One Step Closer

Don't Ever Say I Didn't Give You A Chance, I Spread Plenty.
Don't Question My Heart, Because I've Gain Caution Fully.
Don't Hesitate Now, Because Time Is Running Out.
Don't Criticise Just Yet, Because You Don't Want To Shout It Out Loud.
Don't Blame Me For What Might Happen Next, I Did What I Must.
Don't Runaway, There's A Lot More Lust.
Don't Pretend No More Because Thing Have Changed.
Don't Crush Down To Earth Because It Might Not Stay The Same.
Don't Fight It To Hard, That Just Seem Silly.
Why? Because I've Move On And I Am So Sorry!

Stalking Is Somebody Hobby But Don't Make It A Daily Unpaid Job

Not that I'm keeping score, but you stalk me more than I do. Facebook, Tagged, Blogger Formspring, even my unactive Twitter account. Well, who's paranoid now? hahaha. Well, all I can say right now Karma aint that bitchy it just a simply concept of what goes around comes around. Goodluck on your search of finding what ever you're looking for. Trust me, it aint there. Keeping on rolling baby. Like I said, it just another cute cover to blow. ahaks.

p/s- I know You be smiling when you read this post. YES, it is for you!

Love The Way You Lie

Love is just another impression right?
So, just play along see where it lead you.

21 Aint Forever

146 days left. People keep on saying that age is just a number. Hell even I used to say that. Believe it of not, this statement only useful if it is under the matter of love. But in term of life, it does matter a lot. Take an example of working for a big damn company. Do you think all the corporate greedy guys willing to risk hiring any 20 and below years old to run the big show? Never in a million light year. Another interesting quote crossed my mind. "21 Forever". Well, as for this one, it's just silly. It's for those who never want to move on with their life to the next level and choose to stick with the basic and keep on living in fantasy. Good luck to you guys. Keep on living in or fantasy, living in fear to be exact.

146 days from now, I'll be 21. Why on earth is that matter to begin with? Well, as for me, I always put 21 as a benchmark. A benchmark within two things, two different world actually. The world between teenagers and adult, and 20 for me is the thin line between both or the changing period (which where I am at). But yet again, a question arise. Is it 21 really the time for people to change their status from teenager to adult? For me it is. Why? Because as you turn 21, you are eligible to vote in election. Government had already set up the age line which is 21 to be mature enough to make a decision of choosing the entitled and power house to rule the nation. Well, if the government said so, it must be count for something right? (BULLSHIT)

21. Wow! in 146 days I'll be turning 21. Through out this years, at the age of 20, I always assume that this is the time for me to involve, to change myself from the creepy lil teen whom always confused in life, whom always disagree and protest a lot, whom always didn't give a crap about anything toward some one whom matured, serious in life, successful, and wise. Well, me myself put that line to be cross. I set up the goal for myself and in 146 days i need to achieve that goal. Can I? To be completely frank, I can't give a straight answer. Yes, I admit I'd change a bit for who i am 2 years ago. I did realise the changes that happen to me personality-ly and from the perspective of life itself but I don't know whether I will be the man i thought I will in time. There's a lot work be done, there's a lot more changes need to be happen and I am still confused a bit. To hell I am.

Changes need sacrifice and as for now, there's a lot of stuff that I am not willing to let go just yet. Yes, I am still living in my own fantasy world and I am not planning on leaving it just yet. Procrastinating is my best buddy. Once I'm willing to be serious, to be responsible, to be the man of the hour, that is the time that Adam Ar-Rashid has step into the world of adulthood. My best guess is, I am still a young teenagers who live his life to the fullest and not ready to face the big world call reality. Once I done that, there no looking back. So, I am waiting for that time to come. A time for me to completely change. A time that when i look back I can simply say, "YES, I AM AN ADULT NOW"

p/s- I am still hoping to get a poetry collection book for my birthday. I didn't get any for my 20th Birthday so for my 21st I am crossing my finger! please, anyone!

