Yang Pernah

Silakan puas sudah disuruh

Nyatakan mimpi yang tak pernah lengkap

Lakukan apa saja yang kamu mampu
Sudahlah biar yang telah lalu

Lafazkan kesemua yang pernah ada

Akhirkan kalau ada masih tertinggal

Cukuplah kalau perangnya ada

Disamping kamu selalu

Andainya aku tahu

Ertinya disuruh

Semua kan pernah minta

Tibalah waktu untuk bersedar

Kerana giliran sudah menyuruhYang pasti yang panggil itu suci lagi
Berilah sedikit untuk aku

Hilangkan rasa hati yang tak percaya

Biarkan dia yang bilang jangan lagi

Cukuplah kalau perangnya ada

Disamping kamu selalu

Andainya aku tahu

Ertinya disuruhS

emua kan pernah minta
Andainya aku cari

Dimana dituju

Semua yang pernah jumpa

Jangan luka yang lebih

Kerana tiada yang memberi

Tiada cuma untuk kamu disini

Andainya aku tahu

Ertinya disuruh

Semua kan pernah minta
Andainya aku cari

Dimana dituju

p/s-yang pernah ada, yang pernah suka, yang pernah minta, yang pernah cinta, yang pernah sangsi, yang pernah benci, yang pernah bilang, yang pernah sayang..YANG PERNAH!

Pemimpin Yang Bijaksana

slama 19 tahun lebih aku idup kat dunia ni seriesly aku xpenah nk taw atau mencari makna nama aku.seriesly. bukan xpenah terpikiq apa maksud ADAM AR-RASHID tuh? penah. tapi then aku just leave it. wat bodo ja. pastu tadi, dia tanya aku. awai2 aku blur nk jawap cmna. last2, ngaku ja la yg aku xtaw. pastu aku igt nk just drop it as always tapi then aku terpikiq smpai bila aku nk xtaw maksud nama aku. then aku text mummy aku tny. mummy aku pun plek tanya napa skrg baru nk tanya. aku ckp blk yg aku xpenah nk terpikiq sblom ni. then mummy aku gitaw, maksud ADAM AR-RASHID tu "Pemimpin Yang Bijaksana".. wow! mendalam maksud dia tuh, n mummy aku yg bagi nama tuh. 3 minggu dia pikiq nk bagi nama apa. seriesly.skrg baru aku nk taw.hahaha. bengong? bodoh? juckless? reckless? maybe i am tp ntah r. maybe aku ni mmg jenis yg xambik pusing. tgk r maksud nama sendri pun skrg baru nak taw. ish2. ini lah diri aku. ha3. nak taw reckless x reckless aku ni dulu awai2 aku igt nama aku tokwan aku yg bagi, sampai around umuq aku 15 tahun kot aku igt cmtu.last2 baru aku taw yg mummy aku sendri yg bagi nama tuh kat aku. ahaks

Kehancuran

kita suma menuju kearahnya walau apa cara sekalipun. apa yg pasti, paper eco211 aku dah sampai ke destinasi tu.

I Bond With Facts, But I Live With Dreams

Dreams May Cause Me To Fall, But Facts Will Always There To Catch Me When I Fall..

Dreams Always Take Me Fly High But Facts Make Me Stand On Solid Ground..

Dreams Make Me Free From Anything Real,Facts Cause Me To Be Prepared..

Dreams Live Every Possibilities, Facts Kill Emotion..

Dreams Is Imaginary, Facts Is Reality..

Dreams Dare Me To Love, Facts Hurt Me With Cheats..

Dreams Full Of Sweet Craps, Facts Full Of Harsh Truth..

Dreams Take Me To Nirvana, Facts Smooths The Long Way Through..

Dreams Ease The Pain, Facts Flesh The Wounds..

Dreams Make Me A Believer, Facts Create Realistic Personality

Dreams Dare Me To Cracks, Facts Stop Me To Denial

Dreams,Dreams Dreams, I'll Fall For You..

Facts,Facts,Facts, I Damn Love You

Amacam Bro?

