Secrets, Secrets, Are No Fun, Secrets, Secrets Hurt Someone

well,
eventually we'll ended hurting someone that close to us.
but the knowing and the keeping of the damn secrets ended up hurting ourself..
so, in that case just let it out from our chest n hurt ourself no more n suffer the consequences..
but, are you strong enough, tough enough, ready enough to face it?
if not, maybe the best thing is just to keep on hurting ourself n make others happy..
but,
we are just normal..
we full n greeds n self-center-ness..
i dont thing people gonna hurt themself for securing others feeling..
some might but most dont..


p/s- in The Office Season 03 whereby this title is quo, Micheal Scott ended up telling his girlfriend about the strippers lapdance cuz he dont wanna keep any secrets from Jan. as it turn out, the secrets doent hurt her a bit. so, good for him.

29 Second Of Douches Conversation

Lapaq?
Makan La Kawan Ang!
haha..

chop2!
Silap tuh Bro..

Lapaq?
Makan La Teddy Bear Awek Ang Bagi Tuh!

Yeap!!
tu Baru Betui!

Im Not Dark Knight, Im Just Awake At Nite

BORINK..

XBLE TIDOQ..

XTAW NAK WAT PA..

ROKOK SEKOTAK DAH ABIH..

MOVIE DAH LAYAN 3 DAH..

STILL, XNGANTOK!

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I QUIT!!

makaih! tajuk aku nk gempak ja.. padahai bukan quit apa pun. aku just dah officially xjadik employee Swenz Kopitiam dah.. tadi last day aku keja. hm.. berat gak ati nk tggaikan kedai tuh. sedaq xsedaq dah dekat 3 taun aku keja kat situ walupun on n off.. still, i cherish a lot fo great memory. walaupun tiap kali sem break aku mai keja ada ja org baru keja n org yg aku kenai sblom ni suma dah blah, still i manage to coop n slide around the corner. hm.. i guess im just gud in mixing with people huh? ahaks. bangga plak. there no such thing as sweet gudbye rite? tadi suma wat muka chom sbb aku dah last day. hm.. ala chill la. nnt aku sem break aku mai len r. kalau hampa suma keja lagi la november ni.ha3. ni some of the pics yg aku sempat snap tadi. xsempat nk ambik group pics.

aku ngan Loiuse

aku ngn Azfal

aku ngan Jannis

aku ngn Harry

Last Day

well, pejam celik, pejam celik, dah dekat dua bulan aku keja kat Swenz Kopitiam time sem break ni n today is my last day. sepatutnya smalam aku dah last day dah, tapi si burfday gurl kat bawah ni yg kami gi celebrate bday dia tuh, Siu Siu ambik cuti smpai esok, so aku kena la keja sari lagi cover utk dia jap.awai2 mmg rasa letih gila babi keja kat sana, sapa yg penah jadik workers Swenz taw r seksanya cmna. tapi kadang2 bebraloi gak. im gonna miss that shop.the people. even my boss, im gonna miss him too.seriesly. no sweat guys.i'll be back next seme break okay, november.till than, so long n gudnite!

