The Difference Between Love And Like

In Front Of The Person You Love Your Heart Beats Faster,
In Front Of The Person You Like You Always Get Happy.

In Front Of The Person You Love Winter Seems Like Spring
But In Front Of The Person You Like Winter Is Just A Beautiful Winter.

If You See Right Through The Eyes Of The Person You Love You Blush,
But If You See Through The Eyes Of The Person You Like You Smile.

In Front Of The Person You Love You Can't Really Say Whats On Your Mind,
But In Front Of The Person You Like You Can Say What Ever You Want.

In Front Of The Person You Love You Tend To Get Shy,
But In Front Of The Person You Like You Can Be Yourself.

You Can't Look Straight Into The Eyes Of Someone You Love,
But You Can Alway Smile When You Look Straight Into The Eyes Of Someone You Like.

When Your Love One Cry, You Cry With Them,
But When Someone You Like Cry, You Comfort Them.

The Person You Love Comes To Your Mind Every Two Minutes,
Because The Feelings Of Love Starts From The Eyes,
And The Feeling Of Like Starts From The Ears.

So If You Stop Liking Someone You Just Cover Your Ears,
But If You Try To Close Your Eyes,
Love Turns To Tears And Remain In Your Heart,
Forever After.

Blood Fued

We Cross Through Time And Space,
Literally Through It All Just To Find Each Other Again,
After All We Been Through, Still Nothing Is Been Forgiven,
We Still Find Our Way To Shoot At Each Other,
Still Try To Get On Each Other Nerves.

Ultimatum Given, Attitudes And Position Shift,
Still Nothing Ever Really Changed At All,
Its Just One Stupid Cost Of Living,
No Matter What Our Constants Are,
We Still Try To Find Each Other Wrong Doing And Focus On That,
Blood Have Spilled Over, Live Losses Among Another
But In The End, The Differences Rules Over.

United Had Never Been Our Strong Perspectives,
That On Of The Reason Why We Keep On Loosing The Battle,
Over And Over Again,
Faces Changes By When Times Took It Tolls,
Alliances Made Under The Terms Of Survival,
Yet Again, We Are Loosing Our Self,
The Blame It's Not "Others" To Hold,
It's Our Own To Be Perfected,
There's No Cursed, There's No Bad Luck, It's Just Simple Rules Of Believe,
Destiny's Call Upon But No One Willing To Step Up,
Many Tries But Failed In The End,
That's The Costs Every Single One Of Us Pay With Such High Price,
In The End, It Takes Our Life.
Why?
Just Because We Can't Let Out Lil' Disagreement Slide Away,
The Blood Fued Continue, Forever!

p/s- Tibute To LOST TV SERIES!

I Am One Pacthetic Loser

No Matter How Prepared You Are,
No Matter How Ready You Set Up Your Mind,
No Matter How String To Try To Put Your Face On,
No Matter How Cool You Try To Act On,
But No Matter What Once You Screwed Up,
Everything Starting To Fall In Line.

Yes I Did Mentally Prepared To Face The Consequences,
6 Month I Tried To Round Up My Mind Around The Facts That I Screwed Up,
But Once The Time To Face The Music,
I Failed,
Emotionally I Loose To The Dying Fact That I'm Lacking Behind,
Yes, I Know I Screwed Up.
I Deserve This Torture!
Please, Give Me More!
I'm Begging You!
Gimme More!!

p/s- If One More Person Asking Me About My Continuation Study, I'm Kill Him/Her For Sure!

1Malaysia- The B-Side Story

Kali ni aku betui2 akan tulih dlm bahasa Melayu. Series. Ok, penah dengaq konsep 1Malaysia? Sapa xpenah dengaq baek, nyah dari Malaysia pi pindah dok tempat laen okay? Tolak tepi suma politik2, xkesah sama ada anda pangkah nama2 cabangan parti, kerajaan atau tidak, konsep 1Malaysia sudah jadik sebati dalam kehidupan seharian rakyat Malaysia. Tak kira di mana, tak kira apa masa, konsep 1Malaysia acapkali jadik sebutan dan buah mulut orang Malaysia. Walaupun tidak dipraktikkan secara menyeluruh, tetapi sekurang-kurangnya orang tetap tau apa tu 1Malaysia.

