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March 21, 2009

Sapa Kata Bawah Tiang Lampu Xromantik?

Bohong kalau kata cahaya lampu tepi jalan xromantik.aku taw sgt.aku dah experience sendri.romantik gila2.malapan lampu yg agak samar, ditambah dengan perbualan tentang hati dan perasaan, dan yg paling penting senyumannya yg betul2 buat hati aku cair..ya, hati aku yg slama ni aku letak barrier yg tinggi, a brick wall, concrete wall instead, still jatuh punah n pecah suma halangan itu suma sebab hanya disebabkan ke-romantik-kan time tu.hati aku cair, cair sesungguh2nya.dan aku dah xble wat apa2.hati aku terpaut dgnnya.sbb tu aku dah xkesah apa yg kami bincangkan malam tu, apa keputusan yg dia wat pd mlm tu, xkesah apa2 pun consequences afterthat, apa pun yg harus aku buat sbb aku dah jatuh cinta.jatuh cinta pada dia.senyuman mautnya menawan hatiku.ya betul apa mak aku kata, senang ja nk jatuhkan aku, hanya perlu tawan hati aku, kalau tangkap n seksa aku sekalipun belum tentu aku crack, tapi kalau hati aku dah terpaut,abih la aku.tp aku pasti, hati aku yg dha terpaut ni tidak akan jadik penyebab kejatuhan aku, ia akan jadik pembakar semangat buat aku.


p/s-yes i mean you, ANGEL.u r the one who had conquer my heart.n i've fall for you.seriesly fall.
I LOVE U ANGEL.stil, im waiting for the precious moment to be real.i am waiting, patiently.

Sweet Dream Gurl


March 20, 2009

Indie, UnderGround n Mainstream

Minat ke aku ngn indie? minat, seriesly minat, bukan sbb music indie semata2 tp disebabkan ke"indie"an band2 indie itu sendri.ketabahan utk diorang jual music diorang, hardwork to went through all the hard stuff to survive, peh mmg hard kot nk maen music.sbb tu aku respect band2 indie.n sbb tu kau fuck band2 indon mainstream ala2 jiwang yg jual music diorang kat cini.Peterpan, Radja, Gigi, Ungu, kerispatih, sorry r.except band2 indie indon r sbb diorang pun susah nk survive plus knea compete plak ngn band2 mainstream indon utk survive.so, salute to Mocca n EveryBody Love Irene, i heart u guys. for indie band Malaysia, i heart u more.


bout indie music.market kot skrg. masyarakat sendri pun dah mula nk pandang msuic indie. even teens sendri dah mula appriciate.seriesly scene 3 @ 4 tahun lepaih xcmni.bayangkan r. tahun 2004 dulu kalau bukak radio or even handphone budak2 remaja mana nk jumpa org pasang lagu indie.susah sgt, sgt jarang.suma indon pny lagu ja.ala la ckit, A.C.A.B or ButterFingers r.otai2 indie kat Malaysia. tapi cuba tgk skrg, radio ke handphone ke myspace ke suma nk buh music indie.tak ke bagus tuh.


Indie had become a lifestyle.. agree? sgt2.indie bukan lagi satu fenomena muzik yg mentsunamikan anak2 muda malaysia tapi telah mengubah persepsi tentang idup anak2 muda malaysia itu sendri. dress up nk ala2 indie, suma xmau dha pakai t-shirt2 branded cm body glove or even quicksilver suma carik graphic t-shirt yg kdg2 agak weirdo. baby milo skrg dah jadik old stuff. even "saya sayang mak saya" pun dah jadik outdated dah sbb skrg ada "saya saang bapak saya".ahaks.aku support sgt2 indie graphic t-shirt. mmg r kualiti agak kureng kalau nk compare ngn branded t-shirt tapi still its worth it to be owned. nk enjoy skrg suma xmau g concert cma jomheboh dha, suma nk g gigs ja. mcm2 gak org ckp pasai gigs ni. especially gigs band2 yg genre music agak contreversial cam metal or even punk. masyarakat kdg2 kalau pandang serong. nk wat cmna kan.masyarakat mmg r, dulu time band2 otai time 80's pun kena fuck truk gak. tny amy search tanya awie, tanya nash, diorang paham r. jgn risau, pa yg benda fans minat n support n beli album or merchandise korang, tu dah cukup.kalau korang dpt masuk mainstream pun kira orait r kan.


