No Words Can Describe The Feeling At This Time

Good Old Days

lepaih baca blog bulan dimana si beton ni ckp yg dia rendu time2 semasa part 3 wat aku cma termenung seketika dan mengimbau kembali kenangan2 dulu time sem2 yg dah lepaih. plg aku rindu ialah zaman2 diman kami suma stil dok dlm kolej. bkn KTU, tapi Malinja. A315, A220, A011. suma ni ialah tempat aku menjejakkan punggok selama berada di malinja. seriesly rindu. sejak dr part 1 smpai awai part 4 kot dok kat sana. last2 kena halau beramai2 ke KTU, mmg aku fuck tol management kolej malinja. so pa yg wat aku syg sgt kat malinja? kita stat dr part 1. pa yg aku xble lupa time part1 dulu ialah cmna dulu aku ngn ajam hari2, tiap2 malam akn travel fly ek blok b utk lepak kat bilik ijat. senang ciuta bilik ijat tu mmg port bdk2 DPA r.tidoq, mkn, smoke suma kat sana.pastu igt zaman2 outing naek bus. tggu bus nk outing, beli stock rokok utk smggu.sorok rokok bila pak guard wat rush. kalu x lepak bilik ijat, aku ngn ajam akan lepak bilik meor ngn aimil.stat part 2 thing changed a bit sbb aku ajam ijat amini kluaq dr clas b n join clas d. thats the born of DPA outcasts. stat dr situ, aku ajam aimil ngn fizi rapat. agak gay r frenship kami berempat. part 2 aku ngn ajam jadik rumate,share locker n rumate ngn rafi n adha include alip skali r walupun dia xrumate tp bilik A220 tu dah mcm bilik dia r.tringat zaman2 part 2 di mn kami akan slalu lepak kat fudcourt ari2 usha awek2, hari2.peh, sweet memory.pastu stay up ari2, dgq adha akan ngigau setiap mlm. part 1 stat mula aktiviti overnite, penang r port kami.part 2 gak kami plg aktif karoke. gian gila babi.tidoq merata. kalu xtidoq bilik sendri, carik kami kat bilik aimil, xpun bilik fizi.part 2 gak stat happy dooms day. sapa2 pny bday mmg kena prank gila2 babi.bilik baby,awe ngn boy akan jadik bilik penahanan dan setiap mangsa akan dok atas kerusi keramat. apstu pa gi. teloq,tepung,ayaq longkang,ayaq kencing, cat kapuq suma mula terbang n kami akan mula maen kejaq2 keliling blok. xble lupa suma tu.part 3 kami dah stat mula blk aktiviti lepak bilik ijat.ari2 lepak sana maen PES. suma akan turun maen game lawan each other.aku gak xble lupa time part 3 kami sanggup overnite semata2 nk tgk Man U lawan AC Milan dlm Champs League. fizi pny smgt sanggup sponsor duit keta.part 4 walaupun sat ja aku plg xble lupa time kami nk pi makan kat luaq maki suma 9 org sumbat masuk dlm keta MyVi ijat. 9 org skali satu keta. bygkan. suma org usha plek but still we dun give the fuck. but then, its all end bcause kami kena dok luaq dah kat KTU.mmg ser. tapi suma sweet memory kat malinja xkn ble aku lupa.

Winner Take iT aLL

each time, i gave in.
each time, i back down.
each time, i let u have it.
each time, i let u win.
each time , i surrender.
each time, i just keep it quiet.
each time, i take the blame.
each time, its all my fault.
each time, its all about you.
but now, no more.
this time, i spoke out.
this time, i fought.
this time, i argue.
this time, i wont let you have it.
this time, i refuse the blame.
this time, its all about me.
this time, i win

I Miss The Time When U Help Me Light Up My Ciggys

even though what i love to do, she against it but i glad she notice the simplest thing about me. well babe, its winston my dear but mildseven. yeah, i smoke winston only , others its just for fun. now i remember the first time meeting u, i was smoking mildseven crap out of me n its nice that u notice n remember the brand of ciggys even though u hate it,fuck it a lot when i smoked. well one other thing, i never asked me to stop, lesser thats the only thing u wish for. n u didnt act patehticly when im smoking around u. how pathetic? u know some people when they didnt like smoker around them, they'll close they nose, all the acting cough. well im only up for a lil middle finger for those motherfucker. u dun like it, step away, fuck ur self up n move. smokers will alway be smokers dued. but not u babe. eventhough deep inside u fuck it much, but u'll stay for the the sake of me. i wonder, why? but i dun wanna ask cause it leads to arkward conversation. well, eventhough its all over, still i miss all the gud ol times

Confused Is An Expression Of Lying

Pain Is In The Eyes Not In the Heart.
But What If The Heart Is Fracture?