102/2

maleh nk cita bro. ni lawan bot expert okay. gua xmaen r lawan bot2 easy xdak cabaran.ahaks. nk rematch? jom.. gua on ja.. anytime. malam ni kita rematch...

Music Review-Estranged's Remain Unknown

eStranged
Remain Unknown

01. This World
02. Yang Pernah
03. Masa
04. In No Time
05. We Remain Unknown
06. Enjoy The Ride
07. Tarikh Tutup
08. Destination
09. Ketika Ini
10. My Fascination
11. Aurora
12. Dances Of The Spirits
13. The Slave In Us

compare ngn first album eStranged, In Hating Memory, Remain Unknown is far far bettter. maybe sbb album kedua ni lebih mendapat coverage n mix up malay ngn english. bak kata rich, time diorang wat In Hating Memory, jiwa muda lg time tu, byk anger..ha2. but still, In Hating Memory is worth buying. kalau beli Remain Unknown series xrugi. first single album ni Yang Pernah, mmg besh. seriesly. walaupun aku xbrapa nk faham sgt maksud sebenar lagu ni tapi lagu ni ttp sedap. seswai utk dengaq time tension2. series ble release. mcm ada emo+metal ckit but still radio frenly.kalau x dak r lagu ni nk masuk final AJL 2008 kan. syg xmenang. seken malay single plak, aurora mmg seswai dijadikan single. plus great n beautifool VC. besh kot VC aurora. nmpk grand jew. ngn latar belakangkan era 1950 cmtu peh.lagu ni bg aku double meaning. lovey dovey n satu g mcm nk terangkan apa tuh maksud aurora yg sebenar.ahaks.plus, chick dlm vid ni cute kot, skrg ni minah tu tgh sakit, so doakan lah utk dia ek.track 3 dlm album ni lagu Masa, besh tapi diovershadowed oleh lagu2 bahasa melayu yg len. ble jadik bombastic n seswai akalu estranged nk wat single melayu yg ketiga. ~pikiranku, bersamamu.~ha3. track 4, in no time, second english single, peh! terbaek. sng cita lagu english yg paling besh dlm album ni. riff gitar dia sedap siot plus sora rich dlm lagu ni cm len ckit.maybe sbb slalu sgt ulang2 dgq lagu yang pernah,aurora n itu kamu tu yg dgq sora rich cam len ckit dlm lagu in no time ni.plus, VC dia chantek siot. track 5, We Remain Unknown ble di-conclude-kan sebagai sinopsis album ni. susah nk carik lagu yg ble conclude album tapi eStranged berjaya wat dgn lagu We Remain Unknown..track last, the slave in us besh gak. kalau x xkan menang award kan. besh englsih VC xclap aku kat VIMA award, award indie kat mesia ni.he3. track ke-7, Tarikh Tutup hm..ok lah. seswai ngn theme album. mungkin xseswai ngn aku but its worth listened to.. track 10- my fascination bagi aku third fav english song after in no time n slave in us.he3. track 12-dance With The Spirits kinda song like dark cmtu seriesly. lagu ni lagu first yg aku dgq dr album Remain Unknown ni.skali lg vox rich dgq laen gila dlm lagu ni.track ke-6- Enjoy The Ride- riff gitar sedap sial..seriesly.. sounded like old skool rock yg dimaenkan di zaman tech.peh, ayat aku,ahaks.track Ketika Ini track no. 9-alamak jiwang ckit r.tapi still sedap. ooo first track This World-hmm.susah nk describe tapi mmg perfect letak as first track.nice strategies guys.seriesly. dgq track ni wat mcm nk dgq lg lagu2 len.ha3. abih dah kot suma track aku conclude, basicly album Remain Unknown mmg besh. jgn pertikaikan keupayaan eStranged ok. they r one of the best malaysian band at the moment. seriesly.worth buying.

p/s-eStranged xbg apa2 royalty kat aku utk wat review ni ok, aku just wat sbb aku minat eStranged.dr dulu lg.support ur local act, its bout time!