pasai mentality about indie. dulu indie can be consider as underground scene or movement.kira indie maknanya org susah nk kenal, or hanya die-hard fans yg betui2 minat ja baru ble kenai band indie ni.tapi skrg indie dah market.indie ditafsirkan sebagai band2 yg bebas yg bergerak tanpa ada kekangan dari mana2 pihak utk mengekplotasikan atau menghalang atau mengubah music diorang. band indie skrg lebih bebas.bebas utk terbang menggapai cita2. cuma satu benda r yg brubah ngn band indie skrg.penggunaan bahasa.ada band2 indie skrg dah lupa ngn perjuangan asal underground music. kalau dulu, band yg nyanyi englihs diorang akan stay ngn english maybe satu dua lagu r guna bahasa melayu.tapi skrg utk market, byk band2 indie yg asalnya nyanyi english akan ubah nyanyi melayu demi nk market.nk salahkan diornag pun xble kan. kalau xmarket cmna nk cari makan la.pandai2 lakita pikiq sendri. bout mentality, aku nk snetuh tentang media.ya, mmg indie market skrg.tapi masalah tol ngn media malaysia ni.xabih2 nk menjatuhkan org.cian gak kdg2 kat band2 indie baru malaysia. kena cop besaq pala la, kekwat la, kuang ajaq la, xdak disiplin la mcm2.asal ada band indie bru nk up, media mesia bg down. cth plg baik pny tgk Hujan, Meet Uncle Hussain, even Bunkface pun kena kot.so, pandai2 la pikiq.


conclusion, siot.dlm blog pun aku wat conclusion ke? ish2. okay aku cuma nk ckp slamat berjaya la utk suma band indie yg memperjuangkan music masing xkira genre.senang ckp suma band2 malaysia r yg ada.yg baru ataupun lama.byk gak band mainstream yg dah change to be indie skrg. nk taw band2 indie/underground/malaysia yg aku minat n support?.. hehe.


Seven Collar T-Shirt, Lab Rat, Abstrak Hingga Ke Bulan, Aku, Bau, Bunkface, Bittersweet, Butterfingers, Coco, Couple, deja Voodoo Spells, Disagree, DragonRed, Edge Of Fire, eStranged, Estrella, Force Vomit, Frequency Cannon, Gerhana Ska Cinta, Grey Sky Morning, Lazy Morning,
Cynosure, JeoperdiCe, Hijau, Hujan, Hayagriva, Athortogh, Profane Creation, Necrotic Chaos, Bleeding Mascara, Lydias Diery, Missing Chapter, In Curl, Jinbara, Julie Goes Oversea, Romancesa, Kluk Kluk Adventures, Komplot, Laila's Lounge, Love Me Butch, Maximus, Meet Uncle Hussain, Melastik Bintang, MUCK, Nitrus, OAG, Oh Chentaku!, One Buck Short, Pesawat,
Silent Scream, Telebury, The Otherside Orchestra, They Will Kill Us All, Upon Arrival, The Times, The Peanuts, Republic Of Brickfields.. ala lagi tp dah blank dah skrg.

~SpeCial~

Spider
Bila Nak Saksi
Bintang 12

Wajah mu kerap ku mimpi
Wajah mu sering ku puja
Buatku terasa sepi
Kala ku bukakan mata
Kau masih belum pun ku punya
Rinduku masih kau tak peka
Cintamu kerap ku mimpi
Cintamu sering ku damba
Buatku terasa sedihkala ku bukakan mata
Kau masih belum pun ku dakap
Rinduku masih kau tak singkap
Bila nak saksi
Kau datang terkulai
Bila nak saksi
Kau datang membelai
Bila nak saksi Cintaku sampai
Dirimu kerap ku mimpi
Dirimu sering ku khayal
Aku angan-angankan
Kau dapat bersama
Nyatakan cinta yang terpendam
Membina istana tersergam
Bila nak saksi
Kau datang terkulai
Bila nak saksi
Kau datang membelai
Bila nak saksi
Cintaku sampai
Bila nak saksi
Cintamu kugapai
Dirimu kerap ku mimpi Dirimu sering ku khayal
Aku Angan angankan
p/s-thats How I FeeL

"ANGEL.." huh??
nice one though!

