Not At All

If ur broke no matter where u go,

no matter what u do,

no matter with whom u spend ur precious time,

nothing will fell rite.kedah is not a really bad place,

not at all,

staying inside campus during weekends is not that bored,

being with ur buddies/love one is not lame,

not at all,

but without a penny in ur pocket nothing can cheer u up.

still,

im happy.

cuz i spent every penny left, on this lappy..

it hurts, but i try to make the best out of it..

it sucks, but i try to be happy.

its killing me softly, but i'll try to survive.

Back To Skool

Semalam Aku xble tidoq dowh..mmg fucking shit.aku naek atas katey around pukui 3cmtu but otak aku melayang jauh di sinun sampai pukui 5 pun still dok terbukak lg mata aku..fuck2..mcm2 aku pikiq smlm..mula2 benda yg membuatkan aku xble nk tidoq ialah sport day..yup, kami budak2 part 3 kat campus uitm kedah ni kena organize sport day course kami..aku telah dilantik sebagi Ketua AJK..mmg aku fuck r.kalau nk dibandingkan ketua ajk ngn project manager, mmg aku yg pny lg teruk.setaw aku ada 8 AJK yg berasingan dan suma kena report kat aku no matter what..so, secara xlangsung suma keja ajk yg len menjadik keja aku gak r..aduih..agak r kan..tp aku ni bkn jenis yg suka menghampakan org..dah diberi tanggungjawab laksanakan ja la..suka xsuka tolak tepi dulu, yg penting buat.same goes for my class rep position..mmg xsuka tp dah suma xmau, biaq la aku step up kan.

btw, entry ni actually aku nk sentuh pasai sumthing else..lepas xble tidoq pasai pikiq sport day, pikiran aku melayang jauh ke zaman skolah aku dulu.suma sbb aku tringat theme sport day kitorang BACK TO SCHOOL..besh kan zaman skolah dulu.peh!! smpai skrg bila org tny aku still jawap zaman kolah la zaman yg paling aku xble lupa..zaman skolah mengajaq aku erit persabatan, erti, kehidupan, erti kemanusian, well to be honest time skolah r aku blajaq wat benda2 jahat suma..but not smoking ok..aku start smoking pastu aku abih skolah..besh bila tringat time dulu2,tringa all the wrong doing what i'd done during my skool time.time skolah dulu kalau dapat tuck out baju kira dah gangster abih r..muka nk bannga ja..pastu bila cikgu disiplin lalu, dan2 tuck in blk.hahaha..mmg lawak.pastu aku still igt aku ponteng tuition dulu..ponteng g CC..hahaha. kuang ajaq aku dulu..4 bulan kot aku ponteng tuisyen..aku ng Wan n Saiful..tp time tgh2 tu Sepol kantoi ponteng ngn mak dia so pas kantoi tu dia g tuisyen r..aku ngn wan still xinsaf g..duit yg makpak bg kat kami asa tuition fee kami guna g cc.plg konpem clas Fizik ngn Addmath r..dah r addmath bodoh ponteng plak.sebab tu aku slalu ckp result SPM i got lucky..cmna la aku ble dpt 7D utk Fizik ngn 8E utk addmath..patot fail ja 2 2 tu.

hah, pastu ada plak story time bulan posa.aku dayat ngn sepol..kami g ronda Pacific-mall kat seberang jaya, penang..bapak r time tu dayat yg xposa..dayat ni head prefect kat skolah aku..budak pandai r.dpt 8A for PMR.10A utk SPM..budak pandai cam dia ble ajak kami ponteng posa, ada ka patot..aku pun setan dah cucuk aku join r dayat.pastu aku wat satu benda yg agak jahat r..kami plan nk kami dlm panggung wayang..so, aku g r bveli..aku wat2 mcm chines utk beli makanan so that sapa2 pun xsyak.kuang ajaq x aku..ish2..setan tol..

pastu kalau nk kenang blk time time dekat skolah sendri pun mmmg besh..kalau ada spot check dayat r tolong cover kami..clas kami xpenah kantoi apa2..besa r clas 5 Science 1..time to kira clas kami the only science clas for form 5 in tha skoll.so, famous abih r sapa clas science..org cop bdk pandai r.padahai suma sampah ja..back to cita spot check, kami tiap2 hari bwk illegal stuff-komik,makana dlm clas,CD games, CD BLUE..mcm2 g r..suma dayat cover..hahaha..

