Welcome To HellHole

im goin back today, bax to penang. my beloved penang.or should i say Hellhole? yeah! its seem perfect word for it. its not that i have anything against penang, no im not its just dat my life in penang is soo twisted n full of lacks n negative suprises that i have to face every single day. but yet again, its where i come from. a place that teached me how to live, teached me wrong from right, teached me how to to survive, if i can survive it, i'll be fine anywhere else.still, penang holds all my love cuz theres no better place like home, n penang is my home. i'll be fine, dun worry, i'd survive the war before, im pretty sure i'll survive this time around.thats why, i love kedah. eventhough is not my bitrhright but still i am happy here. its a perfect getaway, a perfect coolout place where i can hide n runaway from everything.place where i can mellowed myself down from any unpredictable incidents.i only hate some part of kedah, everything else, its just perfect.not so urban n not so lame.kedah rocks! btw, as i look into the calendar just now i just realized that i have another 6 days before my birthday. the Friday of 17th. wow, as for teh moment my age count is 18 years n 299 days. just another 6 days before i enter sweet 19 years old. wow! what about my future plan? plans of chnages taht i wanna make to myself.well guess what, i'll be celebrating my birthda in penang so its gonna be tough though. still, i'll try my best to make it happen.thats all. bye kedah, i'll be away for a weeks. i'll be bax. dun worry. bye saf, see you in a weeks. bye "angel.." see you in a weeks. i'll be missing you guys from penang. dun worry. ist only a week.out!

Im STill Happy Though

well, eventhough the nite did not turn out as i aspected but still im happy. seriesly, no hard feeling at all. at least i know sumthing, something which meaningful to me. she finally thought that i am serious about this matter.adn i can conclude dat shes gonna take me seriously after this, boleh ke? well its all depend on her.im ready when u r babe.kitorang lepak sampai pukui 12 kat parking fudcourt. in the rain. yup, walaupun aku tgh demam2 ni stil gedik nk lepak ngn dia dlm ujan.mmg crk nahas.but, its worth it.babe, like i said before, if waiting is what it takes, then i'll wait. plus u r right at one point, we r still in the process of knowing each other. plus, theres more i need to knwo bout u, n theres more bout me that u need to be alerted.its okay babe. at least i have the chance to hold ur hand for the first time.its priceless. its damn worth it for every cold fever i had to face tomorrow.haha.thanks angel!!

p/s-saja letak gambaq ni. baru snap td tp blur.ha3

Wish Me Luck

I Got A Special Plan...
Hopes its Goes Well

Comment Yg Aku Buh Kat Blog Diba

in my opinion, politik tu xkotoq, actually politicians are. xkesah which side u on to, tp apa yg penting opinion kita. jgn bagi org len pny opinion shake that, hold on tight to ur believe. i sendri pun political science student, betul cm u ckp diba, kita observe n make our own conclusion. bab usia jdk penghalang i xsetuju, based on polls, landslide victory yg PR dpt time PRU12 dulu disebabkan young voters, org cm kita. ya, kita mmg setahun jagung kalau nk bercakap apsai politics. tapi, disitulah org silap menilai kita. org yg dh byk pengalaman mmg dah tgk mcm2 tense to do mistakes in life decision whereby youngster yg setahun jagung cm kita ni kita hanya blajaq theory. thats actually our strong point. theory mengajaq kita utk ikut benda yg betui, where else experience mlearned by mistakes. betui x? sbb tu opinion2 freshie2 mcm kami ni kdg2 lg bernas sbb kau just stick on theory yg kami blajaq.plus, ini politics man, anyone can give their opinion n anyone can support which batatlion they wnat. kata democracy, napa nk marah2 cik rizal oi.. or u just wanna prove taht our govt didnt practice pure demo, that they r practicing auto/demo? yes, kami mmg student uitm, n its against AUKU, but still we can give opinion. kalau govt xmau kena bang, sapa suro wujudkan course whcih involve political science, n again kalau govt takut nk kena bang, jgn r wat mistaken. remember, teh power its in our hand, the people, the one who gonan cast the ballot card. im not govt supporter, not oppisition either. im just silly political science student who used to hate politics, but like it now when i learn it. so, just bare with it man. diba, stick to what u believe is rite. in politics, there no rite n wrong.

