yes!!! aku dah dpt keja..
gtg.. nk bersiap g keja ni..hu3

Jugdement Call

"Don't Judge A Book Just By Its Cover"

yes!! dats wat i love to say.. yes dats my thrid principles of life.. yes dats what i will tell my duded if they say sumthing or 'fuck' someone because they dun like his/her appearance..yes, i damn look like a saint that trying to change the world n trying to change people perspective on sumone but still...

why i make the judgement call?
sumtimes without my notice of cos, i make a judgement call on someone..
why dis happen?
should i be the on ethat do not judge bcause im da asshole dat will always tell evryone not to judge..

well i guess im just a normal human..i make a judgement call every single minutes..not just bout my life but bout people around me..

yesterday, around 4 Am i went out from my house walking in the suburbian area in my house,smoking of cos.. yes, i noe what will be in ur mind, WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS GUY DOING OUT EARLY IN THE MORNING..

THERE!!!

a judgement call had been made.. again, dun judge a book just from its cover..
i just walking around on no actual prupose..just wanna sightseeing the area of my house had i had live in 4 almost 11 years..

back to the story, as i was walking around i came across one chinese dude..kinda well dress,not all compang camping type..he's picking up empty cans from the dustbin..yup..its true..early in the morning,picking up cans.. well, to be honest i made the judgement call at that time..

what the hell this is this dude doing picking up cans early in the morning?
is he broke or sumthing?
is his appearance just a fake?

well all the negative thought just came on coming till i reached home..but then, before a close my eyes to get some rest for the day an hour later, this thing pop out back..but its a different thought..by that time i realize, why should i judge him..well, even if its true that his broke so what..he didnt steal anything or harm anyone..he just wanna pick the cans n sell it for some penny..maybe dats not the real storyy, maybe he is well being but he just wanna make an extra income. or dats maybe he's hobby.. who noe which one is the truth? but, to make it all different its the judgement call that we make..lets put its dis way..if i kept having all the dirty -ve thought bout that dude,what if one day i bum to him sumwhere its..at that moment of cos i will remember all the -ve thought that i had b4..n 4 sure i'll be like this

"weh,hampa taw x mamat tadi tuh punk makan sampah"

or

"weh,mamat td tuh dia bkn kaya mana,miskin ja..dia kutip tin mlm2 buta"

or

"cian mamat tuh..juai tin untul support faimly"

or any other similar stories,but who noes the real story? the truth behind that guy..maybe he have his own reason..maybe he is broke n need those cans to support his life but only god noe..but if we make the judgement call on that guy thats gonna change the whole perspective on him,for sure..all the negative look will be on his back while he turn away just based on unknown reason or fantasy that been created..so, dun judge..unless all the truth r reveal or the real reason its there..

DONT MAKE THE JUDGEMENT CALL UNLESS WE ARE SURE ABOUT IT

The Tough Choice

lost a frens,gain anu frens..
lost a gurlfren, u gain a nu pain..
loneliness..
my friends thought me back..
im totally disagree..
lost a gurlfren u gain bax ur freedom..
free to the loved..
free from any attachment.
free to giv a flying kiss to any random hot gurl..
free to wink to anyone on the street..
free to hang out with ur frens anytime
free to choose anything u want in life without refering to anyone..

but, theres a price to pay..
loneliless will be ur besties..
jealousy towards ur frens who in love will bust out..
self esteem sumtimes runaway from u.
appearance seem useless to be show off.
ciggys n movie becomes ur pillow n bed..
live sex chat is ur nu frens in midnite..

u see.. thats da big different bout having a spouse n being on ur own..some people prefer being alone bcuz they have been alone since god knows when but some others, who have been in relation b4, these is whats their situation might end up with.. so choose wisely..
which one u wanna choose?

ANARCHY N ANARCHISM..

well according to wikipedia.com anarchy can be defined as


+"Absence of government; a state of lawlessness due to the absence or inefficiency of the supreme power; political disorder."+

+"A theoretical social state in which there is no governing person or body of persons, but each individual has absolute liberty (without the implication of disorder)."+

+"Absence or non-recognition of authority and order in any given sphere."

+Without government or law+

+A society free from coercive authority of any kind is the goal of proponents of the political philosophy of anarchism (anarchists)

anarchism in the other hand means

Anarchism is a political philosophy encompassing theories and attitudes which support the elimination of all compulsory government, i.e. the state. The term anarchism derives from the Greek αναρχω, anarcho, meaning "without archons" or "without rulers", from ἀν (an, "without") + ἄρχή (arche, "to rule") + ισμός (from stem -ιζειν). It is defined by The Concise Oxford Dictionary of Politics as "the view that society can and should be organized without a coercive state." Specific anarchists may have additional criteria for what constitutes anarchism, and they often disagree with each other on what these criteria are. According to The Oxford Companion to Philosophy, "there is no single defining position that all anarchists hold, beyond their rejection of compulsory government, and those considered anarchists at best share a certain family resemblance".
There are many types and traditions of anarchism, not all of which are mutually exclusive. Anarchism is usually considered to be a radical left-wing ideology, and as such much of anarchist economics and legal philosophy reflect anti-authoritarian interpretations of communism, collectivism, syndicalism or participatory economics; however, anarchism has always included an individualist strain, including those who support capitalism (e.g. market anarchists: anarcho-capitalism, agorism, etc.) and other market-orientated economic structures, e.g. mutualists. As described by the 21st century anarchist Cindy Milstein, anarchism is a "political tradition that has consistently grappled with the tension between the individual and society." Others, such as panarchists and anarchists without adjectives neither advocate nor object to any particular form of organization. Anarchist schools of thought differ fundamentally, supporting anything from extreme individualism to complete collectivism. Some anarchists fundamentally oppose all types of coercion, while others have supported the use of some coercive measures, including violent revolution, on the path to anarchy.


