Responsiblity Doesn't Come Easy

biar diduga lautan gelora,

biar ditiup angin taufan,

akan ku teguh pertahankan jua,

demi darah dagingku yg ku cinta.

tsunami bersidai di pesisir pantai sekalipun xkan ku undurkan diri selagi mereka tidak ku pasti selamat di sisi..janji sumpah ku ungkap kan pada ibu, akan ku tunaikan selagi mampu..kerana aku hanya seorang diri, lelaki kedua dalam keluarga selepas ayahku..jiwa raga mereka, tanggungjawab yg harus ku pikul..tanpa paksa,tanpa dendam, hanya atas nama cinta dan sayang..ya, memang aku tidak seratus peratus menyukainya namun apa dayaku..aku tiada abang..akulah abang, akulah adik lelaki..demi mereka, snaggup berkorban.dia kakakku, dia adikku..

well, u guys can say what u want but i cant help it..im a short fuse,dirty fuss, hot tempered and all the things what similar to anger n bad emotion...well the things is, i got angry again today at work..well of course..to whom who have or had work in a restaurant/stall/kedai mamak/kopitiam for sure gonna say the same things..its fucking busy n tiring n sometimes we just lost our tempered..i tried to control it today but it gets over my head..literally..well i got pissed n i kick the damn door in that silly kopitiam..even my boss was stunned n lost his words to say..he just let it be..after the anger-stupid-action move i just cant take it anymore..i left my bar..just let the order keep coming..i went outside the shop, light up my CIGGY n puffed..oh God thats damn good..after i finish it..i when back in with a smiling face.. everyone gave me the Is-He-Crazy-Or Smoke-A-Pot-Just-Now look..well, even after that moment my work just got more n more i managed to handle it with a happy face, thanks to a simple damaging,poisoning stuff called cigarette..really though..ciggys help me relax..i become mellow-er then before after i started smoking..so say what u want, laugh ur ass out of me, ciggys is my bestie..well, one of mine..i guess i make a judgement call.wether i choose a angry son of a bitch wannabe or lung-cancer dude that have a dead wish for the next few years..i choose lung cancer dude..at this time, the reason that i can think bout is ciggys make me relax..ciggys control my anger, mellowed me down..a lot..if i chose angry SOB im gonna die anyway cuz of the anger eating me alive from the inside or get kill by somebody i pissed out of..so, its a fair choice..i end up dead anyway so better choose the one with a style..plus, its my tagline "LIFE IS TO BE ENJOY NOT WASTED" rite? plus, who ever have other things to say im just gonna raise my middle finger n say FUCK U..what can i say, i dont break easy...

CHOW!!!

Honesty-GO FUCK URSELF UP!!!

i noe..i should noe better..

"dont judge a book just by its cover"
"dont judge a thesis just by its title"
"dont make a judgement call"

but still, i made one..sorry dude..i still new with this stuff...it is hard for me too..to accept it? its might take time..to deal with it? i takes a lot of me..god, i wish i didnt told me..god, i wish im not busy-fucking-body enough to ask u..gimme some time please..dont let this matter ruin our frenship..we had a long run..nobody, i mean nobody, go through together what we'd been through..we been to hell n back..so i will make this out.just gimme some time..its really got into me,okay..but seriesly, thanks for being honest with me..thats ean a lot..i guess u owe me this time huh? hahaha..okay2..that all i need to say..

+my frens admit he's gay..+

repost-No Tommorow

If there is no tomorrow,
what meal will I have for the last time,
Will it be Chicken McDeluxe or any of it kind
Do I really gonna have appetite or its just dying
Will I enjoy my last meal or maybe I just gonna start crying?

If there is no tomorrow,
Will I ever change?
Can I ever be tame?
Will I keep playing game?
Will my life will ever be the same?

If there is no tomorrow,
Will I ask forgiveness for all the wrong things I done?
Or just sit down pray that all of it will just be gone
Sorry, will that be my last word on my last second
Or I just be as bastard as I am that have no U-turn

If there is no tomorrow,
I know deep inside my heart will crash
Too much pressure, some haven’t been test
So many thing aren’t achieved
Some, I take it to my grave

If there is no tomorrow,
Will the world stop spinning, people stop running
Allies stop ass-kissing, enemy stop gunning
Is that even possible?
Or the world remain as terrible

If there is no tomorrow,
Will I be afraid, will I even care?
I got nothing to lose, not much to spare
Freaking out never in my vocabulary
Knowing I won’t be able to live, that’s not really scary
But,what about everybody else, how will they feel?
The fact of knowing the world gonna end, that’s worse then gets kill
Maybe its too late but its never that easy
So, brace ourself, the day will come, we’ll see..