Apa contoh terbaik 1Malaysia? Kalau ikut apa yang digariskan oleh Najib, 1Malaysia ialah konsep dimana semua rakyat Malaysia, berkongsi negara Malaysia bawah satu rumpun yang sama dalam keadaan harmoni dah hidup tanpa prejudis antara satu sama lain. Contoh paling ringkas ialah, ambil satu salah jenis kedai makan, Mamak atau Kopitiam. Kita boleh lihat sendri bagaimana suma penduduk Malaysia, tak kira bangsa atau kaum suma makan dan lepak di Mamak atau Kopitiam. Mungkin jarang untuk kita lihat penduduk Malaysia yang berlainan bangsa lepak sekali pekena teh tarik sama2 tapi masih ada sesetengah yang boleh dibanggakan. Koman2 ada la kan.

Bagi aku, contoh terbaik perlaksanaa konsep 1Malaysia berlaku yang aku tengok depan mata aku sendiri 2 3 hari lepas. Aku baru balik keja dan aku pi Shell nak isi minyak moto kapcai aku. Dah abih isi aku blah r dari situ. Dekat simpang ada satu lori tengah jalan stret dan satu keta Camry rasanya tengah nak kluaq simpang tu. Selamba rock lori tu lori tu jalan stret ja laju dan hampir langgaq keta Camry tu. Dua dua kenderaan berhenti serta merta. Ini adalah apa yang dua2 pihak sembang. Aku ble dengaq dengan clear sebab aku ada depan tu.

Camry: Xda Tengok Ka?
Lori: Sorry2.
Camry- Puki, Bawak Elok2 La!

Apa yang special sangat depa dok sembang yang ada kaitan dengan 1Malaysia? Okay, orang yang bawak lori tu India, yang bawak Camry tu Cina. Perbualan mereka dalam bahasa Melayu, dah orang Cina tersebut guna perkataan "PUKI". Seriesly, aku jarang dengaq Cina maki guna puki. Standed makian yang akan seorang Cina katakan biasanya, LANCAU atau CIBAI. betul x? Tapi Cina tu guna perkataan puki, kata makian yang feymes dikalangan orang Melayu. Apa yang spesel lagi pasai pertelingkahan depa ialah depa gaduh dalam bahasa melayu. Mana nak jumpa org India ngan Cina sembang dalam bahasa Melayu tol x? Itu, adalah contoh paling sempurna di mana konsep 1Malaysia dipraktikkan. Situasi dimana 2 berlainan bangsa bertembung dalam satu pertelingkahan tetapi masih menggunakan bahasa kebangsaan dan menggunakan bahasa makian kebangsaan. Itu, 1Malaysia.

Panggil aku kurang ajar tetapi itulah realiti sebenar penduduk Malaysia.


p/s- Akhirlah, berjaya jugak aku tulih dalam bahasa Melayu tanpa ayat2 yang skema. Maybe ada sesetengah ayat yang ala2 skema, tapi ble la kan? hahaha. Peace out!

Turning Point Of A Pure Hearted

All Our life, We Dream
Dream About Having It All
And Yet There Very Few Of Us Few Live That Dream
We All Imagine Whats Its Feel Like To Be A Big Superstar
All The World That We Wake, Just Trying To Survive Another Day
For Years, Thought If I Was Doing The Right Thing I Will Be Rewarded
I Find It Out The Hard Way, That If You Want Something You Take It!
Have I Let A Lot Of People Down?
Of Course I Have
But That's Doesn't Matter
There's No Turning Back Now
At Turning Point, I Will Take Again At Any Course
Celebrate The Anti-Christ Of The Goods.

