Reality Is Nothing, Perception Is Everything

in some matter, Its Effect/Affect Me A Lot.Others Perception or assumption that people tends to create bout me, the way i live my life, my bastard-kinda attitude. i choose to ignore it sumtimes but still, i wont get out of my head.still, i think bout it n sumtimes i be careful bout my next action.i hold on tight on one thought, DONT GIFT A DAMN BOUT WHAT PEOPLE SAID! im stil trying to live that kind of attitude cuz seroiusly i dun give a damn.i just thought bout it, but still i did it no matter what.no one can change me, only myself..my mummy tried her best but stil i stil the same person no matter how many intervention i gone through with her.yeah i change so some timeline but in the end i stil the same badass as before.so, dun try,dun waste ur time..i am me.only adam can change himself.bare that in mind..peace out!

Ntah R

aku pun xtaw.hidup aku byk brubah sem ni..bz manjang.kalau nk banding ngn sem lepiah aku lepak atas katil time siang, hari2.skrg dah jarang.bz sgt ke aku sem ni? maybe sbb sem lepaih aku xambik serius sgt keja2 clas rep aku.sem ni aku wat series ckit.sbb kes time cuti ari tu r.nnt r bila2 aku cita pasai insiden tuh..btw, nk kaat aku bz ngn study, assignment Oublic Admin xwat g pun, Current Issue smlm bru ambik tajuk walhal org len suma nk stat lama dah..ish2.bz ngn blog? jarang gak aku update..maen games? game pa yg tggai dlm laptop aku tuh..tggai game2 ajam ja dok maen aku sklai pun xpenah try lg..dok layan TV Series.agak r.tp suma dah ulang brapa byk kali smpai aku anek borink.ntah r pa yg aku bz sgt sem ni.maybe aku dah byk active ckit kot sem ni.xtaw r.maybe suma tu prasaan aku ja.ntah r.tgk la cmna.

Dah Lama Xwat Tagged

1. Who tagged you?
+Suria Muscha.+

2. Do you like tags?
+Depends+

3. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
+I Wanna Be The Prime Minister Of Malaysia.True Story+

4. What is your current mood?
+Borink n Lame+

6. Will you fall in love with your bestfriend?
+Not Anymore.i wont again,EVER..Saf b careful!!remember ur deal, no lovey dovey+

7. Which will you prefer, loving someone or being loved by someone?
+Can I Choose Both(tiap kali jawap soklan ni jawapan aku len2.ish3)+

8. What is your favourite food?
+My Mum's Cooking+

9. If the person you dislike is right in front of you, what will you do?
+Im Gonna Kick His Ass,Hardly.I Already Have Someone In Mind+

10. What do you pray each day for your loved ones?
+Goodness n Happiness to My Family+

11. What takes you down the fastest?
+Ntah,byk sgt kot+

12. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
+Married,Living In Suburbs, Having Kids Maybe,Steady Career+

13. What is the reason that could make you so tensed up?
+Done Sumthing That I Dislike,Maybe+

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
+Shes Cool,Agak Gila2,Dun Give A Damn Attitude(Shes Smoked in Public Man, WHat Can i Say..)+

15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
+Either..+

16. Would you sacrifice for your loved ones?
+Definitely..+

17. What's the character must have in your partner?
+Cute,Can Mellowed Me Down In Every Perspective,hm..i dunno.im blurred+

18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you like to pick?
+Both?...+

19. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing that someone has done?
+Forgive Maybe, Forget Never!!+

20.Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
+I Cant Really Say.When Im In Relation I Rather Be Single, But When Im Single I Want To Be In Realtionship+

21. what is your most embrassing moment?
+Byk Kot.Xkan Nk Tulih..Malu R Aku..+

22. Who are the 5 person that you would like to tag?
+Anyone Who Read This Post..+

LOVE-The First Corinthians

Love is patient and kind
Love does not envy or boast
It is not arrogant or rude
Love does not insist on its own way
It is not irritable or resentful
Love bears all things
Believe all things
Hopes all things
Endures all things

p/s-sorry..im in poetry mode

LIFE AINT SWEET, OUTCASTERS

Reality mean nothing, perception is everything
We try to denied it but it won’t cling
The says, the words we try to take it for granted
Because in our head it still flustered
Should we care about all of the filthy thought?
They don’t even know us, isn’t that an obvious odd?
They said we the doubter, but we do believe in god
But still, their perspective and speech hurts, a lot

Maybe we don’t belong maybe we just the exile
Trying to fit in, but the world is another plays of child
Maybe it’s them with constructed mind
Or it just us that too blind to find