well if u ask one particular guy name Adam a.k.a aCe+ he would said dat anarchy is a self-lead philosophy..yes it is against any type of government or any supreme authority but it the mean time its build up urself internal self which need to be build..
it help us to learn how to survived if we r on anarchy rules.. it help us to be indie..it help us to grow n be the man should we should be..plus, why should we be anyone dogs? following orders n let "them" feed us..why dun we be our own boss n the dogs on our own..no master,no free feed that only gonna left us to be obey.. plus,

who need a government if it is corrupted?....
who need a government when all of the individuals in it plays above the law n constitution while everyone else whom they refer as rakyat have to be loyal to the law?..
who need government who stupid enough to make a decision for themselves but they want to make one for us?...
who need government n law or constitution is not all of us are adment to it?
who need a government that limitise our freedom but they refer themselves as a democratic government?

*RAISE UR MIDDLE FINGER AND SAY FUCK U!!!!*

we dun need government that only gonna destroy us in the end..it is better to stay on anarchy if we have any type of these government..

well, thats what Adam a.k.a aCe+ said..wehther u believe if, its up to u..

*Past Is Past*

kenapa sesetgh manusia amat sukar untuk menghadapi perubahan dalam hidup? kenyataan yg pahit untuk ditelan oleh sesetgh insan.. walaubagaimanapun liku2 itu tetap diharungi jua walaupun apa carapun kita guna untuk mengelaknya..tanpa kita sedar, suatu hari nanti kita bagai berada di dunia yg berbeda hanya kerana terlalu taksub untuk menjauhkan diri yg menerima perubahan yg sedang berlaku..

masa pantas berlalu.sedar xsedar usia kita kian menggapai langit..usia mendewasakan kita dr persepsi fizikal..namu mentaliti manusia hanya akn mengalami evolusi jika individu itu sendiri yg membenarkannya..

susah sangatkah untuk mengharungi perubahan?
ya susah jika hati kita masih tidak merelakan..
ya, jika kita masih meragui diri sendiri untuk mengadaptasikan diri di dalam situasi yg baru..
ya, jika kita tidak percaya pada diri sendiri..
ya, jika kita hanya bagai katak di bawah tempurung..
ya, jika kita masih mahu berada di takuk yg lama buat selama2nya..

masa untuk berubah? kita silap..masa tlah berubah tanpa kita sedari..kiat yg kadang2 terleka dibuai mimpi yg dicipta sendri telah tertinggal jauh..kita masih di mentaliti yg sama,tempat yg sama,sikap yg sama namun dunia telah lama berubah..apa yg mampu membedakan kita dengan org yg lain yg masih dibuai mimpi indah ciptaan sendri hanya LANGKAH yg kita akan ambil selepas ni..

*Past is Past* bak kata seorg sahabat aku semalam-Azlina Salmi' semasa dia menasihati aku untuk berani brubah dan tinggalkan kenangan masa lalu di belakangku.. masa depanku ada didepan mataku tapi aku masih ragu2 untuk menggapainya..mungkin aku terlalu terikat dengan perkara silam yg sentiasa menghantui fikiran ku..aku cuba untuk melupakan namun aku tidak cukup kuat untuk menghapuskan jejak2nya dr fikiranku.. memang..aku sentiasa nmpak kuat di luaran tp aku sendiri sedar aku amat lemah terutama dlm segi perasaan dan hati..aku xmampu melawannya tapi aku tidak pernah berhenti mencuba..aku sentiasa mencuba tapi apa kudratku.. hasutanya terlalu kuat untuk ku tempuh..namun perubahan telah mengambil langkahnya terhadapku..samada aku mahu seiring berjalan bersama dengan perubahan tersebut, hanya masa yg mampu menentukannya..

Something Differences..

i dunno why..
i just felt differents.. its not dat kinda "miss UiTM Kedah" differents but i dunno..
its about her.. well, i just get back to penang yesterday(well technical dis morning bcuz kami g round penang dulu sampai pukui 6 pagi).. after dat, i just went to my bed n try to sleep but suddenly i miss her.. i dunno why.. yes its been a while since we meet eyes to eyes(last time is the third raya on my open house).. well kind weird huh? what kinda of boyfrem am i? well dun just blame me.. im busy wif my final ok (busy maen game k blajaq? ang ja la yg taw adam oii.)..plus, i didnt text her for 3 weeks.. AGAIN, dun blame me.. my cellphone busted out ok..