Pain Is An Emotion Not A Feeling.
But What If The Meaning Is To Close to Differ?

Pain Is An Expression Nevertheless.
But What If The Expression Is To Good To Be Truth?

Pain Is In The Mind Not In The Life
But What If The Life Is Sucking From Beneath?

Pain Is Drowning Is The Surface
But What If The Surface Is So Damn Suffocated?

Pain Is Lying Not The Motion Of Not Telling The Truth.
If Its Then, I Am In Pain

Legion

"I watched you trample that gift. I've watched you kill other over race and greed, waging war over dust, rubble and words in old books. And yet in the midst of all this darkness, i see some people who will not be bowed. i see some people who will not give up. Even when they know hope is lost. Some people, who realize that being lost is so close to be found."

-Micheal

Where Is Jia?

well lets rewind the timeline a bit. i'll take u back to the last semester. i found this lil fella.well its not a crush of anything but i had to admit, shes someone. we never really talk a lot but we always bumps into each other all around campus last semester. we even met at Center Square for that matter. she alway make me smile when we bumps into each other,always everytimes. we even snap a pic together in one of the event i organize last semester. believe it or not, i dun even know her name right until today. funny huh? well, thats last semester side of story.lets snap back into reality n forward back to current timeline, this semester. well to be frank, its not that im hoping or what, but we never bumps into each other, not even once this semester. n last nite, when im all alone by myself, shes kept playing around my mind for quiet sometimes. she kept me wondering,where teh hell shes been. is she transfer to other campus, its she avoiding me, or maybe its just taht our path in campus is just not the same anymore n we didnt have the chance to bumps into each other anymore, but still i never saw her at any of the event i organize this semester, why? so today i make the "bold move". i ask straight to one of her collegue about her. well, its still unsatisfying cuz from the conversation i had with her collegues all i know is her name, Jia.when i ask bout her, wheres her allabout her collegue when offline. well, i guess shes will stil be in my mind for quite sometime until i get the solid answer bout her. yet again, this is not a story of a crush, its jus sumthing that bothering me. thats all.

Aku Xsuka Lagu Indon Tapi Lagu ni Meaningful & Ditujukan Kepada Anda

Song-DOY
Band-Kangen Band


Sejenak ku terdiam dan membisu
Membuatku lelah dan tanpa arah
Coba mengertilah coba pahamilah
Arti cinta sesungguhnya

Dan letakkan hatimu disini
Ku berjanji kau tak ‘kan kusakiti
Sejuk sepi sedang nampak hanya bintang
Hanya kaulah yang ku sayang

Ku latih kau terbang diatas awan
Agar kau tegar dan tak terkalahkan
Jadilah jagoan seperti yang ku inginkan
Agar dapat ku banggakan

Namun sikapmu kini telah berubah
Membuatku resah dan serba salah
Kau berdiam diri membuat nadiku berhenti
Katakanlah hei kekasih

Reff:
Coba kau pikirkan, coba kau renungkan
Apa yang kau inginkan telah aku lakukan
Coba kau pikirkan coba kau renungkan
Tanya bintang-bintang hanya kaulah yang ku sayang
Coba kau katakan apa yang kau inginkan
Apa yang kau butuhkan telah aku berikan
Coba kau katakan apa yang kau inginkan

