a "Kiss Me" Gurl

well, slaamat arie raya to all of u.. well td kn dah umum rabu nih rabu so ucap awai2 r sg kn..

look at the title.. "a "Kiss Me" gurl ".. why dats? is actually a funny story, its not dat much but i just can get it out of my head.. i dunno why.. do i like her? maybe its the way she approach me make me twirl? i dunno.. okay2, here's da story...

i just happen a few hour ago.. around 6.15 soft of..me as usually my fasting month duty, pi pasar ramadan beli kuih utk berbuka.. its alredy been a routine for me every year.. the bazaar is just nearby, behind my house.. a few steps only, but i have to wear a sweater n umbrella( God!!! i hate it) bcuz its kinda raining lightly.. so i went there, quite surprised bcuz there nothing much.. half of the stall there r close.. it is bcuz of the rain, or bcuz posa dah dkat nk abih/ hm.. im not really sure.. who cares?!!!! none of my business.. aku tawaf satu bazaar cari pa yg family aku oder, makpak aku nk mee kuah, adik aku nk taufoofa kak aku nk popia.. cian kay depa suma xdak kecuali popia , place where i meet "kiss me" gurl.. hehehe.. first n foremost, she actually study in my previous high school SMK tun hussein Onn, i think she in form 5..so wat actually happen there? hmm..

"Kiss me" gurl- nak apa?
me- hm.... bg popia dua..
"kiss me" gurl-(wrapping it up)... lagi?
me- hm.. bengkang dua ngn seri muka dua..
"kiss me " gurl- ok.. tu ja?
me- yup(giving her a RM50 note)
"kiss me" gurl- xdak duit kecik ka?
me-sorry r, xdak r..
"kiss me" gurl-(after 2 minutes).. nah duit belen..
me-thanx.. "kiss me" hah? (pointing at her t-shirt)
"kiss me" gurl-hehehehehe...
me- nak kiss ker?
"kiss me" gurl-xpayah la(gelak sambil tersipu2 malu)

i just turn my back on her n walked....

well it did not end just like dat.. 10 minutes after dat, after i bought murtabak, i passed by in front of her stall again, and guess wat? i looked straight at me... u noe wat i do?

"change my umbrella to my left hand, blow her a flying kiss wif my right hand n then i smile"

she smile back...

and i left..

just like dat..

pretty stupid hah?

wat do you think?

i dunno which one is the best part is but i really dun noe why i cant forget about that incident.. hmm.. i want to noe how she will react tomorrow bcuz i surely gonna go to her stall again tomorrow. my the real question is, what will i do? remember tomorroe is the last day of puasa n she will not be at the bazaar anymore 2morrow.. its my last shot.. who noe??

my top 10 list....

MY TOP 10 BAND

1) Linkin Park
2) Sum 41
3) My Chemical Romance
4) Blink 182(+44 n Angels and Airwaves)
5) Billy Talent
6) GreenDay
7) Breaking Benjamin
8) Bullets for My Valentines
9) Fall Out Boy
10 Avenged Sevenfold

MY TOP 10 LOCAL BAND

1) Pop Shuvit
2) DragonRed
3) Disagree
4) Hujan
5) OAG
6) Couple
7) eStranged
8) Meet Uncle Hussain
9) Plague Of Happiness
10 The Official

MY TOP 10 SONG

1) When Your Heart Stop Beating- +44
2) Walking Disaster- Sum 41
3) Hey There Delilah- Plain White T's
4) So Cold- Breaking Benjamin
5) Never Too Late- 3 Days Grace
6) Cute Without The E-Taking Back Sunday
7) Tears Dont Fall- Bullets For My Valentines
8) Ready, Set, Go- Tokio Hotel
9) Surrender- Billy Talent
10 The Only Song- Sherwood

TOP 10 TV SERIES

1) Lost
2) Prison Break
3) Supernaturals
4) How I Meet Your Mother
5) Desperate Housewives
6) My Name Is Earl
7) 24
8) Las Vegas
9) Terminator-Sarah Connor Chonicles
10 Heroes

TOP 10 REALITY SHOW

1) Survivor
2) Pirate Master
3) Amazing Race
4) Rockstar
5) Ikon
6) Charm School
7) One In A Million
8) MyTeam
9) 30 Second To Fame
10 Are You Smarter Than 6 Grader?

MY ACTIV10

1) My Shiteru- cinta hatiku
2) Dayat- one my beshfren, MMU-Degree in EngineerinG
3) MaxeemuSe-one of my beshfren,MMU-Degree In Law
4) Hana- hm.. im not sure her status..maybe one of my frens
5) Lyn- my coursemate
6) Saf- my buddies,my babe fren, my knuckles frens
7) Fatin- hm ex-clasmate
8) Sheela-my beloved cousin
9) Nadeeya- long-lost frens
10 Sachira-hm.. just a frens. i dun even noe my she stil in my avtiv10

MY TOP 10 SOFTWARE

1) Ares- my downlaod gears.
2) Mp3maker
3) dBPowerAMP Music Converter
4) Photoshop
5) Youtube Downloader
6) Limewire
7) BearShare
8) Movie Maker
9) 3GP Converter
10 HiDownload