rite this is whats on my mind..i noe.its kinda twisted but is the thought that will alway on my mine n spare myself from doing anything stupid because if there is no tomorrow, it will be too late for me to to do what Earl(from TV Series My Name Is Earl) do best, cross the lists of wrong doing n make it rite..we all done some bad stuff in our life..better start crossing it now, because the day will come where there is no tommorow n we'll gonna regret it..now i remember why i wrote this poem.to remind myself

Silly Or Misery?

kadang kita xmenyedari sesuatu itu mellainkan kita mengalaminya sendiri..2 hari lepas around pukui 12 tgh mlm cmtu sedang kami sekeluara rancak bersembang perut aku bergendang..series lapaq..aku xmkn dinner kowt ari tu..so aku offer nk gi beli burger dkt blakan umah aku..burger brader tu peh mmg series xtipu..so, lepas ambik order suma kat ahli2 keluarga yg len aku naek atasa ambik sweater aku nk kluaq nk g beli burger..lepaih dah order aku wat r tabiat aku yg agak mereng..jalan2 sekitar kawasan umah aku tetengah malam..series mereng tapi time tu aku pikiq dr dok nga2 ja tggu brader burger tu wat bek aku jalan2..aku jumpa satu spot..aku lepak kat citu nk membakaq rokok..sambil dok pam tuh otak melayang ntah kemana..tetiba ada brader ni teguq aku..dia angkat tgn first..then tanpa segan silu dia paw aku..ayat memang menagih simpati r..malangnya nasib dia time tuh aku bwk kotak rokok aku..aku bwk sebatng tu ja kalu x mmg aku bg je..aku kata r kat dia xdak..dia dgn sangapnya ckp "cutting ble?"..aku pun kecian plak nk kata tak, so aku kata r "jap2 bg sampai setgh dulu"..pastu ntah mengapa selepas dia ngn muka xmalu nya dah paw n mintak steng dr aku dia tetiba cuak n malu..dia kata "xpa2..sorry ek..'..pastu dia blah..time tu aku terpikiq..wow punya sangap mamat tuh sanngup paw aku..sanngup nk cutting g..wat kalau aku ada aids ke apa k, aku bg kat kat dia cutting mau xberjangkit..kira tahap dewa pny sangap r dia tuh..pastu tetiba aku tersentap n terpikir..aku mcm tu gak k?? kalau aku smapai tahap dia pny sangap gila babi sanggup ke aku paw someone yg totally stranger? aku xsanngup tp aku xtaw maybe akan berlaku benda tu sebab aku xpenah lagi sampai ke tahap dia..plg koman pun aku paw member2 yg aku kenai ja la..so, is it silly or misery? is that dude being silly or he really in misery??

pastu abih pa, aku g blk kat brader burger tu ambik oder aku n blah...

end of story..

greatness achievement

wow..aku baru pasan..entry aku dah cecah seratus..
pewit!!! seriesly aku xpenah sangka aku akn lekat ngn dunia blog ni..aku first2 igt hanya akan hangat2 tahi ayam jew..tapi aku dah terpaut dah..so, thanx la to all the people wat view blog aku..samapi 500 lebih viewer..dulu time aku awai stat ada la 40 viewers..thanx..i appreciate u'all.all the nu frens that i bond from this blogging activities i hope ur frenship will never dies..eventhough we never confront each other face to face but we can still be frens..thanx u all..sorry kalau papa entry yg aku tulih ada menginggung prasaan sesapa.aku xpenah berniat(maybe sumtimes ada niat) tapi yg pasti pa yg aku tulih daam blo LiFe is To Be EnjoY Not wasteD ni mmg jujur dari hati n tanpa prejudis..kadang2 kata2 aku mmg lantang dan menyakitkan tapi itulah kebenaran yang sebenar yg kita sendri kdg2 alpa tidak menyedarinya..segala crita2 yg aku post ada makna tersendirinya dan punyai sebab munasabah kenapa aku post..mungkin cita2 itu istimewa buat aku..pengalaman yg seems silly but important for me..so, aku maleh nk berleteq panjang, skali lg tahnk you suma..

