Not For Me To Decide

As For You Theres Only 2 Option Remains. Either Love Me Or Hate Me. But Its You Who Put It That Way, Not Me..

Death

Song-I Will Follow You Into The Dark
Band-Death Cab For Cutie
Album-Plans

Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black
And I held my tongue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
'cause we'll hold each other soon
In the blackest of rooms

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied

Brutal Cold

There no such thing as me and you, only me and you. theres alway third party. theres alway another guy, theres alway another girl. wanna talk about being single? single is another word for no serious attachment with anybody, not bout feeling. when feeling come in hand, theres a different side of the meaning of single.so, yeah. im single though. same goes for her

This Is Our Story

a beautiful dove like you will keep on flying high,
until somehow magically you own the sky,
as for that reason i won't be a drag to hold you from your search,
because i'll be down here waiting for you on mother earth
an independent soul like yours will keep on living free,
until you finally colour your life with full of glee,
a colour of life which keep you fill and satisfy,
but still i will be right down here waiting to justify.

if there even a slightest thing in this world
that could ever slow your pace, girl
i'll kill it instantly so that your lust keep on fire
why? beacuse girl like you is full of passion and desire
i couldn't stop you i wouldn't want to
because your type of naturale is just a few
a rare girl like you i hard to find
thats why i'll keep waiting till you are mine

you are you whom become miss teen
you are you whom one day will be a queen
you are you whom never slow down
you are you whom alway own the town
you are you whom never give up
you are you whom never stop
you are you whom bend the curve
you are you whom i alway love

i am me whom alway here
i am me whom alway near
i am me whom gonna keep waiting
i am me whom gonna keep on fighting
i am me whom not gonna stop trying
i am me whom never gonna stop loving
i am me whom alway love you
i am me whom forever will still be in love with you

Airplanes Part 2

(Hayley Williams)

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right now
Wish right now
Wish right now

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right now
Wish right now
Wish right now

(Dreamin’)
(Of fallin’)
(Dreamin’)
(Of fallin’)

(B.o.B)

Let’s pretend like it’s ’98
Like I’m eatin’ lunch off of Stryofoam trays
Tryna be the next rapper comin’ out the A (A-Town)
Hoping for a record deal to ignore my pain
Now let’s pretend like I’m on the stage
And when my beat drops, everybody goes insane
(Okay) And everybody know my name (B.o.B)
And everywhere I go, people wanna hear me sing
Oh, yeah, I just dropped my new album
On my first week, I did 500,000 (Yes)
Gold in the spring, and diamond in the fall
And then a world tour just to top it all off
And let’s pretend that they call me the greatest
Sellin’ out arenas with big-ass stages
And everybody loved me, and nobody hated
Just tryna use imagination

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars? (Shooting stars)
I could really use a wish right now (Wish right now)
Wish right now (Wish right now)
Wish right now (Wish right now)

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars? (Shooting stars)
I could really use a wish right now (Wish right now)
Wish right now (Wish right now)
Wish right now (Wish right now)

(Okay) Let’s pretend like this never happened
Like I never had dreams of being a rapper
Like I didn’t write raps up in all of my classes
Like I never used to run away into the blackness
Now, let’s pretend like it was all good (Good)
Like I didn’t live starin’ in the notebook (Notebook)
Like I did the things that I prolly knew I should (Should)
But I ain’t have neighbors, that’s why they call it hood
(Yeah) Now let’s pretend like I ain’t got a name
Before they ever called me B.o.B or AKA Bobby Ray
I’m talkin’ back before the mixtapes
Before the videos and the deals and the fame
Before they ever once compared me to Andre (Three Stacks)
Before I ever got on MySpace
Before they ever noticed my face
So let’s just pretend
And make wishes out of airplanes

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars? (Shooting stars)
I could really use a wish right now (Wish right now)
Wish right now (Wish right now)
Wish right now (Wish right now)

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars? (Shooting stars)
I could really use a wish right now (Wish right now)
Wish right now (Wish right now)
Wish right now (Wish right now)