You Just Another One Of My Mistakes

You are so beautiful,
You are the kind of girl
that has the chemicals that makes me fall in love
Beautiful, you are the kind of girl, that has the chemicals
That makes me fall in love Fall in love

Believing Against The White Flag

In the motion of fighting a losing battle, some smart ass may conclude that rising a white flag is the best way to put an end to the miserable lost cause. It's not completely idiotic move actually because why keep holding on if you know that in the end you are going to lose anyway, right? That's what most of us preferred. Hell, history proved that this is fact. People rather surrender to stay survive if they already know that there's no point in resisting if the bigger picture shown that we are not going to win in the end. That what survival is all about, surrender if there seem to be no hope left.

This is no a story about bloody war. This is just a story of fictional battle that every single one of us face everyday. We give up easily. We choose to stay down when reached to the point where's it seem to be a dead end. I'm not making a point where I'm the hero that keep on fighting until my final breathe. I'm not making a legend out of myself which hope to be remember in near future. I'm just a normal guy. I did surrender sometimes in my life when things are hard. I'm no hero. But the fact is, who does? We are all not Clark Kent.

The real reason for this post it that I wanna tell about an on-going battle I'm facing in my life. Nothing serious, it just a stupid fling. Yes, all fact directed me to the extent of proof showing that there is no hope in winning this battle. I know the fact that I'm going to lose in the end of the struggle. Usually, at this point, I'd raise my white flag already. But somehow, I'm still fighting. I'm fighting to win even though I know I'm going to lose. Still, my fighting spirit ain't going to fade away. That's faith. Yes, I do have faith that I'm going to win after all. I'm betting against myself, I know, but somehow, something keep me going. I am not planning of giving up, ever. I want to keep fighting. Because I do believe that I can pull it off. I am going to WIN! Mark my words.

p/s- Dear You, I'm not giving up. Brace yourself. I will succeed!

Can U Read This?

i cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mni d deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt!

The Ring Is Still On My Finger

Yes, pathetic maybe the right word to be call upon. Yes, false hope is maybe what I really counting on. Yes, dignity sacrificial is needed in my situation. Yes, desperate my had become my gene nowadays. Yes, I maybe a bragging bastard. Yes, I am acting cool when I'm supposed to be pissed off. Yes! Yes! Yes! Call me what ever you want, I don't give a shit. Pathetic is only a state of mine, not an action. maybe I am waiting for something that will never happen, period. But, I kept my hope high. Because I am a believer. I am someone stupid enough to dream. I am. Faith had become one of my new character building. Till the day i die, I'm gonna try to touch the sky.

Malaysia Will Remain Harmony Unless Theres Politics Involvemennt

Choose any chillax places. Place where you be in when you want to relax and hang out with our friends and buddies. Mamak stalls? Coffee houses? Even street hawker stalls? There's always hemegenous kind of people mixing together having a nice quality time of chit chat and small talk. Yes, Malaysia is one of the most harmonious country where any race can sit together under the same roof and sky while not giving each other the hatred glance. taka any Premier League match at a mamak stall. You'll see various type of Manchester United fans, Malays, Indian and Chinese sitting there's together, cheering when Rooney score a goal, cursing "BODOH!" all together when the Red Devil's army miss a shot. The most precious moment yet to share is half time break. All together will shout their opinions out on the first half performance. There's will always be a sweet disputes about the club latest news but when the second half whistle is blown, all together will unite again as one. Sweet isn't it?

Well it isn't as meaningful moment of unification if there's politics talk is involve. Take the same chillax place, Mamak stall. Every minutes, every moment there's always been a politics talk in those stall. People clashes opinions on everything with politics tag line on it. Politics was and will always been the irrational mechanism of Malaysian. On top of the that, politics cause a lot of interracial disputes but the main problems is that Malaysian cannot live on without politics. Politic had and always been bread and butter of Malaysia. Imagine the harmonious lifestyle if we take politics out of the equation. Malaysia will remain strong as ever.

p/s- Congrats to the winning party at Galas and Batu Sapi. And Happy Diwali!