Tagged Tagged Tagged

1) poskan gambar 4 orang yg anda rasa mukanya photogenik
2) perkenalkan mereka / link dan kenapa korg rasa mereka photogenik
3) tag 10 orang.







this is irene ong..i think shes photogenic..look at her.shes cute, beatifool..

hehehe..ni member kamcing aku kat campus..member "knuckles aku"..nama dia safena izfazura..shes one of my bestie(see again..im using this word..im attach to it alredy)..saf bagi aku amat fotogenic sebab semua pic da xkira dia senyum @ x dia akan tetap nmpk happy..by that mean, fotogenik bg aku ialah org yg bila pic dia disnap pic itu akan sedap mata memandang..so saf, u mmg fotogenik kalau ikut persepsi i...

seriesly aku xkenai sapa minah ni..satu hari tuh aku bukak laptop aku tgk2 gamabq dia ada dlm folder pic aku...maybe member2 aku yg guna laptop aku sblom ni ada copy paste gmbaq dia..who ever u are, sorry im using ur pic without ur permission..to be fare, i think u are photogenic..

ok ni Dyla.aku xpenah meet her in person n aku rasa dia fotogenik..sebab bg aku dia dress up camna pun dia still namapak independent n happy..walaupun dia dress up ala2 gothic ckit still nmpk happy..

lastly nk tagged hanna-j, izni,rekha,orked, nadhsamuel...cukup r kowt..

Tagged Debts..

as promise, aku akna wat tagged yg aku kena..LotsOfLove n hanna-j yg tagged aku..firstly tagged dr LotsOfLove..

FIRST TAGGED

1. Sesiapa yang kena tag, 10 sesuatu berkenaan orang yang men'tag' dia.

+Nama dia LOtsOfLove..real name sumpah aku xtaw..+

+shes a christian sebab cleebrate christmas..xjadik masalah kat aku sbb aku ni kawan ngn suma org..free thinker pun aku kawan..as long as we can click+

+dia asal sabah..+

+cian kat dia dia xble blk celebrate christmas kat sabah..sorry ek..celebrate kat semenanjung pun ok gak..he3+

+shes very nice..seriesly..walaupun kami kenai kat alam cyber je tp hati kecil aku kata dia seorang yg baik+

+currently dia menetap kat KL..+

+tgh study kowt skrg..+

+age dia aku rasa above 20..kan?+

+ok this may sound weird but this is what i think..muka dia aku rasa macam MAS AF2..seriesly..sebijik..P.O.V aku r..+

+lastly aku nk ucap merry christmas kat LotsOfLove..gitau real name ble?he2..+

2. Orang yang kena tag kena tulis tentang dirinya

+xpayah r kowt no?? byk dah tulih pasai diriku ni..he2+

SECOND TAGGED

1.Do you think you're hot?

+hot is subjective..aku xrasa r aku hot..+

2. Upload your five picture of you.

+satu ckup la ek..sbb aku xhot..he3+

3. Why do you like that picture?

+sbb aku rambut mohawk time tuh..first time wat..heppy gila babi..time tuh bru je potong truih aku snap pic..+

4. When was the last time you ate pizza.

+2-3 hari lepaih...+

5. The last song you listen to?

+staind-believe..aku skali dengaq lagu ni truih suka..+

6. What are you doing right now besides this?

+update window..+

7. What name you prefer besides yours?

+byk nick aku ada. aCe+, RuckFules, Angel Of Desruction, VooDoo Kin Mafia, FuLLtiMeKiLLeR+

THIRD TAGGED

30 questions about the first person that comes into your mind
Don’t change the person.

Does he or she have a boyfriend/girlfriend??
+Special or just friends? is special, nope, i dun think so, if just frens, Lots of them+

How old is the person?
+19..turning 20 this February..+

Has he/she ever cooked for you?

+never..bertuah dia nk masak kat aku..+

Is this person older than you?
+yup..a year older+

Have you ever kissed this person?
+GOD NO!! we r straight..+

Are you really close to him/her?
+yup.hes one of my besties(napa aku suka plak guna word ni ek??..i wonder)+

How many times do you talk to this person in a week?
+rarely..even text message..we both busy with ur study..+

Do you think that person will repost this?
+nope..he doesnt have a blog+

Could you live with this person?
+tricky question.. live as housemate, yeah..live as maried, no!!!+

Why did you choose this person

+simple.cuz he was the 1st person pop from my mind+

How long have you known this person?
+3 yers now.+

Have you ever been to the mall with this person?
+a lot we even xpuasa together2 in the cinema..thats a sweet memory taht i wont forget..jgn ikut..dosa weh!!+

Have you ever had a sleepover with this person?
+cant recall+

If you ever moved away would you miss this person?
+not really.. we a seperated now but still be click+

Have you ever done something really stupid or illegal with this person?
+kalu xposa tuh ble kira illegal x? kalu ble hah yg tu r..plus kalu smoking pun kira illegal..+

Do you know everything about this person?
+a lil..otw though+

would you date this person's siblings?
+err... he have a hot sista..seriesly i dunno..maybe but is shouldnt+