Adam Ar-Rashid. The B-Side Story

org slalu kata aku baek, based on what they saw. yang sebenarnya? well, to b honest susah nk determine diri aku yg sebenar sbb aku sendri xsure aku tergolong dlm kategori mana. baek, mungkin ya sbb aku xjahat sgt in term of mixing with the society. plus aku kdg2 ikut flow gak walaupun aku denial byk. sbb aku aku ikut arah bertentangan aku perlu ada company yg ikut skali. kalau aku sorang2 borink r.xbesh. jahat? mungkin ya sbb aku byk sakitkan, rosakkan, hancurkan diri sendri. org len pun kdg2 terkena tempiasnya. maybe betui gak apa yg yg sir bad ckp time aku part 1 dulu, people are naturally bad. bukan baek. hanya berpura2 utk menyesuaikan diri dengan situasi. mungkin aku fake, in term of letting people judge me, tapi aku honest bila aku bawak diri aku. kalau jumpa org2 baru, aku tunjuk truih awai2 sifat2 buruk aku. xdak cover2. ya kdg2 org confius ngn aku. jap2 jadik baek, jap2 jahat. senang cita aku dua2 ada. plus, mana ada manusia yg truely purely perfectly good n nice kan. kalau ada pun depan2 jew, blakang2 maki hamun suma naek, standed r tuh. aku pun wat cmtu cuma kdg2 aku depan2 pun aku tunjuk prangai truih. n aku xkesah pa org nk kata. sbb last2 org aku discover gak diri aku yg sebenar. biaqlah apa yg org nk kata pasai aku, i dun give a damn.standed r mulut org. aku pun byk mengata org gak.ahaks. aku xpenah nk benci org, kecuali org tu yg stat wat prangai cibai ngn aku, stat carik masalah ngn aku. series, aku xbenci org cuma kadang2 xsuka ada la. kalau org kata aku baek, aku just senyum ja. ish2, ang ni xkenai aku betui2 lagi.ahaks.pada dasarnya mmg aku bnmpk baek cuma kasaq ja kdg2. lama2 baru org akan nmpk benda tu. penah gak dulu aku try nk jadik bajet, jdk budak baek, tny r member2 aku dulu time aku baru masuk uitm kedah n time dpa1b dulu. aku jadik baek awai2 cover2 mua, last2 hampeh gak. xble nk sorok diri aku yg sebenar.susah. at last, i choose to be myself.xpyh nk bajet2.hm, napa aku tulih suma2 pasai diri aku ni. just nk remind org2 yg slama ni kalau ada yg rasa aku ni baek, n then boom! tetiba discover yg aku ni xsebaek yg dijangkakan, jgn terkejut n jangan jauhkan diri. ni sbg warning or peringatan. so that pasni kalau situation tu jadik org xkn bara sgt nk aku sbb aku dah warning awai2 yg aku ni xbaek mcm yg dijangkakan.just bare this in mind. so that once u discover my true colour, at least hampa suma akan rasa, ooo xpa mmg adam dah pesan pun yg dia bukan baek sgt so dat xdak org akan benci aku gila2. jgn r benci sbb bila dah benci susah nk ubah blk.tu ja la..

Huhuhuhuhu

History Repeated Itself Again Tonite, No Dis Morning.. aku dah vow kot yg sem ni aku xmau dah stay up study n xtidoq g exam..tp nmpk gayanya terpaksa gak wat demikian sbb aku lgsg xredy utk ambik CTU263 pukui 9 satg. skrg ni tgh dok berjuang r ni. insyallah boleh. tapi takut gak blur masuk exam esok. xpa r satg aku tdoq r jap.. plus, azam ada teman aku. ahaks. skrg pukui 4 pagi so, maybe satg pukui 5 nnt aku tidoq r.. pada suma budak2 DPA part 3 yg ambik CTU263-Islamic Management, gudluck okay utk exam satg. chow!

Ciggys,Ciggys,Ciggys

Blur.. in this situation, ciggys help me.

