Where Is Jia?

well lets rewind the timeline a bit. i'll take u back to the last semester. i found this lil fella.well its not a crush of anything but i had to admit, shes someone. we never really talk a lot but we always bumps into each other all around campus last semester. we even met at Center Square for that matter. she alway make me smile when we bumps into each other,always everytimes. we even snap a pic together in one of the event i organize last semester. believe it or not, i dun even know her name right until today. funny huh? well, thats last semester side of story.lets snap back into reality n forward back to current timeline, this semester. well to be frank, its not that im hoping or what, but we never bumps into each other, not even once this semester. n last nite, when im all alone by myself, shes kept playing around my mind for quiet sometimes. she kept me wondering,where teh hell shes been. is she transfer to other campus, its she avoiding me, or maybe its just taht our path in campus is just not the same anymore n we didnt have the chance to bumps into each other anymore, but still i never saw her at any of the event i organize this semester, why? so today i make the "bold move". i ask straight to one of her collegue about her. well, its still unsatisfying cuz from the conversation i had with her collegues all i know is her name, Jia.when i ask bout her, wheres her allabout her collegue when offline. well, i guess shes will stil be in my mind for quite sometime until i get the solid answer bout her. yet again, this is not a story of a crush, its jus sumthing that bothering me. thats all.

Aku Xsuka Lagu Indon Tapi Lagu ni Meaningful & Ditujukan Kepada Anda

Song-DOY
Band-Kangen Band


Sejenak ku terdiam dan membisu
Membuatku lelah dan tanpa arah
Coba mengertilah coba pahamilah
Arti cinta sesungguhnya

Dan letakkan hatimu disini
Ku berjanji kau tak ‘kan kusakiti
Sejuk sepi sedang nampak hanya bintang
Hanya kaulah yang ku sayang

Ku latih kau terbang diatas awan
Agar kau tegar dan tak terkalahkan
Jadilah jagoan seperti yang ku inginkan
Agar dapat ku banggakan

Namun sikapmu kini telah berubah
Membuatku resah dan serba salah
Kau berdiam diri membuat nadiku berhenti
Katakanlah hei kekasih

Reff:
Coba kau pikirkan, coba kau renungkan
Apa yang kau inginkan telah aku lakukan
Coba kau pikirkan coba kau renungkan
Tanya bintang-bintang hanya kaulah yang ku sayang
Coba kau katakan apa yang kau inginkan
Apa yang kau butuhkan telah aku berikan
Coba kau katakan apa yang kau inginkan

Back to Reff:2x

Me+You

meet Berry

me with Berry

Berry n The Couple

the couple represent Us

UEFA Champions League- AC Milan VS Manchester United

Man U stat first half mmg maen cma budak2 r. seriesly, aku igt nk kena bantai truk dah. tgk r sapa maen defense. ferdinard ngn j.evans. ish2. minit ke3 dah kena setepek ronaldinho score.goal chantek plak tu.reflect dr kaki evans. pastu man u makin dok stable dah maen. n in 33rd minutes, scholes bukak pluang man u ngn score. yg shioknya, goal scholes mmg ngokngek pny goal. dia sepak angin ja, tapi bola kena kaki kiri dia n masuk goal. haha. mmg lawak. masuk second half brulah man u maen betui2. ferguson bwk kluaq nani, well nani pun xperform sgt maen, masuk lah bajak itam man u yg sorang ni, antonnio valencia. dia masuk xsmpai semenet, truih dpt bola n dia cross. cross dia mg sial pny lawak. rooney header relax ja masuk goal. n then, selang brapa menet pastu tu flecther plak wat hero. dia through pass chantek pny lepaih dua defense n bola dpt kat rooney n rooney pa lg, tanduk relax selamba ja masuk goal. dida, keeper Milan xble watpa except nga2 tgk bola masuk kena jaring. around minit ke 80+, Milan mula nk mangkit. seedorf yg masuk minit ke 71 gantikan Beckham score. seriesly, goal dia lawa gila babi. aku rasa goal seedorf yg plg chantek game td. dia ole evans relax ja masuk goa. milan mula nk stat up tapi dh terlambat. man u menang 3-2. yg aku xpuas atinya ujung2 gam tetiba time Pato bwk bola nk serang Evra tackle dia, tapi tetibanya Micheal Carrick yg kena kad kuning yg kedua n kena kad merah truih. Carrick pun terkejut beruk gak r awat tetiba dia yg kena kad merah. tapi dia wat relax kluaq pdg slamba sbb dia taw, Man U konpem menang. papa pun great game r td. syg Carrick kena red card, kena gantung game. xdak dah r gandingan mantap midfield Man U Fletcher ngn Carrick. syg tol! ok, aku rsa x sia2 aku xtidoq tgk game td sbb mmg besh. seriesly besh