My Playlists #1

BANG ROX

+Almost Easy-Avenged Sevenfold+

+WhyYaWannaBringMeDown-Aranda+

+Afterlife-Avenged Sevenfold+

+I'd Come You You-NickelBack+

+Your Love Is A Lie-Simple Plan+

+Save You-Simple Plan+

+With Me-Sum 41+

+If Today Was Your Last Day-NickelBack+

+The Day I Left The Womb-Escape The Fate+

+What If-Simple Plan+

+I Hate Everything About You-3 days Grace+

+All Down Hill From Here-New Found Glory+

+Die For Your Government-Anti-Flag+

+Warmness On The Soul-Avenged Sevenfold+

+Everything Burns-Ben Moody Ft. Anastacia+

+Almost-Bowling For Soup+

+Tears Dont Fall-Bullet For My Valentine+

+Easy Target- Blink 182+

+Emily- From First To Last+

+Know The Enemy-Green Day+

+Harder Than You Know-Escape The Fate+

+Without You-Hinder+

+1234-Plain White T's+

+Miss You-Blink 182+

+Baby, Come On-Plus 44+

+Alive-POD+

+Who I Am Hates Whose I've Been-Relient K+

+Right Here-Staind+

+Always-Saliva+

+Fine Again-Seether+

+Sitautions-Escape The Fate+

+Until The Day I Die- Story Of The Year+

+SomeSay-Sum 41+

+Cute Without The E-Taking Back Sunday+

+You Found Me-The Fray+

+Kristy Are You Doing Okay?-The Offspring+

+Time Is Running Out-Muse+

+Ready,Set,Go!-Tokio Hotel+

+You Of The Nation-POD+

HEAD BLOWS

+Rescue Me-BuckCherry+

+Walking Disaster-Sum 41+

+When Your Heart Stop Beating-Plus 44+

+Never Too Late-3 Days Grace+

+Love Is Dead- Tokio Hotel+

+Fallen Leaves- Billy Talent+

+Surrender- Billy Talent+

+The Smartest Bomb- Anti-Flag+

+Make You Smile- Plus 44+

+Everytime- Lincoln Hawk+

+Just Like You- 3 Days Grace+

+American Idiot- Green Day+

+The Press Corpse- Anti-Flag+

+Before I Forget- Slipknot+

+Boulevard Of Broken Dreams- Green Day+

+So Cold- Breaking Benjamin+

+Curses- Bullet For My Valentine+

+Chemicals- Finger Eleven+

+Good Riddance(Time Of Your Life)- Green Day+

+Homecoming- Hey Monday+

+Join Me In Death- H.I.M+

+Scars- Papa Roach+

+Misery Business- Paramore+

+Hey There Delilah- Plain White T's+

+Rise Up!- Drowning Pool+

+The End- Roadrunner United+

+Haertbeat- Scounting For Girl+

+You're Going Down- Sick Puppies+

+Beleive- Staind+

+Meant To Live- Swicthfoot+

+When You Were Young- The Killers+

+Why Dont You Get A Job- The Offspring+

+Face Down- The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus+

+Beichte- Tokio Hotel+

+Vindicated- Dashboard Confessional+

BUSY

Happy 21st Burfday Siu Siu

Chill La Weh..

ish2. cuba hampa tgk kat link2 Bloggers Uitm.. suma komplen maleh nk balik kampus mggu depan. chill r. aku pun actually maleh gak tapi excited gak nak balik sbb lama kot xjumpa member2 sekampus aku. ha3. see u guys in campus next week. plus, ble jumpa dia. ahaks*

Cian Kat FD

kat blog dia, FD wat list panjang dabak punya rezen2 awat dia maleh nk balik kampus, aku punya satu ja. aku maleh nk bukak buku balik sbb otak dah tepu seketika sbb cuti nan panjang gila babi. dkt dua bulna kot sem break. di tambah plak ngn macam2 bad additional dlm pemakanan aku sejak balik penang ni, konpem2 otak aku makin lembab punya. plus, sbb depan aku kena ambik accounting 2. babi tol. awat la budak2 admin kena ambik accounting hah? xrasional langsung.accounting 1 pun aku repeat ni nk wat terer ambik accounting 2, aram jadah.

p/s- laa, baru tringat aku mmg dr sejak azali lagi maleh nk bukak buku, so xdak rezen r maleh nk balik kampus.ahaks

Primae Noctis

back in ancient time, no so ancient but maybe in the 18th century, primae noctis is when the king got to deflower the bride on her wedding nite.. but nowadays, in this modern age, primae noctis is some kind of bang job when a guy got a chance to bang a girl on their very first date. hm..well, is just my thought though.

Love N Heart

If Love Is Running Blood,
Then Heart Will Be The Fighting Guts,
In That Case Im WIlling To Keep My Guts Fighting,
To Let The Blood Running.

Special Untuk Abah-Happy Father's Day

firstly sorry adam lambat nk wish happy father's day kat abah.. sorry, maybe adam terlalu ego utk ucap ngn mulut sendri tapi bukan bermakna adam xingat atau xmau wish.cuba mulut aku kelu bila nk wish kat abah.same thing happen wtiem besday abah ari tuh.