As I Look Down At The World
From 25000 Feet Above
It Become More And More Clear To Me
That I Was Always, Always In Control Of My Own Destiny
I Was Always Above It All
I Was Always Better Then Everybody Else
As I Catered To The Creatures Of The Night
Looking For Acceptance
They Look At Me And Said, "Your Acceptance Is Meaningless"
It Did Not Bring Me Fame
Because Importantly, It Did Bring Me Wealth
I Am The "Here", I Am The "Now"
I Am The Anti-Christ Of The Goods

The Gunners Against The Red Devils

Lama siot aku x sembang pasai bola kat blog aku ni. And satu lagi, lama dah aku xtulih dalam bahasa Ibunda aku. hahaha. okay2, sorry if kalau selama ni blog aku nampak macam bajet semacam ja asyik tulih omputih ja. Bukan pa aku kalau tulih dalam bahasa Melayu nanti ayat jadik skema len macam ja, tu aku maleh tulih bahasa Melayu.HAHAHA!

Alright, back to football. The grandest stage of all is happening tonight at Old Trafford when The Red Devils welcoming their biggest rivalry in football, Arsenal and the Big Guns to their house. A match that involved Manchester United and Arsenal always bring good stuffs together and its really fun to watch those boys fighting their asses to be on the top. Only this time, it is for the top spot. As Chelsea is dropping their ace performance, it seems like The Gunners and The Red Devils is the only available contenders for the title as champion in English football. Let face it, Chelsea draw with my favourite team Tottenham Hotspurs last night, and the biggest news is, bigger than Frank Lampard making his appearance back is that Didier Drogba miss the penalty and Heurelho Gomes magnificiently save the penalty right after he carelessly miss to punch out Drogba shot earlier which cause him the ball hitting the net. So, the only question remain is which team gonna remain on top right after the epic match tonight?

Lets check the statistic shall we? Starting with Alex Ferguson boys, Man U starting 2010/2011 campaign with 15 match without a lost and now holding the second place in the league table with a game in hand(thanks to Blackpool's field been frozen over). the players? Dimitar Berbatov which such perfect perform, eagerly to take on Gunners with his great record scoring 5 goal against Blackburn Rover a few week back. Alongside Berbatov, there's come Wayne Rooney. Nothing can be as such headline if Rooney perform well tonight and bring him back to be one of the fierce some striker in the league. He desperately need a goal to shut up all the critics if not he will still remain in shadow, so Wayne please shine tonight.

Talking about great team, The Gunners is especially one of them. Young, eager, powerful enough to be taking serious, Arsenal squad had perform very well this season an they are thrust for glory since they haven't won any silverware, any recognition trophy in the matter fact since 2005 so they want this season campaign to be something that we can be proud of. As the player of Emirates flag, no one is better to be aware of rather than French young gun, Samir Nasri. He is the player that United Defense need to be taken seriously and watch carefully. But Nasri is no Cristiano Ronaldo. Nasri is more a team player then Ronaldo. That's Arsenal. They work as a team, not finger crossing hope for one player to shine an save their asses. Lead by young and charismatic captain, Cesc Febregas, Arsenal is a squad of hungry wolves than ready to strike in pack.Watch Out, Devils! The Gunners are bringing big big artillery to you doorstep.

Once again, which team is gonna secure their spot in top of the table, we are gonna find it out tonight!

p/s- sembang nak buh post dalam bahasa Melayu last2 tulih gak dalam omputih. bajet!

Hail The Villains

Any organisation, big or small, future thinking or not, will always involve in our bitchy thing, POLITICS. Like it or nor, politics is like a disease spreads through every inch of the vein which what make a organisation run. But the only thing left to question is whether politic make it smoother or make it even worse. People tense to try out and use politic as a tool to take them higher in term of achievement. Hate them, blame them, but they are the one that should be call smart, because they used any available source in which will be beneficial for career building. It may seem dirty, but yet again, is there anything pure in organisation?