I Stoodstill Between Two Junction

in life, we r force, i stress this, FORCE to choose and make decision. decision that gonna effect the rest of our life. yup. i hate this part of life. i hate making choices. i hata making decision betwwen two choices. a poem in my form 4 or form 5 Road Not Taken always slip by my mind when this unpleasant situation occur. it sucks. i dun like being in this position. mostly because im afraid if the decision that i made is the wrong one. what if the decision i'll choose, im gonna regret it for the rest of myself. yes, one of the decision (JUNCTION A) offer me a great deal of opportunities. opportunities that gonna help me explore the other part of me. the part that keep me wondering whether im good at it of not. another one (JUNCTION B) , offer me nothing but happiness and no changes. for the people who noe me well, they'll know that i am a type of person that resist to changes. i like things where they r.things as i felt safe being in it.but as i promise myself, i wanna change that fact. i wanna get out of my comfort zone. exploring the world. being a better person. but, i dun aspect this big bang changes, i really dun.seriesly. i am afraid of this. yes, i admit it. but my heart wanna try it out, try to go on with the path on JUCTION A.but its gonna be a whole new world to me. can i even handle it. im not sure. but i wanna try it out though. still, i wanna choose JUNCTION B cuz i feel happy n safe in this junction. i am. but as i promise, after my birthday this year, im gonna change, become a better person. but how can i be sure that JUNCTION A gonna help me out of this matter? maybe i'll become worst, far worst then ever.who knows. i never knwo whats on JUNCTION A. at least as for JUNCTION B goes, i'd been there before. in fact, i am rite now in JUNCTION B, and i am happy. i dunno. i dunno which one to choose. i asked for some opinion on this matter. SAF, my besties, said i should go n try out JUNCTION A, the newlystart. eventhough if i chose A im gonna be far far away from SAF, but shes cool with it cuz all she want is whats best for me. Even Azam, my bro said so. he said for go it, go for A.still, i havent decided. i really dunno. like i said, i hate making choices between two.it sucks!!!

p/s- this is not a love story though...this is a true story of my life.

Its Not Living If You Dont Have Anything To Complain About

who said being a student in institution is full of enjoyment n exciment, huh? cmon tell me. i wanna kick taht person rite on the ass. argh! tests, assignment presentation n quizs, exco's acts to handle fully pack my schedule this pass weeks. a price of a learning process, once my friends used to said. at that time, im just a silly bartender in swenz, but now i clearly understand whats the deep meaning of it considering my cirstumtances rite now. well, actually im glad though. at least im doing something rather then just hanging out n lofting in my room doing nothing. maybe im stil a newbie in this situation or maybe im just been outside of my comfort zone.well, seriesly i dunno wether i can handle it or not thats the reason i tried it out. well, as for now, its really tiring. a lot of probs occur along the way. literally. but then, i got something worth wkaing up in the morning for. does the word "angel.." ring a bell? thanks. u really cherish my world. plus, i got my buddies along the way to face this cruel life of being a student. saf, thanks babe, u help a lot along the way. azam, aimil, FZ, ijat, mini, baby, boy, awe, kuddus, ayie, n hakim. thanks dudes.

Wait Forever

Doubtful thoughts messing around your minds
Undefined feeling crossing boarder without any signs
Maybe its love, maybe it’s like, hope it is not hates
Who knows, it is all depends on faith

Guiltiness exultant your heart right this moment,
Why should you, just be cool and act innocent
That surely suite you well, just need a little sense
Open your heart a bit, gives a chance of enlightens

Everybody wishes and everyone talks
Sometimes it made the situation a lil’ odd
They wishes the best for us, but they don’t really see
Don’t listen to them, just like me, just want me for being me

You said I am good and nice, thank you
You said that just be myself, I will do
You said I am not pushy, again thank you
You said don’t be too hopeful, yes I won’t do

Predicting the future maybe that what really frightened you
Don’t be, because I am not going to
I don’t wanna know whats gonna happen next
Just have some confident that things won’t be lax

Maybe things won’t turn up as I want to be,
I won’t blame you though, because you had warn me
It is me who wanna kept on trying,
Because the love for you, just don’t wanna die

Scared in your mind and heart, I felt it too,
About things that gonna happen and things that need to do
Just chill and relax, follow what your heart has say
If forever what it takes, then forever I’m gonna wait

Thin Line Between Guys Type

lepaih baca post FD@ FaraDib @ Diba @ Fara @ akak Faradiba (byk tol nickname ang weh.ish2),http://faradibanuar.blogspot.com/ aku tergerak nk wat entry ni. bukan nk critic bukan nk defense, tp just nk bagi opinion aku. laki yg suma mark up diri sendri? hm..

