Situation

everything fine, everything okay.
everything back to normal, everything cool.
nuff said

The Future Is Still Mine

JD-Before You Leave, I Gotta Ask, Why Aren't You Getting That Test?

Patient -I Don't Know.I Still Might, In The Next Few Years..Or Days.But Right Now, If I Found Out That I Was Eventually Gonna Die From Something, Once You Learned That Information, U Can't Unlearn It.And This Why My Future Is Still Mine. It Can Be What Ever I Wanted It To Be. Is That Make Sense?

J.D- Yeah..



p/s-Scrubs Season 08 Episode 17 -My Finale

I'd Miss This

You-ppsss..!!no komen...wah..
Me-ops!!!! hahahaha

You-wahhh...terlebey sudey..love u la yayunx..!!
Me-love you to yayunx..?????

You-grrr~ ? more n more..
Me-grrrr~ meowwww. more n more 1000x

You-chipmore la..da lewt.. jom tidow..sok keje..huxhux
Me-hahaha. oh ya, u busy esok ek. banyak keja kna wat. tidoq, makn, online. peh. busy2.hahaha

You-aah yunx..u thu2 je la kn my life without u ..u pon bz,i pon bzkn dri la...haha
Me-ala sian yayunx i. nk wat cmna yunx. i da career sbg waiter kehormat

You-hahaha...alamak..waiter terhormt eh?k,,i try to accept n understnd u yayunx..will miss u..
Me-tula. career i sgt penting wat masa ni. but no sweat, u will alway be my number one priority.hahaha. miss u too yayunx

You-haha..wow..!! =) np u jauh dr i.. huahuahua.. i alwaz need u yayunx..kje elok2..jgn nowty2 yeah..
Me-ula nk wat camna. jarak memisahkan kita la yayunx..dun worry. even if im working, u will alway be in my mind n in my heart. i mn pernah notty.hahaha

You-hehehe..ley caye ke yayunx i xnowty2 ni..? ermm.. i trust u..jom dating nk x yayunx..movie ke rabu ni erk..midnyte after u finish ur work. haha
Me-ble ja. demi u, i sanggup la yayunx. kalu ble, nk ponteng keja ja for u. but u know, its my career.

You-ok yayunx..its ok la if lewt pon..jnji i dpt jmp u..!!
Me-me too. tapi u taw la kan, i pas after keja, knpem2 bucuk. u ok ka?

You-erm..(thinking).ok kot..xde hal lah..u alwaz my musyuk..hahatu yg syg lebey..
Me-wow.bertmbah2 la i syg kat u,yayunx. u alwayz be my miss model..

You-hee..terharu nye i yayunx..yayunx..i have smting to tell u..erm...
Me-whats that?

You-ILUDSM...IMUDSM..
Me-thats sweet.I LOVE YOU TOO SO DAMN MUCH!!??????

You-????? ngee~ crazy love..

When I Put My Mohawk On, Im Bad Again

like i said before, punk is a statement, not a lifestyle. thats the reason why im alway into mohawk.its a statement its a warning letting the world know that i am bad, i aint just another pussy, i aint another dude whom is a poser. if none of this make sense, please do watch A-Team movie n lsiten to a character played by quinton "Rampage" Jackson- Bosco Albert (B.A.-Bad Atttidue) Baracus. he'll explain well about mohawk being a statement.thats the reason why i watched that movie 3 time in cinema. just to listen to the line of BA Baracus.well, as for rite now, i damn wish i ddint cut my hair back to normal. i wish i still had my mohawk on. because as for now, i done been nice. i wanna be bad all the time, 24/7/365.

I Aint Tough But My Heart Is A Soldier

I have some shits to drop out in my blog but still i havent found my word to fully full it. wait.all i know rite now, i wanna get the hell out of penang ASAP and this sem break turns from being one of the best one i ever had to the worst. i guess my life suck huh? all i can ever think of is this, what goes around come around. because i think i got a sweet lil life before this and i alway know its gonna end one day when the real shit storm tarnish everything in its path of my life. n now im in its destrcution path. well, i keep on saying that my heart is a soldier aite? its not just another silly statement, its fact. my heart is a soldier doesnt mean i am tough and ready to war it but it means my heart is a fighting spirit.not just in love, but in life too.i will keep on fighting no matter what.at least i try to do so. i never had a time so beatdown like this. i never been this down in life. usually when im down, its because others life around me affected me one way or another but this time its my life that been hell. life to be enjoy not wasted? as for this moment, its doesnt fit me well.i mean look at me. i never wanna runaway before but i do now.but again, we would i run? to kedah? my life there pretty suck too. another sweet statement i alway made is life aint sweet, motherfucker get a helmet, well im being stupid by not preparing myself with a sweet protection helmet for pain enduresment.huh. i guess Syida Shukor is rite after all, it aint funny to talk about life. well, see you guys on the other side. when i say the other side, i mean the isde of successful. once i get there, then we talk again shall we? adios.

p/s- i really need my bestie safena isfazura rite now!