Ww don't have the right path to go
We don't have the right voice to mellow
We don't the perfect click to follow
What we have is just the cute cover to blow

We try our best to fit in
Still all of the efforts blown away and drowning
Still people see the worst of us
They Lust for more and we starting to fly dust

It’s time to seize back what ours
The rightful marks to be belong and fuss
all we want is Society membership not to be freaks
Can we, or can’t we? it just another break
Another swing we must alert on
To be apart, nah! To be heard upon

Quit Ur Smoking!!

when i get up dis morning, i felt a lil dizzy, seriously.its not that i had a bad hangover or whatsnot.maybe its bcuz i slept too much last nite..as usually i woke up n light up my ciggs.afterward, the dizzyness get worst, still i puffed it in.ya fuck me!! teh rest of the day fly by as usually.one thing that bother me a lot bout this morning is that i cant get it out of my head, the fthought bout quit smoking..my frens said that it just cuz im bout to be broke in few penny more, and i'll be bax in the game next month whne i FAMA bank in my blood money..is it? maybe itruely wanna quit..i mena cmon, i burning my healthier possiblity future, im burning my saving bila-aku-dah-tua future n all other thing.maybe its just another morning crazy feeling n thought taht will always fade away the next time i close my eye for a nap, n turn on a new feeling n thought.the smae thing happened last few day when i try to be nice to imah just bcuz she appeared in my dream, DAMN!! well to be honest, im still trying to be noce to imah, but my heart wanna tease her so bad.MUNCUNG SIOT MINAH TU!!!ha3.whatever.i'll update on my newlycrown mission of quit smoking.bare in mind, i tell ur now..its not gonna last long, trust me..i know myself..peace out!!

Hellhounds On My Back

ya aku mengaku aku mmg cpat panasa baran..one thing only, gi mampuih r!! aku cmni n aku xdak niat nk ubah diri aku, wat masa sekarang..kata r pa hampa nk kata, *ada aku kesah?!!(pinjam jap ayat K).ya kadang2 bila aku bersuara mmg kasaq mmg mintak penumbuk kat muka, kdg2 aku bersuara mmg mcm org nk gaduh, kdg2 bial aku bukak mulut mmg ramai yg terkejut n terasa hati..aku cuma nk nyatakan satu benda, dr dulu aku slalu ckp.

DONT JUDGE A BOOK JUST FROM ITS COVER

org2 yg first time jumpa aku slalunya akan bg bad impression ttg dri aku..aku xkesah..pimak r!!tp cuba tanya member2 aku yg dah lama kenai aku, dia suma dah masak ngn prangai aku, ngn sora aku yg kuatni, ngn ayat2 pedas yg kluaq dgn sleng penang aku ni, suma dah ble trima n diorangxdak masalah.bkn suam org perfek..dan aku xkan ubah diri aku utk org len.xpayah nk cuba..aku mmg cmni.mummy aku dah cuba sejak dr aku pandai mengeluarkan kata2, still xberjaya..*aku tetap diriku(pinjam lagu The Official).

kepada yg trasa ngn aku, korang xkenai aku dna aku hanya nk ckp, GO FUCK URSELF!!! aku xperlu nk explain satu persatu pasai diri aku kat hampa, plus hampa xdak hak nk meyebok!!! ini hal aku.kalau hampa nk kenai aku, hampa yg kena make an effort, aku xperlu wat apa2.lepak ngn aku dulu, sembang ngn aku dulu, smoke ngn aku dulu bru judge aku..jgn nk wat hero.suma org ble wat apa yg hampa wat.plus, aku xambik pusing langsung apa hampa nk kata..sedangkan pak guard yg cuba nk teguq aku pun kena maki blk ngn aku ni kan plak hampa, hahaha.xpyh buang ayaq liuq.

one more thing,bout respect n stuff..fuck it off!! sorry aku mmg susah ngn respek org..ada 3 golongan ja dlm dunia ni yg aku respect.first, org yg lagi tua dr aku yg mempunyai pertalian darah ngn aku..mummy aku, akak aku, abah aku..makcik pakcik2 aku yg prangai ntah ppa pun aku xrespek.second, golongn yg bg aku ilmu,pendidik.mummy aku pesan hormat org yg bg ilmu kat kita baru berkat, aku pegang nasihat mummy aku..thrid n last, GOLONGAN YANG TAW NAK RESPECT AKU BARU BLE AKU RESPECT DEPA!! sorry hampa xtermasuk dalam golongan yg aku respect..sebab setaw aku, hampa sama ja ngn aku..sampah yg ble di-recycle.tambahan aku x[enah nk aspect org utk respect aku..respek2 ni formla sgt, aku xminat.xdak r aku nk pggl ang ABANG or AKAK kalau aku xrespek hampa, kalau hampa xrespek aku..sorang ja dalam dunia ni yg sampai mati aku akan tetap pggl akak.NOOR HAWA, my big sis'..2r..kalau sapa2 yg rasa berbangga sbb aku penah pggl dia akak, cian kat hampa.dtas all just for formality that i had to considered, nothing more.

