Public Declaration Of WAR

being a public figure mean that all eyes of the world is staring straight at ya, watching, commenting n also criticising all single action you done no matter ist a right or wrong doing. there well always be haters around you, fakers whom seem nice in front but way back is fucking u damn hard. no matter how nice friendly face you put out everyday for 24/7 but the moment of second which u didnt smile or been out of the game is the moment, the public gonna catch their eyes on you n start comdernming n destroying all the reputation left with you. thats is the price you have to pay. i didnt chose or want to be a public figure, not saying that i am a pulic figure, but just wanna say that that i hate the idea of public figure. no matter how well known you are, u r human. you mean to make mistakes. sometimes you cant control the emotions, some moment u do have a breakdown n u need to release it all, theres nothing wrong with it, but when the idea of someone is a public figure, we cant do all that, which will stress the person inside n out. people deserve to be angry sometimes, so curse sometimes in proper timing, but in public figure world, theres no such things. what im trying to say is, i FUCK the idea of public figure. yes, u can adore someone, idolised, love them, role model-ing them as ur mentor an such, but when they slipped out, dun straightly criticise. take a moment to understanding the situation rather than judging the person as whole only by teh perspective on one single insident, it is not fair. well i guess its just a wishful thinking cus this aint gonna happen. people will alway be judgemental. people will alway talk behind ya under any circumstances. people will never stop gossiping. well guys, its an unfair world we living in. just try to survive out there, PUBLIC FIGURANs..

I Declare War

its dean list this sem or im gonna extend my semester to semester 7..
thats the only choice left for me in my current diploma study.
either step up, brace myself n force me to study hard this semester to mark up my pointer or im gonna have to take the long way to grad with a good pointer.
its do or die for me this semester cus its the breaking point..

Fling & Distraction

why? why now? why when im already committed in a beautiful relationship suddenly out of blue all of u come knocking at my love door? yes, if you reading this its include you too AnAn. you, plus "T", n F. all three of you. when im free,single n uncommited to anyone, not even one of you even look at me, or take me seriously. i guess its rite what one of my dude say, women only inretest to a guy whom are unavailable huh? his words, not mine, im just phrasing. now, i'd confused a bit. seriously, it been emotionally chaotic inside my chest. im committed to D, but in the mean time, T,F n AnAn is flirting with me. dinner invatation? all three of u invite me though. i wanna to reject, but my heart say dun. i guess i am a player huh? well, i wont be suprising okay, cus a lot of people thought i am a player, maybe i should act like one. but i do love D. D is the one who interested in me, while all three of u look at me "sebelah mata". dun worry D, i'll figure out this emotional thingy inside my heart cus i noe, i'll alway ended up back to u. all three of them, its just a flings a distraction. i will be faithful.cuz i still remember what imah said to me "CINTAI ORANG YANG MENCINTAI KITA BUKAN KEJAR ORANG YANG KITA CINTAI".. i refuse to agree with imah before, cuz my rebuttal is that is only apply for girl, not guy. i guess now i am agreeing with imah.

p/s- i love u D!
~D~

hahaha

susah nk tulih blog skrg, kau keja online facebook ja.
kalu nk roger aku,carik kat facebook ok.
sorry!

Thinking Of You

as part of my job, i need to take pics.a lot of pics.a lot of people.suddenly, out of nowhere. there she us with her besh buddy. sitting on a corner.i feel like i need to take her pic as require to my job. i snapped it. as i go back n tranferring all of the pic back to my lappy, i stop at her pic. why her? why now? why she need to be bax in my mind when im trying to forget her? please! get out of my mind. i need to stay away from u, but somehow fate doesnt let me. i kept on falling under the same ubrella wih u. u alway there around. please babe! stay away! i wish i could say that to u in person, but i dun hve the gut. i am a coward to ask u to stay away, maybe i wanna u to be close. close to me. plus, we had a deal, she have to treat me a dinner as part of the deal. i really want to do it. i'l be great though. but im with D now. T, please stay away! eventhough i dun wan u too.