FUCK U, MOTOROLA V3X

well, again is it my fault? maybe dats the reason my i fell different when i went to see her this evening.. i dunno whats wrong but sumhings isnt rite..i didnt feel da love..myb its just tempopary bcuz i havent seen her for ages(nk gempak jew pkataan).. or maybe because what happen at the last dinner in kedah? i dunno..

rite now, at this moment, i really really really dunno whats my feeling towards her.. fell, usually she will text me "luv u muah2" in every texting moment.. but, today not even one..

NOT AT ALL..

but still she gave me the kiss on the cheek but its still felt difference..
this is all hakim's fault.. why? why, dude, why? why u had to mention her when u noe dat im not single anymore?

maybe im hakim's rite..maybe im still cant get over Lyn.. maybe shes still in my heart.. maybe Nabilah-my gurlfren is just a rebound Gurl dat i need to get over Lyn..i really dunno..

i dun wanna break her heart again..please.. this is the second time its happen to me okay..

the last time kuddus is the one had tried to refresh my memory about Lyn n i happened to be in the same situation as now..torn apart between two.. maybe im still cant get over Lyn..

What Should I Do?

i dun wanna break Nabilah's heart, i cant face another failure, another heart-break if i keep trying to win Lyn's heart this time..

maybe i should just stay with nabilah..maybe i shouldnt try to win Lyn's heart again..enough is engough adam.. she is ur past, SHE is the present..

well, i'll try my best..maybe i should refresh my mind on how i survived the first breakdown when kuddus attempted..my i should rejoice my mind on how she gave me THE FIRST SIMPLE KISS..

well i think i should re-entry the poem that i create insipered by THE FIRST SIMPLE KISS she gave to me just to remind me how deeply shes in luv wif me n i should luv her back....

THE SIMPLE KISS

When Time Had Its Grudge On our trail love
When distances keep us apart and make it tough
When break up just an inch away to approach in
When the “The First Love” fired up in a form of girl name Lyn
We are so close, no too damn close to be separated
I won’t denied it, I’m the one that didn’t put the effort
The distances, it just an excuse that I wanna make
But the love for u just won’t fade

Thanks to you who always believe in me
Never stop fighting, never stop saying that you love me
The one that make me realize and see thing clearly
The one that holds my heart where it should be

A simple kiss it’s not what I really seek
A simple kiss that you gave on my cheek
A simple kiss that change it all
A simple kiss turn my ego down and make it small
A simple kiss restore, rejoice renew my feeling
A simple kiss ripped out the knife of love killing
A simple kiss that make me quit playing
A simple kiss that make me start loving..
You
The one and only
~My Shiteru~

The Dinner..

well, about 1 n half hour ago i had a dinner wif all my buddies in kedai Pattani..
actually plan aku kuddus adi azam aimil jew..tetiba ezzati ngn FD mai which is kinda arkward n then almost suma bdk2 pompuan clas DPA2B datang..well, actually is kinda like a reunion..dah lama kowt kami xlepak2 skali ngn gurl2 dr 2B since kami suma pindah clas masuk 2D except kuddus r sebab dia mmg 2B pn.gelak ketawa,sakat meyakat,kutuk mengutuk dah mengjadi amalan mulia yg diamalkan org bebudak dr 2B..hahaha.. kinda miss it..well mmg r sem lepas aku kat clas 2B sem ni kat 2D.rindu bila terigt blk masa2 kau DPA1b dulu..time kami gila2 suma..time amir masih ada kat UiTM KEDAH.. bkn la aku nk kata DPA2D xbesh, DPA2D tetap dihati aku..maybe its better this way.i bet if i still in the same clas in wont be dis fun..rite? bila lama xjumpa pas2 jumpa jdk lg besh dr jumpa hari2..so, let it just stay dis way ok..Mr.mahadir please jgn r rombak clas lg sem depan..suma dah ok dah.. let it be dis way..i like it more then before,seriously...lgpn kalu xsama clas xsemestinya xble jumpa,xble hang out sama2, xble nk kutuk2,xble nk pangkah2..suma tuh tetap berlaku walaupun kami xsama clas.. like azam used to said "tgk dulu time adi xsama clas ngn kita, still ble jumpa dia hari2 sampai naek meluat.ha3"
well its true.. kuddus ayie hakim suma tetap lepak2 kat bilik aku walaupun dah xsama clas..still ble join kitorang g karoeke kat CS.well, i just hope things will stay like dis till the end of my studies in Merbok..please god..dun change a thing..

everybody!! Lets FUck Urself Up!! seriously..

wooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!1
i end my misery today wif a killing ending..
peh ayat nk gemoak jew..
akhir stelah sekian lama berhempas pulas(2mggu je pn) akhir tamat la sudah exam aku..

IM FUCKING FREE FROM ACADEMIC BOND 4 1MONTH!!!!