p/s-aku hidup ngn cara aku..kalau xble nk coop, BLAH!!!

Kantoi

AJAM KANTOI!!!
cian dia..dha r kamis ni nak naek court dah kantoi rokok ni kantoi skali lg tadi..fien rm200 kot.so, dia kena rm400 r..cian member aku sorang ni.ish2..fuck r pak guard uitm suma.

Valentine Huh?

valentine..seriesly, aku xpenah pun nk celebrate valentine.bkn aku fuck valentine or sumthing xpenah, it just doesnt fit in right.actually kalau bagi sestgh org yg fuck valentine, dgn menggunakan alasan keagamaan dan semua aku xtentang diorang, cuma xsetuju.mmg tarikh tu sama ngn paderi ngn church mana ntah tapi its just a yearly routine that people do.kalau nk fuck napa kita xfuck bday celebration? tipu lilin, cake pa kaitan ngn sambutan hari kita lahir.napa nk kena wish tiap kali bday sedangkan ajal kita makin hampir setiap kali bday menjelang..napa kita bersanding bila kawin.bukankah itu amalan hindunism? budaya diorang.napa org melayu ikut? napa xfuck benda tu r tol x? dlm islam hanya menyatakan agar membuat kenduri utk mengelak fitnah, tu ja.bagi aku, tak salah kita nak celebrate, tapi dgn cara yg betul.tp pa pasti, valentine celebration always end dirty n horny.dat just fact.lovey duvey suma mcm2 ble jadik.feeling tgh memuncak time tu tol x.brapa ramai member2 aku yg make love time valentine.aku taw dan aku sdaq.tapi pa yg aku ble buat.2 jala entry aku ttg valentine.slamat menyambut hari memperingati kekasih.peace out!

Hidup Ini Memang Palat Tapi Esok Masih Ada

*pinjam tagline Kami The Movie Jap

first time aku dgq tagline ini around tahun lepaih r dr preview kami the movie.time tu aku xtaw pun kami nk wat muvi.ugt nk wat second season.aku mmg minat cita kami.bkn sbb gig2 yg indie band perform saja, bkn sbb mostly of the character speak english, bkn sbb kehidupan sosial aank2 remaja mesia, tapi di sebabkan jalan cita dia.the way the story goes.awai2 mmg shits r gak kan sebb ulang2(bagi sesetgh org), aku plak aku dah suka dah flash back2 suma sbb aku layan Lost(lost kalau xtaw flashbax xkn taw cita dia)..

Hidup Ini Memang Palat, Tapi esok Masih Ada.Ya.hidup ini mmg palat.Life's sucks.so get a helmet.everybody gotta sob story but not everybody becomes a loser.some keep fighting.cuz they noe, tommorow still will come..cmna teruk pun, cmna hina pun, cmna gila pun, cmna kotoq pun hidup ini, esok tetap ada.esok yg mungkin menjanjikan sinar yg lebih cerah dr semalam, atau esok yang mungkin menyajikan sajian yang lebih jijik dari semalam.namun apa daya,kita akan tetap menghadapinya.situasi yg bebeda tapi watak yg sama.tidak disangkal remaja pemikirannya cetek, tapi kami bkn bodoh.kami cuma tersimpang, kdg2 ada yg terlpas jauh..nk wat cmna? keadaan memaksa..tapi ini bk maksud kami ni sampah yg tidak berguna.kami sampah yg boleh di recycle dan jd bahan baru yg boleh diguna pakai kembali smapai daya tulang dua kerat kami habih dikerah..namun, ada sesetgh yg memilih utk give up. a lost cause they said.xguan nk memberontak kalau tahu yg kita akan tetap tumbang.TIDAK!! mereka salah..i noe.this world gonna end badly, damn bad..but thats doesnt mean we shouldnt keep fighting.ada sinar dihadapan yg menantikan.apa yg menghalang, kecekalan dan penungguan.dlm fasa ini ramai yang tumpas dan jatuh tanpa mapu bangun semula.itu hanya sebahagian dari kitar hidup remaja..hidup ini mmg palat, tapi esok masih ada..