Put aside the thinking of hard work in your line of work, because it doesn't really matter at this point. Try as hard as you can, you'll still going nowhere because without any influential back-up, you always reached a dead end. To be able to reach the top, you need a helping hand. A helping hand, with "strong" enough to pull you up, climbing faster then anyone else to the top of the authority. Back stabbing? its just butter and bread. You have to be cold heart enough to play the game.

One way of another, politics will get you. all you can do, is survive n don't take part. Yes, it may lead you nowhere, but you are still secure, you are still in the game, you are still surviving from any chance of being sacked. If you try to be the righteous one, believe me, you are exposing yourself. Because you can't fight it, politics is untouchable. You'll end up in the wrong side of the fight once you choose to do the right thing. Its okay, to let down your belief and principles, because in organisation, there are no rules book. Everything that happen surround you, its a judging eyes.Beware, and stay survive!

p/s- DPA, you want me to be an political science student, there you have it! I'm in the game!

What Really Cooking Behind

Call me stalker, but I'm just an observer. I prefer seeing thing with my own bloody eyes and think for the thing from all perspective there is. Yeah, some might labeled my kind as stalker but we are not. We loved seeing things that serve to us by everyone else and think. Weird huh? It's perfectly normal.

Lets drop the stalker stuff before I started rambling. Few days back, when I was working at Swenz kopitiam, a family came in. 5 happily seen family. A father, caring mother, one cute daughter and tough-act son. To be frank, from my eyes, they seem perfect happy family. Sharing dinner with laughter and such joy. Kinda make me think about my family when we had our family outing. From what i heard they just got out of cinema watching movie, Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows. They'd been talking about the movie all the time. When they walked out the restaurant, all I can think about that I wanna have a family of my own just like that, seriously.

A few hour later, a couple walked in my working place. Suprising enough, it's the dad from that happy couple with another woman. Guess what, she's Indonesian. Yeah, I in shocked. The very same happy dad that good with his kids walking proudly with another secret girlfriend to the same restaurant that he take his family for dinner a few hour ago. Come on dude, at least take her some place else okay. You just had dinner with your lovely wife here. damn it.

I know, one of my stand is don't judge people so I am not going to, all I'm gonna say is this, why in hell all married dude in Malaysia will always end up having affair with Indonesion girl? Ae they that hot? I don't know.

I Wish I Can Tell You This In Person

You've got a lot to say
for the one that walked away.
I give you take,
its the way it's always been

how do i know?
if i should stay or just go
the bottom line is this way that i'll never know

you've got a lot to say
for the one that pushed me away
i give you take
some things they'll never change
please change

these things take time to grow
it's been said that time heals wounds
but no, i won't be controlled
and so, this story goes

I know that I could be this way
I know that I could walk away

Please, stay away
Please, stay away
Please, stay away from me

Pure

Noor Hajar Binti Mohamad Rasdi

You Break Her Heart, I'm Gonna Break Your Leg.
You Mess Her Head, I'm Gonna Kick You Ball.
You Touch Her, I Swear To God I KILL YOU!

One Step Closer

Don't Ever Say I Didn't Give You A Chance, I Spread Plenty.
Don't Question My Heart, Because I've Gain Caution Fully.
Don't Hesitate Now, Because Time Is Running Out.
Don't Criticise Just Yet, Because You Don't Want To Shout It Out Loud.
Don't Blame Me For What Might Happen Next, I Did What I Must.
Don't Runaway, There's A Lot More Lust.
Don't Pretend No More Because Thing Have Changed.
Don't Crush Down To Earth Because It Might Not Stay The Same.
Don't Fight It To Hard, That Just Seem Silly.
Why? Because I've Move On And I Am So Sorry!

Stalking Is Somebody Hobby But Don't Make It A Daily Unpaid Job

Not that I'm keeping score, but you stalk me more than I do. Facebook, Tagged, Blogger Formspring, even my unactive Twitter account. Well, who's paranoid now? hahaha. Well, all I can say right now Karma aint that bitchy it just a simply concept of what goes around comes around. Goodluck on your search of finding what ever you're looking for. Trust me, it aint there. Keeping on rolling baby. Like I said, it just another cute cover to blow. ahaks.

p/s- I know You be smiling when you read this post. YES, it is for you!