Have you ever made something with this person?
+sumthing as a thing that can be touch by bare hand? yeah i think so..+

Have you ever worn this person’s clothes?
+never..+

Have you and your person made up a hand shake?
+of cos r...rite dude?+

If it was “freaky friday” would you switch bodies with this person?
+nah, i pass.if is a gurl i will..ahahaahahaha+

Have you ever heard this person sing?
+a lot of it, but i never get sick to it+

Do you and this person have a saying?
+Nah... +

Do you know this persons f'ster password?
+nah..is his privacy n i wont nevr violated it+

Have you and this person ever gotten into a fight?
+hmm..nevr i guess..+

have you and this person gone clubbing?
+together? nope..+

Do you know how to make this person feel happy?
+hell yeah..+

Do you and this person talk a lot?
+we are a very talkative type of people..+

Do you like this person?
+of cos+

Do you want to go out with this person?
+of cos..+

Do you want to be friends with he or she forever?
+till death+

Who is this person?
+RethDayat Yusof..sorry, dia yg cross pala otak time nk tulih tagged ni..+
I wanna tag:

Whatever Happen Take It As A Lesson (Saf..pinjam statement u jap ek..)

first of all, alhamdullillah..result aku xr membanggakan sgt kalu sesetgh org tgk tp aku amat bangga ngn result aku.seriesly..i dun deserve that type of result...aku cuma fail satu paper jew.. ACC114 (mmg dr dlu aku fuck paper ni..tp aku mmg dah agak akan fail..cmon la..8 jam ja aku study subject ni spnjang sem..mmg aku deserve fail pun..xpa2..sem ni aku wat early preparation)..other paper, aku pass.series aku sendri xpecaya.. BEL260-B..CTU-B+..Eco- C.. koko -A (xsia2 aku pengsan sebab kesat..dpt gak A)..PAD160-C+...PAD 170-B- (ok stop rite there.paper ni aku plg terperanjat skali aku dpt B-..after all i been through this semester involing this paper still i passed it..dah kena sumpah ngn lecturer n aku maki lecture depan bilik dia n dia dgq n still ble pass, i im position where i shouldnt argue or be dissappointed..)..thanx madam junaida (eclass ke ckp ni..ntah hanya aku yg tahu..)..well, aku dah berjanji ngn diri aku se ni aku xmau maen2 dah..nk bg up pointer aku blk(currently 2.54)..so, mcm yg Saf ckp r, whatever happen take it as a lesson..yup this is a lesson for me..thanx to all my lec last smester..thanx so much..

aCe+ Versus The Result

sorry..
im kinda busy rite now..
a lot og things in on my mind..(seriesly..a lot)
to hanna-J n LotsOfLove..sorry i wont be able to do ur tagged rite now..i promise i'll do it when i have time..
i just wanna wish all UiTM kedah students gud luck..result kluaq esok weh...
wish me luck to okay..
chow!!!

Honest Opinion..

well since my last tagged i got many respond (ya rite because i tagged 10 people man).. so this is what think bout me..

IZNI
1. full name dia Adam Ar-Rashid Bin Mohamad Rasdi.
2. dia study kat UiTM Merbuk. taking Dip in Public Admin.
3. umur dia 18 tahun. hehe tak cukup umur lagi!
4. dia punya rambut mohawk. kan?
5. aku pernah tengok dia kat UiTM.
6. dia sangat benci guard kat UiTM.
7. dia orang Penang.
8. dia first person yang bagi aku tag.
9. dia baru break. so sekarang dia single mingle.
10. dia blog addict. dia mengaku kat shout dia.

My Respond to Izni-
-i xpenah jumpa dia kat campus..maybe penah selisih r kowt, tp xprasan..mohawk dulu,sblom kena saman ngn pak guard UiTM..pastu aku trus fuck pak guard..actually sem lepaih aku dah ada kes ngn pak guard,aku sound pak guard dlm blik guard kat entrance campus tuh..actually nk kata aku benci suma pak guard xfair r..ada gak pak guard yg bek2..tegur elok2..sesetgh jew yg cam cibai..blagak mcm polis dlm campus..sapa ntha ckp kat aku pak guard ni suma polis reject tu yg act cmtu tu..ha3..blog addicts? ya aku mmg ngaku kat shout aku..mau x nya..balik2 keja xmandi xmakan trus bukak blog..mak aku pun sound..he3