YES!!!!!

fuck U exam..im fucking hate u..
kita jumpa lg dlm masa 5 bulan..
till then dun ever bother me..

btw, risau gak time reslut nk kluaq..
xpa r redha jew pa yg dpt..(ayat cm gampang! ha3)

kepada sesiapa yg blum abih exam teruskan la perjuangan anda ok..(special dedicated to Izni Amalina.ha3.. 2 more days to go babe.hu3.study2.jgn dok blogging jew.)
i'll be supporting u(Ya Rite!!!)

ha2.. skrg ni aku nk p crk rokok n nk isap serokok non stop as a celebration..

hahaha..

p/s- kalu jdk papa crk aku kt hospital SP k..

chow.....

Pancung Separuh..

td time aku tgh pulun study PAD170 satu benda wat aku tersentap..bkn marah tp tersedar satu realiti yg tlah wujud lama tp aku xbrapa nk ambik kesah..

sudah menjadi rutin harian aku utk isap rokok smabil blajaq.. well, to b honest xble study kot kalu xdak rokok.he3. menjadi kebiasaan untuk seorg perokok di"paw"..

*cutting setgh bro, weh pancung weh,bro half bro, steng ckit bro,*

ini adalah sesetgh ayat yg akan digunakn utk paw rokok..standed r kena paw tuh..xpenah jdk masalah utk aku pun slama ni..tp tadi aku realize n recall sorang kwn aku,pompuan dia prasan member aku sorang lg paw rokok aku dan dia tny

*ang sanggup no,isap rokok bekas mulut org..xgeli k?*

aku baru terprasan.. well, adakah aku geli? xtakut infected k? apa yg aku ble simpulkan di sini, rokok mengeratkan perhubungn persahabatan.. seriously.. aku rapat ngn suma member2 aku kat campus nih sebab rokok.. so share rokok dr bekas mulut org len xpenah jdk probs kat kami. maybe its bcuz dat we r becoming too close so dat things doesnt matter anymore.. ya betui..aku dah xkesah kalu share2 rokok nih.xpenah plak aku dgq ada org kena aids ngn share2 rokok..(ada k kes?) kalu ko share ngn drugs addicts len r cita..tp setaw aku member2 aku yg aku share rokok xdak r drug addicts..

so conclusion aku xkesah.. bucz thing like sharing ciggies*(bak kata izni) make us close..kalu diorang xdak rokok n sangap gila2 babi xkan la kita sep sangat xbagi setgh time diorang paw..bagi je la..sebab kalu time aku xdak rokok pn aku mgharap diorang bg aku paw.. plus, kalu aku ada lebey slalunya aku bg jew sebatang baru..xkesah sgt..ala apa la sgt sebatang rokok dunhill kalu nk di bandingkan dgn frenship kami..kan?

the Last Battle To Fight...

cmon adam u can do it..
focus!!!
ni last paper yg ang kena face pastu u r free!!
PAD170 Government N Politics.
aku xmau fail n repeat paper ni..pls..
paper2 len byk aku kantoi kot..
Acc114-Kantoi
Eco162-ble r pass kot
Bel260-confirm dah xkn dpt A
CTU151-xble nk A gak
PAD160-kalu dah C+ pn dah cukup bagus dah

so ni paper last ak..
xkna nk kantoi lg kot..
aku xmau ngadap muka Junaida lagi sem depan..
dia la Lecturer plg serr aku penah jumpa sepanjang aku study kat UiTm ni..
NO!!!!
i dun want to face her again next semester..pls..
i need to focus n study..
tonite is the last fight i have to go through..
i can do it..
i noe i can..just let me focus..

* Dear God the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold my focus when I'm around
When I'm much too far away
We all need that paper to be pass through
But I left it when I found my latop
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again, oh no
My Studies*

Avenged Studyfold
Dear God

lets tagged.

THE SELF

[01] Real name: Adam Ar-Rashid Bin Mohamad Rasdi
[02] Nickname: Adam/aCe+
[03] Status: dah sangkut..
[04] Zodiac Sign: Aries
[05] Gender: Male
[06] Age: 18
[07] High School: SMK Tun Hussein Onn
[08] College/Univeristy: Uitm Kedah
[09] Height: xtaw r..lama xcheck
[10] Weight: 65-70 KG kot..
[11] Do you like yourself: teramat suka
[12] Piercings: nope.bcuz mcm teramat girlie.
[13] Right or left: xdak..
[14] Are you a freak : tgk mood ngn situation
[15] Hair: spiky or mohawk
[16] Skin: dulu cerah skrg dah gelap..maen panas byk sgt time kecik2 dulu
[17] Allergic: veggie..makanan yg aku plg meluat
[19] What will you be doing 1 hour later: hm..mandi kot
[20] What will you be doing 10 years later: ntah..xsuka r plan future

THE FAMILY

[21] Live with mother/father/parents/family: still parent/family.
[22] Siblings(included you): 3.aku tetgh n the only boy.
[23] Eldest: Kakakku- Hawa
[24] Youngest: adikku Hajar
[25] Love/hate your family: teramat sayang