MY TOP 10 WEBSITE

1) www.ruckfules4real.blogspot.com - my blog
2) www.myspace.com/ruckfules4real
3) www.wwe.com
4) www.youtube.com
5) www.channelv.com/amp
6) www.wikipedia.com
7) www.anwaribrahimblog.com
8) www.yahoo.com
9) www.google.com
10 www.faradibanuar.blogspot.com

MY TOP 10 TV CHANNEL

1) Starworld
2) Starmovie
3) AXN
4) 8TV
5) MTV
6) [V]
7) Hitz.tv
8) Starsport
9) ESPN
10 TV3

MY TOP 10 WRESTLERS

1) Jeff Hardy
2) John Cena
3) Edge
4) Phenomenal AJ Styles
5) Matt Hardy
6) Christian Cage
7) Batista
8) Randy Orton
9) Triple H
10 Kane

MY TOP 10 FOOTBALLERS

1) Cristiano Ronaldo
2) Wayne Rooney
3) Steven Gerard
4) John Terry
5) Ryan Giggs
6) Micheal Ballack
7) Kaka
8) Lionel Messi
9) Fernando Torres
10 Ronaldo

MY TOP 10 FOOTBALL TEAM

1) Manchester United
2) Liverpool
3) Chelsea
4) AC Milan
5) Real Madrid
6) Reading
7) Newcastle United
8) Manchester City
9) Hull City
10 Arsenal

happiness is....

gembira, seronok, suka,excited,, happy go lucky keriangan dan seantero dengannya.

but it it true?

can people be truely happy?

apa itu happiness?

apa itu kegembiraan?

seronok time dpt hadiah time burfday?
seronok time dipuji?
suka bila ada org appreciate hasil kerja kita?
suka bila ada org trima cinta kita?

adakah itu happiness??

sesetgh org mungkin setuju yg kegembiraan itu sesuatu yg menyenangkan..

BUT

for some other people,,,

happiness seem imposible...

agak mustahil bg sesetgh org utk mengecapi kegembiraan.
agak sukar utk merasai keriangan kerana hidup mereka sentiasa penuh dgn kedukaan, sengsara, keperitan.. kegembiraan bg golongan ini hanya utk terus bernyawa n teruskan hidup yg sentiasa penuh dgn pancaroba...

kegembiraan boleh dicipta dgn wujudnya

KEPALSUAN

FAKE...

how many poeple fake their happiness?

kepura-puraan mengisi ruang hidup mereka demi sebuah kehidupan yg normal..

BUT

HOW LONG CAN THEY HOLD IT BEFORE

EXPLODE??


kepura-puraan memerlukan kesabaran yg tinggi...

sampai manakah tahap kesabaran seseorang itu?

mampukah dia bertahan till the end of time?

adakah berbaloi utk berpura-pura gembira sedangkan merana menusuk jiwa?


WATS GONNA HAPPEN IF THIS PEOPLE STOP TRYING TO FAKE IT?



it be the end for them?
wat if they choose to stop believing?


can other people have the happiness?

mampukah org lain melihat org len merana?

adakah ia mustahil ?


ONLY TIME WILL TELL....

Priceless piC from last semester..

DAP1B.. all boys suit Up!!! hahaha.. syg amini xdak dlm gmbaq nih.. syg amir ngn edd dah xdak kt cmpus nih..hmm...

DPA1B candid Pic..cute hah??

meor call dis pic just half....

i luv dis pic so much.. spontan gila babi.. amir tgh cuci mulut kuddus nk tgkap gambaq.. pic nih dkt tanda blok TEC

NEXT BUNCH OF PIC IS FROM MY LAST DAY PIC

amir last day in uitm.. all of us did not noe he was leaving..

standing-(l-r)hakim,jufri, kuddus, me n syahril

sit-meor n amir

yg cemperak ckit ngn botol-Edd

hahahahaha..lawa x pic nih?

syafiq yg ambik pic nih.. smart x?

NEXT PIC IS BOUT OUR CRAZY HOUR!!!!!

wat tangga...

cam rock band pny album cover x?

huhuhuhu...

friendship....

is kinda weird if i just keep writing bout life isnt it?



so today im gonna write bout friendship.. most wonderful thing dat around teenagers life.. its can hurt us, make us happy, even make us closer or further to our family.. i belive evryone have a friends rite? but wat does friendship means to us? everybody have their own P.O.V bout frenship.. n wat does frenship mean to me? n wats do mean to us?







some say,







FRIENDSHIP MEANS BRO's OR WE ARE SISTERS!!!







for somebody else friendhsip mean







A SECRETS DATS EACH OTHER SHARE



somebody else say



FRIENDSHIP IS ALL BOUT BACK U BACK N COVER FOR U?


and some say




FRIENDSHIP IS ABOUT PLACTIC N FAKE...



so which one is the true meaning of frenship?



to me frenship is bout....







