wish me luck on my muet today..

skrang nih bru pukui 6.30 pagi.. no!!! aku bkn xtido2 lg aku dah tidoq, believe it or not aku tidoq pukui 10.30 smlm n aku bru jew bgn.. xtaw pasai pa ble bgn awai plak maybe sebab aku tdoq awai kot smlm tu r pasai.well gud 4 me..

today its a big day..

MUET..
wish me luck ok..

im aiming 4 band 5..

THERE!!!!

i said it!!!!

band 5!!

maybe sebab Boy gitaw aku smlm yg Mazliza dapat band 5 utk muet dia sbb tuh tiba2 aku pn ras tercabar.. well if she can do it, so can i.. tp tuh suma rezeki r kan.. kalu dapat band 4 pn dah kira ok dah.. i just need 2 improve my essay a lil bit-less grammar mistakes, more2 unique ideas, well organization n DONT FORGET DA TOPIC SENTENCES..in listening test, i just need to focus.. i must focus.. speaking-which is today, i just need to calm down n talk slowly.. no need to rush..an no mistakes.. fight for my point, support some of the other candidates n just do it..

i think i can do it..
i just need a lil faith..

go aCe go!!!!
u can do it...

A Simple Kiss..

WHEN TIME HAD IT GRUDGE ON OUR FRAIL LOVE
WHEN DISTANCE KEEP US APART AND MAKE IT TOUGH
WHEN BREAK UP JUST AN INCH AWAY TO APPROACH IN
WHEN “THE FIRST LOVE” FIRE UP IN A FORM OF A GIRL NAME LYN
WE ARE SO CLOSE, NO TOO DAMN CLOSE TO BE SEPERATED
I WON’T DENIED IT, I’M THE ONE WHO DIDN’T PUT THE EFFORT
THE DISTANCE, IT JUST ANOTHER EXCUSE I WANNA MAKE
BUT THE LOVE FOR YOU JUST WON’T FADE

THANKS TO YOU WHO ALWAYS BELIEVE IN ME
NEVER STOP FIGHTING, NEVER STOP SAYING THAT YOU LOVE ME
THE ONE THAT MAKE ME REALIZE AND FINALLY SEE CLEARLY
THE ONE THAT HOLDS MY HEARTS WHERE IT SHOULD BE

A SIMPLE KISS IT’S NOT REALLY WHAT I SEEK
A SIMPLE KISS THAT U GAVE ON MY CHEEK
A SIMPLE KISS THAT CHANGE IT ALL
A SIMPLE KISS TURN MY EGO DOWN AND MAKE IT SMALL
A SIMPLE KISS RESTORE, RENEW, REJOICE MY FEELING
A SIMPLE KISS RIP OUT THE KNIFE OF LOVE KILLNG
A SIMPLE KISS THAT I DIDN’T SEE IT COMING
A SIMPLE KISS THAT MAKE ME QUIT PLAYING
A SIMPLE KISS THAT MAKE ME TO START LOVING..
YOU..
MY ONE AND ONLY
~MY SHITERU~

The Shape of Things To Come..

hm.. wat can i say..
2 days from now(1 and half to b exact) i will have my muet exam..
one week from now my final exam will start...

guess wat?

i not really ready yet..
well to tell the truth my ready can be defined as 60% of effort n preparation..wlaway be..
but this time im not even dat close..

what the hell im doing??

i should be studying.. im suCk in accounting n Eco but i still care less bout it..

do i wanna repeat both of dat paper?

hell no..

so wat da hell im doing rite now?

blogging, just finish lost season 3 n i will continue season 4 2morrow(eventhough this will be my third watching them)...

i have my eco quiz 2morrow on Oligopoly... stil im not holding eco's book on my hand instead im typing this damn blog.....

what da hell im doing?

do i wanna get my ass kick out of here?

hell no...

so wat am i doing ??

i dunno..

maybe my spirit is flied away..

away from my heart..

the spirit dat always keep me going on my study..
the spirit dat always hold me on...
the spirit dat always make be believe dat im good at it..
the spirit dat always make my luck n survive this academic world..
the spirit dat alway hold my anger down..
where is the spirit?
where the hell is it?

without it im nothing..
useless..
unworthy...
a fake..
an asshole....
a pretender..