mmg besh bila igt blk time skolah dulu..peh.argh! i wish i cant go back then..the time when i got nothing on my shoulder to carry on, the time when i was happy to do what ever i want..now, as i grow up, everything change.i need to take care of myself so that im ready to take care of my family..no body ask me to, i just noe that is my job now.but, im still happy, other way around but still happy..not as happy as im a skool biy, not as cherish n joyful, but its kinda cool..cmon la time skolah dulu kalau bwk benda illegal g skolah, pastu nk sorok2 or ponteng class n cuba lari dr cikgu, bapak beshnya.skrg kat U, kalau ponteng class ada lecturer kesah..bwk illegal stuff pun relax jew..xkantoi pun..kantoi xdak r nk kena rotan or maki, pak guard just suro sign surat saman jew..haha..mmg agak bebas tapi krang thrill dah mcm dulu..kalau dulu pinteng skolah polis pun mai cekup tol x? skrg 2 mggu xmai clas pun sapa xpedulik, ckup time surat barred form exam mai, dah setel.repeat sem depan.huh..so, utk anda2 yg stil berskolah dengaqlah..enjoy la puas2 tiem sklah tu..pasni bila anda dah berada di tempat saya, di dlm golongan hm.. i prefer as young adult, benda tu suma anda akan rindu..percaya la..mmg betul anda akan rasa sedikit terkong2 time skolah dan anda inginkan kebebasan tp bila anda dah besaq n diberikan kebebasan itu, thrill nya dah ilang.bila anda buat apa yg anda idamkan semsa young adult, benda2 illegal la, tidak akan sesseronok time anda buat time skolah..percayala.xtipu..aku ckp based on experience..so, hargailah zaman skolah anda..kami yg dah besaq2 ni amatlah tringin di beri peluang utk kembali menyarungkan sluaq slack akler hijau tua n baju kemeja berwarna putin ditambah ngn belt kaler hijau n tie ikot skolah..rindu siot.ok.

peace in, rox out!!!!

chow!!

/s-kalau aku jumpa jin dlm botl aku nk mintak kat dia tukaq aku kembali time aku form 2..sebab hidup aku as remaja start bila aku form 2..rambut aku start cacak2 suma time form 2 r..smpai skrg..

Spread The Love,Kill The Pain

ntah!! lately ni byk siot, gila2 byk love2 pny entry dipost oleh suma bloggers yg aku kenai. Baby Jane xclap aku dah dekat seploh dah entry pasai lovey duvvy ni, Fatin Syafira pun tgh angau ngn Hisham, Farahdiba pun sama bru broke up n kluaq dating ngn first crush dia kat uitm, rekha walaupun xdak entry love2 tp nick dia ja dah wat org pikiq pasai love, nick dia LotsOfLove.so, aku nk tny napa suma org tgh feeling love2 ni? hah..ni yg wat aku trasa ni.dah r tgh single.ish!bila nk jumpa white sweater girl ni, please girl please be on my eyesight again.dont make me loose hope.yup, im still hoping.

p/s-being single has it own pro n cons.im not sure which one i want.

Long Distance Relation-The Sequel

Fatin Syafira once wrote bout long distance relation.all the misses, all the i want u rite beside me n all the lovey duvvy stuff.n to be honest, i totally agree with her.my last crash-n-burn relation will prove it..we have been a great couple when we started dating which is in my first sem break(bout few week), we hang a lot, we see each other often, we spent our time to gether2, we hold ur hand everyday, sometimes i even stalk her during midnite just to feel her presence.ya i do it in relation cuz i really love her..but after i started my second semester our relation pretty went north.im kinda busy with my life here, so was her.n maxis fucking stupid coverage play its big role in our fragile relation.FUCK MAXIS!! eventhough im just from penang, but im not the type of guy who alway go home every weeks but i did tried to go home more often juts to be with her.but that doesnt help..ya, ur love is still fresh when im already come bac k here in my campus, i she kinda girl that dont take relation seriously n so was i.so, its not really the distance playing its part, but us,still, the main reason our love got flushed straight down the toilet is because of the distance.so, i do think long distance realation will never work..so some couple it may seem impossible but for a new born relation, dun challenge it that way, its gonna kill it..eve for a strong rwlation ist gonna get hit by tornado.so, mark my word, if u wanna try long distance, make sure to keep the fire alive..or sacrifice something, mostly ur money.take one my my frens as an example.Jamal.his girl is in shah alam..u noe what he did? he ride on a bus every two weeks to shah alam just to be with his girl.yup.he did it.n asa its result, their relation still have a shot to survive.some of us, boys, think that he is crazy cuz wasting his money for all the trip but as for me , i think jamal is doing the right think..he dun wanna loose his baby girl so he gotta do what he gotta do.[well of cos some part of me still thought that jamal was stupid cuz he's the only one that trying to keep the sparks flame on].my piint is, both party have to play their part.both party need to try to make it out, lovely-ly.bak kata pepatah, bertepuk sebelah tangan xkan bebrunyi kan, tol x? for the guys, or maybe girls that trying to serach for TRUE LOVE n so on, which is still trying to search pleae dun search too far..serach in the short distance of urs.everything is not asa it seem.sometimes ur true love is juts right in front of ur eyes, it just sometimes slipped out of ur eyesight. that what i thought.