Confused.. in this situation, ciggys help me.

Lost.. In This sitaution, ciggys help me.

ATC, ciggys is my no.1 killer n my lonely guardian..

PrintScreen Tagged

1) Anda perlu printscreen wallpaper anda yang tengah gune skang...

2) Bgtau nape anda suke wallpaper anda ituhh...

+sbb ni pic aku ngn bestie aku saf.. he3. actually ptg td aku pakai walpaper len, bru ja tukaq td rite b4 wat tagged ni. coinsidence? nah, simple luck. walpaper b4 ni pic "angel.." kot.haha.. naseb r kan. i guess her identity is stil under the radar huh? just wait ok. until the rite moment.he3+

3) Tag 10 people...

+sapa2 yg baca post ni+

There's No Such Thing As Free Lunch

i know thta u r reading my blog. u noe u do. i noe that u noticed all the hate entry, fuck u entry dat i created specially for u, i noe u upset reading it before, but one thing for sure, u never stop trying before, so why stop now? if its true what u just said before this, if its a real heart confession, if u really admit ur mistakes n really willing to sacrifice it all to make it rite this time, why bother bout it now? or maybe its just my thought, are u trying to find another excuse? i think u r, again dun bother cuz i didnt put so much hope on u,FYI. so, u better get cracking. u dun ur time line.let me see whatcha got.let put all the talks into action, let see how different things gonna be this time. no more ignorance, no more screenplay, no more drama, truth cold truth, straight flush talk. r u ready for it? r u realy up to it? cuz seriesly, i stood by on solid ground now. u gotta noe where ur stand too. fool me once shame on u, fool me twice, shame on me. u wont let u fool me this time. like saf said, everybody deserve a second chance, so im giving it to u.prove urself this time. i really wanna see the effort though. cuz, whatever whereever whenever we stand before, u aint trying hard before. make it rite this time. can u? or stil trust gonna be the issue here huh? wow! one cold hard fact here dat u need to learning, u dun have the rite to make a judgement call here. i am. the power within me okay. thats the fact. i am the one whose gonna judge, im the one who gonna make that call, not u. i am giving u a chance but sploiler alert, its not dat easy as its used to be.i have to work ur ass through to get back to what we used to stand. try hard. too harsh? yes of course. theres no such thing as free lunch okay. u gotta earn ur lunch in life.thats the fact u have to accept. too hard? too complicated? too annoying? to many things? THEN LEAVE! FOR GOOD

p/s-preserve whatcha have, stand guard on what u giving...

Apa ni??

apa actually yg ang nak ni? tetiba ja.. out of nowhere? u popped out from darkness once light my life towards better, but then u left me hanging in this cruel jungle, just when i survived on my own, u come back, trying to take credit from everything? that simple huh? i never forget, not a tiny lil detail ok, so back off!! the only things that keep my contacting with u its just that i once said that we still can be frens, dun make me take it back.. remember that?

Hidup Ini Tak Palat, Manusia Yang Memalatkannya

setuju? ntah, tgk keadaan.

Screw It, Fuck Me!

Argh.. well sapa yg penah kata ambik diploma senang meh aku dah sepak trajang dia!!!(rasa2nya ni dah dekat sepuluh kali aku tulih cmni).. seriesly, aku xconfident yg aku ble bagi dapat pointer aku 3.22 sem ni. seriesly! aku target nk bg dapat B utk paper PAD230-current issues in mesia tapi nmpk gayanya hanya tinggai harapan ja la.but, its okay, at least i tried. i did tried, it just wasnt enough. xpa, pasni aku ada paper bel, jgn r ada frustation lg/ish2/ bel aku target A-, ble k? we'll see...