Kisah 4 Jejaka

fyi, post ni da berkaitan ngn post lama aku "We R Not SkoolMate, We R Not War Buddies, We R Gay".



ni aku nk story skit pasai 4 org jejaka. first jejaka kita panggil dia D. dia ni special skit. kalau org tgk dia konpem org akan rasa yg dia ni jenis yg xkan ada gurlfren punya. sbb dia dia happy go lucky, ceria, suka wt lawak. nk yg plg penting dia ni jenis mulut xcover line pnya r. kalu nk kutuk org memang direct dia apku depan2.n satu lagi fact pasai D ialah mamat ni pantang nampak pompuan. aklu nmpk pompuan dia akan usha atas bawah. seriesly. n kalu nk jadikan kayu ukur, ble gunakan D.sbb dia ble determine physical awek tu apa yg xkena n apa yg kena.seriesly itulah D. tapi mungkon ramai yg xkan pecaya D sebenarnya dah commited dlm relationship. dah lebih 2 taun dah kot.walaupun D slalu wat mcm x care kat awek dia.kira cara dia sembang mcm dia kapel ngn awek dia hanya atas dasar duit. tapi realitinya, dia sgt syg awek dia. bukti? dia ngn awek dia penah break up dua kali dah n tehn sambung blk r. on the time tgh break up, D akan slalunya jadik lain kot.dia akn tetiba shave suma bulu2 kat muka dia sbb frust. nk taw dia sayang x sayang kat awek dia? slalu time awai sem dia akan bank in rm1500 just fror his gurl to buy all the medic books that she require. n yes, awek D student medic.itu kisah pasai D.




skrg kita masuk kisah pasai A plak. A ni pun special. special camna? kalu usha physical, helo effect la bak kata subject HR @ first impression yg org slalu bg ialah "makaih garangnya muka mamat ni, konpem xfrenly". well, impression tu aku gak yg bagi first time aku jumpa A. n aku bukanlah 100% salah sbb A mmg sgt frenly awai, sbb dia ni jenis yg pendiam. sgt pendiam. tap bila lama2 dah kawan ngn dia, kenai ngn dia, hampa suma akan meluat ngn dia. prangai cma babi. bkn meluat pa, cuma akan fed up r nagn dia. kira meluat2 manja r.haha. dia xkan penah jawap soklan yg ang bagi straight, dia akan wat lawak bodo dia dulu. seriesly, aku rasa antara k4 4 jejaka yg aku cita dlm post ni, A la yg plg lawak gila babi.seriesly. sbb dia jenis yg pendiam, bygknlah kalu org diam wat lawak.konpem pecah prut.hahaha



ok, kita masuk plak C. C ni pun bg aku special. dia la yg tertua antara 4 4 jejaka ni.tapi, xmature sgt. kalu lepak ngn dia, korang xkan rasa yg dia lebih tua dari korang. tapi pa yg aku nmpk kat C ni ialah dia sbnrnya inderpendent. dia ble hidup tanpa bantuan. kira dia ble berdiri atas kaki sendri cuma xdiberi peluang. C gak bkn jenis pemarah, aku xpenah tgk dia marah.C gak actualy ada crush kat sorang pompuan ni. hanya 5 org dlm dunia ni yg taw pasai crush C ni.haha.ok one more thing, something special bout C ni. ok, C ni umur dia 20++, tapi sepanjang hayat dia dia xpenah kapel. bygkan? kira dia mmg completely reflect of the impression of "true virgin". i mean come on la kan, tera aku pun dah penah kapel n aku lg muda dr C, sgt2 muda akalu nk compare.well bila tny C jawap sng, blum rasa nk kapel. actually aku respek kat C sbb well wats teh point of being in couple while we gonna end up breaking up aite? bek xyah kapel, so C i salute u!