Peace In, Rox Out!
Chow!

Prostitution, Sex N Virginity

sound porn? well, its kinda sexy to talk bout eventhough some might think as disgusting, but i noe deep inside that particular group of people are eager to hear bout it.sex? ya its something thats is on "NOT-TO-DO" list but still it happen around us rite? if not, how come child abandon rate keep on rising day to day? im not here to be rightous n telling u guys bout things that u cant do or can do, u guys can think for urself rite? spare that.bout virginity, well some guys still think thatits cute to married a total virgin girl, guys like me.seriesly. OK! i admit..im still a virgin.i never scuba drive rite though the swimming pool, not even put my foot near around the beach.not even one..some might think im a nerd, but mostly think is respectful..rite guys? so ya, im kinda into this stuff.it'll be great if my future wife is still a virgin till ur honeymoon nite.but, sometime i think to myself, do i even deserve that type of girl..im a dick.. a dick dun deserve a nice cute lil girl with clean attitude n nice personality but still im hoping for it.people deserve another chance ok.prostitution? wow.its creep the hell out of me just to think bout it.i never try that, n i dun intense to..one of my bro offer me once last year when i turn 18.i refuse.to be honest, i scare.its not that i dun want to, cuz im just a normal guy.if that kind of opportunity slip by, of cos we'll just forget bout our integrity for one.but at that time, im fucking scare..thank god for that..so thats me..a virgin dick.wow..its actually sound cool.hahaha..

rock in, peae out!

Chow!

p/s-i wanna write more, but is sound inropriate.rite?

Bro's Before Ho's

well im not exactly agree with the quo cuz i think bor's n ho's should be treat equally, rite saf? i mean cmon we need both party rite.. we need ur love to be there by ur side everytime we felt down or life push us too much but sometimes ur we choose to speak with ur bro's cuz the things is kinda disgusting or impropriate to talk with a girl..so, equal..share n square.. but sometimes(all the time..saja nk cover xmau suma bg terasa) ur bro's(utk yg girls skali..) often put their ho's first n left ur bro's hanging by he moment..kinda sucks huh? i felt that all the time.thanks to all dudes/babes that will always treat us(their frens) this way.. ala kalau mcm xjdk kluaq ngn kita utk hang out sbb girl ajak dating xkesah r.kitorang pun ambik hati..even kalau spent more time with ur girl then us pun still no hard feeling sbb kami suma pun penah bercinta, we know how it feel, to love n be love..tp kalau sitausi(sambul layan lagu Sitausi-Bunkface ni) dimana kawan mintak tolong sbb matter of life n death(literally) pun still xble nk tolong just because nak tolong girl ko wat homework or sbb girl ko demam yg ala2 manja ngada2 saja attention,please r..jgn sbb girl u loose all of ur frens..kami pun xmintak lebih, cuma time yg diperlukan tu please r be there..xkan baru nk mai time mamt tu dah nk time kebumikan kot..ntah2 still xmai cuz banging ur girl.. rite? emo? hell fucking yeah im freaking pissed off asshole..bkn aku bru kenai ang setgh jam(statement dr rizal) dah lama dah we noe who u really r..bises, if its not cuz of us, u wont ven have a lips to kiss, a shoulder to gedik2 with, a warm girlie hand to hold, even a hole to nail..so please appreciate it, no APPRECIATE US!!! dun wait till we fucked up cant take it anymore n we choose to kick u out fro the team..we dun wanna do that, ur mmebership still havent reach its expiry date..n for god noe, u dun wann aloose ur either.. we r not some ditchable prom date ok.we r ur bro's.the only clan that willing to accept u..(mcm menyimpang masuk cita len dah ni)..ok2 dah r tu.

p/s- sorry r lately mmg byk ckit entry aku piss out pny story,,xplan pun tp benda dah nk jdk nk wat cmna..byk sgt benda yg menyakitkan hati jdk lately..shit! i hate this new semester..

fuck in, rock out!
CHOW!!!