I Don't Deserve

Band- Linkin Park
Song- Burning In The Skies
Album- A Thousand Sun

I used the deadwood to make the fire rise
The blood of innocence burning in the skies
I filled my cup with the rising of the sea
And poured it out in an ocean of debris

I'm swimming in the smoke
Of bridges I have burned
So don't apologize
I'm losing what I don't deserve
What I don't deserve

We held our breath when the clouds began to form
But you were lost in the beating of the storm
But in the end we were meant to be apart
Like separate chambers of the human heart

No

I'm swimming in the smoke
Of bridges I have burned
So don't apologize
I'm losing what I don't deserve

It's in the blackened bones
Of bridges I have burned
So don't apologize
I'm losing what I don't deserve
What I don't deserve

The blame is mine alone
For bridges I have burned
So don't apologize
I'm losing what I don't deserve

I used the deadwood to make the fire rise
The blood of innocence burning in the skies

I Aint Beautiful

Don't Ever Presume To Know Whats Inside My Head. To Ever Think You Know Whats Its Like To Walk In My Shoe. I'll Always Be One Tough Act To Follow. And Yes, I Tend To Push People Away From My Life. But Note This, It Is For Their Own Good. I Can't Stay Responsible For Whats Might Happen To Them. Because I Am Explosive. I Am Incurable Curse. I'll Suck Everything Deep Inside A Hell Hole Once Their Close To Me. Stay Away! I Am Giving You A Choice. I Am Doing This For Your Own Good. Yes, It May Seem Cruel, But It What Must Be Done. Hate Me Now, I Can Endure That. Because Hate Has Become My Fruitful Meal. I Just Can't Let You Drown Inside My Darkness Side. I Can't Let That Happened. That's Why I Choose To Push You Away Rather Then Let You Get Any Closer To Me.Be Friend And Be A Close Friend Is Two Different Terms. I Know That You Can't Handle Me. You Are To Good To Be Mine. I Am To Fucked Up To Be Yours. You Can't Handle Me. And I Can't Assure Your Safety Once You Near Me. And I Can't Afford That To Have. I Rather Let You Go. Even Though The Scar Will Continue To Show. Well, That's The Price I Have To Pay For Being Me.Yo Don't Know Me.

We Shouldn't Be Together, The Horoscope Compability Said So

Aries + Virgo

Fire + Earth = Lava


The cool, critical, perfectionist Virgo is a difficult kettle of fish for you, Aries. In fact, Virgo is so different from you that you may feel completely at odds with them, even irritated by them. You could also find yourself getting pretty angry with their moral attitudes.

And looking at it from the other side, your fast, furious and impulsive nature will throw Virgo into a complete tailspin. You aren’t too concerned with what people think, and you don’t mind the occasional in-your-face shock tactic. This just won’t work with Virgo.

This is, therefore, not a combination for the faint of heart. Think deeply before you jump into this one.

Although the snapshot above shows you and Virgo as quite incompatible, there’s still hope. You can learn a lot from the order and meticulousness of Virgo: you could benefit by applying some of their practicality and orderliness to your own life.

As with the other earth signs, Taurus and Capricorn, Virgo relates best to the financial and work areas of your life. There are many lessons to be learned by both of you here. If you’re open enough and willing to accept the advice Virgo has to offer in this field, you could learn how to prudently apply your wisdom. And likewise, if Virgo is open enough, they will learn about risk-taking and bringing more vital energy to a task.

If you do choose to work with each other, the combination could be very successful, because Virgo will support you completely. You see, Virgo is very interested in two ideas: service and perfection. You might describe them as fastidious, but you mustn’t be too judgmental.

One big plus is that Virgo will be more than happy to listen to all your ideas, and to take them seriously. They will then home in on them and refine them into something that works in practice. On this level, both of you could be quite surprised at how fine a job you do together.

Your straightforwardness and your honest, unadorned style are very unlike the complex, intellectual and deductive mind of Virgo. The two of you often have similar ideals, but you will present your views and live out your principles in vastly different ways.