frankly speaking, aku pun kdg2 mark up gak diri sendri.besa r manusia kan. sapa yg xpenah wat benda ni. nomel. tapi byk kes yg jadik, arrogant terlebih. or dgn erti kata len, bajet. besa r tuh. kadang2 kita sendri pun xsedaq yg kita dok mark up @ bajet diri sendri. maybe in this type of people defense, diornag bangga dgn whatsoever life gaining exp yg diorag ada. makpak diorang success or diorang tergolong dlm golongan yg elite. mmg kdg2 dgq arrogant or menunjuk2 tapi stil diorang bangga dgn apa yg diorang ada. kalau diorang xbangga sapa lg nk bangga kan. kaalu xbangga org ckp xbersyukur plak kan. standed r mulut org. bak kata Mat Jan, mulut cm juboq ayam.ha3. people choose to critic in everything but its not that they r 100% wrong. tapi, kdg2 mark up lebih yg mmg annoyying @ mejengkel kan(perkataan favorit sem ni). cmon r kalau ya pun bangga xpayah r lebih2 kan. ckit2 org ble trima g. plus, org len bkn suma loser in term of life. suma ada kejayaan sendri cuma kebanyakan org they choose to not let it glow in public. just be anon. bagus pa cmtu. nk tayang pun, ckit cukup r. sbb nnt org akan pikiq len nk wat conclusion plak. bak kata lect aku Sir Nash, "Perception Is Everything, Reality Is Nothing " (which i dun disagree!). bila org dah wat perception abih r, benda tu yg akan jadik reality dlm kes mark up diri sendri nih.

pasai mark up diri sendri depan pompuan, maybe thats one of the method yg diornag nk guna utk pikat gurl. so, at least theres an effort rite? i give credit tu them on that matter. cuma jgn lebih2 r. mungkin ada pompuan yg akan fall dgn taktik ni, tapi bukan suma. materialistic type sng fall, miss right type, sorry, jgn harap r hampa nk dapat kalau pakai taktik ni. plus, one more thing mungkin org xprasan tp taktik cmni kebanyakan laki guna. seriesly. cuma approach dia berbeza. sbb sesetgh laki diorang x pakai mark up pny style tp , pity style. byk kot, an most of the time it works. so, lu pikir la sendri okay.

p/s- nak ulang skali lg, ni suma just pendapat aku! realitunya, hampa suma manusia, hampa suma aku rasa penah exp sendri benda tu, plus hampa suma dah besaq, pandai2 la pikiq sedri okay. remember, nevertheless, life to be enjoy not wasted!

Walking In The Rain

i look up,

straight to the sky,

its dark,

like my heart when its in pain,

pouring rain, lightning twice strikes

clearing the loneliness of the moment,

i take a walk,

in the heavy rain,

boy scout style of packing,

black favorite sweater as loyal shield,

i turned down the hood,

feeling the wet and water,

falling straight on my head,

i could get sick,

i know that fact,

but still,

i enjoy it,

cherish the moment,

walking in the rain,

its not really a bad idea,

its just the way i enjot life,

nevertheless,

life to enjoy not wasted,

so,

i enjoy every single detail of it,

plus,

my buddies always on my side,

my bro n big bro,

azam and aimil,

together,

we can conquer the world,

nothing can stop us,

not even pak guard,

not anyone,

we laughed,

we jokes,

we smoked,

in the rain,

in sunny day,

anywhere,

proof of memory that i wont erase

walking in the rain,

make me thinking a lot of stuff,

a lot of things,

one things will never changes,

the fact that i wanna change myself,

i can never changed,

im still gonna be me,

the smart ass. the badass, the fuzzy one,

maybe its not a good qualities,

still,

i love myself just the way i am,

in the rain,

walking right through it,

i wont regret it..

The Past Of Revenge Of Ex's

FUCK!!!!

its kinda harsh but, its the truth. at least im being honest about how i feel. i dunno babe. why now? its been 3 years already, grow up, move on. NO!!! i had no more feeling towards u babe. just live with it. i am different now, im not the old dude that dumb enough like before. not like u, i evolve. better being. so, i sugget u do the same. get over me man, live ur life for god sake. dun let that obsession ruin ur frenship babe. seriesly. its been a nice journey that we ride on, but make a crash as the ending of the story. please. let it go. let me go!!! remember what i used to said dun be a maniac!!

one more thing, why in the blue hell all of my past come back n haunting me huh? why now? why when im in this sitaution? hana, i get it. shes alway around but u bitch, go to hell! fuck u lil' blood angel. yes, like i said, i never get gid of our pics in my folder, but i changed its name. the folder now entitled, FUCK U LIL' BlOOD ANGEL!! happy? u should feel lucky i'd bow to myself never hurt a lady, but if im gonna break that, u'll be my first blood victim.bare that in mind.

i guess these thing happen to anyone though. our past trying to pick up where we left off. the truth is, there nothing more to patch on, except frenship. rite? i guess so. but, these people they just dun get it, MORON!!

p/s- one word sorry, is just another blurry of shame..