March 19, 2009

Im A Fuck Up Lil Son, I Know I Am

abah call smlm, dia kata nk suro aku blk umah arini sbb nk ajak aku p KL, ngn hajar ngn mummy skali.
AKU TOLAK!!! seriesly aku tolak!kenapa? mungkin ada yg bertanya..sedangkan aku dah lama mengidam ngn gi KL ngn family aku n melawat akak aku kat campus, last skali aku jejak kaki kat UIA time taun lepaih antaq my big sis time orientation dia.ni kira first time kami nk wat trip g kl n melawat dia sejak dah bertahun2 merancang sejak akak aku wat foundation lg, kenapa aku tolak.family trip ke KL..sronokkan bila pikiq tambah abah tgh loaded kot skrg..mmg agak bodoh kalau pikiq napa aku tolak.hampa suma xtaw cerita sebenaq.ada benda len yg nk dibuat di KL slaen melawat akak aku.senang cita nk p setelkan probs.sbb tu aku malas nk blk.boleh ja kalau nk blk, alah Semarak Minda ble ja aku ponteng kalau nk tapi aku sanggup stay n p program tu demi nk avoid p kl ngn makpak aku.kata la pa hampa nk kata, hampa x kenai aku..hampa xkenai family aku, hampa xkenai relatives aku, hampa xtaw masalah kami sekeluarga, hampa xtaw responsibility yg aku kena tanggung.aku sanggup lg p Semarak Minda.dengaq pelik, tapi kalau hampa di tempat aku, kalau hampa menjadi aku hampa akan taw, hampa akan buat benda yg sama.bukan aku nk lari dari tanggungjawab aku, sebagai seorang lelaki, sebagai the only son in the family, sebagai guardian of the family, bukan tapi tolonglah.I NEED A BREAK.. I REALLY DO.sbb tu aku jarang blk umah since aku masuk campus ni.bukan aku nk lari, tapi aku nk masa utk diri sendri, aku perlu masa utk diri sendri.aku perlu masa utk bagi chance diri aku utk explore.BACUL? mungkin ya.tapi hampa xtaw.hampa mungkin xpaham n mungkin not even believe what i have to face through.aku xpenah berniat nk abandon family aku.diorang segala2nya utk aku, aku sanggup mati demi diorang tapi apakan daya, aku xmampu, aku xkuat, xsekuat mummy aku.aku hanya seorg fuck up with a huge responsiblity on my shoulder.kadang2 aku kalah ngn pressure tuh.aku xmau..kalau diberi pilihan, konpem2 aku akan tolak awai2.tapi apakan daya, aku xmampu, hanya aku sorang ja anak laki dalam family ni.ya, kadang2 aku slalu sgt mengharapkan yg abg aku yg xsempat lahir tu ada.dia yg akan pegang responbility ni xpayah aku pegang, tapi takdir nk wat cmna dia guguq.sbb tu aku slalu neglect kalau diberi jawatan ketua or leader bkn aku ble lead tapi kadang2 trauma. being a leader is whether take the credit or take the blame.mostly take the blame.aku mmg protective n sanggup take the blame, but can i forgive myself if anything goes wrong? i cant.i dun wanna hurt my family but aku pun manusia.aku bukan robot.nak kata depa perlukan aku sgt2 pun, apa yg penting hanya aku perlu ada kat sentiasa sbg protection.kadang2 aku bersyukur jadik panas baran ni, ble jadik protective, n protect anyone we want to.org aku takut kat kita , dlm kes aku aku perlu org takut kat aku baru family aku xdiapa2kan.mampuih pi r kan apa org nk kata pasai aku, yg penting family aku taw aku cmna..mummy, abah, hajar, akak, sorry adam xikut skali.adam mmy fuck up, xguna tapi tolong lah paham, adam betui2 perlukan masa utk diri adam sendri.pus, benda tu ble setelkan tanpa adam.adam ni kan just a problem slover n clean up guys, tukang sapu masalah.aku xkesah, as long as u all save, thats matter the most to me, not them.sorry.sorry sgt2.bagilah masa utk adam dan diri adam.just lagi sebulan lebih ja, pasni cuti sem adam akan blk umah n sentiasa ada 24jam utk do my job.for now, just give me a break, please i need it to.i dun wanna complaint bout why should i do it, why dun abah do it, i dun.im tired of complaining though.i'll accept it, no matter what he is stil my dad.i cant change that.i jst need a break.dun worry, this angel of honor will come home no matter what, it just that this angel need a break.thats all.sorry, kalau adam action adam ni agak kuan ajaq, mmg kuang ajaq pun.sorry sgt2.adam mintak maaf.