FAIRUZ

-Nama dia ADAM AR-RASHID...sedap nama kawan aku ni kan??
-Dia ni cute...Cute sgt2...
-Dia ni ada chinese look...Dulu mati2 aku ingt dia cina...hhehehe..
-Dulu time skool,dia pkai cermin mata skema...hehe..sorry...Tp still cute..
-Dia ni kawan abg angkat aku,syaiful...Apa cerita dia sekarang ni...
-Dia sudah kembali single...Sesiapa nk ngorat silalah..Aku izinkan..hahahahha..
-Dia org penang...Loghat penang dia lg pekat drpd aku...Jgn main2...hahaha
-Dia seorang penuntut UiTM...Pandai btol kawan aku ni..hehe
-Dia ni seorang yang giler2...Aku suka jadi kawan dia...
-Dia ni sukar diramal...Susah nk ramal sifat sebenar dia...Tp apa yg aku tau dia ni mmg baik!!!~

my respond
- thanx fairuz..nama aku memang sedap..aku sendri pun suka..mak aku yg bagi nama tuh.tuh pun dia cita jenuh seminggu gak pkiq nk buh nama pa..bab chinese look tuh aku maleh nk komen..panjang berjela nnt jadikk..t r aku wat entry pasai chinese look tuh..syaiful sehat..dia skrg tgh study kat cheras under jabatan kesihatan kowt..dia wat cos pa aku pun dah lupa..jarangcontact ngn dia skrg..dia bz aku pun bz..plus, cuti xsama..gila2? kdg2 aku ni oever acting n gila2..kluaq jalan2 tgh2 mlm pukui 3 pagi g McD? gila x? kdg2 saja2 jalan g karoke..he3.joging pun penah..my life start after 12am.

LotsOfLove

1. namer dia aCe+. Ni yang aku tw.
2. kenal dier kalau tak silap time menjelajah kat blog Dyla..
3. Gud blogger of course and biler aku menyemak kat blog dier, dier trus berkunjung kat blog aku and friend d alam maya ar.. haha..
4. Mempunyai sifat berterus terang..
5. Gud friend i guess.. kwn ngn sesaper jer xkira bangsa or wht so eva..
6. Entry2 dier menarik dan aku suka penggunaan ayat2 nyer..
7. Sentimental..
8. Rambut cacak2.. tajam siot..
9. Single coz bru jer break off with her gf.. katanyer dia nk stay single krg.. so, not available ar.. haha.. No form available k..
10. Kejam.. coz dier koyak2 and buang gmbr dier and gf kat laut.. haahahahahaaa. kenyang jerung.. mmmm..

My Respond
-heh3. aCe+ tuh nick jew.he3..kira dyla la wat kita bertemu ek..thanx dyla..lotsOfLove ni pengunjung setia blog aku..slalu ada.rasa di appreciate plak.ha3.trus trang? maybe thats just who i am..xmen r ckp blkang2 nk ckp straight to the face r.he3gud frens? la la kowt..aku ni mmg xkesah kesah bangsa @ agama time berkawan..pa salahnya kan berkawan ngn bangsa len..ble gak kita blajaq pasai bangsa diorang..sentimental? no comment..rambut cacak2 ni stat dr form 2 lg..dulu rambut aku sikat tepi kowt..ha3.yup mmg single pun n yes not avaible at the moment..nk relax jap n enjoy jdk single..maybe nnt r kalu hati dah terbukak nk menyintai org len n rasa dicintai (ya agak sentimental la aku ni..pandai tol LotsOfLove ni judge aku.respek!)..bab koyak gamabq buang dlm laut tuh aku pun xtaw napa aku wat cmtu..dah tergerak ati nk wat cmtu time atas feri aku wat ja la..he3

p/s-thanx suma yg comment ttg diri aku..tahnx a lot

Tagged Addicts..(AELYNNE)

1. Sesiapa yang kena tag, 10 sesuatu berkenaan orang yang men'tag' dia.

+Name dia Intan Syazleen Binti Abbas ( *agak comey bukan?*-ni statement dr dia so korang judge r sendri comey k x nama dia..bg aku comey r gak..he3 )

+nama pendek dia Intan+

+nickname Aelynne+

+ Dia tgh Study kat UPM Serdang+

+ Course Computer and Communication System Engineering+

+Perak mali+

+ Masih single...but NOT available.(statement ni pun dia gak yang wat sendri)+

+Umur 21 taun.+

+blog page dia cantik gila..series..+

+aku bru kenai dia seminggu lebey jew..he3..+

2. Orang yang kena tag kena tulis tentang dirinya.

+nama aku Adam Ar-Rashid Bin Mohamad Rasdi+

+Umur 18 jew..next year bru 19+

+Tgh study kat UiTM Kedah+

+Tgh wat Diploma In Public Administration+

+Asal Penang+

+Recently Break up..So single r skrg+

+Buat Masa sekarang aku nk stay single jew xmau couple2..+

+Join blog since August 2008 kowt kalau xclap+

+skrg tgh keja kat Swenz Kopitiam wat part sime smabil mengisi masa lapang yang kosng time sem break ni..so jgn tanya mana aku pegi time pukui 9am-6am..tgh bancuh ayaq time tuh ok..+