Actually...

"abang adam, terima kasih sebab jadi abang saya di sini, abang adam sangat baik.. kawan2 aimi dulu kata abang adam nampak macam gangster sebab abang adam nampak macam ganas, tapi abang adam sangat baik.. terima kasih sebab jadi abang aimi di sini ya abang adam, maafkan aimi kalau aimi terkasar ke dengan abang adam, aimi tau aimi banyak buat abang adam annoyed, tapi jangan marah tau abang adam sebab aimi takde niat apa2 pun, aimi saje je.."

citation dr blog aimi-adik aku.bukan niat nk up diri sendri cuba sbb utama kau cite-kan statement ni cuma nk cita bab yg highlight or bold tu ja. ganas? gengster? wow! agak r kan.kalau x nampak ganas xkn la aku kena tahan (aku dah xtaw dah brapa kali kena) ngn pak guard. amk guard sebenarnya tapi sng cita suma guard kami kat cini pggl pak guard jew.ha3. sepbek aku slow talk leklok kalau x naya kena saman.ha3. ok2. dah stat melalut dah. gengster ngn ganas. well, persepsi yg normal pasai aku yg slalu aku dpt dr org yg xkenai aku. mmg aku ngaku, agak ganas r personality aku ni. wlel, tp mcm yg aimi ckpkan, aku ni baik (baik? ha3). well bukan baik actually, tapi sifta n prangai sebenaq aku xfit ngn personality yg aku tunjukkan kan dunia. tapi hakikatnya aku bukan sejahat yg disangka. tapi aku xkesah sgt apa org nk kata. kalau ambik pusing apa org kata ampuih r nk ikut suma kan.plus, kita kenai diri kita.tu yg penting, thats the most important thing that matter.aku kenai diri aku cmna nk g mampuih r apa org nk kata.chop2.aku melalut lg.tujuan utama aku tulih entry ni actually nk gitaw yg aku nk berubah. yup.aku nk ubah personality aku.x mau dah di-chop jahat ngn gengster.aku nk di-chop sbg org baek2. actually xpayah baek2 pun xpa, as long as org xchop negative kat aku dha cukup. napa nk brubah? actually aku dah plan. lepaih burfday aku 17th april ni aku nk ubah diri aku sbb aku nk mausk 19 tahun dah. last year in teen-hood.pasni tahun ni aku akan melangkah ke alam young adult. so bila aku dah 19 nnt aku nak try tgk aku ble brubah ke x.seriesly aku xtaw ble ke x.sbb tu aku nk try time aku 19 tahun kalau time dah 20 bru nk try susah r time tu dah jdk adult dah. so, wish me luck. nnt aku postkan benda2 yg aku nk ubah pasai diri aku. but as for now, i stil got 16 days to enjoy the "old" me before i change.so wish me luck!

p/s- aku ada wawasan hidup okay! this changes that i wanna make is the stepping stone..

April Fool

setelah lebih 3 tahun aku xkena, last2 tahun ni aku kena april fool.well, sblom ni aku dah buckle up ngn shield2 n anti-virus2 suma agar x tertipu ngn lahabau2 yg aku kenai sbg member2.last2 aku jadik careless. n as the result, tahun ni aku kena april fool sbyk 3 kali dlm masa 3 jam. suma aku xprepare lgsg.suma maybe aku ble predict kalau aku in the alert mode except yg imah wat punya r, tapi sbb aku xpasang alert mode aku tahun ni aku dah kena bang.ha3. well, the record ended this year. im still proud of it cuz 3 years man.ha3. well, thanx suma yg april fool aku.at least bg yg dah dkt setahun lebih x call aku tetiba call just nk wat april fool, aku ambik tu sbg satu ingatan yg still bermakna sbb aku still nk april fool aku walaupun agak lama x contact. thanx lahabau! sedia ang tahun depan aku pekena ang balik. hazwan, ang pun aku xaspect nk wat bang kat aku, thanx gak anyway.taun depan pun ang jaga2.nama ang dlm top list org2 yg bakal aku april fool.imah ngn ocot..thanx. first time aku kena april fool ngn budak2 campus aku sendri.xpa2, tggu nanti.ocot, ang mmg xhot! haha! thanx suma! april fool rule ble wat time 1st april, so stil ada masa nk bang org, so apa lg, jom bang org suma ramai2.enjoy life ok! out!

p/s- test PA mlm ni, wish me luck.hm, clap2.xpyh wish r weh. wat penat hampa ja.aku bkn baca papa pun.ha3.