Love The Way You Lie

Love is just another impression right?
So, just play along see where it lead you.

21 Aint Forever

146 days left. People keep on saying that age is just a number. Hell even I used to say that. Believe it of not, this statement only useful if it is under the matter of love. But in term of life, it does matter a lot. Take an example of working for a big damn company. Do you think all the corporate greedy guys willing to risk hiring any 20 and below years old to run the big show? Never in a million light year. Another interesting quote crossed my mind. "21 Forever". Well, as for this one, it's just silly. It's for those who never want to move on with their life to the next level and choose to stick with the basic and keep on living in fantasy. Good luck to you guys. Keep on living in or fantasy, living in fear to be exact.

146 days from now, I'll be 21. Why on earth is that matter to begin with? Well, as for me, I always put 21 as a benchmark. A benchmark within two things, two different world actually. The world between teenagers and adult, and 20 for me is the thin line between both or the changing period (which where I am at). But yet again, a question arise. Is it 21 really the time for people to change their status from teenager to adult? For me it is. Why? Because as you turn 21, you are eligible to vote in election. Government had already set up the age line which is 21 to be mature enough to make a decision of choosing the entitled and power house to rule the nation. Well, if the government said so, it must be count for something right? (BULLSHIT)

21. Wow! in 146 days I'll be turning 21. Through out this years, at the age of 20, I always assume that this is the time for me to involve, to change myself from the creepy lil teen whom always confused in life, whom always disagree and protest a lot, whom always didn't give a crap about anything toward some one whom matured, serious in life, successful, and wise. Well, me myself put that line to be cross. I set up the goal for myself and in 146 days i need to achieve that goal. Can I? To be completely frank, I can't give a straight answer. Yes, I admit I'd change a bit for who i am 2 years ago. I did realise the changes that happen to me personality-ly and from the perspective of life itself but I don't know whether I will be the man i thought I will in time. There's a lot work be done, there's a lot more changes need to be happen and I am still confused a bit. To hell I am.

Changes need sacrifice and as for now, there's a lot of stuff that I am not willing to let go just yet. Yes, I am still living in my own fantasy world and I am not planning on leaving it just yet. Procrastinating is my best buddy. Once I'm willing to be serious, to be responsible, to be the man of the hour, that is the time that Adam Ar-Rashid has step into the world of adulthood. My best guess is, I am still a young teenagers who live his life to the fullest and not ready to face the big world call reality. Once I done that, there no looking back. So, I am waiting for that time to come. A time for me to completely change. A time that when i look back I can simply say, "YES, I AM AN ADULT NOW"

p/s- I am still hoping to get a poetry collection book for my birthday. I didn't get any for my 20th Birthday so for my 21st I am crossing my finger! please, anyone!

You Just Another One Of My Mistakes

You are so beautiful,
You are the kind of girl
that has the chemicals that makes me fall in love
Beautiful, you are the kind of girl, that has the chemicals
That makes me fall in love Fall in love

Believing Against The White Flag

In the motion of fighting a losing battle, some smart ass may conclude that rising a white flag is the best way to put an end to the miserable lost cause. It's not completely idiotic move actually because why keep holding on if you know that in the end you are going to lose anyway, right? That's what most of us preferred. Hell, history proved that this is fact. People rather surrender to stay survive if they already know that there's no point in resisting if the bigger picture shown that we are not going to win in the end. That what survival is all about, surrender if there seem to be no hope left.

This is no a story about bloody war. This is just a story of fictional battle that every single one of us face everyday. We give up easily. We choose to stay down when reached to the point where's it seem to be a dead end. I'm not making a point where I'm the hero that keep on fighting until my final breathe. I'm not making a legend out of myself which hope to be remember in near future. I'm just a normal guy. I did surrender sometimes in my life when things are hard. I'm no hero. But the fact is, who does? We are all not Clark Kent.