+tu ja la kowt.+

3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their name

+nak tagged hanna-J (ni org yg wajib di tagged), Izni (ni pun sma..wajib di tagged), LotsOfLove, Fairuz Zi, NadhSamuel, Shank, Orked, Mrs Bubu and Adila si Idung Besaq

Journey To The Center Of Mind

KADANG2
kita terlalu asyik enjoy dengan hidup yang baru ditempuhi sampai terlupa apa yang kita harungi untuk sampai ke aras yang membawa kita ke puncak..onak duri,suka duka, pahit manis yang dialami sebelum ini bagaikan terhapus sekelip mata tanpa diduga kerana kita sudah bebas dari kekangan masalah yang merumitkan keadaan..jangan sampai nanti suatu hari, kita jatuh tergolek dan tidak mampu bangun semula kerana kita sudah lupa bagaimana hendak mengharunginya..bak kata Zul kepada Puteri (Puteri Impian 1)-"Jangan Terbang Terlalu Tinggi, Kalau Jatuh Kita Akan Parah"..

KADANG2
Kita terlupa asal usul kita kerana terlalu ghairah mempelajari ilmu dan adat orang lain..bahasa orang lain..jati diri kita dikikis sedikit demi sedikit dan dipenuhi dengan gaya yang baru yang kita rasa lebih selesa dan senang untuk dipraktikkan.asal usul, adat istiadat yang dijunjung kemas oleh nenek moyang kita dilupakan begitu sahaja hanya kerana mentaliti kita sudah dikongkong dengan tangan halimunan yang membuat kita alpa.susah,payah, membebankan kaat orang muda masa kini jka ditanya tentang adat2 yang perlu disanjung.. bak kata Che Det- "Melayu Mudah Lupa"..

KADANG2
kita menyayangi orang luar lebih dari yang sepatutnya, lebih dari kita sayang darah daging kita sendiri..teman istimewa dihati di tatang bagai minyak yang penuh, ibubapa yg bersusah payah membesarkan kita dari sekecil tapak tangan sehingga besar panjang jarang ditegur, malah berjumpa pun payah..SMS dikirim pada "Si Dia" seribu sehari, kepada orang tua, seminggu sekali tampak mustahil..hormat entah berlepas kemana, budi bahasa terbang melayang.inikah kita..jangan lupa kata pepatah-"Syurga Anak Di Bawah Tapak Kaki Ibu"..


p/s-hanya memperingati agarr kita tidak hanyut lebih jauh..khas buat semua yang sudi membaca.tiada kena mengena dengan yang hidup @ yang sudah meninggal dunia..

What If Part 2

Band-SIMPLE PLAN
Title-WHAT IF
Album-SIMPLE PLAN

What if I lead the way
What if I make mistakes(Will you be there?)
What if I change the world
What if I take the blame(Will you be there?)

I remember going back
To the place we used to lay
But I keep losing track
And now the days they all turn black
And our dreams all start to fade
But there's no turning back
Cause the world keeps turning(Why do you tell me you care if you're not going to change?)
And my heart keeps burning(Why do you tell me you care?)

What if I change the world
If I lead the way
What if I be the one
That takes the blame
What if I can't go on without you
What if I graduate
What if I don't
What if I don't

Now I'm slowly giving up
As the world keeps losing faith
And you still turn your back
Now the path I follow
Takes a toll on me
On you
But there's no turning back
Cause the world keeps turning(Why do you tell me you care if you're not going to change?)
And my heart keeps burning

p/s-i really like this song,evnthough its not a single..its quite similar with my life,my past, n whats gonna lead my way in life..this song is the reason why i posted the entry What If

The Brightest Stars Falls First..

once, when i heard bout it, i dun believe it (well to be honest the first time i heard it is in one of gossip girl season 1 episode)..is it true? i asked before..why should the brightest star falls first? shouldn't it stay lighten up in the sky? well, what can i say here is the only reason brightest star gonna fall isnt because of itself..jealousy n envy burn it out..so to all the stars in the sky, do shine..just make sure that u dun burn urself up..or other stars or the falling star burns u down

What If...