How I Feel Towards You Rite Now!

Baby, Come On- plus 44

She's a pretty girl She's always falling down
And I think I just fell in love with her
But she will never remember, remember
And I can always find her At the bottom of a plastic cup
Drowning in drunk sincerity A sad and lonely girl

And she said, I think we're running out of alcohol
Tonight I hate this fucking town
And all my best friends will be the death of me
And they won't ever remember, remember
So please take me far away Before I'm melt into the ground
And all my words get used against me You sad and lonely girl

Quit crying your eyes out
Quit crying your eyes out, and baby, come on
Isn't there something familiar about me?
The past is only the future with the lights on
Quit crying your eyes out, baby

Empty- The Click Five

Try to take a picture, of love
Didn’t think I’d miss her, that much
I wanna fill this new frame, but it’s empty
Try to right a letter, in ink
It’s been getting better, I think
I got a piece of paper, but it’s empty

Maybe were trying, trying to hard
Maybe we thorn apart maybe the timing is beating the heart,
Were empty

The Only Song- Sherwood

Im okay, since like I just need a break,
Set down town and now im up against
Finding out that im alone, my friend left me behind
And into another town,
Where this boy is not around
And I don’t blame them cuz I do the same
And now im alone again

So I sing along this only song,
I rather known
And I sending out to the lonely one
Those day are gone but the night roll on
Taking their place

Hey, lets write this story again,
Where im your lover and bestfriend
Pack ur back and we’ll leave this old goes down behind
Into another time
Where this boy is not around


Far away- Nickelback

This time, this place
Misused, mistakes
Too long to late
Who am I that wanna make you wait

Just one chance, just one breathe
Just in case this wont last
You know, you know, you know

I love you, I love you all along
I miss you, far away is far too long
I kept dreaming, that u’ll be with me and u’ll never go
Stop seeing when I don’t be with you anymore

On my knee I’ll last
One last chance for one last stand
With you, I’ll stand, to just hold your hand
Give it all, give for us, but anything I just wont give up
Cuz you know, you know, you know,

I love you, I love you all along
I miss you, far away is far too long
I kept dreaming, that u’ll be with me and u’ll never go
Stop seeing when I don’t be with you anymore

Here Without You- 3 Doors Down

100 days had made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies had made me colder
And I don’t think I can look at this the same

All the miles that separated
They disspear now when I dreaming of ur face

Im here without you baby
But you still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby,
And I dream about you all the time

Im here without you baby
But you still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby,
And I dream about you all the time

Broken- Seether ft. Amy Lee

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and and steal your pain, away
I kept your photograph cuz I know its serve me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain, away

Cuz im broken when im lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you you gone away
You gone away, I dun feel me right anymore

Fall for you- Secondhand Serenade

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

Only One- YellowCard

Broken this fragile thing now,
But I cant I cant pick up the pieces
And I thrown my word all around,
but I cant I cant give you a reason

I felt so broken up
And I give up,
Just wanna tell you so u know

Here I go
Screams my lung out
Try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go
There just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Until the day I Die- Story Of The Year

Until the day I die, I spill my heart for you,
Until the day I die, I spill my heart for you

As day goes by, I race the clock with you
But if u day right now, u now that I die too
you remind me of the time when I knew who I was
Till the second hand will catch us, like we always does
We make the same mistakes; I take the fall for you
I hope you need this now, cuz I know I still do

Until the day I die, I spill my heart for you,
Until the day I die, I spill my heart for you

p/s-this is exactly whats my feeling for the past few days.dunno. she rock my heart.

Smile

For once, it is hard even for me
To be in the situation that I don’t want to be
To take the beat, I am cool with it
As long as I know where it would leads

Same reflection past by me every day and every night
It’s doesn’t matter because I know it’s what I like
For the true love I seek, that’s why I will fight
It is okay for me, even if you “might”

Because,
You are the one that I dull about like and love
You are the one that make me not stopping my puff
You are the one that I open my heart to happiness
You are the one that have the key to my fragileness

Your smile makes my heart melted
Your smile the reason I tried many method
Your smile heals my wounding hurts
Your smile put up my moods

The smile upon your face bright ups me day
Even though sometimes its buzz my tongue and left me no word to say,
The cute smiles of you make me exposed and cloud my judge
It could make my day better or make it fuss

Your smile is one of the reason I’m falling for
It is also because you are special and raw
I like you just the way you are
As the same reason I’d fight till this far
Once, I tried to give up on you
But my heart won’t let it though
So from now on I will keep on trying
Because it’s you that I’m craving.