The real reason for this post it that I wanna tell about an on-going battle I'm facing in my life. Nothing serious, it just a stupid fling. Yes, all fact directed me to the extent of proof showing that there is no hope in winning this battle. I know the fact that I'm going to lose in the end of the struggle. Usually, at this point, I'd raise my white flag already. But somehow, I'm still fighting. I'm fighting to win even though I know I'm going to lose. Still, my fighting spirit ain't going to fade away. That's faith. Yes, I do have faith that I'm going to win after all. I'm betting against myself, I know, but somehow, something keep me going. I am not planning of giving up, ever. I want to keep fighting. Because I do believe that I can pull it off. I am going to WIN! Mark my words.

p/s- Dear You, I'm not giving up. Brace yourself. I will succeed!

Can U Read This?

i cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mni d deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt!

The Ring Is Still On My Finger

Yes, pathetic maybe the right word to be call upon. Yes, false hope is maybe what I really counting on. Yes, dignity sacrificial is needed in my situation. Yes, desperate my had become my gene nowadays. Yes, I maybe a bragging bastard. Yes, I am acting cool when I'm supposed to be pissed off. Yes! Yes! Yes! Call me what ever you want, I don't give a shit. Pathetic is only a state of mine, not an action. maybe I am waiting for something that will never happen, period. But, I kept my hope high. Because I am a believer. I am someone stupid enough to dream. I am. Faith had become one of my new character building. Till the day i die, I'm gonna try to touch the sky.

Malaysia Will Remain Harmony Unless Theres Politics Involvemennt

Choose any chillax places. Place where you be in when you want to relax and hang out with our friends and buddies. Mamak stalls? Coffee houses? Even street hawker stalls? There's always hemegenous kind of people mixing together having a nice quality time of chit chat and small talk. Yes, Malaysia is one of the most harmonious country where any race can sit together under the same roof and sky while not giving each other the hatred glance. taka any Premier League match at a mamak stall. You'll see various type of Manchester United fans, Malays, Indian and Chinese sitting there's together, cheering when Rooney score a goal, cursing "BODOH!" all together when the Red Devil's army miss a shot. The most precious moment yet to share is half time break. All together will shout their opinions out on the first half performance. There's will always be a sweet disputes about the club latest news but when the second half whistle is blown, all together will unite again as one. Sweet isn't it?

Well it isn't as meaningful moment of unification if there's politics talk is involve. Take the same chillax place, Mamak stall. Every minutes, every moment there's always been a politics talk in those stall. People clashes opinions on everything with politics tag line on it. Politics was and will always been the irrational mechanism of Malaysian. On top of the that, politics cause a lot of interracial disputes but the main problems is that Malaysian cannot live on without politics. Politic had and always been bread and butter of Malaysia. Imagine the harmonious lifestyle if we take politics out of the equation. Malaysia will remain strong as ever.

p/s- Congrats to the winning party at Galas and Batu Sapi. And Happy Diwali!

I Don't Deserve

Band- Linkin Park
Song- Burning In The Skies
Album- A Thousand Sun

I used the deadwood to make the fire rise
The blood of innocence burning in the skies
I filled my cup with the rising of the sea
And poured it out in an ocean of debris

I'm swimming in the smoke
Of bridges I have burned
So don't apologize
I'm losing what I don't deserve
What I don't deserve

We held our breath when the clouds began to form
But you were lost in the beating of the storm
But in the end we were meant to be apart
Like separate chambers of the human heart

No

I'm swimming in the smoke
Of bridges I have burned
So don't apologize
I'm losing what I don't deserve

It's in the blackened bones
Of bridges I have burned
So don't apologize
I'm losing what I don't deserve
What I don't deserve

The blame is mine alone
For bridges I have burned
So don't apologize
I'm losing what I don't deserve

I used the deadwood to make the fire rise
The blood of innocence burning in the skies