maybe dis is not wat i should..
maybe i should further my study..
maybe i should just continue working at Swenz Kopitiam
the one thing im actually good at..
waybe dis is all wrong..
maybe i make a mistake..
maybe im da one who wrong..

i dunno..

i wish i know..

memory of majlis berbuka puasa DiPAC in Kg apa ntah...

hello everybody...
sorry dah lama aku x post blog..(gila lama).. asik post poem jew kn.. lately nih kerap plak aku tulih poem kn.. slalunya aku tulih poem bila mood tgh high.. maybe lately nih my mood are unstable.. i guess.. ye r.. test sana, test cni, final lg 2 mggu.. tambah aku ada muet plak slasa nih. peh... btw, bout muet, my last essay dat i wrote my lecturer grade me as upper band 4.. dats mean im close to band 5.. means i have i shot at band 5.. wow, if it is possible it will b great.. but, if i get band 4, its gud enuff for me..(Really!!!!)..

OK!!!!

pa lg? hm...

HAH!!!!

lets talk bout one of my subject

ACC114- ACCOUNTING 1

well, it

SUCK!!!!!

maybe im suck in it!!!!!

i dunno..

GOD I HOPE I WILL NOT REPEAT DAT PAPER...

hm.. but its never too late to learn.. i hope there stil time...

ooo ya btw, some of u has be asking bout my latest poem,

MY TRIANGLE LOVE STORY

whether its bout my life or not.. d answer is.....

I NOT GONNA TELL....

SORRY.....

i just wanna keep d element of suprise, alive okay.. plus, i dun really like to share my personal life (love life to be specific...) to the public.. i kinda like to keep it to myself all the detail..

SORRY BABE!!!!

next...

wat else happen to me dis week?
i dunno.. nothing interesting.. it just dat there is no prison break this week..

FUCK.....

nobody upload prison break season 4 episode 8 online so dats mean there is no show this week in US,, whys dat? i dunno.. buts its okay.. i just have to wait till tuesday, then alip can download it for sure.hehehehe..

okay, dat all.

peaCe In, roCk oUt!!!!!!

My TRIANGLE LOVE STORY..

Unspoken love needs the truth to be revealed,
The truth needs a helping hand from the heart that unsealed
Heart of misery only bring the harm of emotion
Twisted emotion contribute to physical inducement

Hannah,
Somehow affection comes by and we click
The theme song of our love, flyleaf- I’m So sick
Enthusiast of you the reason I feel special
Remoteness between us likes comparison of sand and pearl
But, you had your chance and you blow it off
Second time seems impossible because my heart ain’t soft
Silly, my love for you won’t just fade away
“We are just best friend”, that’s what I choose to say

Neela,
The present, the replacement, the new face of worship
Just when everything seem right, here come relationship
Time been pushed, feeling determined too soon now it’s done already
Patience could saved it all from the dark love valley
Just friend maybe that what we should be
But I were greedy, “couple-ing” pressure blind me
Still, I don’t want to let you go that simple
Ego hold me back, make me stuck in “Cinta” vessel

The choice that I will make may hurt you both
But still, it’s have to be made even though it’s gross
One is the only number normal heart should hold
But I want you both, secrets that I keep in deep deep cold.

REALIZE.. by Saf

REALIZE

I should realize how the way it should be now
I should realize that I am far behind
I should realize life is not like I once thought
I should realize that are no SUCH THINGS as true friend
I should realize that I am not for him
I should realize that this is what he wanted to be
I should realize being single is actually TOUGH
I should realize that I’m not GOOD enough
I should realize that things never happen like I want it to be
I should realize that all this while, you just playing me
I should realize that I am falling so hard
I should realize that everyone is being UNTRUE

Now that I come back and try to be good,
But, will you be there and treat me GOOD?
Owh, I should have just REALIZE….

NO TOMMOROW

If there is no tomorrow,
What meal will I have for the last time,
Will it be Chicken McDeluxe or any of it kind
Do I really gonna have appetite or its just dying
Will I enjoy my last meal or maybe I just gonna start crying?

If there is no tomorrow,
Will I ever change?
Can I ever be tame?
Will I keep playing game?
Will my life will ever be the same?