Back to Reff:2x

Me+You

meet Berry

me with Berry

Berry n The Couple

the couple represent Us

UEFA Champions League- AC Milan VS Manchester United

Man U stat first half mmg maen cma budak2 r. seriesly, aku igt nk kena bantai truk dah. tgk r sapa maen defense. ferdinard ngn j.evans. ish2. minit ke3 dah kena setepek ronaldinho score.goal chantek plak tu.reflect dr kaki evans. pastu man u makin dok stable dah maen. n in 33rd minutes, scholes bukak pluang man u ngn score. yg shioknya, goal scholes mmg ngokngek pny goal. dia sepak angin ja, tapi bola kena kaki kiri dia n masuk goal. haha. mmg lawak. masuk second half brulah man u maen betui2. ferguson bwk kluaq nani, well nani pun xperform sgt maen, masuk lah bajak itam man u yg sorang ni, antonnio valencia. dia masuk xsmpai semenet, truih dpt bola n dia cross. cross dia mg sial pny lawak. rooney header relax ja masuk goal. n then, selang brapa menet pastu tu flecther plak wat hero. dia through pass chantek pny lepaih dua defense n bola dpt kat rooney n rooney pa lg, tanduk relax selamba ja masuk goal. dida, keeper Milan xble watpa except nga2 tgk bola masuk kena jaring. around minit ke 80+, Milan mula nk mangkit. seedorf yg masuk minit ke 71 gantikan Beckham score. seriesly, goal dia lawa gila babi. aku rasa goal seedorf yg plg chantek game td. dia ole evans relax ja masuk goa. milan mula nk stat up tapi dh terlambat. man u menang 3-2. yg aku xpuas atinya ujung2 gam tetiba time Pato bwk bola nk serang Evra tackle dia, tapi tetibanya Micheal Carrick yg kena kad kuning yg kedua n kena kad merah truih. Carrick pun terkejut beruk gak r awat tetiba dia yg kena kad merah. tapi dia wat relax kluaq pdg slamba sbb dia taw, Man U konpem menang. papa pun great game r td. syg Carrick kena red card, kena gantung game. xdak dah r gandingan mantap midfield Man U Fletcher ngn Carrick. syg tol! ok, aku rsa x sia2 aku xtidoq tgk game td sbb mmg besh. seriesly besh

Kisah 4 Jejaka

fyi, post ni da berkaitan ngn post lama aku "We R Not SkoolMate, We R Not War Buddies, We R Gay".



ni aku nk story skit pasai 4 org jejaka. first jejaka kita panggil dia D. dia ni special skit. kalau org tgk dia konpem org akan rasa yg dia ni jenis yg xkan ada gurlfren punya. sbb dia dia happy go lucky, ceria, suka wt lawak. nk yg plg penting dia ni jenis mulut xcover line pnya r. kalu nk kutuk org memang direct dia apku depan2.n satu lagi fact pasai D ialah mamat ni pantang nampak pompuan. aklu nmpk pompuan dia akan usha atas bawah. seriesly. n kalu nk jadikan kayu ukur, ble gunakan D.sbb dia ble determine physical awek tu apa yg xkena n apa yg kena.seriesly itulah D. tapi mungkon ramai yg xkan pecaya D sebenarnya dah commited dlm relationship. dah lebih 2 taun dah kot.walaupun D slalu wat mcm x care kat awek dia.kira cara dia sembang mcm dia kapel ngn awek dia hanya atas dasar duit. tapi realitinya, dia sgt syg awek dia. bukti? dia ngn awek dia penah break up dua kali dah n tehn sambung blk r. on the time tgh break up, D akan slalunya jadik lain kot.dia akn tetiba shave suma bulu2 kat muka dia sbb frust. nk taw dia sayang x sayang kat awek dia? slalu time awai sem dia akan bank in rm1500 just fror his gurl to buy all the medic books that she require. n yes, awek D student medic.itu kisah pasai D.




skrg kita masuk kisah pasai A plak. A ni pun special. special camna? kalu usha physical, helo effect la bak kata subject HR @ first impression yg org slalu bg ialah "makaih garangnya muka mamat ni, konpem xfrenly". well, impression tu aku gak yg bagi first time aku jumpa A. n aku bukanlah 100% salah sbb A mmg sgt frenly awai, sbb dia ni jenis yg pendiam. sgt pendiam. tap bila lama2 dah kawan ngn dia, kenai ngn dia, hampa suma akan meluat ngn dia. prangai cma babi. bkn meluat pa, cuma akan fed up r nagn dia. kira meluat2 manja r.haha. dia xkan penah jawap soklan yg ang bagi straight, dia akan wat lawak bodo dia dulu. seriesly, aku rasa antara k4 4 jejaka yg aku cita dlm post ni, A la yg plg lawak gila babi.seriesly. sbb dia jenis yg pendiam, bygknlah kalu org diam wat lawak.konpem pecah prut.hahaha



