia hanya akn mengalami evolusi jika individu itu sendiri yg membenarkannya..

susah sangatkah untuk mengharungi perubahan?
ya susah jika hati kita masih tidak merelakan..
ya, jika kita masih meragui diri sendiri untuk mengadaptasikan diri di dalam situasi yg baru..
ya, jika kita tidak percaya pada diri sendiri..
ya, jika kita hanya bagai katak di bawah tempurung..
ya, jika kita masih mahu berada di takuk yg lama buat selama2nya..

masa untuk berubah? kita silap..masa tlah berubah tanpa kita sedari..kiat yg kadang2 terleka dibuai mimpi yg dicipta sendri telah tertinggal jauh..kita masih di mentaliti yg sama,tempat yg sama,sikap yg sama namun dunia telah lama berubah..apa yg mampu membedakan kita dengan org yg lain yg masih dibuai mimpi indah ciptaan sendri hanya LANGKAH yg kita akan ambil selepas ni..

*Past is Past* bak kata seorg sahabat aku semalam-Azlina Salmi' semasa dia menasihati aku untuk berani brubah dan tinggalkan kenangan masa lalu di belakangku.. masa depanku ada didepan mataku tapi aku masih ragu2 untuk menggapainya..mungkin aku terlalu terikat dengan perkara silam yg sentiasa menghantui fikiran ku..aku cuba untuk melupakan namun aku tidak cukup kuat untuk menghapuskan jejak2nya dr fikiranku.. memang..aku sentiasa nmpak kuat di luaran tp aku sendiri sedar aku amat lemah terutama dlm segi perasaan dan hati..aku xmampu melawannya tapi aku tidak pernah berhenti mencuba..aku sentiasa mencuba tapi apa kudratku.. hasutanya terlalu kuat untuk ku tempuh..namun perubahan telah mengambil langkahnya terhadapku..samada aku mahu seiring berjalan bersama dengan perubahan tersebut, hanya masa yg mampu menentukannya..

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