You Not Mine To Own

yeah, im totally rite man. to be frank i dont actually really believe soem of the shits writing i put in this blog. some of it , i rite just for the reason to make other thinks n if lucky they cna use it in their dialy life.but now i have to admit that i am right. the line between like and love is really fukcing thin. u can slip out easily from one side to another. yup. thats what happening to me man. i've turn the feeling of like as a frens n develop a love one. thats a bummer.big one. its all started with just a lil game we choose to play to fool others. well, that game well serve but in the end i caught feeling in between. thats suck. i dun wanna ruin our beautiful frenship by xpressing my stupid feeling. i really dont wanna to. yeah it may not sound like me, because as u all may know by know, when someone caught my eyes n heart, i directly speak n xpress my feeling straight forward. but now, with her, i dun wanna to because i know the outcome of it. its gonna get ugly n i'll ended up hurting the person i like or love the most, n mostky i'll hurt myself n feel stupid for pursuing it. please God. let this feeling slip please. i really need a break. i dun wanna destroy my precious frenship right now. beacuse once i go for it, its not only me n her caught in the net, many more will be affected by it. but yet again, like the song of escape the fate, "IF I LET IT GO, WILL THE SCAR CONTINUE TO SHOW?"

Theres A Very Thin Line Between Love And Like

yup. its true. it is a very thin line between both. thanx to you my fren, i can see it clearer now. love is more like a feeling, feeling of xtra care and protective for someone we knew.a feeling of wanna be with someone and wanna hold her/him close to us. plus, its make us dont wanna be separated between each other. when we are in love, the own the world, and the world seem a lot better in our point of view. we'll be thinking about him/her every single second and we just wanna spent our goddamn second with her/him. love is also the this that sparks when we with someone. when that happen, yeah guys its love.like in the other hand is so freaking similar with love. yeah, we like someone, it can turn to love within a minute. like is more to feeling the chemistry we share with someone.chemistry that so similar were like thinking alike. yeah i know thats its quite similar with love but its too completely different stuff. thats why its call a very thin line guys. what it worth, i dunno what im crapping about.adios!

For You MyMy Mox

Mymy Mox,
You Are My Heart You Are My Soul,
You Are The Reason That Keeps Me Roll,
As For Now, My Heart Been Sold,
Own By You As Far As We All Know.

Mymy Mox,
You Are So Sweet
You Are So Innonence
Your Smile Alone Make Me Scent
You Keep Me Away From This "SINGLE" Bench.

Mymy Mox,
I sang DOY You Sang My Humps,
Kareoke-ing With You Make My Heart Pumps,
You Make Me Crazy And I Feel Like Wanna Jump,
You Make Me Speechless And All I Can Say Is "UHM".

Mymy Mox,
9 Years Apart Keep Us Away,
Once We Reunited We'd Take A Sweet Cute Sway,
Our Heart Bond Together Now As We May,
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH Is All I Can Say.

Mymy Mox,
There's Only Lil Time Left For Us Together,
After This. We'll Be Apart Away From Each Other,
All We Can Do Is Hope That Our Love Will Remain Stonger Than Ever,
Eventhough We Are Distance Apart From Each Other.

Mymy Mox,
You Are My Yayunx You Are My Sweet Miss Model,
You Are My Dayang Nurfaizah And You Make My Heart Fragile,
I Love You So Much And Alway Miss You.
I Love You So Much I Wanna Hold You..