At The Moment

dlm clas QMT212.lec nama ida normaya,besh dua ni..
bersmgt aku nk blajaq Stats.nk bg A r sem ni

Bebai

pernah x jadik kat korang dimn seseorg yg closengn korang, yg sentiasa lepak ngn korang ke, yg korang slalu msg ke, awek/boy korang ke, bebai ngn korang. bebai dlm erti kata laen marah. konpem besas ja ka benda ni. what if diorang bebai atas bend ayg koirang xtaw pa, kira xdak sebab r tetiba dia avoid korang, dia wat xtaw kat korang n wat xlayan kat korang. at first korang maybe pikiaq yg dia busy kot, tapi as time flew by, korang realise yg dia mmg tgh marah ngn korang. so apa yg korang patot wat normally? apologise eventhough korang xtaw pa salah korang? yup,thats what i do. but in the end, dia accept teh apology n jsut wat2 cool cam benda tu xpenah jadik. koirang konpem rasa plek kan.tu la keadaan yg aku hadapi skrg. aku nk ja tny dia napa tetgiba bebai ngn aku mmgu lepas tapi aku takut plak sbb takut dia continue bebai palk kat aku.,xshiok r.susah tol cmni kan

AJL

bangsat siot. napa la si aizat ngn lagu pergi plak ble mng AJL taun ni. siot! tapi without a doubt mmg lagu pergi tu sbb pun. aku dok aspect yuna akna mng walaupun aku sokong bunkface utk mng, tapi aku dah taw dah mainstream media ni cmna. bunkface xkn ble mng pny sbb dah 2 taun berturut2 band mng AJL so xkn r taun ni nk bg band mng lagi kot kan walaupun lagu situasi tu layak utk mng. tapi yuna dpt tempt kedua so kira okay la kan, n faizal tahir mng tmpt ke3? hm... ntah la. laayk ak dia mng? besa2 ja persembahan dia. bek akim ngn tomok perform ok lg. lagu kau aku mng persembahan terbaek pun ble question gak actually. m,aybe dah jadik style AJL time mng kompem sorang artis tu akan mng 2 3 award skali. argh, such a publicity stunned. so far, AJL besh r.

Repeaters Y'All!

lil piece of advice, jgn la repeat paper.
idup susah time blajaq.
pengalaman hidup.

Her Words, Not Mine!

I hate liar!!! LOVE is fake..it hurts me so much...damn!! kita akn menghargainya bila kita kehilangannya...:))

So Long,Goodbye!

sambil layan lagu So Long Goodbye-Sum41.
ingin mengucapakn secara rasminya, selamat tinggal Penang.
nak balik kedah dah.. semester baru dah nak mula.
makin busy pasni, subjek makin berat.
tambahan, aku dah senior sem ni.
dah semester 5.wow! rasa cam baru smlm ja aku gi daftar masuk uitm kedah sbg pelajar sem 1.
ish2. cepatnya.
kedah,kedah,kedah..
hmm.
org ckp kedah maju 2010, dha maju dah ke kedah.
tapi, aku tetap syg kedah.
dah jadik umah kedua dh pun.
k, ciao!
pasni dah susah nk online dah.
facebook dh xble nk bukak slalu,blog dah xble nk tulih slalu.
wish me luck on my new smester!

2010 & I, We Doesn't Have A Good Start

years come n go, we remain here. the same. nothing change actually, only the feeling in ur heart. a feeling that boost us to try to be someone else just because a new year have approach. but yet again, until the end of the new year n when a new new year arrive, we are still the same. the same person, the same idiot, the same mess up dud. resolution? its just a stall.an excuse people make to keep themself happy for a while, for a day, on 1st january. cuz when 31st december arrive, still we r the same except a year older. so why bother living the fantasy of ur own creation, a fantasy which we make to believe its so true but when reality strike, we realize, we are exactly alike.go take a look in the mirror of urself now, as on 1st january, look closely n deeply, n wait till 31st december, look again. are we so different after a year past by. minus the outlook appearance, look inside the heart n soul of urself. if we really have a change, then we stood on solid ground of reality. if doesnt, wake up! STOP DREAMING! nuff said, happy new year!

p/s- somesay 2012 is the judgement day, which mean theres 2 years left. are we prepared?

You..You..You..You..You..

I Hope She Doesnt Read This

imagine a "thing", something that u eager to have,fantasize about everday n ever nite especially during the time b4 u close ur eyes to end the chapter of a day,hoping for tommorow that u'll possess that thing.try t imagine that. exp, the "thing" is ur favourite car, Toyota Accord.then one day, out of the blue, ot of sight, someone u know give it to u, the "thing".n u think that shes fooling around n u just accept it cuz u think its just a part of a funny joke.u compromise, u react, u oversee towards the action of getting the "thing" just by a fling cuz in ur mind u know u'll never get the thing for real possession from her. then as day goes by, u realize, she actually giving u the "thing" for real, for u to keep. she act like is was meant for u, but never clearly stated it n u r afraid to ask because u dun want to hear the answer. cuz u dun wanna to lose the "thing".u just went with the flow cuz u know, without having the tough conversation of the possession of the "thing", somehow, u r possessing it no matter what, as long as u play along with it. but in ur heart u r wondering whether u r really possessing the "thing". how to deal with it?? seriously, im confused but i refuse to ask. because i wanna own the "thing", i dun wanna loose it, so i choose to play along.. cuz if i do so, i own it, i possess it.story of my life!