If there is no tomorrow,
Will I ask forgiveness for all the wrong things I done?
Or just sit down pray that all of it will just be gone
Sorry, will that be my last word on my last second
Or I just be as bastard as I am that have no U-turn


If there is no tomorrow,
I know deep inside my heart will crashed
Too much pressure, some haven’t been test
So many thing aren’t achieved
Some, I take it to my grave

If there is no tomorrow,
Will the world stop spinning, people stop running
Allies stop ass-kissing, enemy stop gunning
Is that even possible?
Or the world remain as terrible

If there is no tomorrow,
Will I be afraid, will I even care?
I got nothing to lose, not much to spare
Freaking out never in my vocabulary
Knowing I won’t be able to live, that’s not really scary
But,
what about everybody else, how will they feel?
The fact of knowing the world gonna end, that’s worse then gets kill
Maybe its too late but its never that easy
So, brace ourself, the day will come, we’ll see..

tagged...

1. The person who tag you is:
+Dayat+

2. Your relationship with him/her is:
+besh buddies.. till the end i hope..+

3. Your five impression of him/her:
+hm... smart, indie,funny, hepi go lucky, sometimes clumsy (sorry dude..) +

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you
+hm.. being my frens all da times+

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you:
+i cant recall..+

6. If he/she become your lover, you will:
+become gay..+


7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be:
+hm.. his appereance? maybe..+

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will:
+i dun think its possible+

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be:
+misunderstanding, he hurt me or i hurt him+

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is:
+give him peresnt on his burfday next year.. i promise dude..+

11. Your overall impression of him/her is:
+he is da kinda person or frens dat hard to find.. in other word, unique+

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?
+i dunno. y dun u ask them?+

13. The characters you love of yourself are:
+hmm.. i believe in myself n i dun care bout wat people say bout me..+

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are:
+hm.. i trust people easily..+

15. The most ideal person you want to be is:
+nobody.. i only wanna be myself+

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them:
+i cvan be good, i can be bad, sumtimes im an asshole but im not a traitor+

17. Pass this quiz to 5 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you:
+maxeemuse, dayat, saf, rizal n ajam+

18. Who is no.1 having relationship with?
+im not sure.. i think he still single.. for now+

19. Is no.4 a male or female?
+male...+

20. If no.3 and 5 are together, will it be a good thing?
+wow.. dats will be great cuz they r bout my besh frens.. but they r not suite together..trust me+

22. What is no.2 studying about?
+engineering of mechanical..+

23. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
+an hour ago..

24. What kind of music band does no.4 like?
+rock.. from one buck short to avenged sevenfold to bullets for my valentine+

25. Does no.1 have any siblings?
+yup.. a lot..+

26. Will you woo no.2?
+no chance in hell+

27. How about no.4?
+still no..+


28. Is no.1 single?
+yup..

29. What is the surname of no.3?
+do malay have surname? i dun think so..+

31. Does no.1 and 5 get along well?
+they dun noe each othet but if they do i think they can get along+

32. Where is no.2 studying at?
+Multimedia University(MMU), melak campus+

33. Talk something casually about no.1:
+he's quite quiet but when he talk, its will make me laugh all da time+

34. Have you tried developing feelings for no.3?
+wow!!! wat da hell? saf? hm.. i tried, but i dun wanna ruin ur frenship.. we too close as a frens, but im not sure we gonna be da same if we're in love+

35. Where does no.5 live at?
+taman melawati+

36. What colour does no.2 like?
+light+

37. Are no.3 and 1 best friend?
+nope.. they dun noe each other+

38. Does no.3 have any pets?
+i dun think so+

39. Is no.1 the sexiest person in the world?
+er.. define sexy.. its too subjective.. but he kinda chubby.. some people find chubby sexy+

40. What is no.5 doing now?
+well, he suppose to study bcuz we have a test 2morrow but instead he r playing games, Stronghold+

memory of eids 2008 part 1

e-in, dayat n me

aku ngn shee-kin, sepupuku yg kuat mengakat

my beloved sis's n my beloved cousins

aku mmg byk sepupu pmpn.. laki kureng ckit..

FUcK U, AssHOLE!!!!

firstly,
im soo sory i cant write for few day.. quite BZ......(betui ker?) ya rite.. demam, selsema, hang out gila2 babi... too many things happen dis week.. shafiQ fuck me up on tuesday.. argh... i stil cant forget bout dat.. its soo fucking annoying.. i cant believe dat he did dat to me..