P/S- I LOVE YOU YAYUNX

Now Thats What We Call Controversial

Another Piece Of Shit

All It Takes Is A Lil' Leap Of Faith..Facts Never Gonna Bring Cherish News..Its Only Gonna Bring Us Down..All That Wee Can Do Is Believe That We Can Somehow Bounce Back And Get Back On Our Feet..But Many Fail To Do So..Many Fall,Crash And Burn..Many Were Unable To STop The Unstoppable Doing..A Few With A Very Strong Will Will Keep On Fighting.. They Never Stop Believing.. But Still, To Have The Strength Of It,Not All Possessed.. Its Something That We Born With Not Gain..Something We All Desire And Dreamt Day And Night.. But For Some Of Us, Dream Is Just Another Fantasy..A Fantasy That Help Us Get By Through This God Forgiving Hell Holes.. Something Which We Refuse To Take For Ganted Unless It Slip Out Of Our Damn Hand.. Fantasy May Seem Childish But Believe It Or Not It Is Something That Evryone Need.. A Need To Summon The Courage.. The Courage To Fight Back.. Fight All The Misery That Take Our Ball To The Next Level..Some DO Not Know That We Are Already On The Level Of Damnation.. Thats The Clische ' About Fantasizing.. It Take Us Away From Reality.. It Take Us Away From Realisation.. Can We Fight It?..Will We Fight It?..No Can't Do Ville,Baby Doll.. Why?..Because We Are All Coward.. Too Coward To Fight..Too Chicken To Step Up..Fight, Yes That What We Need..But Can We Face The Whole Army Of Doom All By Ourself,Using Our Own Bare Hand And State Of Mind?..Yet Again, Whose There Available To Give Us A Helping When We Most Needed?..Because In This World, Its Every Man For Himself..

EveryBody Change At Some Point In Life But Not Completely

Remember any of ur childhood memories which when u thought bout it, u'll go, goddamn it, i was stupid kid back then. well, reality check back on present timeline. notice any differences between us back then n now? a lot aite? well call me liar, but still there are some of our personality or just simply stupid attitude that never ever change eversince. well, thats life. we never change completely. as for me, the stuck up bastard 6 years ago n present day me well, there still a lot of similarity between us. well if according to tv series How I Met Your Mother, Ted Mosby like to call this comparison is Past Us n Doppelganger Us. the catchphrase for it is "5 years ago Robin, she's cool, but doppelganger Robin, she's hell of a girl".. yes, we may have change from what we are in the past, change either toward something better or downfall straight to hell, but still there are still a part of us, stay the same. not just how we look, but our personality will never ever change completely. we are still who we are back then.the only different is maybe we grow older n maturely change but there still same thing that stay the way they are. call me pussy or whatever, but i do thing that 6 yar ago me and Dopperganger me still the same guy in the inside. i still make the same stupid mistakes like i'd done 6 years ago, and repeatedly making it eventhough i know i've growth smarter but it just how i will react on the situation n because in the past for the situation thats how i react, i cant never change the reaction for the same situation. maybe its my guts to chnage that still ebing a pussy but no matter how mature or smart i've grown, but still the same mind of me 6 years ago, control my entire action. thats just who i am. i never change completely i guess. if i do, well i'll no longer know who i am. maybe its the reason, i dont wanna change completelt. i still wanna hold tight to the old me, because it remind me of the past, the sweet innocent me who wanna explore everything n learn new stuff. but now, when i explored everything n know how fuck up this world is, it make me want more to hold on to the old me. get what im saying?

Fuck You Chuck Bartowski

in Chuck Season 2 finale chuck said that,

"Follow Your Heart, You Mind Is Only Gonna Mess Everything up"..

well in my case, i am messed up as i am right now because i follow my heart n silenced my brain.
well, its true ur mind going mess everything up esspecially when i come down to pleasing our heart. it is cuz mind is moving n calculating every damn possibility while heart only desire.next time, follow the voice in ur head aCe+, not ur heart. chuck bartowski is wrong

"Follow Your Mind, Your Heart is Only Gonna Mess Everything Up"

p/s- i wanna be like before when i am aCe+ not Adam Ar-Rashid. aCe+ is the idea of being free, Adam Ar-Rashid is the real deal. i guess i wanna runaway from who i am. thats the whole idea of aCe+

Broken Heart

The first time I saw you, you look so riddle,
Never thought that you the type of twaddle,
Yeah I admit, maybe I was being stupid,
It’s something I trait not what plead.

My heart sassed when I near you,
I don’t wanna anything else but to hold you,
To get to know you, to reach deeper in you,
Well, I did but I don’t know that there’s a price tag around you.

You gave me a lot of sign of interest,
All seems so real or maybe it’s something else
Because deeply I know my heart always make a mess
It silenced my mind’s lissomness, put it down to rest.