p/s- I have a new burfday wish, i want all of this mess n probs go away n my family come out unharm n n live happily everafter after this.tu ja aku mau.sapa ble tolong grant?

March 18, 2009

Correction, My Mistake!

Depends..My Blog N Words Sometimes Is A Lil Decieving With A Big Bang Just To Make Things To Be A Lil Bit Interesting Though.I Noe.But In My Defense, Everyone Talks, n Everyone Lied. I Guess Im Apart Of The Society n Just Being The Good Citizen That Follow The Flow n Covered The Flaws.The AnSwer Is YES!! I Lied Bout My Previous Post-POST XDAK MAKSUD. It Is Not SOmetimes Gibberish.It Had A Lot Of Meaning Which Only Some Of The People Know. EsspeciaLLy U- U Noe WHo U r.Im Just siCk Of Lying n I Think U Need To Know The The Exact Situation Or Should I Say Condition At That Time.
The Answer Is Yes.. Im A Lil Bit Frustated..Just A Bit..Not After Last Nite.Last Nite, I Saw It As An Lil Sparks On opportunity..Oppoturnity For Me..n I'll Take It No Matter What.Better Lil Then Nothing.I'll Used It..Let The ChaSe Begin!!

Can I?
Well Maybe I Cant, Who Knows But I'll Keep On Trying
Trying Is Better Than Giving Up..
I Realize That Today...
Why Should I Denied It?
Im Just Gonna End Up Hurting MySelf, My Own Feeling..
So Now, From Now On,
I Will Do My Besh To Get It.
Seriesly, I Still Dunno How,
Your Heart Is A Very Solid roCk,
Hard To CraCk,
Thats For Sure,
But,
I'll Keep On Trying..
I Dun Bother Waiting..
Cuz Deep Inside I Know..
This Feeling,
The One I Have For You,
Its Not Gonna Fade Away,
Its Just Gonna Keep On Growing,
Blossomly,
So I Wont Stop Trying.


p/s- Yang Ni Entry Yg Bermaksud n DiTujukan Khas Utk "ANGEL"