FUCK UP BITCH!!!!!!

let me xplain.. actually on dat day, i just wanna go about after my BEL clas to buy cigarettes.. dats all..nothing more.. i just wanna borrow jat's bike n go for it.. suddenly, SAF ask for my favor to go to CS to bring her phone to repair.. its its navi buttons its not function properly.. i say

"OK babe.. dun worry .i handle it"

then i soft of invite SAF to come wif me, ride on wif me ..

WOW!!!!

dats will be Fucking great... thanx god it didnt happen..

hehehe.. after dat, shafiQ kinda invite himself to come with us.. he wanna go wif car.. ya its true..
i refuse of cos!!!!! im fucking broke.. i gotta go out again this thursday wif my boys.. plus he wanna go out to have fun n all da stuff, i just wanna go out to my my addictive stuff (cigarettes okay)..dats all. but he offer to pay for all of it (the car rent).. n i dunno whats happen to me, i just say yes okay lets go for it(eventhough i heard so many story about him dats surely he will not pay up, n its fucking true).. so instead of "JUST WANNA BUY CIGARETTES".. i end up spending more then rm50 on dat day.. ya rite!! rm50.. first, shafiq said he wanna eat pizza.. (HE WANT TO NOT ME!!!!).. at the pizza, when SAF n Nadia(yup.. she come too) not around, he whispered to me dat he only able too pay up to rm20+..dats it!!!

WHAT DA FUCKING MOTHER FUCKER ITS DAT, BIACTH??!!!!

y u wanna said it just too me, not in front of the gurls?

HUH?

ok2, i just act cool.. after having pizza, i go back to bank Islam to finish my process(ooo ya.. i just found out dats i lost my ATM card.wat a coincidence huh?).. i have to paid up rm18 for dat.. then when i were waiting for my turn, shafiq came approach me.. he said,:

"dude, i wont be able to pay for the rent of the car"

AGAIN...

wait for it..

WHAT DA FUCK IS DIS ASSHOLE??!!!!!

u r da one u make me come wif u becuz u said u got it all covered..

so, dats it dude.. u r done.. dats is da first n last time i will ever go out wif u.. seriously.. when im back to my campus, ya i got a harm welcome...

they all laugh at me!!!!!
becuz they have the same exp wif shafiQ...
at least i learned my lesson...

a "Kiss Me" Gurl

well, slaamat arie raya to all of u.. well td kn dah umum rabu nih rabu so ucap awai2 r sg kn..

look at the title.. "a "Kiss Me" gurl ".. why dats? is actually a funny story, its not dat much but i just can get it out of my head.. i dunno why.. do i like her? maybe its the way she approach me make me twirl? i dunno.. okay2, here's da story...

i just happen a few hour ago.. around 6.15 soft of..me as usually my fasting month duty, pi pasar ramadan beli kuih utk berbuka.. its alredy been a routine for me every year.. the bazaar is just nearby, behind my house.. a few steps only, but i have to wear a sweater n umbrella( God!!! i hate it) bcuz its kinda raining lightly.. so i went there, quite surprised bcuz there nothing much.. half of the stall there r close.. it is bcuz of the rain, or bcuz posa dah dkat nk abih/ hm.. im not really sure.. who cares?!!!! none of my business.. aku tawaf satu bazaar cari pa yg family aku oder, makpak aku nk mee kuah, adik aku nk taufoofa kak aku nk popia.. cian kay depa suma xdak kecuali popia , place where i meet "kiss me" gurl.. hehehe.. first n foremost, she actually study in my previous high school SMK tun hussein Onn, i think she in form 5..so wat actually happen there? hmm..

"Kiss me" gurl- nak apa?
me- hm.... bg popia dua..
"kiss me" gurl-(wrapping it up)... lagi?
me- hm.. bengkang dua ngn seri muka dua..
"kiss me " gurl- ok.. tu ja?
me- yup(giving her a RM50 note)
"kiss me" gurl- xdak duit kecik ka?
me-sorry r, xdak r..
"kiss me" gurl-(after 2 minutes).. nah duit belen..
me-thanx.. "kiss me" hah? (pointing at her t-shirt)
"kiss me" gurl-hehehehehe...
me- nak kiss ker?
"kiss me" gurl-xpayah la(gelak sambil tersipu2 malu)

i just turn my back on her n walked....

well it did not end just like dat.. 10 minutes after dat, after i bought murtabak, i passed by in front of her stall again, and guess wat? i looked straight at me... u noe wat i do?

