Spread The Love,Kill The Pain

ntah!! lately ni byk siot, gila2 byk love2 pny entry dipost oleh suma bloggers yg aku kenai. Baby Jane xclap aku dah dekat seploh dah entry pasai lovey duvvy ni, Fatin Syafira pun tgh angau ngn Hisham, Farahdiba pun sama bru broke up n kluaq dating ngn first crush dia kat uitm, rekha walaupun xdak entry love2 tp nick dia ja dah wat org pikiq pasai love, nick dia LotsOfLove.so, aku nk tny napa suma org tgh feeling love2 ni? hah..ni yg wat aku trasa ni.dah r tgh single.ish!bila nk jumpa white sweater girl ni, please girl please be on my eyesight again.dont make me loose hope.yup, im still hoping.

p/s-being single has it own pro n cons.im not sure which one i want.

Long Distance Relation-The Sequel

Fatin Syafira once wrote bout long distance relation.all the misses, all the i want u rite beside me n all the lovey duvvy stuff.n to be honest, i totally agree with her.my last crash-n-burn relation will prove it..we have been a great couple when we started dating which is in my first sem break(bout few week), we hang a lot, we see each other often, we spent our time to gether2, we hold ur hand everyday, sometimes i even stalk her during midnite just to feel her presence.ya i do it in relation cuz i really love her..but after i started my second semester our relation pretty went north.im kinda busy with my life here, so was her.n maxis fucking stupid coverage play its big role in our fragile relation.FUCK MAXIS!! eventhough im just from penang, but im not the type of guy who alway go home every weeks but i did tried to go home more often juts to be with her.but that doesnt help..ya, ur love is still fresh when im already come bac k here in my campus, i she kinda girl that dont take relation seriously n so was i.so, its not really the distance playing its part, but us,still, the main reason our love got flushed straight down the toilet is because of the distance.so, i do think long distance realation will never work..so some couple it may seem impossible but for a new born relation, dun challenge it that way, its gonna kill it..eve for a strong rwlation ist gonna get hit by tornado.so, mark my word, if u wanna try long distance, make sure to keep the fire alive..or sacrifice something, mostly ur money.take one my my frens as an example.Jamal.his girl is in shah alam..u noe what he did? he ride on a bus every two weeks to shah alam just to be with his girl.yup.he did it.n asa its result, their relation still have a shot to survive.some of us, boys, think that he is crazy cuz wasting his money for all the trip but as for me , i think jamal is doing the right think..he dun wanna loose his baby girl so he gotta do what he gotta do.[well of cos some part of me still thought that jamal was stupid cuz he's the only one that trying to keep the sparks flame on].my piint is, both party have to play their part.both party need to try to make it out, lovely-ly.bak kata pepatah, bertepuk sebelah tangan xkan bebrunyi kan, tol x? for the guys, or maybe girls that trying to serach for TRUE LOVE n so on, which is still trying to search pleae dun search too far..serach in the short distance of urs.everything is not asa it seem.sometimes ur true love is juts right in front of ur eyes, it just sometimes slipped out of ur eyesight. that what i thought.

Peace In, Rox Out!
Chow!

Prostitution, Sex N Virginity

sound porn? well, its kinda sexy to talk bout eventhough some might think as disgusting, but i noe deep inside that particular group of people are eager to hear bout it.sex? ya its something thats is on "NOT-TO-DO" list but still it happen around us rite? if not, how come child abandon rate keep on rising day to day? im not here to be rightous n telling u guys bout things that u cant do or can do, u guys can think for urself rite? spare that.bout virginity, well some guys still think thatits cute to married a total virgin girl, guys like me.seriesly. OK! i admit..im still a virgin.i never scuba drive rite though the swimming pool, not even put my foot near around the beach.not even one..some might think im a nerd, but mostly think is respectful..rite guys? so ya, im kinda into this stuff.it'll be great if my future wife is still a virgin till ur honeymoon nite.but, sometime i think to myself, do i even deserve that type of girl..im a dick.. a dick dun deserve a nice cute lil girl with clean attitude n nice personality but still im hoping for it.people deserve another chance ok.prostitution? wow.its creep the hell out of me just to think bout it.i never try that, n i dun intense to..one of my bro offer me once last year when i turn 18.i refuse.to be honest, i scare.its not that i dun want to, cuz im just a normal guy.if that kind of opportunity slip by, of cos we'll just forget bout our integrity for one.but at that time, im fucking scare..thank god for that..so thats me..a virgin dick.wow..its actually sound cool.hahaha..

rock in, peae out!

Chow!

p/s-i wanna write more, but is sound inropriate.rite?