Hidup Ini Memang Palat, Trima Ja La

*HABIS MADU SEPAH DIBUANG*

senang ja kan org yg berkemampuan untuk membuat pilihan dlm idup ni kan. they noe whats ahead of them, depa dah taw future cmna, diorang taw diorang stil ada opportunities laen kalau gagal dlm idup, so they always take things for granted. "xkesah la kalau gagal ****** pun, ###### tgh tggu aku".. wow! senang la hampa kan. bersyukurlah. sbb bkn suma org dpt peluang cam hampa. bukan suma org bernaseb baek cam hampa.hard luck huh? mungkin mustahil bg sesetgh org yg realistik tapi bagi diorang, itulah kenyataan. haha. aku xjeles tapi kadang2 bebai. cmon la kalau xmau dari awai xpyh r ambik, jgn ada istilah cuba2, n then last2 quit. kesian kat org yg xdpt peluang cm hampa. org len pun layak utk mengecapi peluang mcm hampa, cuma hampa pny luck baek ckit dr diorang.. but in the end, u guys quit.. n leave ur spot empty cuz by now no one can fill it. huh..cm aku ckp, just bebai, geram, marah ckit. sbb aku taw aku dr mana. asal aku. org besa. org yg plain.. byk lg member2 aku yg xberpeluang mcm aku, end up just stil plain, normal. ni hampa yg dpt, nk lepas cmtu ja. cuba pikiq, kalau tmpat hampa tu org len yg duduk, org yg mengharap, depa akan berusaha bersungguh2 kot. tapi pa bel aku wat, its their choices, n for those who unlucky enough maybe ur time to shine is in other style or alternative. just dun give up. go for it.. napa aku ckp cmni? napa aku defend sgt golongan2 plain ni? sbb aku dari takuk tu.. aku asal dr situ, i am who i am today cuz of that type of life. it teach me how to live n survive.aku plain, aku xpandai sgt, aku x extraordinary mcm sesetgh org, tapi aku menghargai n bersyukur dgn apa yg aku dapat. segala peluang yg aku dpt aku grap. ya, aku xperfect aku pun maen2 gak, aku pun repeat paper gak tapi aku xgagal.. aku xhampakan sapa2. i am stil in the fight n i do not wannna give up. i will not. sbb aku dah rasa sendri kekecewaan dr kegagalan. aku taw, aku experience sendri..ntah aku pun xtaw apa aku cuba nk sampaikan ni. rasa nk tulih aku tulih r. cam yg aku slalu ckp r kan, life aint sweet, get a helmet!

A.P.A.K.A.T.A.H.A.T.I.?.

Hati.Dan.Perasaan.Mana.Boleh.Dibendung.Kalau.Macamana.Pun.Kita.Cuba.Untuk.Tolak.Ia.Jauh.

Dari.Diri.Kita.Ia.Akan.Tetap.Datang.Jangan.Uji.Ia.Apapun.Keadaan.Mahupun.Kesinambungannya.

Kita.Haruslah.Menhadapinya.Kerana.Kadangkadang.Ia.Amat.Berbaloi.Tak.Salah.Mencuba.Tapi.

Pastikan.Niat.Dan.Tujuannya.Untuk.Kebaikan.Bersama.Cinta.Datang.Terima.Saja.Itu.Hakikat.

Yang.Membezakan.Antara.Semua.Ialah.Apa.Yang.Bakal.Terjadi.Di.Penghujungnya.Samada.Cinta.

Tidak.Hanya.Bertepuk.Sebelah.Tangan.Aku?.Masih.Menunggumu.Wahai.Bidadariku.

A Thin Line v3

this time this thin line is between B & L..

n its a choice that i have to make..

not now, im not even sure whether im gonna ever come to the situation where i have to make that choice but still its pretty clear.

to be honest, i dun have the answer yet, not now, not in this time frame..

when the time comes, i really wanna choose both but, i dunno if i can do it..