"change my umbrella to my left hand, blow her a flying kiss wif my right hand n then i smile"

she smile back...

and i left..

just like dat..

pretty stupid hah?

wat do you think?

i dunno which one is the best part is but i really dun noe why i cant forget about that incident.. hmm.. i want to noe how she will react tomorrow bcuz i surely gonna go to her stall again tomorrow. my the real question is, what will i do? remember tomorroe is the last day of puasa n she will not be at the bazaar anymore 2morrow.. its my last shot.. who noe??

my top 10 list....

MY TOP 10 BAND

1) Linkin Park
2) Sum 41
3) My Chemical Romance
4) Blink 182(+44 n Angels and Airwaves)
5) Billy Talent
6) GreenDay
7) Breaking Benjamin
8) Bullets for My Valentines
9) Fall Out Boy
10 Avenged Sevenfold

MY TOP 10 LOCAL BAND

1) Pop Shuvit
2) DragonRed
3) Disagree
4) Hujan
5) OAG
6) Couple
7) eStranged
8) Meet Uncle Hussain
9) Plague Of Happiness
10 The Official

MY TOP 10 SONG

1) When Your Heart Stop Beating- +44
2) Walking Disaster- Sum 41
3) Hey There Delilah- Plain White T's
4) So Cold- Breaking Benjamin
5) Never Too Late- 3 Days Grace
6) Cute Without The E-Taking Back Sunday
7) Tears Dont Fall- Bullets For My Valentines
8) Ready, Set, Go- Tokio Hotel
9) Surrender- Billy Talent
10 The Only Song- Sherwood

TOP 10 TV SERIES

1) Lost
2) Prison Break
3) Supernaturals
4) How I Meet Your Mother
5) Desperate Housewives
6) My Name Is Earl
7) 24
8) Las Vegas
9) Terminator-Sarah Connor Chonicles
10 Heroes

TOP 10 REALITY SHOW

1) Survivor
2) Pirate Master
3) Amazing Race
4) Rockstar
5) Ikon
6) Charm School
7) One In A Million
8) MyTeam
9) 30 Second To Fame
10 Are You Smarter Than 6 Grader?

MY ACTIV10

1) My Shiteru- cinta hatiku
2) Dayat- one my beshfren, MMU-Degree in EngineerinG
3) MaxeemuSe-one of my beshfren,MMU-Degree In Law
4) Hana- hm.. im not sure her status..maybe one of my frens
5) Lyn- my coursemate
6) Saf- my buddies,my babe fren, my knuckles frens
7) Fatin- hm ex-clasmate
8) Sheela-my beloved cousin
9) Nadeeya- long-lost frens
10 Sachira-hm.. just a frens. i dun even noe my she stil in my avtiv10

MY TOP 10 SOFTWARE

1) Ares- my downlaod gears.
2) Mp3maker
3) dBPowerAMP Music Converter
4) Photoshop
5) Youtube Downloader
6) Limewire
7) BearShare
8) Movie Maker
9) 3GP Converter
10 HiDownload

MY TOP 10 WEBSITE

1) www.ruckfules4real.blogspot.com - my blog
2) www.myspace.com/ruckfules4real
3) www.wwe.com
4) www.youtube.com
5) www.channelv.com/amp
6) www.wikipedia.com
7) www.anwaribrahimblog.com
8) www.yahoo.com
9) www.google.com
10 www.faradibanuar.blogspot.com

MY TOP 10 TV CHANNEL

1) Starworld
2) Starmovie
3) AXN
4) 8TV
5) MTV
6) [V]
7) Hitz.tv
8) Starsport
9) ESPN
10 TV3

MY TOP 10 WRESTLERS

1) Jeff Hardy
2) John Cena
3) Edge
4) Phenomenal AJ Styles
5) Matt Hardy
6) Christian Cage
7) Batista
8) Randy Orton
9) Triple H
10 Kane

MY TOP 10 FOOTBALLERS

1) Cristiano Ronaldo
2) Wayne Rooney
3) Steven Gerard
4) John Terry
5) Ryan Giggs
6) Micheal Ballack
7) Kaka
8) Lionel Messi
9) Fernando Torres
10 Ronaldo

MY TOP 10 FOOTBALL TEAM

1) Manchester United
2) Liverpool
3) Chelsea
4) AC Milan
5) Real Madrid
6) Reading
7) Newcastle United
8) Manchester City
9) Hull City
10 Arsenal

happiness is....

gembira, seronok, suka,excited,, happy go lucky keriangan dan seantero dengannya.

but it it true?

can people be truely happy?

apa itu happiness?

apa itu kegembiraan?

seronok time dpt hadiah time burfday?
seronok time dipuji?
suka bila ada org appreciate hasil kerja kita?
suka bila ada org trima cinta kita?

adakah itu happiness??

sesetgh org mungkin setuju yg kegembiraan itu sesuatu yg menyenangkan..