WELL, I DUN REALLY NOE, SERIOUSLY!!!

i have so many frens and for each of them frenship bring differents meaning.. i dun noe.. maybe i just being silly or maybe it just true.. for rite now i do have some really good frens..




first of foremost, i like to about AJAM(azam bin zakaria)..


well, his my rumates, my besh buddies here in uitm kedah, well ok he is my mentor.i learn so many things bout life from him.well maybe bcuz the fact that he is older then me(he's 20 n im just 18).. he is so realistic person well its kinda differents from me bcuz i'm kinda person dat realistic sumtimes n sumtimes optimistic..so its really weird how we ended being frens eventhough our personality kinda different is every angle. u noe how we can be frens?






CIGARETTES..



yeah.. its true.. he



's responsible for me being a smoker, but its not really his fault becuz i choose to be a smoker.. its my decision not his.. so, from sharing cigars, we get close, hang out together playing games, talking sharing stories n we become close.. as wrong as it sound, but we ended ebing a rumates this semester n yes we r sharung locker.. my mum used to said in hostel life if u really close wif somebody dun be in the same room bcuz its gonna effect ur relationship.. she spoke based on her xpereince but not to me.. me n ajam getting closer just becuz we r rumates.. so dat theory is not really true..




so wats my frenship wif ajam is all about



IS IT JUST ABOUT CIGARETTES?




but we did share some stories togother so wat can i say is cigarettes is only as a steooing stine of our frenship so i should thanx cigarettes .. bcuz of it, me and him r close frens..







so wat ever frenship means to us, its doenst matters bcuz its wat make us who we r.. some might say dats is a fake frenship but, it is true? no.. a just a part of frenship.. eventhough is our frenship is based on lies, is still a frenship bcuz dat wat make us click.. dat wat make us talks.. dats wat maku us share..

ajam n me..

MY SHADOW GUARDIAN

In this lonely day nothing standstill upon the way
Beautiful sky in blue vanish and turn to grey
Fear full in when people choose not to stay
The one who’s weak become a bait for a prey

Demolition past through like a wind blows by
No one shall cry because tears have dried
The one who still live which to die
But not for me, it just a beginning not goodbye

I’ll fight them all with all the guts I got
MY SHADOW GUARDIAN always there behind my back
She will never let me be ambrosia or anyone whack shack
I’m like a brick wall that no one can ever crack

Amendable creature that you are
You make me strong and come this far
Pull me up when I’m feeling down
Hold me back when I’m about to drown
Thank you, because saving me from darkness of time
Now my life worth more than a dime

I do know that your power have limitation
I’m sorry; it’s just to much temptation
I’d push you too much under desperation
I just want to make the world free from destruction

My hope right now that’s someday you will come back
Be by my side like Sally and Jack
I’m willing to give my soul for eternity
As long as you’ll come back and we stay in this fraternity
We can make this world bright again and full of entity
Most important is love of us can conquer all, entirely…

THE SQUARE ROOT OF THREE

I fear that I will always be
As lonely number root three
A three is all that’s good and right
Why must my three keep out of sight?
Beneath a vicious square-root sign
I wish instead I were nine
For nine could thwart this evil trick
With just some quick arithmetic
I know that I’ll never see the sun
As 1.7321

Such is my reality
As sad irrationally
When hark, just what is I see?
Another square root number three
Has quietly come waltzing by
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer
Rejoicing as integer
We break free from our mortal bonds
And with a wave of magic wands
Our square-root signs become unglued
And love for me has been renewed


A poem of love by
Kumar Patel
Harold and Kumar 2:
Escape from Guantanamo Bay

adapted from FD myspace...

1 Are you wearing a necklace, who got it for you?
- but it myself.. i have 3, i lost one of it

2 Who is the main person you talk to daily?
-ajam, meor and adi(my besh buddies)

3 When was the last time you commented to number 2?
-last ten minutes

4 Where are your guy and girl friends?
-on her bed, i guess..

5 Did you enjoy your weekend?
-hell yeah.. especially today.. we went out..hav a hell of a time at CS..hahaha.. karoke, bowling, teasing each other,.. besh thing ever


6 Could you live without a computer?
-i used to, but now, cannot!!!!!

7 Could you live without your phone?
- hmm.tricky question.. i think i can for the first half n hour, after im gonna start killing poeple...

8 Suppose you see your boy/girlfriend kissing another person; what would you do?
-hmm. first, smile, then raise my middle finger, say "FUCK YOU, BIACHT.."

9 Is your phone within a meter radius of you?
-mesti lah...

10 Look at your recent calls, who was your last call from?
-adi ciput..he call and ask bout PAD160 eventhough his from just nearby..pemalas pny ciput...

11 If you were given $100 would you spend it or save it?
-save it..hahahaha.. xmungkin terjadi..joli r!!!

12 How many different people have sent you a text in the last 20 msg's?
-~My ShiteRu~, hana my besh fren,adha my rumate, boy my coursemate,aimi, n hotlink

13 Are you listening to music right now?
-breaking benjamin-so cold.. fucking lovin' dis song.. never gonna b out-of-date in my playlist

14 What exactly are you wearing?
-hmm.. alain delon spender(hahaha), my rm5 3/4 short beli kat pasar mlm, n my form5 basketball sleeveless t-shirt..

15 When was the last time you were truly, completely happy with out life?
-the last second.. i enjoy my life every second of it

16 Do you text or call? How often?
-depends on my pre-paid

17 Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?-ADI CIPUT..kan dah jawap td.mangkuk pny soklan!!!!