Song's Story Of A Girl

When Your Heart Stop Beating..
girl.dun worry.i'd be there..i promised.i'd be there when ur last breathe taking away.i sweared.


Make You Smile
last time i saw u, u turn away..i say hello but u kept on walking..
dun worry, i holds no grudge..i understand.i'd make u smile, i'd never make u sleep alone.i'd stay with u for a while.


Baby, Come On
u r a pretty girl n u'll alway falling down.i felt in love with u, but u dun remember.i alway find u at the bottom of plastic cup, drown in drunk insanity, u r a sad n lonely girl.but i remember..i dun forget it.quit crying ur eyes out,girl, i'd been there rite? n all YOUR best friends had been the death of us cuz they'd never remember n all my words get used against me..its ok girl


Weatherman
i'd let u sleep away cuz i noe i barely holding on.every now n then i felt the end of us is near, dun you? i never meant to say im sorry girl.


No It Isn't
please..understand..this is not gudbye.this is where the road crashin to the ocean.i noe..now we're barely breathing.i'd listened to u cried, i noe girl.im sorry.


Lillian
the place we used to been, make us felt like a tourist,rite? is kinda arkward.sorry. im the one that couldnt co-exist.when the last laugh started to filtered, it seem as a perfect time to THINK bout the future.



THERE!!! thats all plus 44 song that i could dedicated to u.specially to u.the one n only that fits the story of the album..bout us, bout the past bout u girl.when your heart stop beating, i'd make u smile.i'd said baby,come u said no it isnt..i called u lilian n u called me weatherman..sorry things didnt work out between us.

but for now, i mean rite now, the only song that suite the moment is-

FUCK(I Dun Want U Back)-Eamon

i dunno why i like u so much,
i gave u all, all my trust
i thought u i love u

FUCKWHAT I SAID
IT DUN MEAN SHITS NOW
FUCK U WHORE I DUN WANT U BACK

get it?

Arkward-NESS

Susah kan nk reconnect ngn kwn2 yg kita dah lost contact lama? maybe bg sesetgh org xsusah, tp aku susah..aku nnt blur n arkward,sgt3! ari tu time cuti raya cina aku ada jumpa member lama aku..lama gak r terpisah.kami skolah skali time secondary skool.sama clas.time darjah 3.pastu dia naek darjah 4 aku trus express naek darjah 5 so xslalu jumpa dah n xjdk clasmate dah..tp skool aku dulu kecik jew, SKPP-(Permatang Pauh). so kdg2 jumpa r gak..pastu dha abih secondary aku blah g boarding skool-PFS-Penang Free School pastu dah jarang jumpa bdk2 skoolmate aku dah..bkn jarang mmg xjumpa pun..so after quite sumetimes aku jumpa blk dia time CNY ari tu..peh awai2 okay la ada gak story nk share.pastu aku wat clap g offer dia lepak2 smebang catch up suma la..time lepak2 kat mamak tu peh mmg arkward kot..aku dok wat tekan2 hphone dia pun sama.so last2 dia yg make a move.dia kata dia ada hal ckit nk setelkan,walhal aku taw tu suma excuse jew utk dia blah dr situ..so, sorry la ek..aku ni mmg cmni..susah ckit nk bersembang kalau dah lama xjumpa..kalau wat reunion ke pa ke, orait r g ramai2 kan x arkward sgt..sebenarnya, skrg pun sama.kalau aku xrapat sgt pun ngn seseorg tu kalau kami lepak berdua arkward kot..agak r..ni antara probs yg aku ada dlm berkwan..so, member2ku sekalian, sorry la kalau aku wat korang rasa arkward ek..aku xreti sgt.musti ramai yg xcaya pa yg aku tulih ni tp ni la kebenarannya..seriesly..sorry sgt2

I Dont Know Though

Everything Is not As It Seem.its hard to deny but its the truth.it is the fact tha wont change, unless we learn to accept it.if that, its gonna be a lot easy though..it wont be any more pain in the ass.the moment we learn to accept, we can open up for forgiveness.forgive n forget..thats what people alway say, mostly on the side whom making the mistakes or mess.well, it both two different thing.forgiving doesnt mean we r forgetting what had happen.bad memory is hard to fade.it takes time.a lot.give it some.if we are on the other side, the side of wrong doing, dun push it to hard.let time does it magic on the wounded heart.of cos, scar remain but it wont inch anymore.it just gonna be there, maybe forever as a reminder for the people whom been hurt, n the side of hurt doing.reminder that gonna tick when crisis arisen.so be careful.ya thats rite.one silly mistakes, we pay teh price for ur entire life.it sucks, but reality.but worst of all, the perception of people.ya some of us might say that we r strong, we can handle all the bullshit-ing people talk bout, but deep inside we noe, we r lying.mostly to urself.it hurt, a lot..but we choose to be strong..sir Nash was rite..reality is nothing, perception is everything.