BUT

for some other people,,,

happiness seem imposible...

agak mustahil bg sesetgh org utk mengecapi kegembiraan.
agak sukar utk merasai keriangan kerana hidup mereka sentiasa penuh dgn kedukaan, sengsara, keperitan.. kegembiraan bg golongan ini hanya utk terus bernyawa n teruskan hidup yg sentiasa penuh dgn pancaroba...

kegembiraan boleh dicipta dgn wujudnya

KEPALSUAN

FAKE...

how many poeple fake their happiness?

kepura-puraan mengisi ruang hidup mereka demi sebuah kehidupan yg normal..

BUT

HOW LONG CAN THEY HOLD IT BEFORE

EXPLODE??


kepura-puraan memerlukan kesabaran yg tinggi...

sampai manakah tahap kesabaran seseorang itu?

mampukah dia bertahan till the end of time?

adakah berbaloi utk berpura-pura gembira sedangkan merana menusuk jiwa?


WATS GONNA HAPPEN IF THIS PEOPLE STOP TRYING TO FAKE IT?



it be the end for them?
wat if they choose to stop believing?


can other people have the happiness?

mampukah org lain melihat org len merana?

adakah ia mustahil ?


ONLY TIME WILL TELL....

Priceless piC from last semester..

DAP1B.. all boys suit Up!!! hahaha.. syg amini xdak dlm gmbaq nih.. syg amir ngn edd dah xdak kt cmpus nih..hmm...

DPA1B candid Pic..cute hah??

meor call dis pic just half....

i luv dis pic so much.. spontan gila babi.. amir tgh cuci mulut kuddus nk tgkap gambaq.. pic nih dkt tanda blok TEC

NEXT BUNCH OF PIC IS FROM MY LAST DAY PIC

amir last day in uitm.. all of us did not noe he was leaving..

standing-(l-r)hakim,jufri, kuddus, me n syahril

sit-meor n amir

yg cemperak ckit ngn botol-Edd

hahahahaha..lawa x pic nih?

syafiq yg ambik pic nih.. smart x?

NEXT PIC IS BOUT OUR CRAZY HOUR!!!!!

wat tangga...

cam rock band pny album cover x?

huhuhuhu...

friendship....

is kinda weird if i just keep writing bout life isnt it?



so today im gonna write bout friendship.. most wonderful thing dat around teenagers life.. its can hurt us, make us happy, even make us closer or further to our family.. i belive evryone have a friends rite? but wat does friendship means to us? everybody have their own P.O.V bout frenship.. n wat does frenship mean to me? n wats do mean to us?







some say,







FRIENDSHIP MEANS BRO's OR WE ARE SISTERS!!!







for somebody else friendhsip mean







A SECRETS DATS EACH OTHER SHARE



somebody else say



FRIENDSHIP IS ALL BOUT BACK U BACK N COVER FOR U?


and some say




FRIENDSHIP IS ABOUT PLACTIC N FAKE...



so which one is the true meaning of frenship?



to me frenship is bout....







WELL, I DUN REALLY NOE, SERIOUSLY!!!

i have so many frens and for each of them frenship bring differents meaning.. i dun noe.. maybe i just being silly or maybe it just true.. for rite now i do have some really good frens..




first of foremost, i like to about AJAM(azam bin zakaria)..


well, his my rumates, my besh buddies here in uitm kedah, well ok he is my mentor.i learn so many things bout life from him.well maybe bcuz the fact that he is older then me(he's 20 n im just 18).. he is so realistic person well its kinda differents from me bcuz i'm kinda person dat realistic sumtimes n sumtimes optimistic..so its really weird how we ended being frens eventhough our personality kinda different is every angle. u noe how we can be frens?