secondly, sorry lagi sbb adam taw adam bukan anak yang abek n adam paling kuang ajaq banyak kat abah. ya, adam sedaq semua tuh. brapa banyak vendetta antara kita, brapa byk akli adam panggil abah babi, brapa byk kali adam bertumbuk ngn abah, sorry abah.adam mintak maaf sangat2. ya, adam mengaku at oen point dulu adam penah sampai satu tahap benci abah. but as i mature, semua tu starting to fade. i start to forgive for all of your wrong doing considering that im not that perfect either. maybe sblom ni adam langsung xprasan any good things that u'd done to our family sbb hatred compromising my judgement. ya, mmg apa2 pengorbanan abah, usaha abah kalau nak banding ngan mummy terlalu besaq beza dia, tapi adam dah prasan skrg bukannya abh goyang kaki ja pun, abah usaha jugak.usaha sedaya upaya utk memperbaiki semua kelemahan abah. abah byk flaws, tapi abah jugak banyak kelebihan len yg adam kadang2 terlepas pandang.

thirdly, still nk ckp sorry. adam mintak maap lagi sbb banyak kali bagi sakit ati abah. maybe slama ni adam just pikiaq yg salah laku adam hanya akan hurt mummy, tapi adam terlupa yg abah pun hurt jugak. maybe slama ni adam just pandang mummy, tapi langsung xpandang abah, so lepaih ni, adam xkan wat camtu dah. seteruk2 mana pun abah, abah tetap ayah adam. tanpa abah adam xkan wujud. adam taw bila adam cakap "apa yang abah buat utk adam , just sumbangkan sperm utk hasilkan adam, tu ja, xdak benda len yg abah buat" it hurt u so much, tapi adam lupa benda tu la yg paling penting.kalau abah xsumbang sperm abah, adam xkan lahir, adam xkan ada chance utk tgk dunia. so, adam harap sgt abah maafkan semua salah adam.adam anak yang jahat, adama taw fact tu tapi adam dlm proses tuk brubah. sorry skali lagi. n lastly, happy father's day abah

10 Days To Go

do i miss UiTM Merbok? ntah la, but still, im gonna miss penang when im there. i know i used to call penang hellhole n whatsoever but that was tehn, now i really love penang cuz i already whats the probs. the main core probs is myself. i cant control myself to the seduction of fucking shits. but now, i can. im stronger plus the old good crowds is back so they'll warn me if im about to lend back to the dark side of penang. so, i guess i'll be missing penang more after this. un fortonute for me, i'll be fucking busy next semester. shit!

Bila Punk RoCk Nyanyi Jiwang

Song- Harder Than You Know
Band- Escape The Fate
Album-Late Is Your Latest Fashion

You said this could only get better
there´s no rush cause we have each other
You said this would last forever
But now I doubt if I was your only lover

Are we just lost in time?
I wonder if your love's the same
Cause I´m not over you

Baby, don´t talk to me
I´m trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
Cause girl you´re driving me so crazy

How can I miss you if you never would stay?
If you need time, I guess I´ll go away
Inside me now there´s only heartache and pain
So where's the fire?
you´ve become the rain

Are we just lost in time?
I wonder if your love's the same
Cause I´m not over you

Baby, don´t talk to me I´m trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
Girl you´re driving me so crazy
And if you don´t want me then I guess I´ll have to go
Not loving you is harder than you know

Yea

So I´ll make the call And I´ll leave today
I´m gonna miss you cause I love you baby
And I´ll make the call I´m leaving today
And leaving always drives me crazy
Leaving always drives me crazy

Baby, don´t talk to me I´m trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know

Yea

Baby, don´t talk to me I´m trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
it´s good you´re driving me so crazy
And if you don´t want me then I guess I´ll have to go
Not loving you is harder than you know Girl you´re driving me so crazy

Baby, don´t talk to me I´m trying to let go
Not loving is harder than you know
Girl you´re driving me so crazy