Vote Anarchy..Its Simpler

im not a big fans of politics..seriesly..before this i got ZERO knowledge bout politics.but after i take Diploma in Public Admin aka DPA which require us to study political science(which i find ridicilous cuz in admin line why the hell should me study political science?? (once i asked my lec but she/he gave me an un-understandable answer)..if anyone asked me bout politics or government, i'll alway say i chose anarchy..simple.done..cuz i do believe that every indivduals need n have to lead n rock on their on life, not any fucking representative..but, for sure there will be chaos everywhere, which i dunno how to handle but still i vote for anarchy.

but when im in position of leading, i prefer using autocracy or even dictatorship, cuz its simple.democracy only create chaos n unstability in authority.but i rarely not used autocracy in my leadership styles.my style more to autodemocracy.which in some situation i just used autocracy when i noe its gonna lead to chaos or many people tend to voice out a lot, but not all the time..i oftenly use demo.ask my frens if u dun believe me(DPA3d-the class that i represented).well, its working well for me, i mean my leading styles.so, i dun think i gonna change that..cuz we cant be to autocracy cuz its create tension in the air, n we cant u too many demo..so, its what best for me, n a lot easier..

as what happening in peraka administration, i had my own POV.i think BN(ruling party of the country but oppistion in perak) is one of the hell fucking party..cuz its not rite, what they r doing rite now..as an MB of the state(still) Datuk Seri Ir. Mohammad Nizar have the rite to do what he had done.its a fair decision..n the sultan had no power, at all to against the decision.well as Saf said, sultan is just a puppet in the admin, doesnt matter if he agree on or not..even in parliament as well.id Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim can somehow(which i doubt, not his ability but the atmosphere of the government) pulled it off n gained support from any BN MP members to join PR(Pakatan Rakyat) n win the majority, Pak Lah can do the same as well as what datuk nizar had done, n YDPA cant hold him back..so, why the hell they(BN) disagree on it n simple bulid up a new government? thats is not rite? thats what i learn in political science as the government point it out as our study plan..they teach me this knowledge(eventhough i hate politics) still they dun practise any of the stuff by the book, so why bother teaching us all this stuff? u guys the politicians, government or oppistion none of u guys practice it..its kinda ashamed,but this are the poeple that represent our rite in the parliament.this is the gang of people that holds our future..just remember guys, i mean all politicians, according to history the Portuguese are bale to take over Mela ka cuz there are many internal factor,which is the weakness of the admin..dun let the people, us pay price but u guys are the one who destroy it in the first place.im not pro-government im not pro-oppostion, im nuetral, really..i hate politics, thats fact but i have to keep tracks of what happening in that area cuz its my future on the line,which u guys never thought bout cuz u guys a selfish bastards that only think for urself, not the people.

POLITICS IS NOT DIRTY, BUT THE PEOPLE IN IT ARE

p/s- i still hate politics till now, n still voting for anarchy!!!

ANAK HARAM YANG XSEDAQ DIRI

masuk campuaq ada batasnya dan sempadannya.

menyebuk ada masa dan waktunya.

menggganggu hidup org ada hadnya.

menyusahkan org ada bebalnya.