Bro's Before Ho's

well im not exactly agree with the quo cuz i think bor's n ho's should be treat equally, rite saf? i mean cmon we need both party rite.. we need ur love to be there by ur side everytime we felt down or life push us too much but sometimes ur we choose to speak with ur bro's cuz the things is kinda disgusting or impropriate to talk with a girl..so, equal..share n square.. but sometimes(all the time..saja nk cover xmau suma bg terasa) ur bro's(utk yg girls skali..) often put their ho's first n left ur bro's hanging by he moment..kinda sucks huh? i felt that all the time.thanks to all dudes/babes that will always treat us(their frens) this way.. ala kalau mcm xjdk kluaq ngn kita utk hang out sbb girl ajak dating xkesah r.kitorang pun ambik hati..even kalau spent more time with ur girl then us pun still no hard feeling sbb kami suma pun penah bercinta, we know how it feel, to love n be love..tp kalau sitausi(sambul layan lagu Sitausi-Bunkface ni) dimana kawan mintak tolong sbb matter of life n death(literally) pun still xble nk tolong just because nak tolong girl ko wat homework or sbb girl ko demam yg ala2 manja ngada2 saja attention,please r..jgn sbb girl u loose all of ur frens..kami pun xmintak lebih, cuma time yg diperlukan tu please r be there..xkan baru nk mai time mamt tu dah nk time kebumikan kot..ntah2 still xmai cuz banging ur girl.. rite? emo? hell fucking yeah im freaking pissed off asshole..bkn aku bru kenai ang setgh jam(statement dr rizal) dah lama dah we noe who u really r..bises, if its not cuz of us, u wont ven have a lips to kiss, a shoulder to gedik2 with, a warm girlie hand to hold, even a hole to nail..so please appreciate it, no APPRECIATE US!!! dun wait till we fucked up cant take it anymore n we choose to kick u out fro the team..we dun wanna do that, ur mmebership still havent reach its expiry date..n for god noe, u dun wann aloose ur either.. we r not some ditchable prom date ok.we r ur bro's.the only clan that willing to accept u..(mcm menyimpang masuk cita len dah ni)..ok2 dah r tu.

p/s- sorry r lately mmg byk ckit entry aku piss out pny story,,xplan pun tp benda dah nk jdk nk wat cmna..byk sgt benda yg menyakitkan hati jdk lately..shit! i hate this new semester..

fuck in, rock out!
CHOW!!!

Love-Money Or Feeling?

someone once ask me bout this, n seriesly by that time i dunno how to answer it..oh god, i still blur if this question is pointing rite to me.. i mean are the thing that we call love, all the lovey dovey, mushy2 romantic stuff is true love or we are just pretending to love that person cuz of something else? money n all the gadgets that he/her own.maybe, cuz of the intel? well, how maybe person that will always say dat their life partner is smart.. most of them i would say..rite? maybe thats what love really if..we feel attracted to someone cuz of someting boutthem..their appearance maybe..shes look cute, pretty, he look handsome or look like Mr.Body six-pack chest..or welath..yup..this is the main attraction to anyone, boys or girls..dun lie.cmon..azam awai2 dah ngaku yg dia kapel ngn Roban sebab duit, at the first time..skrg dia dah mula appreciate ckit kowt Roban tu..ha3..(Roban beli Sandal Bonia siot kat bro aku tu.peh..pastu siap mail lg kat campus all the way dr shah Alam)..gud for u bro, u nailed it!!well, who can tell me now what love is actually?

I Am Not Anti-Government.Im Just A Political Science Student

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Don't Die For Your Government

Die For The Governmentyou gotta die, gotta die, gotta die for your government,
die for your country, that's shit.
(all together)
you gotta die, gotta die, gotta die for your government,
die for your country, that's shit.

there's a golf war vet.,
dying a slow, cold death,
and the government says, "we don't know, the sorce of his sickness"
but you can't believe what they say,
because your government is lying,
they've done it before,
and don't you know, they'll do it again,
a secret test,government built virus,
"Subject Test Group: Gulf Battle Field Troups"

you gotta die, gotta die, gotta die for your government,
die for your country, that's shit.
you gotta die, gotta die, gotta die for your government,
die for your country, that's shit.

first world war veterans slaughtered, by General Eisnehower
you give em' your life,
they give you, a stab in the back
adiation, agent orange, tested on u.s. soles,
ginnie pigs, for westurn corporations
i never have, i never will,
pledge alligence to the flag
You're getting used, you'll end up dead

you gotta die, gotta die, gotta die for your government,
die for your country, that's shit.
you gotta die, gotta die, gotta die for your government,
die for your country, that's shit.

i don't need you to tell me what to do!
and i don't need you to tell me what to say...F**K YOU!!!
i don't need you to tell me what to say!
and i don't need you to tell me what to think,
what to think, what to think, what to think,
what to think think think think

die, gotta die, gotta die, gotta die for your government,
die for your country, that's shit.
you gotta die, gotta die, gotta die for your government,
die for your country, that's shit.
you gotta die, gotta die, gotta die for your government,
die for your country, that's shit.
you gotta die, gotta die, gotta die for your government,
die for your country, that's shit.
you gotta die, gotta die, gotta die for your government,
die for your country, that's shit.
you gotta die, gotta die, gotta die for your government,
die for your country, that's shit.


p/s dun die for ur government.we r not the loyal dogs that will do anything its master told it to do..we r human.we have wishful thinking.use it well.government conspiracy is bullshit n sometimes we, the people need to remind them that we have the right to choose n speak for our own.