Usha Diri sendri Dulu Baru Nasihat Orang

aku ada member. member aku ni kuat gak r membebel. besa r dia mmg dr dulu kuat membebel. dia skrg bru further study. yup.dia lmbt ckit sbb kes dia sama ngn aku.dia keja n terikat truih ngn dunia pekerjaan.smalam dia call aku dia ckp dia nk quit study sbb tempat keja lama dia offer dia position with a good pay rate.so dia nak mintak opinion aku.aku straight ckp kat dia suro jgn brenti study, keja bila2 pun ble. tapi skrg aku nyesal. aku taw sgt course yg dia ambik tuh. peluang nak dpt keja nnt even if dia grad with flying grades susah dia nk fit well ngn keja.so, napa aku bagi dia nasihat cmtu? kan baguih kalau dia accept offer tu, dia skrg dah ble pegang duit sendri, n in no time dia dah ble held any senior management pny title.tapi tgk dia skrg, kalau dia further study sampai grad skali pun, tgk consequences yg dia kena face. utang ptptn bertimbun, kalu grade dia okay, maybe ada chance nk dpt keja, tu pun usha r umur dia bapa time dia nk grad tuh, around 23 something, tapi kalau grade dia hancuq? stakat 2 pointer something, ble ke dia dpt keja yg baguih2? compare ngn future ahead dia kalau dia accept offer keja tuh. by the same time dia ble grad, dia dah ada experience keja yg byk n time tuh dia dah senior kat tempat keja dia, dia maybe dpt lagi promotion, comparekan dgn dia as a fresh new grad yg xdak exp langsung with an average pointer? mana lagi baguih? so napa aku bagi dia nasihat cmtu? aku sendri xta wnak jawap. yg sebenarnya maybe aku nak ada companion skali. aku dulu pun camtu gak.aku dah keja kat satu tempat, Swenz kopitiam for a year n sebulan before aku stop keja n accept offer uitm utk course dip in public admin ni, manager aku time tu dia ckp kat aku dia lagi 2 bulan nak brenti keja n boss aku tgh nk carik replacement utk dia tapi dia ckp xpayah bagi ja post tu kat aku sbb aku dah ada experience suma. boss aku setuju. starting salary depa nak offer kat aku time tu rm1500.. time tuh aku baru 17 tahun. bayangkan, sorang budak 17 tahun akan jadik manager kat kopitiam ngn starting salary yg camtu. kalau aku blah dari Swenz skali pun n try nk apply keja kat tempat len pun aku boleh apply keja as a manager n i bet my boss will give them a great recommendation.so, i have a sweetd amn life previously but why in the blue hell i throw it all away to the trash can n further my goddamn study in uitm.. course yg aku xminat sgt plak tuh. politics. cmon la kan. aku dulu fuck politics gila2 babi pny last2 aku ambik course yg regards ngn politic. WTF? n aku pny pointer xla impresive mana pun. current pny skarang 2.69.apa la sgt. plus nnt kalau aku grad pun , degree la aku dah umur 23. 23 baru nk start keja.ngn pointer cmtu? keja apa ble dpt? hm.. skrg ni Swenz Kopitiam pny manager position is vacant. aku tgh dok rasa nk apply.plus gaji manager skrg dah naek. rm1800 plus benefits n ada la mcm2 advance lagi.chop2, let me explain.aku skrg tgh sem break so aku wat la part time kat swenz kopitiam. yes, boss aku akan terkejut kalau aku apply sbb dia tau aku tgh study g. n aku penah turn down the offer before because of the study stuff so that maybe haunt me back, tapi ntah la,aku xtaw apa nak buat. nak brenti tapi rasa mcm rugi plak sbb aku dah part 4. lagi setaun stgh ja tggai utk abih diploma aku.tapi aku nak kena further degree baru ble dpat keja elok ckit.which mean tambah lagi 2@3 tahun. i really cant decide.lagi dua mggu aku dah nak kena balik campus.

Once Upon A Time

ada skali time aku stil form 3, while im stil in Penang Free Skool, masa tuh aku dah kluaq dari hostel so aku ulang alik hari2 naek feri sbb aku dok kat sberang. time tuh aku tgh dok ambik PMR kalau xcilap.time aku dok tggu feri kat jeti sblah penang pny otw nk blk ke seberang ada satu kapel duduk depan aku. mesra, secocok, sama hensem sama cantik. besa r kan bila dah kapel2 ni, peluk2 gedik2 cubit2 benda besa r. masa tu aku naek meluat tgk depa dok menggedik duarang.. dari jeti pulau sampai naek feri sampai ke jeti butterworth depa dok merendek. and then, sampai kat jeti butterworth aku ambik jalan aku, depa ambik jalan depa. pretty simple aint it? yes it is. tapi aku xtaw napa dua tiga ari ni, aku asyik teringat kat kapel tuh padahai aku xkenai pun sama depa n depa pun xkenai sapa aku. hm,, aku ni jenis imiginasi tggi pny.mula pikiaq mcm, adakah depa stil kapel sampai skrg, ntah2 dah kawin ke, dah ada anak ke, ke dah break ke, yg laki tuh dah ada gurl laen ke, yg gurl tuh dah ada boy len ke.hm.. weird!

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