18 When was the last time you ran?-last nite at 2 am.. kejaq ajam sebab nk trajang dia.hahaha..childish rite? who can blame us..

19 What should you be doing?-sleep.. i got clas next morning at 8am.. now ist alredy 3.42am

20 What is the status of the last person who texted you?-hana? my beshfren now, n my Ex..haha..cliche hah?

21 Do you have a cut on your pointer finger?
-nope. but invisiblely? yes!!!!

22 Do you have any friends named Robby?-nope. robin ada r.. tu pun nick name ja la.. kami org mesia r..pa la...hahaha

23 Do you get annoyed when people dont text back?
-depends..

24 Who were your last 3 texts in your phone Inbox?
-bapak r... td top20 ni top 3 plak.. all hana texts..

LIFE IS FULL OF SUPRISES

sumtimes is good sometimes is bad.. depends on the suprises itself.. suprises sometimes(brapa byk sometimes daaa..) make us happy,bright up of boring day n make it meaningful make us want to push ur self to the limit..

BUT

sometimes suprises come at the less time dat we xpect, sumtimes da suprises was just on a simple thing,like raining day, date canceled(dats really suck!!!), we Coincidencely bang ur head wif ur Ex in da mall.. and sometime surprises can be on the thing dat really really hard to accept such as, break up, something we love so much is taken away from us and sometimes
death of someone we cared bout.....

HOW TO DEAL WITH THIS??

theres nothing we can do about suprises... its was alredy writen, so we just hav to deal with it..maybe it seem hard for someone, make us feel down, make us to stop believing,make us to stop living ur life..yeah i noe its some of the decision dat we will make, but

SHOULD WE???

or we can be strong n fight it.. past it trough.. make it as a lesson of life dat will make us a better person in da future.make us stronger than everyone else, evenhough others wont even notice, but we noe dat its true.. so

wish decision dat we will make??




LIFE ISnt ABOUT RUNNING AWAY

yeah.. is d easiest choice.. but

SHOULD TAKE IT??

till when we gonna keep running? the the end of time? our entirely life? r we willing to spent ur life just on running? or

HAVE SOME GUTS

and have our problems like n adult, grown up....yeah again, its hard but its da rite thing to do.. how look at it this way, how many people dat willing to stop running? how many people dats willing to mae a choice to stay n fight? dun we want to be da one dat stay? dun we want so look back someday when we old n say,

I"D NEVER RUNS AWAY I FIGHT IT WILL ALL I GOT N WITH DIGNITY...

wouldnt it be nice to remember dat moment.. its damn priceless.. eventhough how suck our life gonna turn out to be, at least we can hold on to something.. something dat will make us proud n feel good n when we bout to leave da world we wont have any grudge on ourself or feel something wrong...


LIFE IS ALL BOUT MAKING CHOICE

simple choice, hard choice, life treaten choice.. wat dress should i wear today, hwo hairstyle should i do today, should i couple with this gurl/guy, should i pay from my parent sins, should i DIE for it?

like it or not we have to make a choice in any situation.. whether its a right decision, we'll never noe until we make one.. will we regret da decision? we'll never noe. will dat decison effect our life entirely? we'll never noe.. is it da biggest wrong decision dat we'd made? we'll never noe..

BUT

its something dat we have to live with.. like or not, decision had been made.. we cant turn back da time to re-do it, so just live with it.. at least we noe its wrong, n we'll learn sumthing..


LIFE IS ALL ABOUT MAKING MISTAKES...

we r normal human being.. all of us make mistakes.. but will we make da same mistakes twice? dtas lie in our own hand.. sum people they just never learn.. dey keep making da same mistakes over n over again.. wats shame on them.. will we be like them? decision its in ur own hand.. make a choice.. mistakes dat we make is actually

A BLESSING IN DISGUISE..

becuz of the mistakes, we learn somthing new n gain a new experience.. we maybe hate ur self so much at the moment, but after dat maybe never, we'll realize dat the mistakes we made, make us a better person. some, keep doing mistakes.hahahaha

LOVE IS LIKE CIGARETTES AND LIGHTER....

love..

2 soul + 2 heart= lovebird..

in other words, love means 2 person need in other to survive da relationship n fight all da way to conquer all.. just like cigarettes n lighter.. without any light cigarrette can be suck.. without lighter, a cigarettes is useless.. without lighter cigarettes is just another killing tool that wont bring any enjoyful ending.. so, if love is just bout on person, if love is just bout 'me' not we, its not a love relation.. dat person is in love with him/her self. so, if u r in a relation, just think bout cigarettes n lighter..

FUCK IT!!!!!

WAT DA FUCK MAN?????!!!!!!!!!!!!

WATS DA MATTER WITH ME??!!!!