FUCK U,Pronto!-The Truth That I Wish I Didnt Know

sehina2 aku, se-selekeh2 aku, seteruk2 aku, aku trima seadanya suma kelemahan,kekurangan yg aku ada dgn hati yg terbuka dan aku xpenah memandang rendah terhadap org len sebab aku tahu semua org bukan bodoh atau bengap cuma diorang hanya xmahu menggunakan akal yg dikurniakan..diorang xbodoh, diorang cuma malas.aku tergolong dlm golongan ini..tapi, walaupun bagaimana pun ada orang yang menggunakan akal yg diberikan dengan kadar maksimum untuk menuju puncak yg tewrtinggi dan menggapai bintang..ini tidak memberikan apa2 bentuk keupayaan atau kebenaran untuk kita memandang rendah apatah lagi menghina orang laen..TIDAK SAMA SEKALI!!! kalau kita berkawan dan bergaul dengan orang bijak pandai tapi hakikatnya jita masih dalam kelompok golongan orang2 yg malas tidak memberi kita hak untuk memperlekehkan golongan kita..sedarlah kita yang memuja dan cuba mengapdaptasikan kita kiat dalam golongan bijak pandai tersebut sedangkan kenyataan yang sebenar kita tetap dalam golongan yang sma..cuma kita biajk menggunakan peluang.tapi ingat, kita berkawan dengan diorang tidak bermaksud kita sudah memasuki kelompok kawanan tersebut..berpijaklah di bumi yang nyata.kawanan bijak pandai itu akan meninggalkan kawasan tersebut..kita yang akan masih berada di takuk yang sama, kelompok asal kita, kelompok yang kita kutuk hina perlekeh itu yang akan kekal bersama..sedarlah diri anda..kereta proton Savvy tidak mungkin akan jadi porche cayman.Savvy tetap Savvy, cayman tetap cayman.Savvy yang pengkhianat belum tentu dapat tergolong dalam golongan Cayman..itu kenyataan..tambahan kalau kita Savvy recycle.second hand ynag terlalu berbangga kerana berkawan dengan golongan cayman.lepas itu, hendak pula memandang rendah golongan Savvy yang yang lain yg sudah pasti Savvy asli.savvy yang asli cuma tidak mahu menonjolkan diri dan malas menggunakan peluang..sestgh orang mungkin beranggapan yang golongan savvy ini bodoh kerana tidak mahu menonjolkan diri tapi hakikatnya golongan Savvy hanay terleka.terleka kerana masih berbuai2 dengan mimpi indah..savvy tetap savvy..ITU KENYATAAN YANG MEMANG PAHIT TAPI HARUS DITELAN.

aku mmg fuck orang yang suka pandang rendah orang lain..tambahan kalau orang tu sendri tidak sedaq diri yang dia tu pun asalnya layak masuk komuniti kami tetapi kena mengambil; banyak langkah..sedangkan kami golongan yang dipandang rendah ni xperlu bersusah payah untuk masuk ke komuniti ini sebab kami mmg layak dan boleh memilih komuniti laen tapi kami pilih komuniti ini..jangan la hipokrit dan hina orang.diri tu pun bukan bagus mana pun.ang tu kena bertungkus lumus namun ang belum boleh jadik terbaik..lebih baik jadik macam kami,orang yang langsung tidak berusaha tapi masih tidak gagal,masih layak untuk berada di sini.masih mampu meneruskan perjalanan.sedarlah.kami hanya masih menerima ang sebab kesian dan masih mengnggap ang sebahagian daripada kami.jangan sampai hati kami tertutup dan menyingkirkan ang dari golongan kami..kami masih mampu bersabar tapi kesabaran kami ada hadnya..jangan sesekali uji kesabaran itu.jangan sampai kesabaran dan sifat menerima kami bertukar menjadi benci dan meluat yang mampub membuatkan kami sanggup melakukan sesuatu ynag kejam..ingatlah, sahabatku.kami hanya menunggu masa untuk melepaskannya.tunggu dan lihat.ang masih dalam komuniti kami.jangan sampai kami singkirkan ang dan lepas tu ang xdak kawan dah.INGAT!!!!

p/s-this is a campus story.true story with some beautiful manner approach..for somebody else sake, not the guy whom pissed be off..im totally n officially hate n wanna kick his ass but i refuse to do so cuz for the sake of somebody else..i can do it i just dont wanna to..bare that in mind!

Isn't It Sweet?