This difference in style is also very noticeable in the sexual relationship between you. Virgo is prim and proper — probably overly so for your raw and primitive approach. But remember, Virgo was born to serve, as you were born to lead, so there could be a kind of compatibility between you. Don’t be too quick to jump to conclusions, especially in matters of love — it may just work!

If you do feel attracted to a Virgo, possibly due to some karmic longing, those born in the third portion — between 13 September and 23 September — will be the most suitable for you.

Try to avoid partnerships with those born between 3 September and 13 September. This is a really tough combination.

Virgos born between 24 August and 2 September are moderately compatible, so you might want to give it a try with them.

Mummy, I Am A Killing Plague

If I Am A Precious Diamond,
You Are Surely My Diamond Cutter.

If I Am A Fresh Meat In The Market,
You Are Gonna Be My Lovely Butcher.

Sometimes I've Become A Really Bad Mega Disaster,
But You Are Always There To Be My Well Arm Protector.

Advice And Guidance From You Make Me See The World Clearer,
Now I Can Totally Recognise All The Gladiator And Traitor.

If I Am The Killing Plague, I Know You'll Be There As My Cure,
Even Thought The Always Hard Words, I Know Your Love Is Pure.

If I Am A Heart Breaker, You'll Be There As My Savior
But If You Are Drowning, Can I Bring You Back To The Shore?
That's The Ultimate Question, One That I Can't Quite Figure.

Life Aint Sweet, Outcasters!

Reality mean nothing, perception is everything
We try to denied it but it won’t cling
The says, the words we try to take it for granted
Because in our head it still flustered
Should we care about all of the filthy thought?
They don’t even know us, isn’t that an obvious odd?
They said we the doubter, but we do believe in god
But still, their perspective and speech hurts, a lot

Maybe we don’t belong maybe we just the exile
Trying to fit in, but the world is another plays of child
Maybe it’s them with constructed mind
Or it just us that too blind to find

WE DON’T HAVE the right path to go
WE DON’T HAVE the right voice to mellow
WE DON’T have the perfect click to follow
WHAT WE HAVE IS JUST The cute cover to blow

We try our best to fit in
Still all of the efforts blown away and drowning
Still people see the worst of us
They Lust for more and we starting to fly dust

It’s time to seize back what ours
The rightful marks to be belong and fuss
ALL WE WANT IS Society membership not TO BE freaks
Can we, or can’t we? it just another break
Another swing we must alert ON
To be apart, nah! To be heard Upon

The Nexus

Band-12 Stones
Song- We Are One
The Nexus Theme

We walk alone In the unknown
We live to win another victory
We are the young Dying sons
We live to change the face of history
so be afraid
It's the price we pay
The only easy day was yesterday
So hear our voice,We have a choice,
It's time to face it

We are one We are one We are one
We will stand together
Number one Number one
The chosen ones
We are one We are one
we will fight forever
we are one and we won't tire

We are the bold United souls
We live to win another victory
Our sacred scars Show who we are
And tell the story of our memories

Don't be afraid It's the price we pay
The only easy day was yesterday
So hear our voice We have a choice
It's time to face it

We walk alone In the unknown
We live to win another victory
Our sacred scars Show who we are
It's time to face it

Choice

~Mymy Mox~



The End

Double Standard Orthodoxy

"Seriously?" Yes, that's the first thing zaps straight to mind when one of my friend asked me to help her out a bit to deal with this orthodox dude. I mean come on. Double standard education is so yesterday's news man, grow up please. i reserve my comment on POLITEKNIK standard because, well isn't it obvious? Plus, I do have several Politeknik buddies whom struggling there, so i don't wanna drop a bombshell on them.