ok lastly kita masuk B. wel si B ni pun special gak. kalu nk taw, aku yg aku nmpk, B ni actualy dia jenis yg xkenai diri sendri. dia xtaw nk determine apa yg dia nak, and apa yg dia xmau. dia sering konpius.tapi one gud thing bout B is he is a leader or at least wanna be a leader. nak kata gud leader, xtaw r nk determine gud leader tu cmna kan, tapi kira dia ble r lead.tambah2 kalu dlm sitaution dimana sapa pun xmau lead, B will take the lead.satu lg fact pasai B ni dia slalu disalah ertikan. org slalu label dia macam2 n kbykn xbetul pun.dia slalu wat cam xkesah tapi aku taw deep inside dia sgt kesah pa yg org kata or act blkg dia.tapi dia wat2 xkesah. bout love palk, mamat ni ble dikategorikan sbg plek gak r.sbb well tipu r kalu laki ckp xmau carik pompuan yg hot2 or lawa2 kan. kami yg pleknya taste mamat ni, dia sllau jatuh ati kat org yg kitakan xsangka.suma org akan slalunya cam "are serious u r falling for her?" bkn nk kata gurl2 yg dia suak tu xhot or x lawa cuam macam xpecaya yg org cma B ble fall for all of that girls.well to la B.

well, thats conclude this post. nak kenai 4 4 jejaka dlm cita ni tgk pic bawah. tapi aku xkan gitau yg mn satu A,B,C, ngn D. n yes, aku adalah di antara A B C n D.yg mn satu? decide la sendri.haha

Old Buddies Y'All

i love penang. really really love penang. its a place where miracle happen n its a place where we can reconnect with old buddies.to both of u, thanx. i really had a great time tonites. i miss the gud old days where we can hang out anytime we want, any place we want. but the thing is, things arent the way it used to. we had a different life now.seperate one i suppose. u guys had ur way, i had my own way. that why sometimes i even regret following my dream to pursuit my further study cuz its tearing us apart. well gud thing we aint that far away from gone forever. i love u guys till the end ok, just keep in touch. im just sorry that im not gonna be able to stay in penang as long as i wanted. i really wanna to, but the path i chose is different from yours. maybe u guys gonna understand it when u choose to further ur study like me. well, by that time, we will be far more seperated then now. even worse. only thing we cna do ,is hoping that we wont loose the frenship bridge that we build since we in high skool.wish both of u gudlux in ur new career life. wait up, i'll be in ur level any time soon.

Dedicated Specially To You My Lovely

Band-Skillet
Song-Lucy
Album-Awake


V1
Hey Lucy, I remember your name
I left a dozen roses on your grave today
I’m in the grass on my knees, wipe the leaves away
I just came to talk for a while
I got some things I need to say

Chorus
Now that it’s over
I just wanna hold her
I’d give up all the world to see that little piece of heaven looking
back at me
Now that it’s over
I just wanna hold her
I’ve gotta live with the choices i made
And I can’t live with myself today

V2
Hey Lucy, I remembered your birthday
They said it’d bring some closure to say your name
I know I’d do it all different if I had the chance
But all I got are these roses to give
And they can’t help me make amends

Bridge
Here we are
Now you’re in my arms
I never wanted anything so bad
Here we are
For a brand new start
Living the life that we could’ve had

Me and Lucy walking hand in hand
Me and Lucy never wanna end
Just another moment in your eyes
I’ll see you in another life
In heaven where we never say goodbye

Bridge
Here we are, now you’re in my arms
Here we are for a brand new start
Got to live with the choices I’ve made
And I can’t live with myself today

Me and Lucy walking hand in hand
Me and Lucy never wanna end
Got to live with the choices I’ve made
And I can’t live with myself today

Hey Lucy, I remember your name

Words N Jokes

somesay words are sometimes is sharper than a sword.i damn true. some words that we said in our daily life, a simple jokes that is freaking funny to us, may not be the same to others. to some others, its an insult.some might not be cool about the jokes that we made.eventhough it seem simple to us, it is not to some others. choose ur words next time, n choose a joke about someone. think before post guys.to whom may concerns, on my behalf, im sorry that u get tangled inside that stupid jokes.i dun mean u to be in that, for us its just a normal conversation. sorry again

Theres No Me If Theres No You

like a lighter to ciggys
like a mug to coffee
like a game to boys
like a make up to girls
unseperatable
yet complete each other
but if a choice given
all willing to go their own path
a ciggys want to light it self up without the help of lighter
coffee wanna spreads the floor but mug wont let it
a game wanna pause but boys will always be boys
make up wanna stop but girls will always be girls.
so goes with relationship
we complete each other
we need each other
we support each other
but what if none of it exist in a relationship?
well,
thats mean it is a fake!