after reading hakim's blog, Desire A Greater Life, i have to admit its touche'.he talk bout the loneliness in this freaking campus, how much fun we had when we in our first sem..god i miss that time..time when we're still freshie n new.noe nothing bout Merbok, except CS n Village Mall.time when amir still around, time when we had a room to stop by n enjoy urself..B316-ijat's,hakim's,Amir's n jufri's room..all of DPA student part 1 at that time most of them hanged in that room..every single day its a new adventure..a lot of memory set place in that room..even me,azam n meor walk all the way from block A to block B climb the stairs, just to be there.i miss is so much..i never felt bored at all in my first sem.neither all of my bros.all the teasings, fucked up jokes, playing around, pangkah2, card playing, PC games playing, belive it or not we even study togetehr in that room..well our last day of the first semester is the last time we'd been in that room..after everything when sour..seriesly..its not that we are not having much fun in the second semester n this current semester but is just dun feel the same though..after ur first semester, amir left UiTM, Edd got kick out n we r 2 members short..n after that me,azam, ijat, amini n even amirul change class..u used to be in Class B but we change to D..we planned that all of our members of the awesoem group to change al togetehr to Class D but some of us had a clashing timetable so they stayed in B..its sucks..it not taht i didnt have fun at all in D but its just dun feel the same as it used to be..its sucks!n after that, hakim finally tight the knot with saidah n meor followed with fida so they spent much of their time together2 with their ladies..its kinda hurt but what can i do, if i have a gurl in the same campus i'll do the same, so i dun blame them at all..seriesly.but, i dun feel good.ya, we still hang out together,lesser.but starting from that semester i started to feel bored..eventhough at that time i had a gurlfren, but shes not around, shes in penang.enjoying her life acting like im not her boyfren.so i started my thrid semester, single, still in the same class, D but new members of the family were there..more people come in n join class D so i dun felt the same anymore..too mamny people already.new clan had enter our territory n its sucks.sometimes i flet like changing back to my old class,B but i wont be the same..i noe it.plus, whos left in B? hakim? he's busy with his lady, meor? same situation with hakim..sometime i just wish both of them will break u..i noe..im an asshole but its just not a right thing to do..so moer n hakim enjoy ur relation ok..both of u deserve it.kuddus? he'snly in for PAD230 n CTU..shafiq? not apart of the team man.ayie? well ok ayie can hang out with me..but it wont be the same as all of us together..even pak lah is moving to D..so u get what i mean..everybody want to enter D i dont noe why.. u guys think D is adoption center? everybody welcome? please.. well there a still some other reason for me to stay in D..azam still there..my big bro..adi,aimil,fizi..SAF..my knuckles buddy..but if i wanna move bax to B for sure all of them will follow..well, at least azam n Saf..cuz they r the former B members..but my class rep position will hold me back..for sure sir mahad wont let me change class.who else want to hold that fucked up title..CLASS REPRESENTATIVE..fuck it..more like Lecturer's dog..YA! being a class rep is nothing more than being a dog..loyal dog that willing to do anything..so, what other choice left form me man..im fucking bored..i start to hate this campus already..maybe i should just follow Amir n K, quit UiTM n pursuit my percious dream..well, that bring out the slicky question..what is my dream? i alway say n brought out that i wanna be a roxstar, well that does not gonna happen for sure, i alway wanna be a lawyer but ist kinda hard cuz i have to go through all the academic shits, prime minister? ha3.. even i laugh at myself just when i thought bout that.so what my big2 dream? ya rite..i dun hava a dream to achieve..im already gave it up a long time ago..i alway say to myself, im a street smart not a book smart.but how im gonna survive out there without any academic back up..am i just gonna work at swenz till im like 40 for a few buck a day? kais pagi makan pagi kais petang makan petang? hell no1 how im gonna survive? so what other option left for me? im not that good in academic..hell i failed my acc114.hell my pointer dropped n i noe its gonna keep dropping..how im gonna work it out? i hate it, really really fucking hate it..fuck fuck fuck fuck!why my life should be that hard? huh? is everyone having a hard time just like me? or im overthinking again..well its in my genes alright.my mom have it, my sis's even my dad have it..so, what can i say..life sucks,buckle up! enjoy the ride! chow..
peace out!

p/s- i have noe idea what this entry is really bout..im just rumbling.just wanna say n all out the things from my chest..thanx for reading..appreciate it..

Sin Of the Father-Wooden Stick Story

why?
why should the kids pay the debts of the folks?
the shame, the backstabbed the curse of the family?
why?
its not fair for us..the one who got the blame..
who got left out alone, trying to search the light.in that mean time, after this afterword choas, the burden come stopping by n drop a massive shithole on our shoulder?
WHY DAD? WHY MOM?
how, how can i survive this world on my own along with all this stuff i have to settle, the sins of the wrongdoing that i have nothing to do with it, still im the one who paying for it..
ya, as folr ur dyingwish goes, for god sake i dunno its THAT true.
u siad u take a good care of myself, i never thought u really mean it cuz u guys left a lot of mess that i need to clean it up..
thank god, my will is strong..strong not as a solid rock that crash anything piece of cake, butstrong only as a wooden stick..not to strong, easily been break, but still can hurt or bleed somebody out..thats me.. the wooden stick..not a favorite weapon of choice but still at any cause, it may come handy.that me..

p/s- dedicated to one of my fren who is having aharsh time in his/her life...wish him.her a gud luck..im here for u if u need anything dude/babe..

Keep Smiling, And Die!

wow! im Mad! im Crazy! Im loosing my mind! help!since i tried it, i addicted(nape lately ni aku suka guna word addict n so on ek)

to all smokers2 out there try isap rokok n drinks sumthing yg ada caffeine.please try..aku dah stat addicted dah..caffeine with tar n nicotine its really not a great combination..its killing all our brain cell, i guess..i sucks in science.so, i just made out my own conclusion n i think, i stress out I THINK its killing me slowly n softly..die n smile.wow, tahts not to bad.not at all..like a i previously, if we gonna go to hell, might as well enjoy the ride..if we wanna die, might wanna do sumthing that worth killing urself for.if we gonna go down, better go down swinging not surrendering..call me crazy, i dun care. cuz im gonna still do it.because again, its a wrong thing to do in the first place.i shouldnt try it..well, since i started theres no going bax.its one bullet train away straight to nirvana.well, if its exist..so my attemption its not for me n just me, its for everybody sake as well.so, enjoy the ride guys.

p/s-if none of the above make sense, well its not what it seem to be..actually, my not writing to tell a tale bout smoking n caffeine..theres another story there..sorry, another metaphor.whats its really bout, go figure! ops! chow! rox in, peace out!