Do you remember the night I waited you in the rain?
Outside your window, I was sitting near the sewer drain,
Waiting for you to come down to unlock my love chain,
It’s so cute and romantic; at least that’s what I thought,
When you finally come down with the yellow umbrella you brought,
We were sitting together, cutely leaning but awkwardly odd.

Do you remember the first time you asked me to kiss your cheek?
I was surprised as hell but it was so damn sweet,
I didn’t go for it just yet for the first time you request.
I just standstill until waited you to make a second request,
When you did that I didn’t think twice.
Yes, and I did it, I kiss your cheek, twice.

“Tomboy Bucuk” that’s your nick and mine are “Bapok Cute”,
It’s doesn’t seem lovey dovey whatsoever, it’s seem rude,
But that’s what made us unique and well suited,
But why now, out of nowhere it’s all become mute?

Everything seem fairytale but pickle storm arived,
Out of sudden you become cold and derived,
You left me in the dark with no clue to start guessing,
The only thing I know that my heart is racing,
Racing to be near yours,
But you ripped it away, outsource.

Tomboy Bucuk, you left me heart-broken,
What’s had I done that is so unforgiven?
Don’t you remember the sweet time we had at the beach?
Or it;s just another gestureshrug that you wanna teach?
Why, and what’s wrong have I done to deserve this damnation?
I thought we were on the track of relation,
Suddenly you change and never turn back,
Leaving me confused and out of track,
One silly joke and you fuck me, reckless
And you wanna throw away the snapped pictured of us?

If war you asked than I got no other choice,
It’s my own mistakes to listen to my inner voice,
I shouldn’t be falling for you, definitely no,
I should just keep my heart lock and stay low,
But I’m stupid enough to let it open,
I just never learn,
Learn to never make to same old mistakes,
Learn to never to give unless there’s something to take,
But now I’ve learn something, not just how to let my heart stitch,
You wanna know what it is? It’s that you are a BITCH..

Bapok Cute & Tomboy Bucuk

+Ride Along On Wave 125 Together+
+Shared A Ribena Together+
+Watching Lagenda Budak Setan Together+
+Felt Asleep In The Cinema Out Of Boredom Together+
+Hurt Ourself In Difference Part Of Body Together+
+Shared Double Scoop Ice Cream With Only One Spoon Together+
+Kiss Each Other Cheek, Together+
+Hugged In The Ocean, Together+
+Holding Hand At The Beach Together+
+Drown In Salty Ocean, Together+
+Keeping Secret, Together+
+Secretly In Love, UNKNOWN+

She's Crazy+Im Crazy= Double Jeopardy

ada ka org pi pantai tetengah hari buta. pukui 12? ada. kami dua ekoq.hahaha. gila. siap kami mandi lg kot. da r xbwk baju salin mua. slamba rock ja kami terjun mandi laut. ayaq ngn pasang mua. ahaha. well, at least now i can say, yup, i once drive the ocean in the noon.hahaha

We Are Who We Are

ever thought about running away? running from what ur used to be. searching for new place, new identity, place which one one know ur past or urself which make others judge u, ever thought of that? well it seem pretty solid move to make aite? clean new slate with a chance to start over, a chance to make it right this time. but beware of the spoiler, ur past not gonna stay back and let u leave just like that. its gonna come back crawling to ur back door n come knocking. when it does its only a matter of time when ur new picture perfect life going to be haunted n crash to pieces. there no shits of starting over, new n different. what we can do is used that freaking bad experience as a life example n stand up n face the consequences.once we do, thing wont be so bad. its not gonna be as blue as before, but its better then a life on the run. cuz we are who we are. u cant change that fact.

Punk Eh?

mummy aku usha ni, konpem2 dia suro potong blk rambut aku on the spot.hahaha. no sweats, kalu ngn mummy aku aku xbuh gel byk2. bg nmpk messy skit jew so x r ketara sgt.hahaha

