Not Again....

Dear God, please help me...let me get through this.i cant stand it anymore..i try my best to keep my heart secure, to block it from been hurt by anyone, please just let this time its just another addiction of love..not the real love..no..no..no.. i cant fall in love..not again..not in this time period..no, this is not happening..please...let me out from this love curse dat just make me fall for anyone that close to me..please..too much heart been broke...too time bee sacrifice...i need a break..really really need a break.plus, it just been two week since i broke someone heart..not mention mine been broke too..now it is not a perfect timing for "Fall For You-Secondhand Serenade"..i dunno whats the things that make her tick..make my tick even faster..she just sharing a lil' secret..dats all..nothing more.maybe shes think that i can be trust..well, its obvious no one around there that can be trusted so she choose me..nothing more..Adam Ar-Rashid, u need to get over this..right now..let it go now..fly free n rip out the sky in blue.. be single..dun attach to any relation bond that only gonna make u fragile,again..n this relation its for sure gonna go down hard..no more long distance love, its not gonna work..keep u head in the game..be a bastard..for this case give urself an exception..sorry, i guess i cant fall in love with u..actually i shouldnt..no its got nothing to do with our different religion (for god sake i come from mixture marriage family, i should know better).. i do like u..but i cant risk our newly-re-attach frenship at stake..i really like u..as a friend.thats what u will u always be in my heart..i will try, god know that i will try to keep it that way...