THE LOVER

[26] You found your another half: dah..
[27] If yes, who is he/she: Nur Nabila/ ~My Shiteru~ / My Sweet Lil' Blood Angel
[28] Who you want he/she to be: anyhwere she want to?..
[29] Time(s) you in relationship: timeless..
[30] Ever woo boy/girl: er.. xmau jwap ble?
[31] Anyone woo you before: still xmau jwp..
[32] Did anything wrong to your other half: bnyk gak r..cian kat cian..
[33] What was/were the wrong you had done: the waiting, the heart ..
[34] Ever argue with your other half: skali jew..
[35] You with your other half since: 18/05/2008
36] Are you straight/Lesbo: Lesbo..haha..FUCK..musti r straight.
[37] Reasons you love your other half: shes indie,smart,n love me n also trust me
38] You and your other half in which stage: stage? mengenali each other??
[39] You woo he/she or he/she woo you: dua2 x..
[40] Ever think of marry he/she: once..

THE FRIEND

[41] Your first best friend: terlalu byk..suma org yg kawan ngn aku beshfren aku.
[42] Your first enemy: xigt..
[43] The friends you love the most: hm..ramai gak..
[44] The enemy you hate the most(1only): ntha..xble nk recall skrg nih
[45] Your most beautiful girl friend: iman n sachira i guess.. o ya..fatin.fatin yg mana xble gitau.
[46] Your most handsome boy friend: chester bennington n deryck D
[47] The kind of girl you hate the most: gedik terlebey2
[48] The kind of boy you hate the most: ass kisser
[49] You fall in love with your close friend before: all the time
[50] Your best friend is your ex-lover: yup..Hana
[51] If your friend backstabbing you: Tapak di Muka jgn tny Kenapa!!
[52] If your friend betray you: Raise Ur Middle finger N Say FUCK U!!!
[53] If your friend woo your lover: FUCK U...
[54] If your friends fall in love with you: aduh..xtaw r nk wat cmna
[55] If you fall in love with your best friend: slalunya ended break up..seriously..true story..

THE STUDIES

[56] Are you a good student:nope.. the worst..
[57] You always done your homeworks/assignments: laa assignment kan ble copy paste.
[58] The teacher/tutor you love the most: Madam Syazliyati n Miss Ardiyanti
[59] Always late to school/college: xpenah mai awai kot.
[60] Your class: Ok..Besh Gila
[61] You love your seniors: ntah la
[62] Senior who you love the most: xdak kot..oo ya..weena..
[63] Your classmates good/bad: sengal..kata Boy..
[64] Excellent result classmate: amini.. CGPA dia 3.93 kot..
[65] Laziest classmate: aku la kot

THE PEOPLE

[66] Smart people: suma smart dgn cara diorang sendri
[67] Stupid people: suma gak.kdg2 wat stupid move
[68] Good looking people: Suma gak.
[69] Ugly people: xdak kot..
[70] Funny people: Suma..
[71] Cute people: ramai gak r.
[72] Bad people: geng2 yg suka pangkah memangkah org termasuk aku.peh
[73] Honest people: ntah..suma xtunjuk.
[74] Acting people: Poser!!
[75] You are what kind of people: I Am Who I Am

THE PREFER

[76] Lip or eyes: hmm.tough one..maybe lips
[77] Hugs or kisses: both..ha3..tamak gila aku nih
[78] Shorter or taller: shorter..so dat i wont feel intimidate..
[79] Hesitant or spontaneous: spontaneous
[80] Nice stomach or nice arms: xkesah..
[81] Listener or talker: both..baru balance.
[82] Romantic or rich: romantic kot.
[83] Good husband or Good Father: husband.

THE FUTURE

[84] Age to get marry: tgkr cmna t.tp rasa atas 30 kot.
[85] Numbers of kid(s): 2 cukup.boy n gurl
[86] Career: tgk la cmna
[87] Salary: sebyk yg boley
[88] Retirement age: never thought of that yet.
[89] Properties value: xtaw lg.
[90] Wishes: sucess in life..

THE VICTIMS

-mr.devil
-blitzizni
-hannan
-sarah bukhari
-sarah yasmin

About Me That u Might Wanna Know

one think about me dat havent change since i was a little kid.. if i dun nothing wrong, till the end of time i will say

I DIDNT DO IT!!!

because why should i confess bout sumthing dat i didnt do?
yup, dats just the way i am..

once, i have i fight wif my mother..
i think im in form 4 or 5..
my mummy accuse to dat i smoke..
cita dia camni, mummy jumpa puntung rokok kat blakang umah n tuduh i smoke
at that time i didnt..
so i did not confess o her bcuz i didnt do it..
we had a hell of a fight but i kept dening bcuz it is the truth bcuz i didnt smoke..
well, at the end my mummy gave up bcuz shes tired..
and we didnt talk for about a week bcuz of that..
but i just so stubborn dat time bcuz i no im on the right side..
in the end after a few month, finally my mum found out dat the real person is my neighbour's son..
dia yang sial gila babi isap rokok pastu buang puntung rokok dlm kwsn umah aku..
so, dat it.. the truth had been reveal.. im not the one who did it, and at the end my mum finally trust me.. n she said she had trust me a few month back when i said dat i didnt bcuz she can see into my eye n she noe dat i didnt lied..
so the moral of my story is, if i didnt noe sumthing which is wrong till my final breathe i WILL NOT confess.. so, if anybody, i mean ANYBODY acuse me doing sumthing dat i didnt n then u hope i confess,