And it seems like yesterday
It was just a dream
But those days are gone
They’re just memories

And it seems like yesterday
It was just a dream
But those days are gone

(Eminem)

Let’s pretend Marshall Mathers never picked up a pen
Let’s pretend things would’ve been no different
Pretend he procrastinated, had no motivation
Pretend he just made excuses that were so paper-thin
They could blow ‘way with the wind
Marshall, you’re never gonna make it
Makes no sense to play the game, ain’t no way that you’ll win
Pretend he just stayed outside all day and played with his friends
Pretend he even had a friend to say was his friend
And it wasn’t time to move and schools weren’t changin’ again
He wasn’t socially awkward and just strange as a kid
He had a father and his mother wasn’t crazy as shit
And he never dreamed that he could rip stadiums
And just lazy as shit
Fuck a talent show in a gymnasium, bitch
You won’t amount to shit, quit daydreamin’, kid
You need to get your cranium checked
You’re thinkin’ like an alien, it just ain’t realistic
Now pretend that they ain’t just make him angry with this shit
And there was no one he could even aim when he’s pissed at
And his alarm went off to wake him
But he didn’t make it to the Rap Olympics
Slept through his plane and he missed it
He’s gon’ have a hard time explaining to Hailie and Laney
These food stamps and this WIC shit
‘Cause he never risked shit, he hoped and he wished it
But it didn’t fall in his lap, so he ain’t even here
He pretends that

Airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right now
Wish right now
Wish right now

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right now
Wish right now
Wish right now

Eet Haga Hik

SHE SAID=

miss u??

realy ??

hmm...??

thinkng.. y i miss u..??

hee.... know y??

because i miss u damn so much...!!!

=)

but... u know y i miss u...??

i dunno too lowh... huxhux... so.. think..!!

Aint Another Excuse, Its Fact

i was left in the dark for quite something i've turn to something i hate. darkness can be comforting sometimes, but when u do keep comfortable in the dark, it means u've change. yes, darkness do presenting bad things,demonic things. thats why we should fear if we felt comfortable in the dark. but what if the question of choice in not on the table? what if we cant choose not to live in the dark. we are force to do so.well that mean we are meant to be in dark. we are meant to be bad. we are meant to be the vilain in life. we are who we are, thats correct n thats are also not true.sometimes we are force to be something we dont want to without us knowing that. we are becoming something bad unwillingly. once we realise we are too late because we had become the thing that we not supposed to be. wanna know bout darkness? thats real life..

You Are Special

You are special. why? we text each other 24/7. the only then we stop is when we both are asleep. You are special. why? because everyday i sent u a good nite poem just before you go to dreamland. You are special. why? you make me smile every second my phone rang when i get ur texts. You are special. why? because sometimes you force me to webcam eventhough i hate YM. You are special. why? because on my laptop the wallpaper is either our sweet pix or our pix together. You are special. why? because i bought ateddy bear since i met you. You are special. why? i miss you every single day.You are special. why? because after all this while, i havent even confess to you how i feel all along since we first reunited after long lost. You are special. why? you stole my heart away and i know it keep on pounding everytime. You are special.why? BECAUSE I DO LIKE YOU.. You are special.why? BECAUSE I LOVE YOU.

Trouble Is A Friend-Lenka

Trouble he will find you no matter where you go, oh oh
No matter if you're fast, no matter if you're slow, oh oh
The eye of the storm or the cry in the mourn, oh oh
You're fine for a while but you start to lose control

He's there in the dark, he's there in my heart
He waits in the wings, he's gotta play a part
Trouble is a friend, yeah trouble is a friend of mine, oh oh!

Trouble is a friend but trouble is a foe, oh oh
And no matter what I feed him he always seems to grow, oh oh
He sees what I see and he knows what I know, oh oh
So don't forget as you ease on down the road

He's there in the dark, he's there in my heart
He waits in the wings, he's gotta play a part
Trouble is a friend, yeah trouble is a friend of mine, oh oh

So don't be alarmed if he takes you by the arm
I won't let him win, but I'm a sucker for his charm
Trouble is a friend, yeah trouble is a friend of mine, oh oh!