Im The Reject!

your hand not mine to hold
speak to me
all you gotta do is keep it strong
move along
move along
gotta make it through
even when the hope is gone
move along
move along

Meant For Me?

Kenapa saya asyik rindu awak???

Kadang2 kesian pulak tgk die...

Bole x kalau saya xnak rindu dia????

Xpyh nk bodo sgt laa..sbb kau pon same je...ckp org kunun!!!Ceih...talk to the hand ^_^

Could i miss him?????

Owh my dior,i really miss him...^_^

Saya sayang anda;)..Anda bagaimana??

Waiting for the right person..Perlu ke nak tipu aku???? Benci kau..

Kinda miss that words from ur mouth...;)

is all this above about me? are you talking bout me? answer me please. i really need to know. cuz im kinda confused rite now. cuz u keep sending me fault signal.again n again.justify please!

You Bring Me Your Bullets I'll Bring You My Love

take your gun
reload.
fire at will
hit me hard
aim for my chest
cause its definitely hurt me the most
aim for my heart
cause its stop me breathing
reload again your mag
fire at will,again
again and again
reload again n again
fire again and again
till i stop moving
till i stop living
till i stop breathing
fire till you satisfy
fire till theres no more round to reload
fire till your gun jammed
but no matter what
no matter how hard
no matter such pain
no matter how many bullet hit my heart
i will never stop
even its cause me my life
i will never stop loving you
i will keep coming at ya
i will keep on going
cause the love in my heart is for you to gain
not for me to vain
so yes,
you bring me your bullets
cause i'll bring you my love

I Refused To Believe!

people are naturally bad. thats what my lecturer (sir badrul azmier) said to me awhile back when im just stepping in into the campus life as a semester one student.life which somesay promise u with a colourful n joyful. i refuse to believe him at that time.well, it just a kid that time,just git my freedom away from my parent so yeah im a bit naive back then.as i grow older, gaining some experience of life,somehow i stil refuse to believe him. well now i do. yeah, people are naturally bad. some will put on smiling face in front of u jus to make us believe taht tehy r our safety net, our travelling pants n so called BFF. but behind our back, get ready! cuz the back stabbing knife alway come from the people who we thought was our frens, n stil r.yeah, jealousy is the main heart infection which most of the people have. no matter how nice we try, no matter how great fren we are, stil theres some else will keep on bothering them, jealous of.in teh time of hardness thats the the way to find out who is the one should we be calling a frens. not when we r happy or enjoying life.tahts fuck up show on the set.n as always, the person who we taught is the enemy, is the oen who reach out for us whne we were drowning.thats the bottomline guys. dun trust anybody cuz after all, we are all bad person.

The Outcasts-First Session

Another Boring Day

I look up the ceiling
White burning light with no switch beep
Dust and dump filled the floor, upsweep
Dead silence comfortly as most still dead asleep
Just another boring day.

I walked out the room
Coffee mug standstill loyally beside the ashtray
Laptop on the side as same as my cellphone lay
In a blink I lighted up my ciggys left me no words to say
Just another boring day.

I lay back down
As simple as the action my mind flew freely
I puff a smoke. Nothing, joy miserily unhappy
My thought came back come back and yet again I am being me
Just another boring day.

I sat and dream high
Only one thing played in my head, that’s you
Wondering whether you were up and whatcha gonna do
Thinking of how did we get here and sort things through
Hoping for a feeling that need to be discover
Searching deeply for a glance that really matter
Maybe it as sweet romance or turn to be a disaster
Worst come to worst, it’ll just be another boring day.


p/s-poem ni aku tulih sem lepaih.

F _ _ _ _

You are so cute, you are so beautiful

You are the reasons that make me crawl

When I face you I felt so tall

Overwhelmed by your cuteness make me seem small

You are so beautiful, you are so cute

You are the type of non-mute

When you speak I felt overwhelmed

My knees become weak, that’s damn

I like your styles, I like your perfume’s smell

U teased my hair a lot of gels

Jokes on me make me laugh so hard

Maybe it not that good but you make it seems smart

I like your perfume’s smell, I like styles

Simple n catchy make me fragile

You are so cute, I’m not gonna lie

Make me wanna come look at you, all night

I wrote this poem out of uncertainty

Maybe it seem lame but it full of dignity

This poem is to make a point

A suggestion that our heart should be join

Because I like you a lot hope you do too

Simple say, I love you.