U CAN FUCK THE HELL UP..

u can do anthing,
u can torture,
u can say anything,
u can put me aside,
u can do anything.
but,
the fact wont change..
i i didnt do it, i will not confess.
not in a million years
not in anytime around,
not in another life

NO!!!!!!!!
BLOODY HELL NO!!!!

the long talk

last nite,well not exactly nite maybe early in the morning around 2 or 3 i had a long talk, or should i say debate wif "my brother" aimi. well it first start just about me repeating my LDK session next semester n its ended up being sumthing else. first he question my act bout just letting it be the way it is bout the LDK session.. well the situation is this.. well in a kesat student(Kesatria Negara) n we here in uitm had to go through LDK(Latihan Dalam Kumpulan) session every semester to build up our confident on blah2.. well the probs is, i had a camping wif Kesat which is clashed wif my LDK session which is compulsary..so i ask my Kesat Comander whats it gonna be.. n they say dun worry boutt it, we'll take care of it which they didnt.. n i ended up been fuck up by the Kesat team beccause i had to repeat my LDK next sem n they just lepas tgn cm2 jew.. so aimi questioned my act because i just let it be n dun fight for my rite,, n i counter by saying dat why should i fight where else i noe dat im not gonna win..well, lets face it. LDK is compulsary n Kesat is just a camping but instead i choose to go to Kesat's camping..so my thought is, it is my mistakes to be dumb enough to trust all the comander.so i wont fight.so dats what i said to aimi n he disagree..im kinda like a realistic person but he is the other way around.. our debate end up from LDk to life. i gave him a example bout the situation. the example is "If my dream is to have 1 Billion n i noe dat its kinda impossible so why should i fight for it" n if i even reach to the dream i imagine for but by dat time i'll look back n realize that i'd lost to much just to achieved one dream.. he totally disagree with me n he fought very hard for dat fact.. one of his rebut is oprah winfrey(it is the correct spelling?)..she start from nothing n now shes a billionair n she does not loose anything instead.well our debate didnt ended up to dat.. aimi make a statement after dat.. "kenapa hah budak2 part 2(by part two he mean december intake students) mcm heart broken semacm jew"..well its kinda true..kami suma mmg ala2 heart broken pun.. dah jdk realistic semacm..berpijak di bumi yg nyata to be exact.. cthnya ajam..xabih2 ckp yg bdl2 DPA will ended up just being Kerani..plg baguih pun ble jdk Ketua Kerani.. maybe dats why aimi stated dat part 2 student kinda heart broken..well, my argument is dat we "the december intake" students had fall, had been to the bottom of the sea b4 we hit up back to the solid ground.. well its kinda true.. bdk2 december ni kbykannya mmg heart broken..ada yg bru kena tendang dr matrix, ada yg tlah heart broken sebab xdpt masuk u time julai intake,ada yg dah ambik stpm n didnt score well, ada yg dr U or college len n dipaksa masuk cni..so, yes i agree..kami mmg heart broken but we have our reason..and dats why we kinda been realistic bcuz we had lost the fight b4.. we failed b4 this a we dun want dat to happen again.. thats why we r who we r today.. so, aimi replied shouldnt u guys should be stronger than ever rather then been heart broken..well its kinda hard to get back on ur feet after ur been hit so hard.. so again i give him the example of my life..which is about being realistic type.. i told aimi that before dis used to have a dream which is to be a Rockstar n live my life as a musician..but the truth is its hard to be a rockstar.. well take the indie band in malaysia 4 example.. how many of them had fall..yes sum of them survived but many many if u want to compared to the one that fall n failed? so i told aimi dats the reason why my band stop n being realistic n further our study. well he argue again.he said dat that kinda thinking why u guys keep failing apart.. u should just keep fighting.well, i told him the reality of rockstar.. being a newbie in indie/underground scene of music take a lot more then just dream.. money, time n many more.plus the payment for a gig is too liltle to support everything.plus how many of the indie band had a second job to support their music career? rite? so dats why i gave up the dream n stand on solid ground n been here to further my study because i noe its the only way to survive in the real world..

so what do u think..please leave a comment.. i really need a reply..