DEAR GOD, PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!

ok ok ok.. lets start from da beginning ok.. hm ... hm where to start?. hm ok i come dis morning at 1 p.m(Jumaat r weh, ari cuti, standed r).. hm im stuck in my room as always(posa la xlarat nk berjalan byk2) Malinja A220.. in front my laptop, play need for speed, watching my fav sitcom(How i meet ur mother).. then i stop ir for a while n watch Chuck.. then i remember, i my god, aku x mandi lg..hahaha..celaka pny azam bkn nk buzz aku suro mandi.. hahaha.. so after i take a NOT SO LONG bath, i go back to my laptop, i got to finish da game man,

DAH SAMPAI BLACKLIST 4 KOT...

errr.. its from da game NFS most wanted.hehehehe.. then Kuddus arived.hm.. gud.. dia nk pinjam baju melayu.. ye r satg nk g majlis berbuka posa Dipac kat kmpg Belau.. i gave him one of my baju melayu... he hang out for a while.. then he go back to his room in Malinja B.hahaha.. padan muka ang..kena jalan jauh.hahaha.. fast forward till 5, kuddus came bax n he alredy

SUIT UP!!!!

WOW.. he even brought Ijat camera(Ijat si tua).pa lg. time for posing boys..hahaha.. kami nih mmg suka bergambaq.. aku ajam meor standed r kn,hahaha.. hm kita fast forward lg ble x? 7.30 pm.. dah sampai dah kt kmpg tuh dah tahlil dah , dah berbuka dah n guess wat??

SANGAP ROKOK WEH.. DAH R KAMI 3 3 ORANG XBWK.. FUCK TOL!!!

pas berbuka tuh aku ngn meor senyap2 kluaq dr masjid tu nk p kedai yg ada depn ckit dr c2.. guess wat? its close..

FUCK!!!!

kami jalan lagi r.. hm.. but ist kinda fun actually. after all, we didnt join this activities for the activities provided we just wanna get out from campus for a while.hahaha.. kami jalan samapi klauq kg tuh xjumpa2 gak kedai rokok.. kat simpang kluaq dr kg tuh kami nmpk r sign petronas, 1000m?

WAT DA FUCK???

xpa2.. relax2.. we decided to go for it.hm.. 1km? dude, next time dun ever do it.hehe.. after 500 m we stop..

ITS FREAKING TIRED MAN!!!

FUCK!!!

kami stop kat satu majlis berbuka posa.. nmpk satu beskal, meor dah gelak2..pa lg.. meor balas beskal tuh pi runner beli rokok kt petronas tuh.. me?? i stay there in case the owner come i can explain that we do not have any bad intention, we just wanna borrow the bike.. hm.. i just look at the reception.. w

WOW!!!! AYAQ SIRAP!!! PEH!!!!

i went inside that reception n grab a drink.. peh.. ilang dahaga aku!!!
5 minutes after, meor sampai!!!!

THANX GOD!!!!

2 pack of winston.. peh... gud enuff for me.. 3 batang straight..

ITS TOTALLY WORTH IT!!!

eventhough we hav to walk bout 3 km , its worth it!!! if u r a smoker, u'll noe how its feel..kalu nk sgt2 tp xdak bila dah dpt, peh!!!!!

ok, on our way bax, kuddus n ajam sampai.. depa naek beskal.. peh.. we ride a long.. hahahaha.. its kinda cool. i noe dats that nite gonna be historical.. eventhough i lost one of my winston pack..i never gonna forget last nite.. becus i noe 20 years from nite i still gonna remember this nite, not becus we go for a berbuka reception, not becus we in dat village, its becus wat happen to us dat nite.. how we spent da nite together like we suppose to do, and its becus it is..

LEGEND

wait for it......

DARY

hahaha..

i thought my day just gonna end up like dat, well regularly.. becus i noe wats i gonna do next in campus.. laptop, cigarettes, drink... but its not just and ordinary nite.. my nite just started..













its bout 4 am dats time, me? like always.. wacthing how i meet ur mother, smoking, drinking(ayaq laici ok).. but dat nite was different.. ajam awai2 lg xdak dlm bilik, gurlfren dia call.. bergayut pny lama.. dr pukui sebelas samapi 4, cmon!!!! his gurl not dats rich..sorry bro!!! well, im in my room with adha(DIM part 2).. ok wait a minute, lets talk bout my rumates ok.. malinja a220.. da company? me, ajam, adha n rafi dim part 2 n 2 junior azan n elyas dcs.. hmm tp diorang du org ni slalu xdak bilik aih.. lepak bilik member depa kat malinja b.. ok bax to da story.. where were i? ooo.. its 4 am, im wacthing HIMYM.. its alredy season 2(well ok ajam this is the third time i wacth this series, the whole 3 season) n dis series is bout frenship n love.. i i after 3 time re-watching dis series finally i realize.. how lovely ted n robin(the character in HIMYM) as a couple n how nice ted to each gurl he dated..

WHY I CANT BE LIKE TED?

I SHOULD BE LIKE TED!!!!
DTAS WAT MAKE HIM ADORABLE N AL; GURL LOVES HIM!!!!

WHY CANT I?

finally i realize, hei dude u have a gurlfren... it jst popped out from my head. so i toook my cell n open my inbox..

message 149 -My ShiteRu-

when i nvr msg u,
it doesnt mean i

forget u, im just giving u tiem to miss me....


WOW!!!