Oh how I hate the way he makes me feel
And how I try to make him leave, I try
Oh oh, I try!

He's there in the dark, he's there in my heart
He waits in the wings, he's gotta play a part
Trouble is a friend, yeah trouble is a friend of mine, oh oh

So don't be alarmed if he takes you by the arm
I won't let him win, but I'm a sucker for his charm
Trouble is a friend, yeah trouble is a friend of mine, oh oh!
Ooo, oh ooo, ooo ahh

This Is Real Life, And It Just Kick My Ass

In life there are two simple choice. A-give up and leave or B-Stand up and fight. to be frank, i am at the junction between both. i dunno whether i should just give up n raise my middle finger to all of you at leave this shithole once n for all because its only bring me misery and pain which i'd reach to a point where i cant endured it any longer. but apart of me wanna keep on fighting because im such in closer motion to the finish line. im almost there. the only thing that bring me down is the fucking "injury". so, will i suck it up, pull myself together n stand to finish this godforsaken race or just raise my white flag? i dunno. there nothing much left in my cup. i havent find the courage to summon the fighting spirit. i am so close to giving up.im still hanging. which also mean i havent given up yet. which mean, im still in the game, im still in the race. fuck others even if they finish first before me, because where i come from, my hood teach be to be a fighter not a Bacul. winning is another scenario, its just an extra credit, what important is finishing what u have started. thats how i was raised. but im no longer sweet childish innoncence boy such 10 years ago. i'd grown. i'm learned. some of the experience which i collected along the way is that sometimes given up is not an act of cowardness, its the smart way to survive, to still be in the war eventhough you surrendered the battle. so, what say me decision? nah i havent decided. im still waiting.

p/s-lucky for me, shes there all the time to pick up my broken pieces n combined it together to make me whole again.

Situation

everything fine, everything okay.
everything back to normal, everything cool.
nuff said

The Future Is Still Mine

JD-Before You Leave, I Gotta Ask, Why Aren't You Getting That Test?

Patient -I Don't Know.I Still Might, In The Next Few Years..Or Days.But Right Now, If I Found Out That I Was Eventually Gonna Die From Something, Once You Learned That Information, U Can't Unlearn It.And This Why My Future Is Still Mine. It Can Be What Ever I Wanted It To Be. Is That Make Sense?

J.D- Yeah..



p/s-Scrubs Season 08 Episode 17 -My Finale

I'd Miss This

You-ppsss..!!no komen...wah..
Me-ops!!!! hahahaha

You-wahhh...terlebey sudey..love u la yayunx..!!
Me-love you to yayunx..?????

You-grrr~ ? more n more..
Me-grrrr~ meowwww. more n more 1000x

You-chipmore la..da lewt.. jom tidow..sok keje..huxhux
Me-hahaha. oh ya, u busy esok ek. banyak keja kna wat. tidoq, makn, online. peh. busy2.hahaha

You-aah yunx..u thu2 je la kn my life without u ..u pon bz,i pon bzkn dri la...haha
Me-ala sian yayunx i. nk wat cmna yunx. i da career sbg waiter kehormat

You-hahaha...alamak..waiter terhormt eh?k,,i try to accept n understnd u yayunx..will miss u..
Me-tula. career i sgt penting wat masa ni. but no sweat, u will alway be my number one priority.hahaha. miss u too yayunx

You-haha..wow..!! =) np u jauh dr i.. huahuahua.. i alwaz need u yayunx..kje elok2..jgn nowty2 yeah..
Me-ula nk wat camna. jarak memisahkan kita la yayunx..dun worry. even if im working, u will alway be in my mind n in my heart. i mn pernah notty.hahaha

You-hehehe..ley caye ke yayunx i xnowty2 ni..? ermm.. i trust u..jom dating nk x yayunx..movie ke rabu ni erk..midnyte after u finish ur work. haha
Me-ble ja. demi u, i sanggup la yayunx. kalu ble, nk ponteng keja ja for u. but u know, its my career.