WHAT IF... i didnt pass PTS n didnt jump class from standard 3 to Standard 5?
+I Will be celebrating rite now n still looking for a job to feel in my time+
+im sure not gonna be Swenz Kopitiam Longest Worker in the history+

WHAT IF...I never change skool from Penang Free School to SMK Tun Hussien Onn?
+i'll be a diferent type of person..more bastard than ever i guess+
+i wont be able to know Dayat,Syazwan,E-in,Rizal,Imran,Irene,Mei Chin..+
+I wont have as many girl friends as i have today+
+i'll be gay+

WHAT IF...I didnt get 3A's in my SPM?..better or worst
+For sure i will not be a UiTM students+
+i wont be having a lot of frens from all differents state+
+i wont be a smoker,maybe?+

WHAT IF...i stop smoking?
+healthier lifestyle+
+ill become a nerd+
+azam, meor n me wont be a click ..+

WHAT IF...i didnt hold too much anger inside of me?
+i wont be a plastic n fake all the times+

WHAT IF...i share some of the pain and secrets long long time a ago?
+time will heal it all+
+i'll become more jovial then ill ever be+

WHAT IF...i didnt runaway from Laila the nite she offer me?
+i'll be deflowered+
+i'll become sex addicts+
+asshole of course+

WHAT IF...nabilah n me didnt fall for is other?
+i wont be single rite now+
+i' wont gain 6kg in 4 month+
+i will never finish House Of Dead 4+

WHAT IF... i didnt fall for Lyn?
+i dunno+


WHAT IF...I didnt start blogging
+i wont be in front of my laptop rite now+


there so much things n so many decisions we had made in life n the impact, we are facing it rite now..some are good, some are rash, but i never regret any one of mine..because all th decisions n mistakes i made in my life, make me who i am..the person u r seen known as Adam wont be as what he is today if not because of the past he had before..so, yes i didnt regret any of it..ya, some of it a really stupid move but i still proud of it because theres always pros n cons in each angle of anything..

spesel request prom hanna-j..

akak aku yg sorang ni suro aku wat entry pasai burfday prezen yg seswa utk guys..hm..ntah r.setaw aku kebanyakkan (bkn suma ok..) guys bkn nk sgt burfday prezen time dbay..seriesly..just jgn prank cukup r..guys slalu nerves gila2 babi time bday sebab takut teluq,tepung, ayaq longkang, cat, nescafde hinggap ke kepala..so kalu xdak suma tuh pn guys dah suka dah..haha2..well, seriesly r, guys jarang r celebrate bday..sesam kwn2 sendri pun walaupun igt bkn wish pun..so, conclusion dia wish pun dah ckup bg guys time bday..kira rasa d-appreciate r..he3.but sumtimes ada gak guys yg gedik2 nk adiah time bday..ha2..kira tahap mengharap gila babeng r..kalu xdak org wish siap r dia musti masam muka (sapa yg trasa ambik suma..aku taw ang pn baca blog aku.ha3)..plus, type yg cmni r yg slalu kena prank..mengharap sgt org igt bday, nah ciap..dia yg xble nk lupa bday dia nnt.ha3..hm, ok2..2 hanna-j this is a list of prezen dat suitable to give to a guys on their bday..

+jam tgn (guys ngn jam xble dipisahkan )+
+satu katon rokok utk yg smoker r..(sapa yg dpt prezen ni mmg heaven r idup dia time bday.)+
+t-shirt (yg spesel bukan simple graphic tshirt jew)+
+perfume. (guys jarang yg ada perfume..klau nk lg kick beli dunhill pny..peh..tp xmau petaling street pny r)+
+sumtimes yg hakmilik kita n bg kat dia..(ni utk sumone yg spesel r..kalu guys dapat brg hakmilik gurl esspecially musti kami suka pny r)+
+sumthing yg girlie (utk guys yg romantic)+
+songkok @ baju melayu (khas untuk yg nk dikutuk time bday..kira hadiah xikhlas r..)+
+dvd games or anime (bg yg ori pny)+
+kasut pun ok gak r (tp ni nomel sgt r)+
+poem tulisan tangan ygg dicipta sendri (ni pun sumthing yg spesel gak)+
+benda yg dia suka tp di xdak lg+
+lastly, kiss on the cheek.he3 (ni pun utk sumone yg spesel di hati ja la)+

well, akakku..ni ja la kot list brg yg ble dibuat adiah utk guys..mcm yg ckp td r, plg koman pun wish cukup r..guys bkn kira pa pun..org igt pun kami dah suka dah..xkesah st.its not a big deal..kalu rasa mcm lekeh sgt bg wish je, beli r kek coklat..ok gak..btw, bday adik 17 apr..jgn lupa..ha3