Love-Money Or Feeling?

someone once ask me bout this, n seriesly by that time i dunno how to answer it..oh god, i still blur if this question is pointing rite to me.. i mean are the thing that we call love, all the lovey dovey, mushy2 romantic stuff is true love or we are just pretending to love that person cuz of something else? money n all the gadgets that he/her own.maybe, cuz of the intel? well, how maybe person that will always say dat their life partner is smart.. most of them i would say..rite? maybe thats what love really if..we feel attracted to someone cuz of someting boutthem..their appearance maybe..shes look cute, pretty, he look handsome or look like Mr.Body six-pack chest..or welath..yup..this is the main attraction to anyone, boys or girls..dun lie.cmon..azam awai2 dah ngaku yg dia kapel ngn Roban sebab duit, at the first time..skrg dia dah mula appreciate ckit kowt Roban tu..ha3..(Roban beli Sandal Bonia siot kat bro aku tu.peh..pastu siap mail lg kat campus all the way dr shah Alam)..gud for u bro, u nailed it!!well, who can tell me now what love is actually?

I Am Not Anti-Government.Im Just A Political Science Student

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Don't Die For Your Government

Die For The Governmentyou gotta die, gotta die, gotta die for your government,
die for your country, that's shit.
(all together)
you gotta die, gotta die, gotta die for your government,
die for your country, that's shit.

there's a golf war vet.,
dying a slow, cold death,
and the government says, "we don't know, the sorce of his sickness"
but you can't believe what they say,
because your government is lying,
they've done it before,
and don't you know, they'll do it again,
a secret test,government built virus,
"Subject Test Group: Gulf Battle Field Troups"

you gotta die, gotta die, gotta die for your government,
die for your country, that's shit.
you gotta die, gotta die, gotta die for your government,
die for your country, that's shit.

first world war veterans slaughtered, by General Eisnehower
you give em' your life,
they give you, a stab in the back
adiation, agent orange, tested on u.s. soles,
ginnie pigs, for westurn corporations
i never have, i never will,
pledge alligence to the flag
You're getting used, you'll end up dead

you gotta die, gotta die, gotta die for your government,
die for your country, that's shit.
you gotta die, gotta die, gotta die for your government,
die for your country, that's shit.

i don't need you to tell me what to do!
and i don't need you to tell me what to say...F**K YOU!!!
i don't need you to tell me what to say!
and i don't need you to tell me what to think,
what to think, what to think, what to think,
what to think think think think

die, gotta die, gotta die, gotta die for your government,
die for your country, that's shit.
you gotta die, gotta die, gotta die for your government,
die for your country, that's shit.
you gotta die, gotta die, gotta die for your government,
die for your country, that's shit.
you gotta die, gotta die, gotta die for your government,
die for your country, that's shit.
you gotta die, gotta die, gotta die for your government,
die for your country, that's shit.
you gotta die, gotta die, gotta die for your government,
die for your country, that's shit.


p/s dun die for ur government.we r not the loyal dogs that will do anything its master told it to do..we r human.we have wishful thinking.use it well.government conspiracy is bullshit n sometimes we, the people need to remind them that we have the right to choose n speak for our own.