Aku Gila Pepagi Buta

cmna kalau zombie tol2 ujud cm dlm cita resident evil?
peh!!
cnpem chaos..
a part of me wishing it to happen, in reality..
tp, kalau betui2 jdk ble k aku survive?
aku bkn Alice, yg geneticly freak n immune to T-Virus..
aku bkn Jill Valentine-the besh S.T.A.R.S member in town.
aku bukan Carlos-Umbrella Loyal soldier n great aimer.
aku bkn gak LJ-mamat gampang yg sentiasa terlepas..
but still, i will fight the freaking zombies..
sure will

Award..

peh aku dapat award dowh.nanott.kita sma r..aku pun first time dpt award ni.xpenah dpt award pun sblom ni.hahaha..thanx nanott..




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Fakta/Hobi

+aku start pakai nick ace @ aCe+ ni sejak form 4..reason? xble nk gitau+

+aku t-shirt addict..yup.aku ngaku skrg+

+hobi aku byk..download mcm2 benda dr tenet.tgk wrestling, jgn kutuk! skrg antara hobi terbaru aku blogging.+

+aku start wat rambut spikey sejak dr form 2..smpai skrg xpenah ubah lg.suma cacak2 jew+

+aku ni kuat argue..kdg2 benda yg dah konpem aku salah pun aku argue..sbb tu, aku ikut ckp mak aku n join debate team aku time skolah..n kitorang menang takat daerah..negeri kantoi..kat u ni, aku ada join time part one..pastu aku stop,atas sebab2 tertentu+

+aku suka jdk indie..masuk indie di sini bkn dressing rasa indie tp indie dr segi lifestyle.xbergantung kat org.berdikari r lg seswai+

+aku suka dgq music..rock saja.RnB xlayan..tp sbb radio byk sgt mane lagu rnd kdg2 aku terinfluence jugak ckit2..sbb tu aku xsuka dgq radio, plus,aku fuck band indon..sorry.+

+antara suma simbol yg ada kat keyboard aku plg suka simbol '+'..aku pun xtaw napa..sbb tu nick aku aku buh aCe ada +..so jdk r aCe+..+

+aku ni kuat joli duit n xpandai manage duit aku lg..so, im not prepare to face the real world,yet.still working on it+

+pa lg ek fact pasai aku yg aku nk tulih.aku pun xtaw.hmm.hah..aku stat pakai spec dr umur aku 9 tahun..muda kan? chines blood..chinese kan byk mata rabun.ha3+

Dg kuasa yg aku ada aku nk bf award ni kat
+hanna-J+
+Izni+
+LotsOfLove+
+Nadhsamuel+
+fara-aqma+
+Shank+
+Aimi+
++are-kim+
+ayie+
+anwar ibrahim..(seriesly..aku nk tag dia..tp xtaw r dia nk wat ke x.)+

If We All Are Going To Hell, Might As Well Enjoy The Ride

who are we kidding? bluffing around.. believingg on sumthing that surely is just another illusion of tricky mind that contruct ourself to this massive mess.trying to fix the world that clearly can be save, destruction created by the people who sworn gonna save them from extinction.and still, as brilliant creation as we are that we'll alway claim to be, still dumb enough to believe in every damn word they throw out of their ass-licking mouth.sometimes, is confused me, whos dumber? we or them? maybe us cuz at least their r doing sumthing bout anything not like just, just nogging our head n swallow everything.till when this drama gonna keep winning oscar? till when this blockbuster movie gonna steal the magic hour? some of us, realize whats going on but, money blinds them.ya, the new religion for human..money..thats what people believe in nowadays, trustee, will-to-die-for possessive items..of cos, money make the world go round.but we didnt realize that is been sinning our world faster then before.nothing more that we can do actually..is to late already..we r all going to hell.hell on earth..it just been picture perfect so that no one freak out n start praying n believe.well for some that already realizing, its a lost cause.we lost it..everything..well, but thats doesnt mean we should give up.if we all are goin to hell, might as well enjoy the ride

Metaphor

sorry guys, aku mmg xble nk tolak seduction kedai2 yg juai graphic t-shirt..xble langsung..aku akan sentiasa tertarik utk masuk..n then aku terpaksa beli..sbb kdg2 aku ni bkn pikiq panjang.spontan je kdg2..kdg2 agak bodoh.aku ngaku..xble nk resist..he3.kalau x xdak r aku masuk sem ni sampai 3 beg, baju jew..azam dah bebai ngn aku.loker tu aku sorang je konker..brg2 aku je penuh..tu pun satu beg baju aku xunpack lg, xdak tempat..ha3..ok2..aku dah ada aza, baru lg utk tahun ni..nk kurangkan beli t-shirt..kalau nk beli baju pun aku beli t-shirt kolar jew..kolar t-shirt aku ciput jew..brapa lai je..ble kira..tshirt round neck aku, peh.bertimbun..xcampuq yg kat umah lg.well, not cna i say, another addiction dat i fall for..sluaq pun brapa lai ja aku ada.suma tshirt..sampai meber2 aku yg len ble pinjam g smpai berminggu2, ada yg bulan pun ada, adi sorang ja la.bangla tol adi ni.so, kwn2 pasni kalau kluaq ngn aku nmpk aku nk masuk kedai yg juai tshirt ketuk pala aku n kata jgn..kata aku yg ijinkan dalam blog aku ek..sumpah aku xmarah..thats the only way im gonna learn n help myslef out..aku xble nk tolong diri aku sendri..
ok, peace out!