REVERSE PHYCHOLOGY!!!!

well i dun really noe its a reverse phychology.. but i noe thats text have 2 different meaning which im not sure which one is the real reason she sent it for..

a) SHE SENT IT BECAUSE SHE REALLY MISS ME

b) SHE TRYING TO SAY DAT DA REASON IM NOT TEXTING HER FOR BOUT 2 WEEKS, ITS BECUS I WANT TO MAKE HER MISS ME...

SO, WHICH ONE IS DA TRUTH??

even me i dun really noe.. wow maybe its both.. she do miss me, n she want me to noe dats its ok to not textong her, becuz she got the point dat she should be da one to miss me too..

i dun noe..

FUCK IT MAN!!!!

NOT LIKE DIS.... its just rejoice my luv.. n suddenly i miss her.. i want to hold her tight, i wanna hug her n touch her cute face.. damn it.. what da hell is wrong wif me.. just like i said b4, my nite just started.. n of cos i act cool... so dat adha wont realize.. i slept at 5.30 am n woke up(just now) 10.30.. b4 i go to sleep last nite, i just realize.. i had a gurlfren, i should appreciate her, love her, care for her.. just like ted...

The Bro's Code

when any dude get in the "BRO's" Clan this r some of the code which should not be broken..

SERIUOSLY!!!!!!!


1) BRO CANT BREAK THE BRO CODE
2)BRO CANNOT LEAVE ANY BRO'S HANGING
3)BRO MUST SUPPORT ANY OTHER BRO
4)BRO CANNOT LEAVE OTHER BRO FOR A GURLFREN(IN HANG OUT MOMENT)
5) BRO CANT BRING GURLFREN HANG OUT WITH OTHER BRO'S
6)BRO HAVE TO SHARE CIGARETTES(YA... IS TRUE)
7) BRO SHOULD HANG OUT A LOT
8) BRO CANT LEAVE ANY OTHER BRO FOR ANOTHER NEW BRO
9)BRO SHOULD RESPECT OTHER BRO
10) BRO NEED TO BE REAL BRO...

LIFE............

LIFE...

too much to say, too much to write bout it..

LIFE IS LIKE A FERRIS WHEEL .....

is it true? ya rite.. sumtimes u r down? well, is kinda true but the way we handle it, makes all the different.. think bout it.. it we r at the bottom of it,

JUST CHILL!!!

it happen all the times.. just relax n take it EZ.. its heal in time if u let it be... probs can be solve only if ur mind is clear..

CLEAR AS A BLUE SKY....

u cant solve anything if u r fragile emotionally.. if it happen to me, dats exactly wat i do..

TAKE IT LIKE DIS,
if u noe dat u gonna loose ur leg tommorow, will u sit on a couch n cry bout it, or u

JUMP, RUN, KICK A BALL OR DO SOME AWESOME AIR KICK!!!!!

if u just sitting down and cry, u still gonna loose ur legs, so enjoy ur legs to the last moment.. use it, make it worth using,.. dun just cry bout it..

DATS SUCK!!!!!!


LIFE IS FULL OF SUPRISES!!!!

YA!!!! dats wat make life unique.. if not, it will b lame.. even if its a bad suprises, dats wat amke life worth living.. who want to live a life dats have zero mistakes n bad things?


I TOTALLY DONT WANT TO!!!!!

mistakes make people realize n think.. how we gonna noe if its a mistakes or not, unless we done it? then we'll noe its a mistakes.. mistakes make us a better person.. mistakes free life, make our life just like a damn silly trunk in the forest..

WE ARE NOT THAT!!!!

we r human being.. dats wat make us unique.. so

MAKE A MISTAKES!!!!

A LOT OF MISTAKES!!!!!

dats wat gonna make us better.. dats wat gonna give us new experience... dats wat gonna make us a better decision maker... every mistakes, bring a new element in life..

Changing The World

Searching in the dark still can’t find a thing
In this nowhere road it’s just not fit to sing
I know I can make a change but I’m not the king
How can I stand it, it just not my ring

Strange place to be weird thing to see
People ignorance, something that I just don’t agree
Massive destruction happen in here where it suppose to be
Was it all wrong or it is just me?

Making mistakes seem to be silly
Killing people just seem so easy
Man are not either beast nor grizzly
How revenge take place so suddenly?

Blaming other just not the rights move
Dying world need to be improved
Humanity and society need a second chance
Don’t wait till everything we know turn to sand

Bullets and missiles can stop, it just a matter of time
Misery and pain can heal, just let music roll and rhyme
Make a move, make a change, make a choice
Stop the kebaboom!, press play the lil’ voice

Change the world for all, give’em a shining hope
For them that been left hanging, throw them a rope
Bury all bomb, put down guns, let it lock not load
Respect each other, human life it is not a joke.....

Single or On a Date?

well, these are the question dats up in my mind recently..



BEING SINGLE OR ON A DATE??



i do believe people ask themself this kinda question oftenly, its just wether they want to take its seriouc out of it, or just let it slip out of mind just like dat.. me, i used to just let it slip, but recently i been thinking bout it. maybe i just



MISS THE GUD OLD DAY!!!

or mabye im just



SICK AND TIRED BEING IN RELATIONSHIP!!!



well lets face it, dis is da longest relationship i ever been in!!!! 3 month ++.. dats quiet long enough for a guy like me.. but, wats other option i have?



a) BEEN SINGLE AND HAVE ALL DA FUN I USED TO HAVE AND GET LONELY SOMETIMES N JEALOUS WHEN SEE OTHER COUPLE AROUND ME



b) STAY IN DIS RELATIONSHIP AND HAD SOME FUN SOMETIMES BUT I CAN GERENTI DAT I CAN CHANGE..



im not really a gud boyfrens in many terms, i admit dat but im trying da besh i could.. maybe im just not gud enough for her, or maybe dis is just my another xcuss..