Prinsip Wartawan

Nas Ahmad(org kuat TERJAH) kata-
KALAU ANJING GIGIT ORANG ITU BUKAN BERITA, KALAU ORANG GIGIT ANJING ITU BARULAH BERITA

Adam Ar-Rashid(xdak papa pengalaman dalam dunia kewartawanan tapi ingin memberi pendapat)-
PRINSIP WARTAWAN MEMANG KASAR DAN PROGRESIF TAI ITULAH YANG BOLEH MEMBUATKAN MEREKA MENJADI WARTAWAN YANG BAGUS, ANJING DIGUNAKAN SEBAGAI MEDIUM UNTUK MENUNJUKKAN SESUATU YANG HARAM ITU ATAU BINATANG YANG GANAS KALAU MELAKUKAN SESUATU TIDAK AKAN DIAMBIL PUSING OLEH WARTAWAN KERANA ITU ADA PERKARA BIASA TETAPI KALAU ADA ORANG YANG MENGGIGIT ANJING ITU PULA PERKARA YANG LUAR BIASA DAN BOLEH MENJADI TAJUK BERITA YANG HANGAT DAN CERITA BEGITU ADALAH SESUATU YANG BOLEH DIJUAL DAN DIINGINI OLEH MASYARAKAT.

Public Declaration Of WAR

being a public figure mean that all eyes of the world is staring straight at ya, watching, commenting n also criticising all single action you done no matter ist a right or wrong doing. there well always be haters around you, fakers whom seem nice in front but way back is fucking u damn hard. no matter how nice friendly face you put out everyday for 24/7 but the moment of second which u didnt smile or been out of the game is the moment, the public gonna catch their eyes on you n start comdernming n destroying all the reputation left with you. thats is the price you have to pay. i didnt chose or want to be a public figure, not saying that i am a pulic figure, but just wanna say that that i hate the idea of public figure. no matter how well known you are, u r human. you mean to make mistakes. sometimes you cant control the emotions, some moment u do have a breakdown n u need to release it all, theres nothing wrong with it, but when the idea of someone is a public figure, we cant do all that, which will stress the person inside n out. people deserve to be angry sometimes, so curse sometimes in proper timing, but in public figure world, theres no such things. what im trying to say is, i FUCK the idea of public figure. yes, u can adore someone, idolised, love them, role model-ing them as ur mentor an such, but when they slipped out, dun straightly criticise. take a moment to understanding the situation rather than judging the person as whole only by teh perspective on one single insident, it is not fair. well i guess its just a wishful thinking cus this aint gonna happen. people will alway be judgemental. people will alway talk behind ya under any circumstances. people will never stop gossiping. well guys, its an unfair world we living in. just try to survive out there, PUBLIC FIGURANs..

I Declare War

its dean list this sem or im gonna extend my semester to semester 7..
thats the only choice left for me in my current diploma study.
either step up, brace myself n force me to study hard this semester to mark up my pointer or im gonna have to take the long way to grad with a good pointer.
its do or die for me this semester cus its the breaking point..

Fling & Distraction

why? why now? why when im already committed in a beautiful relationship suddenly out of blue all of u come knocking at my love door? yes, if you reading this its include you too AnAn. you, plus "T", n F. all three of you. when im free,single n uncommited to anyone, not even one of you even look at me, or take me seriously. i guess its rite what one of my dude say, women only inretest to a guy whom are unavailable huh? his words, not mine, im just phrasing. now, i'd confused a bit. seriously, it been emotionally chaotic inside my chest. im committed to D, but in the mean time, T,F n AnAn is flirting with me. dinner invatation? all three of u invite me though. i wanna to reject, but my heart say dun. i guess i am a player huh? well, i wont be suprising okay, cus a lot of people thought i am a player, maybe i should act like one. but i do love D. D is the one who interested in me, while all three of u look at me "sebelah mata". dun worry D, i'll figure out this emotional thingy inside my heart cus i noe, i'll alway ended up back to u. all three of them, its just a flings a distraction. i will be faithful.cuz i still remember what imah said to me "CINTAI ORANG YANG MENCINTAI KITA BUKAN KEJAR ORANG YANG KITA CINTAI".. i refuse to agree with imah before, cuz my rebuttal is that is only apply for girl, not guy. i guess now i am agreeing with imah.

p/s- i love u D!
~D~