March 17, 2009

Post Xdak Maksud

Kadang2 Kita Terlupa, Kadang2 Kita Terlepas Pandang, Kadang2 Kita Sendri Yg Pilih Utk Buat2 Xnampak Benda Yg Dah Ada Depan Mata Tapi Still Mengidam Benda Yg Jauh, Yg SUkar Utk Dicapai, Yg Sukar Utk Digapai, Yg Sukar Utk Diperolehi..Sifat Manusia.Dah Terhantuk Baru Nak Terngadah.Ya Mungkin Benda Yg Jauh Di Seberang Lebih Sempoi Tapi Xsemestinya Benda Yg Di Depan Mata Itu Sampah Semata2 Cuma Kita Sendri Yg Suka Membuat Perbandingan Yg Ntah PaPa.Bak Kata Pepatah, Kalau Xdak Rotan Akar2 Pun Jadilah Kan.Tambahan, Sapa Kita Ni? Doktor, Majistret, Lawyer?? Sedaq R Diri Kan.Kalau Diri Sendri Dah Cukup Sempurna Barulah Ada Tiket Utk Mengidamkan Buah Yg Jauh DI Perantauan.Ni, Diri Sendri Pun Ntah Sapa, Ada Hati Nak Yg Bagus2.Bersyukur Dengan Apa Yg Ada.Jangan Nanti Apa Yg Di idamkan Terlepas Dan Apa Yg Ada Depan Mata Hilang Entah Ke Mana.Tapi Satu Persoalan Timbul, Mampukah Kita Melawan Kehendak Hati.SIfat Manusia.Tamak Haloba.Itu Kenyataan, Trima Sajalah..



P/S-Tiada Kena Mengena Dgn Sesapa TermasukLah Diri Aku Sendri.NTAH..Aku Pun Xtaw Apa Yg Aku CUba Utk Sampaikan.Tetiba Ja Dah Panjang Aku Tulih.ANG MEREPEK PA NI ADAM PEPAGI BUTA?

March 16, 2009

The Truth Can Hurt, But Its Sometimes Worth It

Kalau tahu air yg tenang ada buaya sapa suruh dayung pergilah ke tepian,
kalau takut utk bernafas janganlah hidup,
kalau takut untuk hidup jangan makan ikan yg bertulang,
memancing ikan haruan berbeda dengan memancing ikan layar,
air yang tenang jangan sangka tiada abu rokok,
kata2 semangat yg diucapkan oleh member2 aku secara spontan.suma kena ngn situasi aku sekarang.

if waits what it takes, then wait it is,
if trust what it needs, then trust ill create it for u,
if nothing bout me that no need to change, then i'll just me myself,
if here without you is the situation rite now, then being alone is where i belong,
if understanding u is the only way, then i wanna know everything about you,
if the truth of knowing that u'll not be in arm is what it is, then im willing to be hurt
if being frens is worth it, i'll be ur besh buddy
if being loyal n trustworthy seems impossible, i try my best to change
if i cant be with u is the fact i have to accept, then
I CAN DEAL WITH IT

March 15, 2009

I'd ConFess To Her..
"ANGEL"
She Thinks Im Bluffing..
We'll See How It Goes

For You ANGEL...

Am I A Failure Or Its Just My Destiny To Fail?
Am I A Loser Or Its Just Life That Dun Want Me To Succeed?
Am I A Fuck Up Or Its Just A Path I Chosed?
Whatever It Is, Im Not Sure But My Life Isnt As BeauTiful As I Imagine,
Maybe Im Just Being Silly Or Maybe It Is What It Is,
I Live It Anyway,
At Least I STill Have A Life To Spare Rather Then None,
I Cherish Every Nice Moment Because I Know Its Not Gonna Last,
When Chaos Stop By,
It Is Not The End,
Its Just Another Floppy Storm That Crash In The Way,
Mostly,
I Survived..
But Usually,
Im Not The Same As Before,
The Storm Took A Lot Of Me With It,
Maybe Thats Just The Way Things Are,
Maybe Im Just Another Pawn In War,
War Against The Demon,
The Demon Among Ourself,
Maybe I Like It This Way,
But,
Its Not So Great,
Not At All,
How Come I Wanna Be With You ANGEL,
If Im Still The Same Fuck Up Dude As Before,
I Need To Change That,
But I Cant,
Still,
I Wanna Be With You ANGEL,
No Matter Whats The Consequences Are,
Still,
Theres A Lot To Pay,
Im Willing To Do So,
But I Wont Change,
Not At All,
You Need To Accept Me Just The Way I Am,
CAn You?
I Don'y Think So,
Still,
Im Hoping For Miracle,
Miracle That You Will Love Me,Like Me,Accept Me,
But,
Is It Even Possible?
Its All Depends On You ANGEL,
I Really Need To Know,
But Im Scare Of The Truth...

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