p/s- to be honest, aku saja ja guna t-shirt tu sebagai simbolik utk benda laen..t-shirt tu hanya sebagai metaphor.maksud sebenar, biarlah aku simpan dalam2 dlm hati aku yg terluka kerana terhimpit.aku blum tersedia utk bercerita pasai bnda tu..when im ready, i will tell bout it..tp, cita tshirt addiction ni mmg betui r.

White Sweater Girl

ya, again..another love addiction some might say..but seriesly i guess not..its not an addiction..shes ruin my life..in a positive way of cos.. i cant eve laugh while watching My Name Is Earl cuz in my mind there only her images.everything that i could possibly remmber bout her last nite, all stuck in my mind n it wont come out easilt..maybe its cuz i dun want it to go away.. maybe i want to remember her..i dun wanna forget her.seriesly..

story began, last nite after i cancel my PAD(code pa ntah) class cuz lec didnt come..me n my boys went out to fill in our stomach with something delicious..otw the kenyangkan perut trip something happened in front of the laiberi..as we walked to the laiberi theres a bunch of girl waited there.waithed for somebody i guess.as we pass by them, 4 or 5 of them there she is..in a white sweater, cute, kinda gudv looking, free hair, skinny jean..thats all i can remember bout her.what shes id next change my life for the moment n afterword until now.. she gave asmile.ifreak out...i dunno why.. i look behind me to make sure that shes smiling directly to me, not anyone else..there no one behind me..so shes definitely smiling at me.. abig long stoodstill smile..hiow long? well its pretty long i guess. cmon let face it..how long do a person take to raise a smile..she smiled for bput 5 or 6 second..that really long..as freaked out, i still acted cool.i smil back at her..thats it..one big msitake taht i've donw last nite..at least i should say HYE or something..or even wave my hand.. but i just smile bax..fuck it adam, u suck!that incident haunted me..seriesly..(ble guna ke word haunted ni?)..but still, i cant realy figured why did she smile at me? is it bout the way i look? cuz i look like chines dude? or maybe its cuz my appearance.. or maybe cuz my t-shirt..graffic t-shirt which have a writing "we are not schoolmates, we are not war buddy, we are colourful"..maybe taht the reason.or maybe she noe me before..i dunno..i wish i knoe.i hope i cna still meet her face to face again, n this time im gonna make it rite..im gonna make a move.butlet face it, UiTM Kedah is without a doubt is a small campus but how often u cross by a complete stranger which u can remember twice a day? or eben a week? or even a month? maybe i'll never see her again after this. i dunno.lets just hope that i get asecond chance okay.. i really need it..ok, that all..im out..CHOW!!!

p/s- UiTM kedah..pesal xble connect tenet ni? dah 3 ari kowt..pelase r..aku nk blogging cmna..fix it, please..

Tagged-tentang Pompuan?

well, shank speselly request kat aku suro wat tagged ni..kat blog dia dia pun dia tulih..actually tagged ni ttg laki but dia tagged aku so xkan la aku nk tulih pasai laki kowt..musti r pasai pompuan..SPOILER ALERT!!! aku bru pas break so suma yg dibwh ni amatlah berbeda dr yg sblom2 ni ttg pmpn yg aku gambaqkan..maybe a lil bit demanding kowt kali ni..of cos r kan..bru break..xkn nk crk yg sama jew..nk imrpove r ckit taste2 aku..ha3.

Ciri Perempuan Idaman Anda :

+first of all aku xminat gurl yg cerewet..ckit2 aku ble tolerate lg tp kalau dah melampau2 aku pun xble tahan..+

+terima aku seadanya..strongly bout my smoking probs..FIY, im not planning to stop in the next couple years..seriesly..+

+sweet..i mean perwatakan yg sweet.susah r nk explain dlm kata2..senang cita bila aku usha dia aku rasa dia sweet+

+cute..aku pun xtaw napa..aku jenis yg minat gurl yg cute..dr dulu fact ni xubah.cute bg aku xsemestinya baby face, shorty(no offense shank..he3), or childish..again, seseorg tu kdg2 aku rasa dia cute walaupun org len pikir sebaliknya+

+xkuat melawan kata..kira mcm xsuka argue byk2 ngn aku..aku ni dah x r ble kalau bab2 argue ni.musti nk menang pny..kdg2 benda2 ckit2 pun still nk argue..tp aku xmau r terlalu menurut kata aku..when the time is rite, if shes noe how to fight bax. that will be the perfect gurl to me.+