FUCK U,Pronto!-The Truth That I Wish I Didnt Know

sehina2 aku, se-selekeh2 aku, seteruk2 aku, aku trima seadanya suma kelemahan,kekurangan yg aku ada dgn hati yg terbuka dan aku xpenah memandang rendah terhadap org len sebab aku tahu semua org bukan bodoh atau bengap cuma diorang hanya xmahu menggunakan akal yg dikurniakan..diorang xbodoh, diorang cuma malas.aku tergolong dlm golongan ini..tapi, walaupun bagaimana pun ada orang yang menggunakan akal yg diberikan dengan kadar maksimum untuk menuju puncak yg tewrtinggi dan menggapai bintang..ini tidak memberikan apa2 bentuk keupayaan atau kebenaran untuk kita memandang rendah apatah lagi menghina orang laen..TIDAK SAMA SEKALI!!! kalau kita berkawan dan bergaul dengan orang bijak pandai tapi hakikatnya jita masih dalam kelompok golongan orang2 yg malas tidak memberi kita hak untuk memperlekehkan golongan kita..sedarlah kita yang memuja dan cuba mengapdaptasikan kita kiat dalam golongan bijak pandai tersebut sedangkan kenyataan yang sebenar kita tetap dalam golongan yang sma..cuma kita biajk menggunakan peluang.tapi ingat, kita berkawan dengan diorang tidak bermaksud kita sudah memasuki kelompok kawanan tersebut..berpijaklah di bumi yang nyata.kawanan bijak pandai itu akan meninggalkan kawasan tersebut..kita yang akan masih berada di takuk yang sama, kelompok asal kita, kelompok yang kita kutuk hina perlekeh itu yang akan kekal bersama..sedarlah diri anda..kereta proton Savvy tidak mungkin akan jadi porche cayman.Savvy tetap Savvy, cayman tetap cayman.Savvy yang pengkhianat belum tentu dapat tergolong dalam golongan Cayman..itu kenyataan..tambahan kalau kita Savvy recycle.second hand ynag terlalu berbangga kerana berkawan dengan golongan cayman.lepas itu, hendak pula memandang rendah golongan Savvy yang yang lain yg sudah pasti Savvy asli.savvy yang asli cuma tidak mahu menonjolkan diri dan malas menggunakan peluang..sestgh orang mungkin beranggapan yang golongan savvy ini bodoh kerana tidak mahu menonjolkan diri tapi hakikatnya golongan Savvy hanay terleka.terleka kerana masih berbuai2 dengan mimpi indah..savvy tetap savvy..ITU KENYATAAN YANG MEMANG PAHIT TAPI HARUS DITELAN.

aku mmg fuck orang yang suka pandang rendah orang lain..tambahan kalau orang tu sendri tidak sedaq diri yang dia tu pun asalnya layak masuk komuniti kami tetapi kena mengambil; banyak langkah..sedangkan kami golongan yang dipandang rendah ni xperlu bersusah payah untuk masuk ke komuniti ini sebab kami mmg layak dan boleh memilih komuniti laen tapi kami pilih komuniti ini..jangan la hipokrit dan hina orang.diri tu pun bukan bagus mana pun.ang tu kena bertungkus lumus namun ang belum boleh jadik terbaik..lebih baik jadik macam kami,orang yang langsung tidak berusaha tapi masih tidak gagal,masih layak untuk berada di sini.masih mampu meneruskan perjalanan.sedarlah.kami hanya masih menerima ang sebab kesian dan masih mengnggap ang sebahagian daripada kami.jangan sampai hati kami tertutup dan menyingkirkan ang dari golongan kami..kami masih mampu bersabar tapi kesabaran kami ada hadnya..jangan sesekali uji kesabaran itu.jangan sampai kesabaran dan sifat menerima kami bertukar menjadi benci dan meluat yang mampub membuatkan kami sanggup melakukan sesuatu ynag kejam..ingatlah, sahabatku.kami hanya menunggu masa untuk melepaskannya.tunggu dan lihat.ang masih dalam komuniti kami.jangan sampai kami singkirkan ang dan lepas tu ang xdak kawan dah.INGAT!!!!

p/s-this is a campus story.true story with some beautiful manner approach..for somebody else sake, not the guy whom pissed be off..im totally n officially hate n wanna kick his ass but i refuse to do so cuz for the sake of somebody else..i can do it i just dont wanna to..bare that in mind!

Isn't It Sweet?