- im i too realistic?
-it is truth the december intake students are heart broken?
-am i making a mistakes not pursuiting my dream to be a rockstar?
-should we be realistic in life?

slow talk wif my knuckles buddy

well thanx Saf..
for the soft talk dat we had this evening..
it really means a lot to me..
well, for ur info i xpenah reveal myself that much to anybody before..
u r the first to get to noe the real me..
the old me..
the rebelish,anger,hot tempered, short fuse and suma yg berkaitan ngn nya..
i thanx for open up ur self to me to..
now i can noe u more..
n i think ur frenship is getting stonger n ever..
thanx for beinng there for me..
dgq i merapu2 ttg idup i..
thanx for the support..
n dun worry, im gonna be there for u to..
no matter what..
because u r one n only
knuckles buddy dat i have..
dat signature knuckles is only for u..
specially hand gestures made for u..
sorry, for us..
no one can have dat..
ist our signature move..
thanx babe..
for being my frens..
u a true frens..
thanx Safena Izfazura Haji Ishak..

sesiapa yg berkenaan..

kpd sesapa yg berkenaan,
apa aku dah wat sampai dilayan camni?
setau aku aku xwat papa salah pun kat ang n aku xmengakutkan hati sesapa pun dlm kesedaran aku.. kalu aku ada wat salah, sorry tp kalu xjgn harap aku nk mintak maaf..
wat pa aku nk say sorry utk benda yg aku xwat.. frankly speaking, aku pun xtaw pa masalahnya.. tetiba jew layan aku cmni, tuduh aku cmni, wat naya kat aku (bak kata anwar ibrahim).. cuba face 2 face n say wats da probs.. aku blur xtaw papa setiba jew ko sound aku kat page aku plak yg taw.. apa mslh aku? aku xdak masalah ngn org selagi org tuh stat wat masalah ngn aku.. hanya tuhan yg tahu? tuhan mengetahui yg aku xtaw papa.. nk bila plak aku tagged ko? setaw aku aku xsempat pun lg nk tagged ko.. blum sempat tagged ko dah post tagged tuh kata aku tagged ko.. aku blum pn lg tagged ko..seriously.. well, amybe ada og len kot guna id aku tagged ko.. maklumlah laptop aku nih hakmilik awam suma org yg masuk blik aku suma guna laptop aku.. so maybe ada org yg login blog aku tagged ko..honestly, its not me.. laptop aku dah set dah masuk je page aku dah trus log in xyah buh password..maybe dat da case? is it? sebab aku tagged ko? pa plak masalahnya kalu aku tagged ko? salah ke? eventhough buka aku yg tagged ko...

terserah la kat ko.. aku xwat papa pun..ikut suka ko la nk kaat pa.. but spoiler alert.. u dun wanna see me angry, bcuz when im angry im an asshole n bastard dat noe no limit.. im also a hot tempered.. so, dun test my patient.. once i explode, theres no turning back! dats just who i am

pad160 down pad170 r next..

yup..one more to go..
PAD170 Government N Politics
after this i'll b free from this academic bond for a month n i can live my live freely..

dah start trebayang dah kat pala otak aku
hang out kat khaleel ngn rizal n imran,
lepak umah e-in mkn nasik tomato dia wat
hang out kat mcD pepagi buta,
jamming ngn band aku
jogging time subuh
borak2 ngn kak aku
p mlawat anak menakan aku duarang kt kulim
hm.. pa lg?
mcm2 r..
ops!! terlupa plak
ble p jumpa My Sweet lil' Blood Angel time sem break nih..
peh,, rindu gila kat ~My Shiteru~ aku..
jumpa dia t nk hug dia puas2..lepas rindu

wait2!!!

adam... final xabih lg.. focus kat 170 dulu bru pikiaq suma2 tuh.. k r nk g study ckit pas2 nk teruskan campaign red alert3 aku..

chow!

6 days 2 go

6 hari lg pasni aku dah free dr kekangn exam yg menyiksakan(seksa k?).. 2 more paper 2 go

PAD160-principles of management
PAD170- government n politics

actually 2 2 paper ni aku xdak probs sgt sebab aku nih jenis yg kuat merapu n slalunya paper2 PAD nih aku merapu jew n pikiaq logik.. so, aku slalunya lepas cm2 jew..he3.. maybe its just dumb luck..

paper2 aku sem nih bkn susah pun aku yg malas nk pegang n menelaah pelajaran. so, i got no one to blame except for myself.. aku mmg xsalahkn sesapa pn.. aku redha jew.. aku mmg amat teramat malas sem ni.. relax jew byk.. ni tgk r skrg nih.. ble plak blogging esok ada paper ni.kalu nk bg statistic maybe aku study 20% jew kot 4 the whole sem, n suma tuh time study week jew.. so kalu pointer aku ser sem nih mmg aku deserve it.

dah ar aku malas nk ckp pasai study2 nih bek aku sembang pasai benda yg menentu aku time lepaih final nih.. well pasni aku dah free n ble keja..

swenz kopitiam, wait 4 me!!!
sebulan lebey gak r aku ble keja.. keja dah konpem dpt..boss aku ckp anytime when u r ready.he3.. pasni, kira 2 taun r aku menjadi staff swenz.. walaupun not all d atime i where there but it still count 4 sumthing.. pastu aku dah ble ada kat rumah teman makpak aku.. cian diorang boring jew dok umah suma anak2 xdak kat umah.tp pasni suma dah blk ble r kita satu family hang out lepak2 gelak2 kuat kat umah.. n the kak ngn adik aku pun akan pn balik gak.. so, once again we will be faimly again..eventhough its just gonna be for 1 month but its totally worth it..
maybe sebab tuh ar aku slalu maleh blk walaupun umah dekat jew.. xcukup korum.. kak ngn adk aku xdak xbesh r.. member2 pun bz.. suma study.. sem break nih ble r lepak2 sebab depa suma pn cuti..its gonna be a blast, 4 sure..

ok, gotta go.. nk study nih.. esok ada paper management

my biodata...