+unik.dr segi perwatakan @ penampilan..well, some might label unique as freak @ pelik tp aku xkesah..kira laen dr yg len+

+indie..indie disini maksudnya kalau dia pandai take care dirinya sendiri..x terlalu dependent sgt.. n not to indie sbb nnt aku rasa tercabar plak..kira kdg2 or in certain part of life dia still bergantung kat aku..+

+manja..eeew..gelinya time aku tulih ni..tp seriesnya aku suka gurl yg manja+

+smart..kira ble pikir untuk diri sendri r.noe when to speak n when is the rite moment to keep quiet..+

+respect..aku ni jenis yg susah nk respect org..eventhough yg oldies.."respect the ones that respect you" aku pgg prinsip ni..so kalau gurl yg aku nak musti r tau respect org len so dat bru balance..+

+opposite ngn nabila, aku xmau gurl yg lg tinggi dr aku..tinggi skit ble trima lg..besa r laki kan..ego lg tinggi dr ketinggian sendri.+

+mixture blood? ble r..agaknya..+

+well dressed..not to whore-ly not to alim-ly..kalau alim sgt dressing dia mana nk padan ngn aku yg style mcm org gila ni..rambut mohawk+awek berbaju kurung?..go figure.kalau whore-ly dress pun aku xble blah gak..well dressed bg aku kira xover sgt n ortodoks sgt.+

+ok ngn parents ngn sibling aku..kira ble ngam r.+

+last but not least, VIRGIN.no komen..+


Perempuan Yang Tak Pernah Anda Minati Sepanjang Hidup :

+sepanjang hidup? wow..mampuih r..ada ke? ada kowt..hah..gedikz..seriesly aku xminat gurl yg gedik..manja ngn gedik 2 benda yg berbeda ok.+

+shop-a-holic maniac n addicts..point n aku ble tolerate lg..besa r gurl.aku paham..shopping is\their hobby, most of them..so, kira yg shopping berpada2 r..sebulan sekali ke, dua kali je ke.orait r tuh.3 kali sminggu pun aku ble wat2 pejam mata g r.jgn r sampai sebulan seploh duploh kali..aku pun kuat shopping gak..bukan kedekut tp mcm dah membazir sgt dah tu..+

+overdress n to HOT for me to handle..iman aku lemah kowt nafsu aku kdg2 membuak2..jgn r uji kan..payah nnt+

++ngada2? sma ke ngn gedik? kalau xsama kira r ek..aku bkn tahu sgt mengklafisikasikan org ni+

+judgemental..suka sgt judge org..aku anti sifat ni+


Perasaan Anda Sekiranya Keluar Dengan Orang Yang Minati :

+hekeleh..ni pun mau tny lg ka? musti r sonok..+


Tempat Istimewa Yang Ingin Dilawati Bersama Pasangan Anda :

+aku xsure..tp pa yg pasti tempat tu musti spesel n meaningful for both of us+


Barangan/Sesuatu Istimewa Yang Akan Anda Hadiahkan Kepada Si Dia :

+bab2 brg2 ni utk yg istemewa aku akan bg my personal item..brg2 aku yg aku beli ngn duit aku sendri,aku syg gila2,aku jaga gila2,sentimental value.kira kalau ada gurl yg dpt brg personal dr aku dia mmg spesel di hatiku..so far, xdak lg la yg bertuah.+


Tajuk Lagu Yang Akan Anda Nyanyikan Untuk Pasangan Anda :

+Never Been Replaced-First Lady+


Rakan Yang Anda Tag Dan Mahu Mereka Buat PERIHAL :
+Suma blogheads yg membaca netry ni, tagged la diri anda sendri ek..nk list down byk sgt..sesapa yg terbaca entry ni juts wat je.xkesah..+

Noor Hajar Binti Mohamad Rasdi..I dedicate this for u, My Lil' Sis..

lil' sis..im proud of u..
7A's n 1B..thats damn good babe..(orait r b sejarah dah dia menci sejarah)..
one thing for sure, shes still gonna be in that prestige skool(skolah men sains tun syed sheik shahabudin..tol ke aku eja ni..ranking no 23 dlm skolah men mesia), not as shes expected, well she thought that shes gonna get an ass kick from that skool..shes even prepared herself mental n physical to fit in to normal skool(skolah harian r..)..sorry babe, trust me, u wont fit in..u too good to be in normal skool..one more thing, sejarah B? thats cool..just try to keep up cuz in form 4 there essay that u have to write in history subject.. n choose the rite stream okay..shes wanna choose accounting n bio stream..well, shes said she love math but hate bio, but they cant be seperated.so, do what ur big bro did..juts study to get pas.. which i did ok..i get 8E for bio..hahaha..accounting? good.. after this u can teach me accounting cuz im sucks in this fucking subject..haha(kalau la dia taw aku fail account kat U conpem dia xmau ambik accounting pny, u noe why cuz she look up high for me..in her mine, his big bro is some genius boy that have xtraordinary mind..ooh lil sis..u dunno how untrue that is)..well u beat me again on PMR..well i only got 7B n 1C for PMR..well i totally deserved that..n im proud of her..shes can do much better than me in academic.i admit that..im just somehow got lucky all the time.she n my big sis is the brain of the outfit..im just the mastermind of problems..haha..well Hajar i hope u read this entry(i noe u wont) so that u noe that im very proud of u..n i love u soo much..sometimes i just dunno how to express it..really..seriesly..but shes still love me more than big sis..i just dunno why..maybe its cuz that im the only bro she have n no matter how screw up i am, im just the one to turn in..n remember, no matter what, no matter what stream u choose, i'll alway support u..our family alway support u..dun worry.the pressure is not n u..u r the youngest..its not u that leads the way..big sis carry that respo..im next..u r the last..well, i really am glad that mummy drop the pressure of pursuiting u on medic(eventhough she didnt noe that shes applying the pressure on u, but i noe..), n now ur choice is wide open..just be anybody that u want..(well to be honest i still hope that u'll someday be a newscaster.so that everynite i turn on the TV on 8 n i ca proudly say that-that babe on Tv is my lil sis!..haha)..well thats all i wanna say to u, my lil sis..love u so much..now i just need to accept that u are no longer our baby gurl..u have grown up..all of us need to..u can be indie u just need to believe in urself more as much as we believe in u..n remember, i'll have ur back..im gonna take ur hand everytime u fall, im gonna shield up the bullet for u if i have to..cuz no matter what, u still r baby gurl in my heart..u r the reason i wont do any bad things in life cuz i dun want anybody hurt u..n im sorry if im being to tough on u..im just trying to build up ur confident on urself..thats all..