kenapa utk mengecapi keamanan dan ketenangan dalam hidup amat payah dan perik? kenapa hidup yg tenang dan damai ada harga yg perlu dibayar? perlukah semua kesulitan ini semua dihadapi.soalannya yang patut diterjahkan, mampukah kita menghadapi semua dugaan ini..hidup bukan macam lagu Hujan-Dugaannya.hidup penuh pancaroba.cabaran dan kepayahan bergolek2 menghentam kita kian hari..namun apa yang mampu kita lakukan..apa pilihna yang tinggal? halang batu2 pahit yang bergolek dengan melawannnya? mampukah kita? mengelaknya? sampai bila kita mampu, yang pasti, akhirnya suatu hari nanti kita akan terkena dan tersadung jatuh.atau adakah kita akan terus terjatuh pabila batu pertama yang bergolek terus menghempap kita..pergolekan batu2 celaka itu hanya fasa pertama dalam kehidupan..fasa seterusnya bolehkan,mampukah, terdayakah kita untuk bangun semula dan meneruskan perjalanan hidup yang pastinya lebih berliku dari sebelumnya? hanya kita yang mampu mencoretkan ceritera hidup kita sendiri..kita yang mewarnainya sendiri, mencacatnya sendiri..namun penghargaan harus diberikan kepada golongan ini.setidak-tidaknya mereka mereka mencuba untuk mengawal hidup mereka dengan dua tangan sendiri yang dikurniakan tuhan..sementara yang lain, memilih jalan mudah..membiarkan hidup dikawal oleh tangan2 halimunan yang bagai bermain anak patung.

aku xpenah nk komplen.aku xpenah masuk campuq.tapi hidup aku dah sampai tahap dimana aku perlu bertindak..tapi apa dayaku.aku hanya sekakakng kera ditanah jajahan orang yang lebih SAMPAH dari aku tapi merupakan tuan punya..aku mampu.aku tahu aku mampu.tapi aku ada makpak yang sentiasa menghalang api kemarahan aku ynag hendak aku lepaskan kepada orang yang sepatutnya..hormat..aku sudah lali dengan perkataaan ni..hormat orang yang lebih tua..aku sudah jelak dengan ayat itu..bukan disebabkan orang yang mentuturkannya tapi disebabkan fakta yang diwar2kan dari mulut diorang..aku punya prinsip..prinsip yang mungkin sestgh org xsuka tapi aku suka.."respect only the people that know how to respect you"..aku tahu aku muda.aku perlu menghormati org yg lebih tua dari aku...tapi, aku tetap diriku..aku xboleh nak respek org camtu ja..hanya org yg tahu respek aku, akan mendapat respek aku..org muda pun perlu direspek..mmg.agak keras dan kuang ajaq.tapi perlukah kita menghormatikan org yg lebih tua yg cibai, lancau, perangai cam babi, setan bertopengkan manusia? perlu? pelru aku menjaga adab dan susila aku? selama ini memang aku mencuba, berlakon utk menghormati org2 yg cibai ini demi hanya utk tidak menjatuhkan air muka ibu bapa aku.kalau x mmg ang dah makan penerajang aku dah anak haram oit!!!!! haram jadah!! xsedaq diri anak haram, anak angkat..anak angkat mana boleh ambik harta pusaka, bodoh!!!! setan!!! xsedaq diri..tok wan aku dah cukup baek nak bela ang sebab ang tu anak haram, mak ang dulu romen n ngandung buang ang, tok wan aku ynag kutip.skrg cmni ang nk balas jasa dia? jasa abah aku yg jaga ang sebagai abg yg caring? ang nk tuntut harta tok nenek kami? sapa ang? sedaq diri..go n learn the truth before u speaks, asshole..anak angkat mmg xboleh ambik harta pusaka.ang brani nk lawan kat court? jom..ang brani nk repot polis? silakan..oh, lupa ang dah wat pun repot polis td..haha..bodoh2.aku dah ble agak, mesti polis tu gelakkan ang, bodoh..ang mmg bodoh

RIDWAN ARYANDI BIN ABDUL GHANI MMG BODOH!!!!!

If U Afraid To Fall Hard, Don't Fly Too High

sumtimes in life, we make a harsh decision in risky situation by taking the risk without thinking twice.n when it comes to pay the consequences, most of us fail n hardly get bax on ur feet n chose to stay down, defeated..why? cmon guys..get up n fight.we'll been in that situation anyhow just in different verse n another story to tell.but somehow, if we choose to get up on our feet, we'll make a better come bax, in a fresh face,newlyfix n ready to roll.thats the spirits guys.never give up, never surrender.take another shot of the bullets of pain, but this time learn to dodge.learn to fire back, make them pay, make them learn to respect us..this is the story of ur life, not their's.make it ours.ya, some might say easy to say,hard to walk it..but if we guts out, nothing can stand on our way.walk in proud n confidence, nothing cant bax us down simple, only if we let it happen.what ever it is, its a beauty of living, winning n loosing, defeated n defeating, crying n laughing, walking tall n beaten down..in any phase of life, we'll be in either one.just remember, as long as we guts out we'll alway be in the positive one, its juts something life is unfai n we lost but if we believe in urself, the next round will be on our side, definitely..

p/s-Life To Be Enjoy, Not Wasted, again..