Earth Hour-Malinja Styles

UiTm All Black Out..8.30pm-9.30pm..earth hour..handphone as torchlight to everyone.. everybody screaming out soo damn loud.. making noises..anonymous student turns to a very active one..choatic moment.im included.. candle as a source of light so some groups..paper burning for fun.. tshirts been burned accidently.. porn wayang kulit's show..trash throwing.. bustbin throwing.. pak guard attacking..

p/s- thats sum up earth hour malinja style.we should do it again next sem.

The Result

first2 aku nk maki dulu.bkn maki pa, maki wifi uitm cm haram siot.dah 2 ari xble nk on9.pa jadahnya.siot, sial, haram, babi!!

ok2 dah abih maki dah.skrg aku nk umumkan sumthing.wow, mmg terkejut beruk.seriesly.aku dok aspect result utk election dipac akan kluaq ari ahad atau senin tgk2 khamis tu gak kluaq pas2 org suma abih ngundi diorang truih nk umum result.around 5.30 cmtu diorang pggl kami calon2 suma suro bwk turun poster n berkumpul dlm DS1 sbb diorang nk umum sapa result mua.ble plak depa kencing kami.kata ada writing test plak.kalau dah menang election pun kalau xpass test tu still di-eliminate.wow, aku dlm ati dah bebai dah.apa ni, general election pun xcmni.last2 pas diorang dha umum result diorang gitau yg diorang kencing.ha2.mmg lawak sial.o ya the result.sorry aku dah xigt dah suma sbb dah 2 ari dah lepaih.so makilah wifi uitm ya kwn2 suma.apa yg pasti aku menang.alhamdullillah. yg aku stil igt rank2 voter2 ikut vote terbyk r.first mu'az dgn undian 290 brapa ntah, pastu second awie, 230 brapa ntah, pastu third bilal 190 n then aku.wow top4 kot.thanx suma voters aku.syg hampa suma. aku dpt vote sbyk 149.wow!sgt2 terharu gila babi dowh. pastu aku xigt dah rank2 dia. yg aku igt bestie aku saf dpt vote sbyk 123 n then bashah dpt vote 121.tu ja aku igt.bob ngn rahman, sorry weh aku lupa brapa byk hampa pny vote.sorry.2apa yg pasti dr 20 org yg masuk election 18 yg terpilih utk form new dipac n 2 org terkeluar.org tuh aini, ngn falina.cian depa.they had come this far.xpa guys, whe theres a will theres a way.try lg ok, jgn give up.skrg 18 calon dah automatic-ly jdk exco dipac n esok ari ahad kami akan wat meeting utk tentukan jawatan n get ready nk berbincang pasai kami pny jawatan.seriesly aku masih berkejut smpai skrg kot.terkejut yg aku skrg dah jdk member of majlis tertinggi dipac.wow! bayangkan lah.org cm ak yg clumsy, yg suka maki hamun, mencarut xsudah2 nk lead dipac n buat dipac jdk lebih TERBAEK(ayat bob)..ble ke? tgk la nanti cmna ek. last but not least, aku nk thanx skali lg pada suma member2 aku yg support kami calon2 suma dr mula sampai abih.siap buat banner lagi undilah adam, jom undi saf.mmg gempak.aku stil xble nk lupa mlm manifesto tu.sgt bermakna n akan jdk kenangan terindah dlm idup aku.aku syg hampa suma.love u all.thanx again!!!

p/s-sorry tu "angel..".sorry sbb aku sgt blur pada hari manifesto tu n smpai terlupa nk teguq nag.sorry2.tapi aku ah make up blk kan? nnt r aku wat post spesel utk ang.

Aku Terharu Gila!!!!

peh siot.td aku baru ja lepaih berucap dlm manifesto speech aku.actually, aku bkn ada papa manifesto pun yg nk dibentang tapi apa yg aku ada, sumthing dat i really2 value the most, supports from all my frens.aku betui2 terharu gila2 babi ngn support yg kwn2 aku suma bagi.thanx guys.padahal apa ckp merapu ja tadi, tapi hampa suma still tepuk gila2 n shout nama aku gila2.really really thanx.ya, mmg part kita unite bila gila2 when it comes to all of this stuff.hampa suma mmg yg TERBAIK bak kata bob.btw, support support juga ek, jgn lupa undi esok. ble wat 5 selection pandai2 la hampa pilih okay.apa yg penting kalau aku terpilih aku akan wat yg terbaik, utk hampa suma. ni yg wat aku bersemangat lagi ni.thanx guys.thanx all of u.i love all of u.pada budak2 part 2 g support aku radi gak, thanx. bdk2 clas 2c, yup kita classmate.2a korang mmg besh.abang adam ek? xpyh r pggl abg.aku sebaya hampa ja kot.ok, thanx again for everything!!!love all of u!