after reading hakim's blog, Desire A Greater Life, i have to admit its touche'.he talk bout the loneliness in this freaking campus, how much fun we had when we in our first sem..god i miss that time..time when we're still freshie n new.noe nothing bout Merbok, except CS n Village Mall.time when amir still around, time when we had a room to stop by n enjoy urself..B316-ijat's,hakim's,Amir's n jufri's room..all of DPA student part 1 at that time most of them hanged in that room..every single day its a new adventure..a lot of memory set place in that room..even me,azam n meor walk all the way from block A to block B climb the stairs, just to be there.i miss is so much..i never felt bored at all in my first sem.neither all of my bros.all the teasings, fucked up jokes, playing around, pangkah2, card playing, PC games playing, belive it or not we even study togetehr in that room..well our last day of the first semester is the last time we'd been in that room..after everything when sour..seriesly..its not that we are not having much fun in the second semester n this current semester but is just dun feel the same though..after ur first semester, amir left UiTM, Edd got kick out n we r 2 members short..n after that me,azam, ijat, amini n even amirul change class..u used to be in Class B but we change to D..we planned that all of our members of the awesoem group to change al togetehr to Class D but some of us had a clashing timetable so they stayed in B..its sucks..it not taht i didnt have fun at all in D but its just dun feel the same as it used to be..its sucks!n after that, hakim finally tight the knot with saidah n meor followed with fida so they spent much of their time together2 with their ladies..its kinda hurt but what can i do, if i have a gurl in the same campus i'll do the same, so i dun blame them at all..seriesly.but, i dun feel good.ya, we still hang out together,lesser.but starting from that semester i started to feel bored..eventhough at that time i had a gurlfren, but shes not around, shes in penang.enjoying her life acting like im not her boyfren.so i started my thrid semester, single, still in the same class, D but new members of the family were there..more people come in n join class D so i dun felt the same anymore..too mamny people already.new clan had enter our territory n its sucks.sometimes i flet like changing back to my old class,B but i wont be the same..i noe it.plus, whos left in B? hakim? he's busy with his lady, meor? same situation with hakim..sometime i just wish both of them will break u..i noe..im an asshole but its just not a right thing to do..so moer n hakim enjoy ur relation ok..both of u deserve it.kuddus? he'snly in for PAD230 n CTU..shafiq? not apart of the team man.ayie? well ok ayie can hang out with me..but it wont be the same as all of us together..even pak lah is moving to D..so u get what i mean..everybody want to enter D i dont noe why.. u guys think D is adoption center? everybody welcome? please.. well there a still some other reason for me to stay in D..azam still there..my big bro..adi,aimil,fizi..SAF..my knuckles buddy..but if i wanna move bax to B for sure all of them will follow..well, at least azam n Saf..cuz they r the former B members..but my class rep position will hold me back..for sure sir mahad wont let me change class.who else want to hold that fucked up title..CLASS REPRESENTATIVE..fuck it..more like Lecturer's dog..YA! being a class rep is nothing more than being a dog..loyal dog that willing to do anything..so, what other choice left form me man..im fucking bored..i start to hate this campus already..maybe i should just follow Amir n K, quit UiTM n pursuit my percious dream..well, that bring out the slicky question..what is my dream? i alway say n brought out that i wanna be a roxstar, well that does not gonna happen for sure, i alway wanna be a lawyer but ist kinda hard cuz i have to go through all the academic shits, prime minister? ha3.. even i laugh at myself just when i thought bout that.so what my big2 dream? ya rite..i dun hava a dream to achieve..im already gave it up a long time ago..i alway say to myself, im a street smart not a book smart.but how im gonna survive out there without any academic back up..am i just gonna work at swenz till im like 40 for a few buck a day? kais pagi makan pagi kais petang makan petang? hell no1 how im gonna survive? so what other option left for me? im not that good in academic..hell i failed my acc114.hell my pointer dropped n i noe its gonna keep dropping..how im gonna work it out? i hate it, really really fucking hate it..fuck fuck fuck fuck!why my life should be that hard? huh? is everyone having a hard time just like me? or im overthinking again..well its in my genes alright.my mom have it, my sis's even my dad have it..so, what can i say..life sucks,buckle up! enjoy the ride! chow..
peace out!

p/s- i have noe idea what this entry is really bout..im just rumbling.just wanna say n all out the things from my chest..thanx for reading..appreciate it..

Sin Of the Father-Wooden Stick Story

why?
why should the kids pay the debts of the folks?
the shame, the backstabbed the curse of the family?
why?
its not fair for us..the one who got the blame..
who got left out alone, trying to search the light.in that mean time, after this afterword choas, the burden come stopping by n drop a massive shithole on our shoulder?
WHY DAD? WHY MOM?
how, how can i survive this world on my own along with all this stuff i have to settle, the sins of the wrongdoing that i have nothing to do with it, still im the one who paying for it..
ya, as folr ur dyingwish goes, for god sake i dunno its THAT true.
u siad u take a good care of myself, i never thought u really mean it cuz u guys left a lot of mess that i need to clean it up..
thank god, my will is strong..strong not as a solid rock that crash anything piece of cake, butstrong only as a wooden stick..not to strong, easily been break, but still can hurt or bleed somebody out..thats me.. the wooden stick..not a favorite weapon of choice but still at any cause, it may come handy.that me..

p/s- dedicated to one of my fren who is having aharsh time in his/her life...wish him.her a gud luck..im here for u if u need anything dude/babe..