CIGARETTES..



yeah.. its true.. he



's responsible for me being a smoker, but its not really his fault becuz i choose to be a smoker.. its my decision not his.. so, from sharing cigars, we get close, hang out together playing games, talking sharing stories n we become close.. as wrong as it sound, but we ended ebing a rumates this semester n yes we r sharung locker.. my mum used to said in hostel life if u really close wif somebody dun be in the same room bcuz its gonna effect ur relationship.. she spoke based on her xpereince but not to me.. me n ajam getting closer just becuz we r rumates.. so dat theory is not really true..




so wats my frenship wif ajam is all about



IS IT JUST ABOUT CIGARETTES?




but we did share some stories togother so wat can i say is cigarettes is only as a steooing stine of our frenship so i should thanx cigarettes .. bcuz of it, me and him r close frens..







so wat ever frenship means to us, its doenst matters bcuz its wat make us who we r.. some might say dats is a fake frenship but, it is true? no.. a just a part of frenship.. eventhough is our frenship is based on lies, is still a frenship bcuz dat wat make us click.. dat wat make us talks.. dats wat maku us share..

ajam n me..

MY SHADOW GUARDIAN

In this lonely day nothing standstill upon the way
Beautiful sky in blue vanish and turn to grey
Fear full in when people choose not to stay
The one who’s weak become a bait for a prey

Demolition past through like a wind blows by
No one shall cry because tears have dried
The one who still live which to die
But not for me, it just a beginning not goodbye

I’ll fight them all with all the guts I got
MY SHADOW GUARDIAN always there behind my back
She will never let me be ambrosia or anyone whack shack
I’m like a brick wall that no one can ever crack

Amendable creature that you are
You make me strong and come this far
Pull me up when I’m feeling down
Hold me back when I’m about to drown
Thank you, because saving me from darkness of time
Now my life worth more than a dime

I do know that your power have limitation
I’m sorry; it’s just to much temptation
I’d push you too much under desperation
I just want to make the world free from destruction

My hope right now that’s someday you will come back
Be by my side like Sally and Jack
I’m willing to give my soul for eternity
As long as you’ll come back and we stay in this fraternity
We can make this world bright again and full of entity
Most important is love of us can conquer all, entirely…

THE SQUARE ROOT OF THREE

I fear that I will always be
As lonely number root three
A three is all that’s good and right
Why must my three keep out of sight?
Beneath a vicious square-root sign
I wish instead I were nine
For nine could thwart this evil trick
With just some quick arithmetic
I know that I’ll never see the sun
As 1.7321

Such is my reality
As sad irrationally
When hark, just what is I see?
Another square root number three
Has quietly come waltzing by
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer
Rejoicing as integer
We break free from our mortal bonds
And with a wave of magic wands
Our square-root signs become unglued
And love for me has been renewed


A poem of love by
Kumar Patel
Harold and Kumar 2:
Escape from Guantanamo Bay

adapted from FD myspace...

1 Are you wearing a necklace, who got it for you?
- but it myself.. i have 3, i lost one of it

2 Who is the main person you talk to daily?
-ajam, meor and adi(my besh buddies)

3 When was the last time you commented to number 2?
-last ten minutes

4 Where are your guy and girl friends?
-on her bed, i guess..

5 Did you enjoy your weekend?
-hell yeah.. especially today.. we went out..hav a hell of a time at CS..hahaha.. karoke, bowling, teasing each other,.. besh thing ever


6 Could you live without a computer?
-i used to, but now, cannot!!!!!

7 Could you live without your phone?
- hmm.tricky question.. i think i can for the first half n hour, after im gonna start killing poeple...

8 Suppose you see your boy/girlfriend kissing another person; what would you do?
-hmm. first, smile, then raise my middle finger, say "FUCK YOU, BIACHT.."

9 Is your phone within a meter radius of you?
-mesti lah...

10 Look at your recent calls, who was your last call from?
-adi ciput..he call and ask bout PAD160 eventhough his from just nearby..pemalas pny ciput...

11 If you were given $100 would you spend it or save it?
-save it..hahahaha.. xmungkin terjadi..joli r!!!

12 How many different people have sent you a text in the last 20 msg's?
-~My ShiteRu~, hana my besh fren,adha my rumate, boy my coursemate,aimi, n hotlink

13 Are you listening to music right now?
-breaking benjamin-so cold.. fucking lovin' dis song.. never gonna b out-of-date in my playlist

14 What exactly are you wearing?
-hmm.. alain delon spender(hahaha), my rm5 3/4 short beli kat pasar mlm, n my form5 basketball sleeveless t-shirt..