Who Cares

Kalau diberi peluang utk kembali ke masa dahulu dan ubah apa semua kesilapan yg tlah aku buat sebelum ni, aku tetap xmau..aku suka keaadan skrg.aku xmau ubah masa silam, aku mahu keadaan sekarang.ulang ayat dulu..mistakes making in the past determine who we r today..

InSomnia

kalau nk diikutkan ari ni dah 3 hari aku xtidoq time mlm..wow!! gila ke apa aku ni..ntah aku dah jdk burung antu kot..berjaga ja tiap2 malam.tp siang pun aku bkn tidoq sgt pun.smlm aku hanya tidoq 2 jam setgh je dr 24 jam..so ari ni aku nk tidoq brapa lama plak? we'll see tommorow..

CHOW!!

Women Are APATHY..Are Them?

APATHY..aku bru blajaq words td dlm class sir Bad, current issues.apathy bermaksud sikap xambik peduli.actually when i said women are apathy i mean in political thinking.what i experience is totally different that what sir babd analyze.he said that most of the women are apathy when it come to political act, in voting the perfect candidates terms.he said that the reason PARTI BULAN-PAS win the elcction in kuala tganu bcause of this apathy attitude of the women there.is it? or it just another political crap or excuses act that want to cover up the shame of losing the spot which BN holds before.maybe sir bad is rite, maybe hes not.i really wanna raise up my hand n give my opinion in clas just now but i dunna sumthing snapped.i lost my confident to speak out. here's what i wanna say-

bout apathy-

i agree.women are apathy in political term, in other maybe, i dunno.lets take example of permatang pauh election previously(my area) which anwar ibrahim won with a landslide victory.well the women contribute les in the victory of anwar or the losses of ariff shah..most of them just follow n cross what thier husband crossed..teh one that think b4 vote mostly are government servant.well im not totally blame them..their just dun have the enough info bout the political arena whats they here mostly is what tehir husband or neighbour rumour-ing bout n gossiping bout or what they saw on TV-which is not to exact correct..so, to call them totally apathy is impropriate..maybe apathy with a reason cuz they dun have enough info.

p/s- next time in PAD230 clas, i'll voice out my opinion,seriesly..

Tagged.Thanks Sarah!

Once you've been tagged, you have to write a post with sixteen random things, habits or goals about you. At the end, choose five people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. Don't forget to leave a comment (''You're tagged!'') and to read your blog, you can't tag the person who tagged you. Since you can't tag me, let me know when you've posted your blog, so I can see your weirdness.

(1)PUNK IDEOLOGIES

yup..aku suka punk idoelogies.yes mmg byk benda2 buurk yg org ckp pasai punk lifestyle dan aku xmau argue pasai tu.aku suka punk whcih based on proseting idea.fuck government, fuck aothority fuck org tu,fuck org ni..sebab aku percaya check n balance.dlm sesuatu organisasi perlu ada org yg membantah dan protes sbb kalau xdak org yg membantah, masakan organisasi tu nk taw apa yang salah dlm keputusan yang hendak dibuat.plus, aku agak suka violence creation dlm punk.tak lupa style punk.besh! gempak siot!


(2)SENSITIF

byk yg xpercaya sampai skrg, aku ni mmg sensitif..sgt2.cuma sebagai lelaki, aku xbrapa nk tunjuk sgt sebab dlm pala otak aku dah set yg lelaki xble nk jdk sensitif.aku cuba untuk tidak menjadi sensitif, tapi slama aku menjadi remaja aku stil xble..ya aku sensitif tapi aku xtunjuk..


(3)EXTRA SWEET

manis, thats my style.aku suka makan minum melantak benda2 extra manis.kalau bancuh ayaq, konpem gula lebih..jgn nk nasihat aku,please makpak aku kak ngn adik aku da nasihat dari kecik tambah ngn member2 nasihat lg, still aku xberubha..kenapa? hah,baca no.4

(4) KERAS PALA

aku keras pala.period.kalau apa yg aku cakap, apa yg aku fikir, suma aku ja yg betul.susah nk ubah pala otak aku.walau kuat mana point yg hampa bg aku tetap ngn point aku..walaupun kalau argue aku kalah, tapi still aku tetap ngn point aku.aku tetap diriku.