What The Hell Was That??

seriesly, what the hell? whes relly into me..i noe it becuz i can feel it..its all bout insticnt..n my lil' heart said that shes into me..n shes kinda sweet, caring, SINGLE (this one is for sure), cute sepet eyes n well dress, open minded n many more great qualities.. why on earth did i ditched her away..practically Crystal helped out on to inroduce me to her..we hang out n we click on many differents level..shes oepn with my smoking probs.. but the most important things SHES INTO ME.. n shes ask me out..to go on the date..watch a movie,just two of us..single guy n gurl going out on the weekend..perfect timing to get hit..why? why? why? why im blur,stupid enuff,mangkuk enuff, bangang enuff to said that.. when she asked me out, why i said "sorry im taken".. im totally fucking single..i can date anyone..why did i said that?

FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK..

u miss that shot adam..u really miss the shot..shes really wants u..its shows..she looked very suprise n dissapointed when u said that..im so screw this time..opportuniy like like wont swing by easy..Crystal clearly wont help me again on mactthing me with anyone again..silly move.

Aku Koyak Dan Buang Gambaq Kami Berdua Dalam Laut 3 hari Lepas kami Break

aku pun xtaw sebab pa aku wat.rasa mcm bodoh r plak.tapi aku dah wat nk wat cmna..mmg agak kebodohan or KEBABIAN bak kata adikku aimi..nk kata aku frust menonggeng lepaih kami break up tuh xdak r plak..ciap ble kata "YES..IM FREE AT LAST LAGI"..pastu ble plak pi celebrate karoke lg..peh..nyanyi plak lagu Andai Dapat Ku Undurkan Masa- AXL (betui ke tajuk dia ni??!!)..lagu bajet jiwang..ha2..aku nyanyi ciap tergelak2 lagi mua.. pastu ngn makan kat McD tgh2 malam..sepbek Akram ada teman aku..ha3..so? aku frust ke? xdak r..maybe time atas feri tuh time aku tgh shiok2 layan prasaan ambik feel angin laut tringat plak gambaq aku ngn nabila ada dalam wallet aku..pa lagi.aku ambik bawak klauq usha dulu buat kali terakhir pastu koyak tang muka dia muka aku aku jaga leklok r..pastu buang dlm laut..hahaha..Klise' kan? ntah ar..aku pun xtaw..tapi yg pasti im already get over her..the moment after i finish my break up meal at McD..ha3..maybe sebab tim etuh feeling kowt..hahaha..biaq r..benda dah wat..ha3

p/s-ni gambaq tuh..he3

Secebis Pandangan

kadang2 kesukaran mengajar kita untuk melihat dengan terang dalam kegelapan,
kadang2 keperitan mengentalkan jiwa untuk terus berjuang,
kadang2 kesukaran mengukuhkan apa yg rapuh untuk teguh melangkah
kadang2 kealpaan membawa padah yg durjana..

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Ya, kita semua manusia biasa..alasan yang amat tipikal untuk digunakan pasa saat kesilapan dilakukan..tapi jika ber ulang2 kali, lemau benar rasanya untuk ditelan dengan hati yang membara..

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Sekilas pandang, kita terlepas menangkap hati2 yang terluka dengan sifat kita yang selama ini disangkakan ideal dan disukai ramai..kita patut lebih tahu bintang yang sirna lebih terang itulah bintang yang paling mudah untuk tersungkur dan membelah awan lalu mencium muka bumi..namun, kita tetap dengan ego kita untuk keraskan kepala, pekakkan telinga dan butakan mata..sampai bila?

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keadaan memaksa, tapi pilihan ditangan kita..keputusan yang berburu bakal diakhiri dengan penyesalan yang tiada berbelah bagi..pilihan dibuat harus dengan minda yang stabil..namun kita terlalu mentah untuk memerangi semua ni..apakan daya..

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pasangan kekasih molek bersama,
hati bertemu mata bersua
curang hatinya tiada di duga,
penyesalan ini pengajaran buat semua

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pernah terfikir untuk melarikan diri, tapi ke mana hendak dituju? mampukah kita hidup di atas bumi yang nyata tanpa sebarang perlindungan dari org yg tercinta? mampukah kita tidur lena dibuai mimpi enak dikala kesejukan menusuk tulang semasa menumpang alas di kaki lima? senangkah jika kita mahu hidup atas daya usaha sendiri? mampukah? jangan buat keputusan yang bodoh..fikir positif dan negatif keputusan yang bakal diluahkan..penyesalan tiada penghujung menanti atau hidup bahagia dibuai mimpi.