You-ok yayunx..its ok la if lewt pon..jnji i dpt jmp u..!!
Me-me too. tapi u taw la kan, i pas after keja, knpem2 bucuk. u ok ka?

You-erm..(thinking).ok kot..xde hal lah..u alwaz my musyuk..hahatu yg syg lebey..
Me-wow.bertmbah2 la i syg kat u,yayunx. u alwayz be my miss model..

You-hee..terharu nye i yayunx..yayunx..i have smting to tell u..erm...
Me-whats that?

You-ILUDSM...IMUDSM..
Me-thats sweet.I LOVE YOU TOO SO DAMN MUCH!!??????

You-????? ngee~ crazy love..

When I Put My Mohawk On, Im Bad Again

like i said before, punk is a statement, not a lifestyle. thats the reason why im alway into mohawk.its a statement its a warning letting the world know that i am bad, i aint just another pussy, i aint another dude whom is a poser. if none of this make sense, please do watch A-Team movie n lsiten to a character played by quinton "Rampage" Jackson- Bosco Albert (B.A.-Bad Atttidue) Baracus. he'll explain well about mohawk being a statement.thats the reason why i watched that movie 3 time in cinema. just to listen to the line of BA Baracus.well, as for rite now, i damn wish i ddint cut my hair back to normal. i wish i still had my mohawk on. because as for now, i done been nice. i wanna be bad all the time, 24/7/365.

I Aint Tough But My Heart Is A Soldier

I have some shits to drop out in my blog but still i havent found my word to fully full it. wait.all i know rite now, i wanna get the hell out of penang ASAP and this sem break turns from being one of the best one i ever had to the worst. i guess my life suck huh? all i can ever think of is this, what goes around come around. because i think i got a sweet lil life before this and i alway know its gonna end one day when the real shit storm tarnish everything in its path of my life. n now im in its destrcution path. well, i keep on saying that my heart is a soldier aite? its not just another silly statement, its fact. my heart is a soldier doesnt mean i am tough and ready to war it but it means my heart is a fighting spirit.not just in love, but in life too.i will keep on fighting no matter what.at least i try to do so. i never had a time so beatdown like this. i never been this down in life. usually when im down, its because others life around me affected me one way or another but this time its my life that been hell. life to be enjoy not wasted? as for this moment, its doesnt fit me well.i mean look at me. i never wanna runaway before but i do now.but again, we would i run? to kedah? my life there pretty suck too. another sweet statement i alway made is life aint sweet, motherfucker get a helmet, well im being stupid by not preparing myself with a sweet protection helmet for pain enduresment.huh. i guess Syida Shukor is rite after all, it aint funny to talk about life. well, see you guys on the other side. when i say the other side, i mean the isde of successful. once i get there, then we talk again shall we? adios.

p/s- i really need my bestie safena isfazura rite now!

You Not Mine To Own

yeah, im totally rite man. to be frank i dont actually really believe soem of the shits writing i put in this blog. some of it , i rite just for the reason to make other thinks n if lucky they cna use it in their dialy life.but now i have to admit that i am right. the line between like and love is really fukcing thin. u can slip out easily from one side to another. yup. thats what happening to me man. i've turn the feeling of like as a frens n develop a love one. thats a bummer.big one. its all started with just a lil game we choose to play to fool others. well, that game well serve but in the end i caught feeling in between. thats suck. i dun wanna ruin our beautiful frenship by xpressing my stupid feeling. i really dont wanna to. yeah it may not sound like me, because as u all may know by know, when someone caught my eyes n heart, i directly speak n xpress my feeling straight forward. but now, with her, i dun wanna to because i know the outcome of it. its gonna get ugly n i'll ended up hurting the person i like or love the most, n mostky i'll hurt myself n feel stupid for pursuing it. please God. let this feeling slip please. i really need a break. i dun wanna destroy my precious frenship right now. beacuse once i go for it, its not only me n her caught in the net, many more will be affected by it. but yet again, like the song of escape the fate, "IF I LET IT GO, WILL THE SCAR CONTINUE TO SHOW?"