15 When was the last time you were truly, completely happy with out life?
-the last second.. i enjoy my life every second of it

16 Do you text or call? How often?
-depends on my pre-paid

17 Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?-ADI CIPUT..kan dah jawap td.mangkuk pny soklan!!!!

18 When was the last time you ran?-last nite at 2 am.. kejaq ajam sebab nk trajang dia.hahaha..childish rite? who can blame us..

19 What should you be doing?-sleep.. i got clas next morning at 8am.. now ist alredy 3.42am

20 What is the status of the last person who texted you?-hana? my beshfren now, n my Ex..haha..cliche hah?

21 Do you have a cut on your pointer finger?
-nope. but invisiblely? yes!!!!

22 Do you have any friends named Robby?-nope. robin ada r.. tu pun nick name ja la.. kami org mesia r..pa la...hahaha

23 Do you get annoyed when people dont text back?
-depends..

24 Who were your last 3 texts in your phone Inbox?
-bapak r... td top20 ni top 3 plak.. all hana texts..

LIFE IS FULL OF SUPRISES

sumtimes is good sometimes is bad.. depends on the suprises itself.. suprises sometimes(brapa byk sometimes daaa..) make us happy,bright up of boring day n make it meaningful make us want to push ur self to the limit..

BUT

sometimes suprises come at the less time dat we xpect, sumtimes da suprises was just on a simple thing,like raining day, date canceled(dats really suck!!!), we Coincidencely bang ur head wif ur Ex in da mall.. and sometime surprises can be on the thing dat really really hard to accept such as, break up, something we love so much is taken away from us and sometimes
death of someone we cared bout.....

HOW TO DEAL WITH THIS??

theres nothing we can do about suprises... its was alredy writen, so we just hav to deal with it..maybe it seem hard for someone, make us feel down, make us to stop believing,make us to stop living ur life..yeah i noe its some of the decision dat we will make, but

SHOULD WE???

or we can be strong n fight it.. past it trough.. make it as a lesson of life dat will make us a better person in da future.make us stronger than everyone else, evenhough others wont even notice, but we noe dat its true.. so

wish decision dat we will make??




LIFE ISnt ABOUT RUNNING AWAY

yeah.. is d easiest choice.. but

SHOULD TAKE IT??

till when we gonna keep running? the the end of time? our entirely life? r we willing to spent ur life just on running? or

HAVE SOME GUTS

and have our problems like n adult, grown up....yeah again, its hard but its da rite thing to do.. how look at it this way, how many people dat willing to stop running? how many people dats willing to mae a choice to stay n fight? dun we want to be da one dat stay? dun we want so look back someday when we old n say,

I"D NEVER RUNS AWAY I FIGHT IT WILL ALL I GOT N WITH DIGNITY...

wouldnt it be nice to remember dat moment.. its damn priceless.. eventhough how suck our life gonna turn out to be, at least we can hold on to something.. something dat will make us proud n feel good n when we bout to leave da world we wont have any grudge on ourself or feel something wrong...


LIFE IS ALL BOUT MAKING CHOICE

simple choice, hard choice, life treaten choice.. wat dress should i wear today, hwo hairstyle should i do today, should i couple with this gurl/guy, should i pay from my parent sins, should i DIE for it?

like it or not we have to make a choice in any situation.. whether its a right decision, we'll never noe until we make one.. will we regret da decision? we'll never noe. will dat decison effect our life entirely? we'll never noe.. is it da biggest wrong decision dat we'd made? we'll never noe..

BUT

its something dat we have to live with.. like or not, decision had been made.. we cant turn back da time to re-do it, so just live with it.. at least we noe its wrong, n we'll learn sumthing..


LIFE IS ALL ABOUT MAKING MISTAKES...

we r normal human being.. all of us make mistakes.. but will we make da same mistakes twice? dtas lie in our own hand.. sum people they just never learn.. dey keep making da same mistakes over n over again.. wats shame on them.. will we be like them? decision its in ur own hand.. make a choice.. mistakes dat we make is actually

A BLESSING IN DISGUISE..

becuz of the mistakes, we learn somthing new n gain a new experience.. we maybe hate ur self so much at the moment, but after dat maybe never, we'll realize dat the mistakes we made, make us a better person. some, keep doing mistakes.hahahaha