Special Post For Anonymous Who Commented

Anonymous Said-
"serius ke u nk my frien???
i kwn ur angel..
she d one that hard 2 get n i x rasa u serius..
jgn mainkn perasaan dia coz i xnk dia tluka!!!!but post u 2 romantc ar.."

first thing first, aku actualy nk balas comment dia kat post tu tp aku rasa lebih baek aku wat entry utk response kat comment dia.firstly, thanx for commenting. by counter rebut, dun judge a book juts by its cover n dun make a judgement call on someone just based on their appearance or how they brought theirself to life.i noe, believe me when i said this i get this all the time.ramai bukan u sorang yg yang kata aku ni jenis yg xserius.ya aku mengaku, dlm life mmg kdg2 i;ll just take things for granted, but that doesnt mean im a douche or somebody with no vision in life. in relation corcern, aku kalau bab hati dan prasaan @ love aku amat series n xmaen2.mmg, suma org berpendapat mcm u anonymous.even "angel.." sendri awai2 dia terkejut bila aku confess dekat dia n i noe dia masih xpecaya sampai sekarang.im cool with it though cuz thats just a consequences i had to pay for being myself.tapi one thing for sure, my feeling towards
"angel.." is real. i really like her. n i will try my besh to win her heart.what ever it takes.i paham.sebagai sornag kwn kdg2 kita jdk protective n thats what u r trying to do, ill do the same, tny saf kalau x caya.i protect dia n i wont let any douchebag hurt her feeling.i respect u anonymous cuz u r being a really gud frens to "angel..".but trust me, i wont n never gonna hurt her feeling.i rather let myself, my own fragile heart hurt, better then let her's. ya aku tahu, agak susah nk percayakan aku tapi at least let me try to prove myself first, then make ur judgement call.a simple chance, thats all im asking for."angel.." sendri ckp dia nk take thing slow, jadik "kawan" dulu so i respect that.aku pun xsuka n rush thing.so, we'll take it slow then n im fine with it, im willing to wait, cuz i noe shes worth it.so, please guide me through. anonymous, maybe u rasa yg i xserius sbb ada terbaca dlm komen yg dok ckp pasai betting secret recipe tu? ok2.meh aku explain pasai secret recipe tu.i ngn saf penah wat deal, time kami gila2 kena gossip berdua (thanx to gossip whisperer's club).. kami ada wat deal, di mana kalau i atau saf kapel dulu kami kena blanja sorang lagi secret recipe.deal ni dibuat lama dah sblom "angel.." stop by in my heart.thats what its all about.2 ja i nk ckp.thanx again for ur comment n concern, really appreciated it though, seriesly.. "angel.." is soo lucky to have a fren like u.sent my regard to "angel.."

Let The War Begin!

Chill! bkn aku nk berperang apa2.perang maksudnya disini ialah perang poster.berbekalkan pemberian rm10 dr DiPAC, lagi 2 hari nk election, esok nk manifesto, kami bdk2 yg bertanding utk jawatan dlm DiPAC mula melancar perang poster dlm kempen kami nk conquer DiPAC.hahaha.ayat xble nk blah.awai2 byk aku dgq yg malas nk naikkan poster last2 byk gak poster aku tgk keliling courtyard tuh. gudluck to all of ya! thanx pada suma yg tlg calon2 part 3-aku saf, aini, bob bashah dan rahman utk naekkan poster.ajam,aimil,fizi, amoi, pak lah, iqbal, faradiba, farakhin, lyn, jenny n ayu, thanx all of u! u guys a the best. pada budak2 part 3 yg len, turun r gempakkan manifesto esok.suma pakai baju sport day kita yg biru terang bederang tu ok.show ur support tu us ok! kami amat memerlukan support sbb suma tgh ketaq lutut kot manifesto esok.kalau hampa suma ada maybe confident ckit nk berucap esok.ok, out!!