(5)TAK SUKA PAKAI KASUT

aku mmg xsuka pakai kasut..buat masa sekarang ni aku hanya aku 3 pasang kasut.sepasang kasut kulit yg aku pakai setiap hari senin sbb kampus aku ari senin campus aku koperat day.seken kasut aku, kasut DC..baru beli bulan lepaih.aku beli pun sbb aku malas nk pakai kasut kulit all the time.lagi satu kasut aku ada kasut larrie.aku pakai kasut larrie ni tiap2 sem break utk g keja saja.aku dah cop kasut tu sbg kasut keja aku.he3


(6)FUCK RnB

aku xsuka music RnB..esspecially lagu2 yg utk dance2 pny.jgn silap aku minat rap tp xminat RnB.rappers yg aku minat cuma eminem sbb dia express kisah hidup dia dlm kebykan lagu dia n sedap n meaningful lagu2 dia tu.plus, kdg2 aku tutup radio bila ada algu RnB.tp sbb byk gila babi lagu RnB kat dunia ni yg cipta lagu2 RnB, put ya hand up, lets dance, pa pukimak lg aku xigt, so kdg2 aku terinfluence gak r.lalu membawa aku ke no.7



(7)FUCK CLUBBING

sebab dah fuck RnB aku gak fuck clubbing.nari2, DJ in Da house,ladies! suma2 tu la..club yg ada live band aku still ble hang out.


(8)SENANG INFLUENCE

senang influence kat sini maksud dia aku yg sennag di-influence.aku mmg sgt sng dipengaruh..mmg fizikal aku nmpak macam tough n pandai jaga diri sendri, tp aku sebenar amatlah sng di-influence.bak kata Azam kalau org bg pisau kat aku suro tikam perut sendri n kata benda to cool aku akan wat.so, xtaw r betui k x..try r bagi pisau kat aku n camtu benda tu cool.kita uji tgk!


(9)PINK

pink bagi aku sgt cute..xkira laki atau pompuan in pink.stil cute.sampai sekarang aku still xble nk erase pinky in me.sbb tu aku still ada suma t-shirt2 aku suma yg kaler pink.pink sampai mati

(10) WWE DIE HARD FAN

sejak aku umur 5 tahun aku dah diperkenalkan dgn dunia gusti.first match wrestling yg aku penah tgk Undertaker VS Big Boss Man(Hell In The Cell Match)..sampai skrg aku still minat wrestling.kata la pa hampa nk kata, wrestling penipu la, tumbuk xkuat la, taktik ja suma tu, aku still minat n aku tahu suma tu hanya lakonan.sbb tu diorang dipanggil world wrestling ENTERTAINMENT.n fuck pny WWE bg Jeff Hardy pgg WWE Title 2 bulan jew.


(11)KALUT WAT KEPUTUSAN DAN MENYESAL KEMUDIAN

member aku sorang kat penang yg ckp aku cmni, n then baru aku pasan..aku mmg cmtu.cepat sgt wat keputusan dan aku akan menyesal dikemudian hari.so, sorry for all the rush decision i made in my life-dedicated to all the people taht involved!


(12)HOT-TEMPERED

amat amat amat!! dun mess with me..aku cuba cover my tempered ngn jdk happy go lucky..tp bila dah angin, bek hampa lari jauh2..tp jgn risau, aku cuma akan marah sekejap.pastu setgh jam cmtu aku akan okay blk n kembali normal.


(13)TIDAK PERCAYA DENGAN AKADEMIK

bkn aku xpercay 100 peratus.aku cuma xpercaya utk menentukan sestgh itu smart in life or not, should be based on their academic performance.no, kalau sesorang tu bagus dalam akademik xsemestinya dia smart.in term of survivin'.


(14)LINKIN PARK

No.1 linkin park fan! linkin park is my no.1 top favorite band.dr dulu smpai sekrang linkin park tetap dihati aku..walaupun aku dah start layan mcm2 band2 baru, still xdak band yg mampu rampas spot linkin par dr hati aku.xdak abnd yg aku hafal suma lagu2 depa mcm aku hafal lagu linkin park.ada pun sum41 yg hampir2 but still xble nk lawan linkin park..linkin park mcm classic dlm playlist aku.walaupun aku dgq n pasang mcm2 lagu band len sampai satu tahap aku akan tetap bukak lagu linkin park.aku nk wat confession disini.album Minutes To Midnight best!sorry dulu aku kutuk sikit album latest LP ni.


(15)SAYUQ

yg ni mungkin dah ramai yg tahu yg aku xsuka makan sayuq.fuck vegies!


(16)T-SHIRT'S ADDICTS

ni pun mungkin ramai yg dah tau, aku t-shirts addicts.

done! cukup 16..amacam sarah.. ok?