What do I interested on is the facts that he still using the "double standard" ideology between IPTA vs IPTS. Isn't it cherry? In my own believe, i don't really think that if you had some huge advantages of being IPTA students instead of IPTS students. In my thought, what really matters is how you bring yourself for the world to take you seriously. Diploma or Degree is just a ticket or key for you to enter the working environment with a little "Golden Boot". How you survive, it is you own technique and some dumb luck come into play. Where you receive your education doesn't really matter at that point, because if you can give a HELL YEAH performance, trust me, you'll be fine in the real world. Take for example any of under-graduated students. Does their academic achievement during high school really matter once they step in the campus? It's a big NO. It is all depends on your DIY (Do It Yourself) attitude.

Well, to Rs Ali Ariffin, sorry man, you are a douchebag. you are to proud of yourself just because you are a mechi. engine student? hahaha. That's dumb. And your comment doesn't show your level of mentality meet the requirement of being an engine student. You just make it worst. People will look down on you even more, because our comment only provoke more and worstly it effect Politeknik. You just ain't got it dude. At this point, me myself questioned the creditability of your statement of being engine students. Sorry dude, YOU SUCK! even more then all those Nursing babe that you criticised.Adios!

AdaMaya

Don't ask why i post this pix up. and yes, she live in the past and she belong in the past. but somehow she still able to pull some string around the present.she still in my head, laying low waiting for the right moment to pop out. messing around with my thought. its not really her whom poking me around, it is the memory of her. heart-broken? no. that's not the right term to put it. but the memory we shared, is one hell of unforgettable one. how i ended up still thinking about her even though it had been a few year? i guess maybe she is the only one that truly honest when we were together. seriously, if you ask me now, i don't know how and what honest relationship is. yes, there are some honest girl, try to get inside my heart, but i am the one who did not play along. so yes, i don't know what honest relationship is all about. if, hypothetically if, magically she appeared right before my eyes, i'll be numb. yes, that's the kind of string that she can pull on me. oh how i wish we can finish what we had started awhile ago. but honestly, i am not ready for face her just yet, because.. the reason is not something that i'm willing to share. simple conclusion, she is different. not special, but different.

Clash Of The Titans. Money VS Talent. aCe+ Football Review

Money can buy talent but can't create one. That's why in 5 years period, Arsenal still gonna be one of the top gun in BPL, but Man City if they wanna do so, they need to keep on their crazy "Spending Spree" to be able to maintain their top 4 spot.

Two different club, two different place, two different ideologies. its WengerNomic VS ManciMoney. Arsene Wenger earned a degree in economic which explained his wise spending in term of strengthen Arsenal squad. Why? Because Wenger believe in creating a strong based n foundation in the squad. Take Jack Wilshere for example. Out of nowhere talent, fresh from the academy but yet promising future. Wilshere had become Arsenal's top 11 this season whereby he still wearing his academic boot last 2 season. Thats the ideology preferred but Wenger. Thats the reason, Arsenal won't be thirst for talent in the future because they are the camp that create talent. But in the meantime, on the other side of the war, we got Roberto Mancini "uprising" squad. "Goddamn Big Spender". Yup, that's the nickname I'm giving to him. Statistic speak for itself. Boeteng, Bonatelli, D.Silva, some of the name that Mancini lured to Eastland to be apart of his "Dream Team" and yet, its pay out. Man City is the second on the league and didn't show any flaw that they are stop moving up. In just 2 term of BPL, Man City was able to do so. How? Big buck bought talent. That's how. But the remaining question is "In 5 years period, can Man City Maintain their dominance in BPL?" Yes they could, but the money have to be out and out from time to time. As the richest club in the region, yes the can do so. They can even bring Wayne "Whore"Ney to the squad. Yes, that's fact.

Well after all, its just an icing on top of sweet tooth cake for this week clash between Arsenal and Man City. But remember, Arsenal's capn quoted "One can't buy team spirit, and we got plenty". that's right, no question that Arsenal do have the team spirit, and so Man City. but if "Understanding" issue risen, Arsenal win because there no clinical doubt for their team in that perspective. For what it worth, i am rooting for Arsenal this week. I'm not a gunners fan, but i do love to watch their game because Arsenal always give a good show. Go gunners.

Funny Feeling