My Blog, My Rules, My Way

nak story skit. ada mamat ni tanya aku pasai blog. dia tanya da brapa lama da aku ada blog ni. aku kira2 blk, wah da dkt 2 taun da aku ada blog. aku pun cam xsedaq yg masa jalan cam ayaq terjun ja. series. ok2. thats not what i wanna story bout. ok, mamat tu tanya lagi, weh blog bkn ble wat duit ka. aku balas blk, yaka? dia cakap, yala. aku ble buh iklan2 mua kat blog ang n then bulan2 dpt payment. seriesly, aku xtaw pun pasai2 wat duit ngn blog by putting some advertisement on it.aku just gelak ja without any reply. ya, aku pasan, byk gak blog2 yg aku singgah ada nuffnag(betui ka eja ni), ada iklan nu, ada iklan ni, macam2 iklan la. siap kdg2 post yg depa tulih, tgh2 syok baca, ble plak ada iklan. peh, sempoi siot da mcm tgk TV da, ble ada iklan tgh2. hahaha.well, as for myself, aku actually xsuka sangat nk buh2 iklan2 mua kat blog aku.bkan sbb aku xmau duit ka pa, it just that, blog yg aku cipta 2 taun lepaih n counting, adalah tempat utk aku luahkan perasaan aku, tempat aku maki hamun org yg wat cibai ngn aku, tempat aku freeze any sweet or damnest moment of myselft so that when i re-read everything i can goes. "ooo ya, benda ni penah jadik kat aku dulu..".. tu tujuan aku wat blog. bkn nak wat duit. plus, aku sendri pun xtaw yg ada org baca ka x blog aku, contoh mcm blog Eny, peh skali satu post dia tulih, berpuluh2 comment masuk, aku, satu pun nk dpt satu komen pun susah.ahhahaha. xkesah pun. sbb apa yg aku tulih adalah utk aku. kalu ada org len baca, its a credit la kan.hahaha.ok2, da melalut d ani. my point is, i xmau nk buh iklan2 mua kat blog aku. final.orang len nk buat, buatlah,but not me. i guess underground style gets me this time. no mainstream, no public known of appearance, juts be what your want. hahaha. reminder, ni blog aku,aku ble wat apa aku suka, aku ble tulih apa aku nak,aku ble tambah buang apa aku nak, n macam2 lagi la. adios amigo!

p/s-baru pasan. aku tulih post ni dalam bahasa melayu. peh, da lama xtulih dlm BM.haha. pasan mat saleh tui aku ni.hahahaha

Wave Your Flag

Artist-K'Naan
Song- Wavin' Flag

When i get older, they'll call me freedom
Just like a Waving Flag.

[Chorus]
When I get older, I will be stronger,
They'll call me freedom, just like a Waving Flag,
And then it goes back, and then it goes back,
And then it goes back

Born to a throne, stronger than Rome
but Violent prone, poor people zone,
But it's my home, all I have known,
Where I got grown, streets we would roam.
But out of the darkness, I came the farthest,
Among the hardest survival.
Learn from these streets, it can be bleak,
Except no defeat, surrender retreat,

So we struggling, fighting to eat and
We wondering when we'll be free,
So we patiently wait, for that fateful day,
It's not far away, so for now we say

[Chorus]
When I get older, I will be stronger,
They'll call me freedom, just like a Waving Flag,
And then it goes back, and then it goes back,
And then it goes back

So many wars, settling scores,
Bringing us promises, leaving us poor,
I heard them say, love is the way,
Love is the answer, that's what they say,
But look how they treat us, Make us believers,
We fight their battles, then they deceive us,
Try to control us, they couldn't hold us,
Cause we just move forward like Buffalo Soldiers.

But we struggling, fighting to eat,
And we wondering, when we'll be free
So we patiently wait, for that faithful day,
It's not far away, but for now we say,

[Chorus] 2x

(Ohhhh Ohhhh Ohhhhh Ohhhh)
And everybody will be singing it
(Ohhhh Ohhhh Ohhhhh Ohhhh)
And you and I will be singing it
(Ohhhh Ohhhh Ohhhhh Ohhhh)
And we all will be singing it
(Ohhh Ohh Ohh Ohh)

[Chorus] 2x

When I get older, when I get older
I will be stronger, just like a Waving Flag,
Just like a Waving Flag, just like a Waving flag
Flag, flag, Just like a Waving Flag

p/s-wave your flag guys. be proud of ur own national flag-JALUR GEMILANG. lagu ni theme song world cup.

Secrets Makes Us Closer

simple conversation

F: jangan gitau kak aku aku smoke.
A: awat plak?
F: ang cam xkenai dia.
A:ooo. ok2. aku cam xble caya lagi yg ang smoke.hahaha
F:ish ang ni. well, aku saja nk try, orang cakap besh.
A:pala otak ang besh.
F:abih awat ang isap?
A: aku rokok ni dah jadik keperluan idup da.
F: huh.
A: pasni, kalu nak cakap la, aku bagi.
F:yaka? mekasih. sayang ang.
A: yala tu.

End Of Conversation..

F