ok, kita masuk plak C. C ni pun bg aku special. dia la yg tertua antara 4 4 jejaka ni.tapi, xmature sgt. kalu lepak ngn dia, korang xkan rasa yg dia lebih tua dari korang. tapi pa yg aku nmpk kat C ni ialah dia sbnrnya inderpendent. dia ble hidup tanpa bantuan. kira dia ble berdiri atas kaki sendri cuma xdiberi peluang. C gak bkn jenis pemarah, aku xpenah tgk dia marah.C gak actualy ada crush kat sorang pompuan ni. hanya 5 org dlm dunia ni yg taw pasai crush C ni.haha.ok one more thing, something special bout C ni. ok, C ni umur dia 20++, tapi sepanjang hayat dia dia xpenah kapel. bygkan? kira dia mmg completely reflect of the impression of "true virgin". i mean come on la kan, tera aku pun dah penah kapel n aku lg muda dr C, sgt2 muda akalu nk compare.well bila tny C jawap sng, blum rasa nk kapel. actually aku respek kat C sbb well wats teh point of being in couple while we gonna end up breaking up aite? bek xyah kapel, so C i salute u!



ok lastly kita masuk B. wel si B ni pun special gak. kalu nk taw, aku yg aku nmpk, B ni actualy dia jenis yg xkenai diri sendri. dia xtaw nk determine apa yg dia nak, and apa yg dia xmau. dia sering konpius.tapi one gud thing bout B is he is a leader or at least wanna be a leader. nak kata gud leader, xtaw r nk determine gud leader tu cmna kan, tapi kira dia ble r lead.tambah2 kalu dlm sitaution dimana sapa pun xmau lead, B will take the lead.satu lg fact pasai B ni dia slalu disalah ertikan. org slalu label dia macam2 n kbykn xbetul pun.dia slalu wat cam xkesah tapi aku taw deep inside dia sgt kesah pa yg org kata or act blkg dia.tapi dia wat2 xkesah. bout love palk, mamat ni ble dikategorikan sbg plek gak r.sbb well tipu r kalu laki ckp xmau carik pompuan yg hot2 or lawa2 kan. kami yg pleknya taste mamat ni, dia sllau jatuh ati kat org yg kitakan xsangka.suma org akan slalunya cam "are serious u r falling for her?" bkn nk kata gurl2 yg dia suak tu xhot or x lawa cuam macam xpecaya yg org cma B ble fall for all of that girls.well to la B.

well, thats conclude this post. nak kenai 4 4 jejaka dlm cita ni tgk pic bawah. tapi aku xkan gitau yg mn satu A,B,C, ngn D. n yes, aku adalah di antara A B C n D.yg mn satu? decide la sendri.haha

Old Buddies Y'All

i love penang. really really love penang. its a place where miracle happen n its a place where we can reconnect with old buddies.to both of u, thanx. i really had a great time tonites. i miss the gud old days where we can hang out anytime we want, any place we want. but the thing is, things arent the way it used to. we had a different life now.seperate one i suppose. u guys had ur way, i had my own way. that why sometimes i even regret following my dream to pursuit my further study cuz its tearing us apart. well gud thing we aint that far away from gone forever. i love u guys till the end ok, just keep in touch. im just sorry that im not gonna be able to stay in penang as long as i wanted. i really wanna to, but the path i chose is different from yours. maybe u guys gonna understand it when u choose to further ur study like me. well, by that time, we will be far more seperated then now. even worse. only thing we cna do ,is hoping that we wont loose the frenship bridge that we build since we in high skool.wish both of u gudlux in ur new career life. wait up, i'll be in ur level any time soon.

Dedicated Specially To You My Lovely

Band-Skillet
Song-Lucy
Album-Awake


V1
Hey Lucy, I remember your name
I left a dozen roses on your grave today
I’m in the grass on my knees, wipe the leaves away
I just came to talk for a while
I got some things I need to say

Chorus
Now that it’s over
I just wanna hold her
I’d give up all the world to see that little piece of heaven looking
back at me
Now that it’s over
I just wanna hold her
I’ve gotta live with the choices i made
And I can’t live with myself today

V2
Hey Lucy, I remembered your birthday
They said it’d bring some closure to say your name
I know I’d do it all different if I had the chance
But all I got are these roses to give
And they can’t help me make amends