MAYBE!!!!!



i dun really noe.. should i break her heart? did she deserve it? just bcuz im da one dats do not feel rite? she is trying her besh she can for me.. but, i dont noe.. i just dun feel right.dats all. maybe i just miss the gud times i used to have when im single..

Quota 90:30

Quota 90:10... wat the hell is this thing? Hm… for all music lover(indie of cos) the quota can be defined as the savior of our local indie act. Is actually a quota dat gonna keep our music scene alive and kicking. In dis quo, it stated that 90 % of the music show are belong to the local act and only 10% leverage are given to the outsider musician to perform in Malaysia(Indon Bnad of cos)… wat does dis means? Are Indon music scene not as kicking as they used to be? Or our local fans finally realize da value and quality dat our local act have? Ya it is all becuz “The Rise Of The Underground”.. thanx to eStranged, Meet Uncle Hussain, Hujan(most controversial of all, hahaha) finally of music scene been given a life to breathe again.. by eStranged winning in Juara Lagu showed us dat indie music can survived in mainstream music scene.. ya of cos is quite controversial becuz some people argue dat eStranged winning is all becuz Faizal Tahir been kicked out of the picture, but dats their P.O.V!!!! From my P.O.V even if Faizal Tahir in the AJL dats doesn’t mean eStranged does not have da chance to win.. maybe even if faizal tahir compete, eStranged can still win.. who noes? Ok lets put eStranged aside, how bout Hujan , Meet Uncle Hussain, Pop Shuvit? Without eStranged win, M.U.H still be as famous as they are rite now(Thanx to the TV show KAMI n “Lagu Untukmu”).. Hujan? “DA Controversial Band Of All Time”.. without estranged winning, “Pagi Yang Gelap, Bila Aku Sudah Tiada, Aku Scandal” are still conquering the airwave.. hmm. Bittersweet? Their Britpop wave can still happen without estranged..How bout Pop Shuvit? They still can sell their album in Japan without a doubt.. so even without eStranged winning, “The Rise Of The Underground” can still happen.. so wats up now? Hmm… so from my P.O.V I totally support the new quo.. its for our own good…. Maybe its time dats the mainstream scen take a second look for the indie side of music.. band like Dragonred, Julies Goes Overseas, Upon Arrival, Couple ,Jeoperdice, The Times, Love me butch, Plague Of happiness Cynosure, Komplot, Force Vomit, Estrella, Seven Collar T-Shirt, they will kill us all, edge of fire, bunkface and many more.. orang dulu cakap, JANGAN CEPAT MELATAH!!!!! Tengok dulu baek buruk sesuatu tuh bru ckap.. hm… dats all..

peace In, rock out!!!!!

its all about da money!!!!

money makes da world go round..... isnt ist clise'?? we, the human create money, but it seems like money r da one dats control us these day, rite? its even better dats human.. people are willing to die for money better than human.. people willing to sacrifice everything eventhough their family for money, but how many of us dats willing to die for other human?? hmm.. nk jumpa yg sanggu[ mati utk family pn susah, ni nk cari yg saNggup mati utk org len?

DATS IMPOSIBBLE!!!

WELL, i guess dats just a fact dat we hav to live with...

Last Thought On Final Breathe

Try to understand me that’s all I ask,
My stand and believe will never last,
Lets try some empathy, maybe its be easy,
In the end of it nobody will ever see.

I take the blame for what I’d done,
My emotion are high cost me triggers of gun,
I am an asshole, in everyone eyes,
No one understands me till the day I die.

Flash back into history, look for what you’d found,
I’m just regular kid from another silly town,
I’d buy for my cute Shorty a pink blushing gown,
But how, how I end up been shot down?

It is my fault, my mistakes and I know I’m suck!
It were never my dream to been a thug,
Never ever crossed my mind I’d deals drugs,
What can I do, I can’t afford anything, not a single buck.

Yet again, it’s my bad I should had stayed,
I should calm down and waits for Wednesday,
I shouldn’t pissed off in my very own birthday,
Last but not least, I should think like I have a bright brain.

Understand me, but it’s too late to do it right,
I been shot down, I am going to the light,
I know, the world gonna be better,
Without me, maybe there will be more laughter,
To everybody, forgive me and I’m really sorry,
Hopefully when I’m gone, you guys have a less thing to worry.


p/s-

THIS POEM HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH ANYBODY ALIVE OR DEAD... IT JUST POPE OUT OF MY MIND..

hm... dis poem is actually telling a story.. a story of a young man who had died n flash bax his entire life on his last breathe of air b4 he die.. lets just name dis guy micheal..in this story micheal is THE wrong of every possible way a man could be.. he been raised to be a good person , never had a probs in his childhood life but he still ended up doing the wrong thing.. he even got a gurlfren in his hometown, when he is young.. but, he end up being drugs dealer.. at the end, Micheal ask for forgiveness..but, no one was there to hear it, except the guy dat shot him down.. dats briefly wats this poem is about..