Kisah Nak Jadik Exco DiPAC

pelik? ya, mmg pelik dan aku sendri masih xpecaya dgn apa yg aku lakukan.aku nak jadik exco DiPAC(Dip in Public Admin Club)..club course aku.ya, aku nk masuk bertanding.bertanding nk jadik exco.kena wat proposal, kena interview n kena election.member2 aku suma gelak bila aku gitau depa.ya, aku sendri pun masih xpecaya yg aku sanggup apply utk pegang jawatan dlm sesuatu yg besar, U level ok.

kisah bermula bila aku g beli borang.actually saf yg influence aku utk masuk.last2 aku beli gak borang.at first, aku sendri xbrapa sure yg aku betui2 nak ke x benda tu.aku just apply.but, one incident did happened.senang cita cmni, kalau xantaq borang tu, kira aku xlayak utk jadik calon.funny story, pa last day utk summit borang tuh aku terlupa nk summit.by the time aku nak gi summit borang tuh, president kami(for this sem pny pres la) dia ckp dah terlambat.seriesly ckp aku frust gila2 babi sbb mcm aku xlayak jadik calon just bcuz im reckless.ble plak aku asyik dok maen PES sampai lupa nk antaq borang.mmg bodo r kan.time tu, aku dah rasa nyesal sgt2.rasa aku dah melepaskan peluang yg amat besaq utk jadik somebody.layak atau x itu laen crita r kan at least kita try tol x.dlm aku dok trust, tetiba somebody text me.dlm text tu ckp yg stil boley antaq borang tu.aku dah confused.so aku antaq r borang aku, tp bkn kat pres DiPAC, aku antaq kat Naib Pres,apis.so time tu aku dah relieve.time tu gak aku lega, n aku dah sedaq, ya aku mau, aku rela utk masuk bertanding.ini first time aku rasa aku dgn rela hati nak dgn hati terbuka utk pegang position.seriesly.

interview plak.dah dah antaq borang, suma yg dah summit kena wat proposal plak utk dipresent pada interview which happened last nite.mmg blur r kan.aku mana penah wat apa2 proposal.thanx to saf, imah n amini, proposal aku siap gak.aku saf imah ngn amini wat proposal sama2 time kat fudcourt, ciap ponteng clas lagi.time proposal aku dah ciap, aku mcm tergamam.aku wat proposal? wow! ok2.time interview plak, mgg jawapan2 yg aku bagi time jawap interview tu mmg kedengaran agak skema n kedengaran bukan adam ar-rashid yg memjawap soklan2 tuh.kira jawapan aku penuh dgn visionary, commintment n responsibility.actually aku xsure sama ada aku menipu atau im being myself in that interview.seriesly.au xsure.tapi apa yg aku pasti apa yg aku jawap jujur n sahih.ya apa yg aku ckp dlm interview tu agak skema tapi aku jawap dgn sincere.maybe aku tulus, amybe itu diri aku yg baru, a part of me yg aku xtaw.a part o me that i kept on neglecting before this.to be honest, i walked out of the interview, a different person.a person with a vision, a person who willing to holds a responsibility, a person who wants to be somebody, a person who wants to be a leader.ya, itu aku pasti.keputusan interview itu akan memastikan sapa yg layak utk bertanding ke pilihanraya exco DiPAC.keputusan akan kluaq esok(which mean today la).

kisah ari ni.aku ada quiz account ari ni pukui 12.before aku g quiz aku g bilik coordinator course aku sir mahad utk tgk result.OMG! aku dpt.aku terpilih utk jadik calon.wow! but, hanya 6 org part 3 yg dapat jadik calon.aku, rahman, bob, bashah, aini n SAF.imah dan amini xdapat.aku agak bengang r.sbb kami went thorugh everything together but in teh end of the road, hanya aku ngn saf ja tggai.agak bebai bila tgk 8 student part 2 yg dapat.9 org pegi interview smlm dna 8 di antara mereka yg terpilih kot.hanya sorang yg gagal.maybe its the truth or maybe theres some politics or influence involve aroung the decision but what the hell that i cna do.aku cuma terkilan ja.sbb, iamh time dia di-interview she stood up for us.for me,saf n amini.bial dia di tanya soklan, kalau x dapat terpilih apa yg dia nak wat? imah dia ckp "kalau saya xdpt, saya nk kawan saya yg lagi 3 org tu terpilih".mmg terharu.dia sanggup berkorban cmtu.tahnx babe.i really appreciate it.seriesly.after all 4 of us been through.

kisah skrg.skrg aku kena berkempen n wat poster utk election DiPAC khamis ni.n malam rabu ni aku kena bentangkan manifesto aku.WTF? manifesto? aku mana nk ada manifesto.aku agak down actually n sour to go through all this cuz its not that sweet anymore cuz my gang is not here.tapi, aku akan tetap teruskan.not just for me, but for all my frens that had been supporting me all the way.saf, kita kena fight.fight for our rite, fight for our gang, fight for our part.manifesto pun manifesto la.aku xkesah.aku dah sampai separu jalan kot.xkan nk give up skrg.if im going down, at least i'd go down swinging.