Theres A Very Thin Line Between Love And Like

yup. its true. it is a very thin line between both. thanx to you my fren, i can see it clearer now. love is more like a feeling, feeling of xtra care and protective for someone we knew.a feeling of wanna be with someone and wanna hold her/him close to us. plus, its make us dont wanna be separated between each other. when we are in love, the own the world, and the world seem a lot better in our point of view. we'll be thinking about him/her every single second and we just wanna spent our goddamn second with her/him. love is also the this that sparks when we with someone. when that happen, yeah guys its love.like in the other hand is so freaking similar with love. yeah, we like someone, it can turn to love within a minute. like is more to feeling the chemistry we share with someone.chemistry that so similar were like thinking alike. yeah i know thats its quite similar with love but its too completely different stuff. thats why its call a very thin line guys. what it worth, i dunno what im crapping about.adios!

For You MyMy Mox

Mymy Mox,
You Are My Heart You Are My Soul,
You Are The Reason That Keeps Me Roll,
As For Now, My Heart Been Sold,
Own By You As Far As We All Know.

Mymy Mox,
You Are So Sweet
You Are So Innonence
Your Smile Alone Make Me Scent
You Keep Me Away From This "SINGLE" Bench.

Mymy Mox,
I sang DOY You Sang My Humps,
Kareoke-ing With You Make My Heart Pumps,
You Make Me Crazy And I Feel Like Wanna Jump,
You Make Me Speechless And All I Can Say Is "UHM".

Mymy Mox,
9 Years Apart Keep Us Away,
Once We Reunited We'd Take A Sweet Cute Sway,
Our Heart Bond Together Now As We May,
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH Is All I Can Say.

Mymy Mox,
There's Only Lil Time Left For Us Together,
After This. We'll Be Apart Away From Each Other,
All We Can Do Is Hope That Our Love Will Remain Stonger Than Ever,
Eventhough We Are Distance Apart From Each Other.

Mymy Mox,
You Are My Yayunx You Are My Sweet Miss Model,
You Are My Dayang Nurfaizah And You Make My Heart Fragile,
I Love You So Much And Alway Miss You.
I Love You So Much I Wanna Hold You..

P/S- I LOVE YOU YAYUNX

Now Thats What We Call Controversial

Another Piece Of Shit

All It Takes Is A Lil' Leap Of Faith..Facts Never Gonna Bring Cherish News..Its Only Gonna Bring Us Down..All That Wee Can Do Is Believe That We Can Somehow Bounce Back And Get Back On Our Feet..But Many Fail To Do So..Many Fall,Crash And Burn..Many Were Unable To STop The Unstoppable Doing..A Few With A Very Strong Will Will Keep On Fighting.. They Never Stop Believing.. But Still, To Have The Strength Of It,Not All Possessed.. Its Something That We Born With Not Gain..Something We All Desire And Dreamt Day And Night.. But For Some Of Us, Dream Is Just Another Fantasy..A Fantasy That Help Us Get By Through This God Forgiving Hell Holes.. Something Which We Refuse To Take For Ganted Unless It Slip Out Of Our Damn Hand.. Fantasy May Seem Childish But Believe It Or Not It Is Something That Evryone Need.. A Need To Summon The Courage.. The Courage To Fight Back.. Fight All The Misery That Take Our Ball To The Next Level..Some DO Not Know That We Are Already On The Level Of Damnation.. Thats The Clische ' About Fantasizing.. It Take Us Away From Reality.. It Take Us Away From Realisation.. Can We Fight It?..Will We Fight It?..No Can't Do Ville,Baby Doll.. Why?..Because We Are All Coward.. Too Coward To Fight..Too Chicken To Step Up..Fight, Yes That What We Need..But Can We Face The Whole Army Of Doom All By Ourself,Using Our Own Bare Hand And State Of Mind?..Yet Again, Whose There Available To Give Us A Helping When We Most Needed?..Because In This World, Its Every Man For Himself..