well, lets just hope that i make a rite call when the time come okay, wish me luck

out

Hard Cold Truth

"Once A JackASS always a JackASS"

yup.. one of my sorority bro, "X" said this stuff as for my burfday wish last few days. i want to drop in hard but its kept on messing with my head afterwards, till now it still.let me make it clear. my sorority bros, well a few of them had planned out a big big burfday suprised for me. any guesses? yes, full of hardcore, punk live band, alcohol, girls, crazy stuff, stuff that i havent been updated since i changed myself.. well, before this, i already made a few changes of my life before i planned this new changes that i wanna make. its succeed. bax to the story. i refused n didnt go to that burfday party. n they called me, texted me, fucked me cuz of it. n thats how this above statement popped out. X called me n i picked up. X rumbled bout why i didnt showed up to the party n i explained. he laughed his ass out. "another changes, bro? cmon!" "Once a JACKASS, always a JACKASS, bare that in mind bro!".. well, for that own reason i lost many2 of my frens. cuz of the changes that i wanna make. cuz of the maturity of thinking that i wanna go for. its like a a piece of me die along with the changes. as u can recall, thats the reason why i kept on calling penang HellHole. cuz it turn up the bad in me.i took a lot of gud value of out me. i tried, for god sake i tried.. well, since the incident that happen with F (read below entry) a fillty thought popped out. maybe X was rite.. i am a badass, n i'll always be a badass. dats just the facts that i have to learn, the hard way. i wanna changed, i really do, but it take to much , a lot of sacrifices to make.. maybe im not ready. maybe i cant.maybe its true dat i am resist to change.maybe its not the time.maybe i dun really have a gud reason for changes my own path. or maybe it is my path to be a jackass. saf, sorry. i tried my besh. i did try. but i think i wont happened. maybe another time.out!

p/s- i havent make a decision yet, stil under consideration though.

Reality Is Everything, Perception Mean Nothing

first of all, im not gonna make any excuses regarding any of my action dat i'd done, but still let me remind u, i am who i am, make action may sometime overshadow my "sweet" appearance but stil that just who i am. and for u babe, thanks for stood up for me, really thanks but u dont have to do it seriesly, its something that i did n now i have to pay the consequences.as for u, F hmmm.. actually im speechless. i dunno wat to say.. wow, u should feel proud cuz u r one of teh few that can make me speechless. as ussualy, i tried to find an excuse to make but then i realize.. why should i? i did what i did, n at the time i really wanna do it. im not defending my action cuz though me myself dunno why i did it in the first place cuz its soo damn long ago.. again another reminder, i didnt aspect this cuz u'll never in my circle before so maybe, i say maybe thats why i did what i did.

hm.. well lets face it F. i noe u r in the process of evolution. u r changing urself toward something big n better tahn before. can u still recall how r u before this changes? i have to admit u r doing great now, after the changes n i dun really like the old u but i do like the new u.. n remember, dat thing happened before this changes.so, maybe, again just maybe thats why i did what i did.i kinda dun like the old u...

wait r sec.. i kinda recall something.. yeah, its a gud one F.. remember last sem? u noe u do.."raise ur middle finge r n say FUCK U". remember that babe? well, first n foremost i didnt did it. annything that i thoight ive done. but i do know who Mr.K is.. seriesly i know him.. n i noe why he did it.. like i said, no one like the old u babe.but still, im kinda mad at u u noe, before this.cuz u just popped out with an assumption saying that i did it without any hesitation..wow, how dats huh? yes i noe all the evident point out at my chest cuz i invented that tagline but still dun u have any thought, even a lil that said im innocent n i dunno anything bout it. yeah at first i dunno anything u u just bang me like that. wow.. how cool? babe, next time if u wanna blame someone at least have a nerve by telling whatnot he had done. at least do that ok.. cuz, i am innocence in this matter, n at that time me myself pissed off at ya..n how cna u just leave it like that n after awhile when a new semester bout to start u just shout at my blog a text off -like-nothing-happened-between-us ? n then when we flip by face to face u just acted like nothing happened? wow! really wow.. but then, as me myself in a process of evolving myself toward a better life, i dropped it. i just follow the flow.acted like nothing happened.cuz i really dun like to fight with anyone. do u recall any of this?

well, last but not least, well i really dunno what else to write, so that it..

p/s- please read the post JANGAN POST INI, KALAU HIDUP IN SATU KONGKONGAN to get a closure look into me.

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