FULL NAME
+ADAM AR-RASHID BIN MOHAMAD RASDI+

NICKNAME
+ADAM,aCe+,RUCKFULES+

AGE
+18+

BURFDAY
+17 APRIL 1990+

BIRTH PLACE
+PULAU PINANG+

ADDRESS
+######+

EMAIL ADDRESS
+ ruckfules4real@yahoo.com.. (FOR MYSPACE N YM)+

HOBBY
+DOWNLOAD STUFF, WATCHING WWE, SURFING DA NET, SMOKING, TEASING PEOPLE+

AMBITION
+SUPERHERO+

MY FAVOURITE FOOD
+MY MUM'S COOKING+

MY FAVOURITE DRINK
+LYCHEE, CORDIAL DRINK, SORT DRINK+

MY FAVOURITE COLOUR
+BLACK,WHITE N PINK+

MY FAVOURITE CLOTHE DESIGN
+A.L.I-ACTION LADFIGURE INC+

MY FAVOURITE ACCESSORY
+RUBBER BAN+

MY FAVOURITE ANIMAL
+CAT+

MY SWEETEST MEMORY
+ONE OLD LADY CALL ME A HERO,SAVIOR,GOOD PERSON OVER AND OVER AGAIN BCUZ I SAVE HER FROM BEEN HIT BY A MOTORBIKE+

MY DARK TIME MEMORY
+LOST TOO MANY LOVE ONE IN LIFE IN SUCH A SHORT TIME+

MY PREVIOUS SCHOOL
+SRK PERMATANG PAUH, PENANG FREE SCHOOL, SMK TUN HUSSIEN ONN+

MY CURRENT STUDY INSTITUTION
+UiTM KEDAH+

MY PREVIOUS WORKING PLACE
+SWENZ KOPITIAM+

MY PRINCIPLES OF LIFE
+ENGLISH IS MY PASSION, MALAY IS MY LIFE+
+HE WHO LAUGH LAST, LAUGH LOUDEST+
+DUN JUDGE A BOOK JUST FROM ITS COVER+
+DUN HUNT WHAT U CANT KILL, DUN KILL WHAT U CANT HAVE+

Deja Vu all over again..

its just like acc114.. its gonna happen again 2morrow.. for ECO162-microeconomic.. well i gonna have to stayed up.. have to all out.. hope what happen to acc114 wont happen to eco162.. really hope so.. wish me luck k..

i've been tagged by sarah bukhari...

My Top 5 Most Favorite Foods :
+my mum's cooking+
+Nasik Kandaq+
+Chicken Chop+
+Chicken McDeluXe+
+Junk Food+

Top 5 Things I Love Doing :
+Do Sumthing Crazy+
+Tease Da People I Love n Care+
+Try Sumthing New+
+Dress Up+
+SmokinG+

5 Things I Love Doing When I'm EMO : (u guys gonna hates me when im EMO)
+Smash Things Around+
+Kick Somebodys ASS+
+Yelling Screaming n Cursing+
+Smoking (I cant help myself )+
+Jamming (used to)+

Top 5 Types of Gurl I Adore :
+Cute+
+Not To Skinny+
+Indie+
+Make Me Smile+
+Cute-still....+

5 Things I Love Doing When I'm Happy :
+Sing Along+
+Scream+
+Teasing Around+
+Make Jokes+
+Smoking (Sorry. its a part of me alredy)+

10 things I Wish To Do Before I Die-
+Travel n Live In Argentina+
+Date a Vampire Believer Gurl+
+Jump Off From Second Floor+
+Kiss Some Cute Gurl Randomly+
+Kick somebody On The Groin On Purpose+
+Naked In Public+
+Smoke Ten Packs Of Cigarettes Straight+
+Throw My Cellphone From Second Floor+
+Touch A Gurl Boobs On Purpose+
+Create An Anarchy Scene+

5 Things I Wish To Happen :
+Become a BILLIONAIRE+
+Have "My Type Of Gurl" Gurlfren+
+My Family Dun Have To Work Anymore+
+My Family Stay Happy Ever After 4ever+
+World Become A Peaceful Place To Live+

My Top 10 Most Addicted Song :
+Cute Without The E-Taking Back Sunday+
+Never Too Late-3 Days Grace+
+When My Heart Stop Beating-plus44+
+Silly Lily-BunkFace+
+Aku Tetap Diriku-The Official+
+Hey There Delilah-Plain White Ts+
+Fall For You-Secondhand Serenade+
+Lipgloss n Black-Atreyu+
+Im So Sick-Flyleaf+
+Walking Disaster-Sum41+

5 People I Wish To Tag :
+FD+
+Sarah Yasmin+
+DiDie ~Innocence~+
+Suria Muncha+
+Fatin Syafira+