p/s-sumthing bout my lil sis-shes fragile.not confident in herself as much as all of us trust her..vunerable sometimes..soft hearted-really2 soft..softer than a feather..easily influece(this one is my own conclusion.)..not so indie as me n my big sis.so, as a big bro i have to take care of her..the respo lies on my shoulder.i really have to

I Woke Up In Different Bed

wow aku bgn pagi ini dr katil aku di kolej tersyang kolej malinja berselimut n dlm keadaan kesejukan.. kedah sejuk? wow..suatu perubahan yg ketara..maybe byk benda bru dah brubah sepanjanh cuti sem ni..maybe skrg kedah masih dlm musim hujan? xpa..aku masih ada full 5 bulan utk menguji teori ni..maybe kedah dah melepasi fasa kepanasan yg melampau atau akan kembali ke keaadaan sedia kala dlm masa dua tiga hari..hanya tuhan yg tahu

Shock n Awe

same room, sam rumates, different locker.. everything else seem right where i left it..yup, im back in UiTM Kedah..massive changes? nope..thanx god..well, since ramai yg argue napa aku xdak azam tahun baru well i think i just found one..aku nk brubah tahun depan n study rajin2 n bg naek blk pointer aku yg keep dropping..i dun wanna fail my folks.i'll do muy best..seriesly..i hope i can make it..please god..i need to make it..help me..

okay gtg..xabih unpack lg..barang byk xbeli g..katil xkemas g..locker xsusun g..well, i'll sharing my loker with azam again this sem..gud..ble paw rokok dia lg sem ni.hahaha..btw, aku xsempat g jumpa junior aku..sem ni sorang ja junior dok sebilik ngn aku..xtaw nama pa, asal mana, course apa. its ok..i have full 5 month to know him better..

one more thing, since im now in my beloved campus, i think im ready.. ready to be hurt again.ready to fall in love again..but this time, im gonna make it rite.. no more foreplay..im not gonna hook up with any gurl that just come by..im gonna search for Miss Right this time..if i dun find her, will stay single ja la..pa susah..bkn aku xble idup kalau xdak gurlfren..btw, i msg nabilah sblom bertolak td ckp kat dia yg aku nk blah dia mai cni, i ckp gudlux n bye2..i told u, were good.. no heart feeling..we still can be frens..we used to be gud frens..nothing gonna change that.. the chemistry we share, gonna make us pull it through though..just wait n see.im not bluffing..

Chow!!!1

GoodBye For Now

well its kinda sad tahts im gonna leave penang tommorow(teruk2 nk blk kedah ja pun..kn jauh mana..setgh jam je dah sampai)..so i guess this gonna be the last entry i wrote from penang(for now)..so a month n half past by while im hanging in penang on my sem break, what had happen?

• I Got A Job at Kareoke Site
• i Quit Kareoke job
• i Got my old job back-Swenz Kopitiam
• I broke up wif Nabilah
• Im Single again..pewit!!!
• i make a nu frens in blogs
• i make nu frens in real life
• i'd scandal with amoi Myanmar
• i lost 3 kg
• i gain 4 kg..wow!!!!
• i fall in love but i ignore it..because its just another addiction
• someone fall for me n i ignore it..im an idiot
• i reconnect with my old buddies
• i hanged a lot
• i eat a lot
• i sleep less
• i smoked less

well thats all i guess..except for something that i rather not write bout it..well evnthough its kinda short sem break (at least thats how i felt) but a lot of things happened..so, yeah i love penang no matter what..i love seberang jaya precisely..no doubt bout that.u can say what ever u want dudes but penang its the best place in teh world..no matter where i go this is my home n this is where i will come home to..theres no place like home, man..

so gudbye for now..one thing for sure, my next entry wont be from seberang jaya, penang anymore.its gonna be from merbok, kedah..i love that place too..chow!