Bridge
Here we are
Now you’re in my arms
I never wanted anything so bad
Here we are
For a brand new start
Living the life that we could’ve had

Me and Lucy walking hand in hand
Me and Lucy never wanna end
Just another moment in your eyes
I’ll see you in another life
In heaven where we never say goodbye

Bridge
Here we are, now you’re in my arms
Here we are for a brand new start
Got to live with the choices I’ve made
And I can’t live with myself today

Me and Lucy walking hand in hand
Me and Lucy never wanna end
Got to live with the choices I’ve made
And I can’t live with myself today

Hey Lucy, I remember your name

Words N Jokes

somesay words are sometimes is sharper than a sword.i damn true. some words that we said in our daily life, a simple jokes that is freaking funny to us, may not be the same to others. to some others, its an insult.some might not be cool about the jokes that we made.eventhough it seem simple to us, it is not to some others. choose ur words next time, n choose a joke about someone. think before post guys.to whom may concerns, on my behalf, im sorry that u get tangled inside that stupid jokes.i dun mean u to be in that, for us its just a normal conversation. sorry again

Theres No Me If Theres No You

like a lighter to ciggys
like a mug to coffee
like a game to boys
like a make up to girls
unseperatable
yet complete each other
but if a choice given
all willing to go their own path
a ciggys want to light it self up without the help of lighter
coffee wanna spreads the floor but mug wont let it
a game wanna pause but boys will always be boys
make up wanna stop but girls will always be girls.
so goes with relationship
we complete each other
we need each other
we support each other
but what if none of it exist in a relationship?
well,
thats mean it is a fake!

Im The Reject!

your hand not mine to hold
speak to me
all you gotta do is keep it strong
move along
move along
gotta make it through
even when the hope is gone
move along
move along

Meant For Me?

Kenapa saya asyik rindu awak???

Kadang2 kesian pulak tgk die...

Bole x kalau saya xnak rindu dia????

Xpyh nk bodo sgt laa..sbb kau pon same je...ckp org kunun!!!Ceih...talk to the hand ^_^

Could i miss him?????

Owh my dior,i really miss him...^_^

Saya sayang anda;)..Anda bagaimana??

Waiting for the right person..Perlu ke nak tipu aku???? Benci kau..

Kinda miss that words from ur mouth...;)

is all this above about me? are you talking bout me? answer me please. i really need to know. cuz im kinda confused rite now. cuz u keep sending me fault signal.again n again.justify please!

You Bring Me Your Bullets I'll Bring You My Love

take your gun
reload.
fire at will
hit me hard
aim for my chest
cause its definitely hurt me the most
aim for my heart
cause its stop me breathing
reload again your mag
fire at will,again
again and again
reload again n again
fire again and again
till i stop moving
till i stop living
till i stop breathing
fire till you satisfy
fire till theres no more round to reload
fire till your gun jammed
but no matter what
no matter how hard
no matter such pain
no matter how many bullet hit my heart
i will never stop
even its cause me my life
i will never stop loving you
i will keep coming at ya
i will keep on going
cause the love in my heart is for you to gain
not for me to vain
so yes,
you bring me your bullets
cause i'll bring you my love

I Refused To Believe!

people are naturally bad. thats what my lecturer (sir badrul azmier) said to me awhile back when im just stepping in into the campus life as a semester one student.life which somesay promise u with a colourful n joyful. i refuse to believe him at that time.well, it just a kid that time,just git my freedom away from my parent so yeah im a bit naive back then.as i grow older, gaining some experience of life,somehow i stil refuse to believe him. well now i do. yeah, people are naturally bad. some will put on smiling face in front of u jus to make us believe taht tehy r our safety net, our travelling pants n so called BFF. but behind our back, get ready! cuz the back stabbing knife alway come from the people who we thought was our frens, n stil r.yeah, jealousy is the main heart infection which most of the people have. no matter how nice we try, no matter how great fren we are, stil theres some else will keep on bothering them, jealous of.in teh time of hardness thats the the way to find out who is the one should we be calling a frens. not when we r happy or enjoying life.tahts fuck up show on the set.n as always, the person who we taught is the enemy, is the oen who reach out for us whne we were drowning.thats the bottomline guys. dun trust anybody cuz after all, we are all bad person.

The Outcasts-First Session