Jangan Baca Kalau Anda Seorang Perempuan

If some ask for an advice or piece of mind rite now bout love the only think i can say is Love is full of hatred, heart broken shits, messed up emotion. its truth n im speaking from personal life experience. they say in love, u need to be confidence, the who u are, self aware, n just go with ur feeling. but when u do so, theres alway consequences n price need to be pay. high price. because when u do be confidence n be urself n express ur truth feeling bout her face to face, teh common answer u gonna get is this, "kita baru ja kenal, kita ambil masa dulu utk kenal hati budi masing2,give space to each other" n then they will giv e some shits bout praising ur saying taht u r "cute,simple,handsome, happy go lucky" just to make us to chase them more. but heres the deal, it all aint true n its all just a bunch of lies. all the gurl just wanna keep u chasing them making them feel hot or famous, but honestly they dun even want to be with us, they just palying with us. the real situation is that the gurl already have somebody else in their heart, waiting for that asshole to be with her. in time of the waits, their plays us to make their life aint so bored n doom. think ur self as a safety net to this kind of gurl, cuz if their dream boy reject them hardly, they still have us as second choice. thats all we will ever be, a safety net. nonetheless. so mr.H thats my asnwer n i hope its satisfy u. remember, love aint so beautiful.

u better off being single. its for the besh. really!

p/s- ADAM AR-RASHID IS MEAN TO BE SINGLE!

Escape The Fate

Band-Escape the Fate
Song-You Are So Beautiful
Album- This War Is Ours

I could've found a better way
You know I never should have stayed
I could accept the things that I believed were wrong
(you know your wrong)
Now you're saying that it's late
It doesn't matter what I say
You know you're just another one of my mistakes
(Ahhhh)

You are so beautiful
You are the kind of girl that has the chemicals
That makes me fall in love
Beautiful, you are the kind of girl
That has the chemicals
That makes me fall in love

So now I'm feeling like a slave
I'm locked away inside of this grave
And I'm hoping for a way I can be saved
(I can't be saved)
You know that there will come a day
when I'm just gonna have to change,
you know you're just another one of my mistakes.
Ahhhh

You are so beautiful, You are the kind of girl
that has the chemicals that makes me fall in love
Beautiful, you are the kind of girl, that has the chemicals
That makes me fall in love
Fall in love

You know I found a small paper you lied about,
You lied about
You know I found a small paper you lied about,
You lied about
You lie to me, lie to me

You are so beautiful, You are the kind of girl
that has the chemicals that makes me fall in love
Difficult, so very difficult
You are the kind of girl, that makes me fall in love, fall in love

Bru Smpai Penang!

letih.penat.shiok.mcm2.

anyhow, congrats Man U ngn Arsenal mng, o ya liver pun mng gak.
n padan muka chelsea kalah.
the only big four yg kalah.

CHELSEA LOSER!!

Currently in KL..
Attending some relatives wedding reception.
unplanned vacation..
KL aint so good btw, compare to penang.
penang is the best..
see ya bax in sunday midnite!

Change

i'd change my relation status in facebook.
enough said!
btw, to answer all the questions, the answer is this,

its for me to know, n for u to find out!

I Wanna Love You Right Now (Na Na Na Na)

shes a pretty gurl..
cute i should say..
too cute to melt my heart out..
crush it down to her love belt.
make me wanna change my status from single to its complicated.
an accident that intertwined us together.
a cute meet which unplanned.
i heard bout her a lot before.
but im to tight with "beliau" n i ignore all the suggestion made.
now, as i move on, put apart ms.beliau away for a while.
i was able to open up for others.
cuz i noe, ms.beliau is not mine to hold.
then, i meet her.
F**** is her name.
cute as the person herself.
i wanna mak it rite this time.
wish to god.
special thanx to emma n K.I to introduce her to me.
thanx guys!

p/s- i do had feeling toward her already. love at the first sight maybe. tetiba truih layan lagu akon tetiba- i wanna love you n right now (na na )