DA MORAL VALUE OF IT

HMMMMM.... maybe wat we can take from dis poem is, its never too late to ask for forgiveness.. eventhough no noe will hear it, at least b4 we dead, we did it.. hm.. maybe.. who noes rite? plus, we cant predict da future.. eventhough da smartest or nicest person we ever meet, their are not 4 SURE to be da same in future.. maybe they will end up just like Micheal.. others moral, hmm... maybe

PEOPLE WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND...

no matter wat we did, if its wrong, people wont look at the bright side, they will just call it off, U R GUILTY!!!!!... only few will try to think twice.. wel, dats jsut poeple is.. we cant blame them.. we r apart of them.. sumtimes we act like dat.. making fast conclusion in some thing dat we barely noe.. hmm.. am i rite?
dats all..

OUT!!!!!


P/S- ATTENTION!!! ALL POEM DAT HAD BEEN POSTED ON DIS BLOG IN MY WRITING, COMES FROM MY MINE,HEART N SOUL.. NONE OF IT ARE COPIED OR PLIGiARISM ACT...

Time and Time waits for no men..

well well well...
bout dis idioms?
is maybe seem nothing to sumbody but to me, it seem important. not the meaning, but the words itself sound strange n make people think..
if u look through idioms book i shall say dat the meaning dis idioms is-

DONT WASTE TIME, TIME IS VALUABLE

but yet again, who did cared? do poeple care bout time nowadays? ask ourself.. penah x terjadik dlm idup kita, kita kata

LA SAT JA DAH SEMINGGU DAH?

LA SAT JA DAH SEBULAN?

LA SAT JA DAH SATU SEM?

LA SAT JA DAH SETAUN?

dun lie.. dis questions is around us since we noe how to say a word, since we're small kid, n now we're young adult in just a blink of eyes, n in just a blink of eyes ur time is up n we gonna leave dis world..

and again, WHO CARES????

WHO DID EVER CARES?

no one did b4, n no one does now.. its not really ur fault to be honest, ye r kita bz r kn. mana ada masa nk pikir pasai masa.. kalu kita pikir pasai masa skrg x ker dah membuang masa tuh? am i rite? is a waste of time thinking bout sumthing from da past, we can change any of it, so just deal wif it.. straight up, make ur mind clear n look forward to da future...

AND...AGAIN??

WHO DOES THINK BOUT DA FUTURE?


just think bout it.. hmm


OUT!!!!!!

bout me.. dis is wat i think bout myself 3 year ago..nothing has ever change

hi everybody.. i really dunno whether their will b sumone dat will preview this blog.. im just wanna say sumthing bout myself..dats all. well actualy nobody i men nobody really noe who i really am.. i alway keep my real personality under shadow.. if i realy let it all out, it will b d end of da end[trust me!!!!].. there r tooooo much anger built inside me.. i relly dun wanna let it go, bcus i dun wan 2 harm anybody.. im a really gud actor.. i can cover up my anger,sadness,guiltyness, n all other -ve side of me.. dats da reason i post the lirix of surrender-billy talent.. i which a could just "surrender" my real feeling inside me n just be who i always want to be[which is not myself].. well, who ever reds this blog i realy which u dont understand a damn thing.. i just wanna keep it in me.. plus, i hope my frens havent notice this blog..

Billy Talent
Surrender
II

She reads a book from across the street
Waiting for someone that she'll never meet
Talk over coffee for an hour or two
She wonders why I'm always in a good mood

Killing time before she struts her stuff
She needs support and I've become the crutch
She'll never know how much she means to me
I'd play the game but I'm the referee

[CHORUS]
(Surrender)
Every word, every thought, every sound
(Surrender)
Every touch, every smile, every frown
(Surrender)
All the pain we've endured until now
(Surrender)
All the hope that I lost you have found
(Surrender) Yourself to me

Even though I know what I'm looking for
She's got a brick wall behind her door
I'd travel time and confess to her
But I'm afraid she'd shoot the messenger

[CHORUS]

I think I found a flower in a field of weeds
I think I found a flower in a field of weeds
Searching until my hands bleed
This flower don't belong to me
I think I found a flower in a field of weeds
I think I found a flower in a field of weeds
Searching until my hands bleed
This flower don't belong to me
This flower don't belong to me
Why can't she belong to me?

Every word, every thought, every sound
Every touch, every smile, every frown
All the pain we've endured until now
All the hope that I lost, you have found

[CHORUS]
(Surrender)
Every word, every thought, every sound
(Surrender)
Every touch, every smile, every frown
(Surrender)
All the pain we've endured until now
(Surrender)
All the hope that I lost you have found

(Surrender)
I never had the nerve to ask
(Surrender)
Has my moment come and passed?
(Surrender)
I never had the nerve to ask
(Surrender)
Has my moment come and passed?
(Surrender)
I never had the nerve to ask
(Surrender)
Has my moment come and passed?
(Surrender)
I never had the nerve to ask