Its Call BullShit For Some Reason

Sweet Like Candy, And Yes! Pun Intended!

2012-02-02T03:03:00.002+08:00

aCe+ Shitload #13

2012-02-01T14:45:00.002+08:00

Kalau Hati Ini Boleh Bersuara Dah Lama Dia Suruh Aku Berhenti Berharap

aCe+ Shitload #12

2012-02-01T14:45:00.001+08:00

I Don't Have Special Girl, But I Have Tons Of Girl "Friends"

aCe+ Shitload #11

2012-02-01T14:44:00.003+08:00

Live By The Sword, Die By The Sword

aCe+ Shitload #10

2012-02-01T14:44:00.002+08:00

To Have A Past, Thats Everyone, To Hold On To Your Past, Thats Sore Loser.

aCe+ Shitload #9

2012-02-01T14:43:00.001+08:00

I'll Ripped My Heart Out If It's Meant To Keep You On My Sight

aCe+ Shitload #8

2012-02-01T14:42:00.004+08:00

"What If" Is A Very Moronic Question To Ask Yourself

aCe+ Shitload #7

2012-02-01T14:42:00.002+08:00

Bravery- 3 Parts Of Courage, 1 Part Of Dumb Luck, 1 Part Of Smear Stupidity

aCe+ Shitload #6

2012-02-01T14:41:00.002+08:00

Exploitation Of Beauty. From Morale Perspective, It Is Wrong. But Hey, What's The Wrong In Making Money From Your Natural Gifts?

aCe+ Shitload #5

2012-02-01T14:40:00.001+08:00

Sometimes We Forget, That Once We Hit Rock Bottom

aCe+ Shitload #4

2012-02-01T14:39:00.003+08:00

I Was Young, Stupid And Juvenile. It's Nt An Excuse, Its A Reason

aCe+ Shitload #3

2012-02-01T14:39:00.001+08:00

Money Isn't The Root Of All Evil, Dirty Money Is.

aCe+ Shitload #2

2012-02-01T14:38:00.000+08:00

Don't Question My Heart, Question My Will.

aCe+ Shitload #1

2012-02-01T14:37:00.001+08:00

If Hell Whats You Offer, That Through Hell I'll Meddle.

Pimpin' Is Hard, Especially When You're Pimpin' Bout Yourself

2012-01-12T01:56:00.002+08:00

I still remember a few month back in early September, I was like a lost bird in the sky, looking for a shelter tree, hoping to make a new home, without any disturbance. Yes, that's me when I first arrived in Shah Alam. kinda scared at first, well the fact that I never been away , far away from home, give you some chills on the bone. Well I'm not really dependent time of person where I cling too much on my perfect home, I was away for quite few times in my life. I was at boarding school for three years. Then during my Diploma, I was in Kedah, not that far away, but still it counts. But Shah Alam, is the biggest step away i ever took. Gotta be honest, I was a lil scare at first. New enviroment, new place, new program to study, new level of academy, everything's new. Even when I was started my life here i still felt lonely, maybe cuz I was taking a giant leap of my life, since I blatantly choose a program to further my academic without having anyone to be in it together. Yes, my first two weeks in Shah Alam was a hell. I thought about quitting, but I just brace myself through it, hoping for a miracle to happen, and yet it did. Now, fast forward 4 1/2 month after, I am happy to be here. I'm clicking with the drastic changes in my life. I'm not doing real great academically, but I meddle through, so that's put it in the winning column. I guess what I'm trying to babble about is this, changes are hard at first, but patience, somewhere somehow, You'll ended up being fine, or if you're lucky enough, You'll enjoy every bit of it.

p/s- Just looked through my old Diary post about being scare to come to Shah Alam, silly me!

Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim Found Not Guilty, Whats Next?

2012-01-10T11:58:00.004+08:00

p/s- i havent write political post for a quite some times, maybe it because the fact that im no longer an administration student, but this is something i would like to voice out. peace!

Up until yesterday, Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim was proven innocent when it comes to the case of Sodomy II as he was acquitted and discharged from all accusation, the High Court ruled. It had been a hell of a ride since the case been dragged in and out all over Malaysia and put the nation in the highest roller coaster ride in as Anwar, controversial as he is, has been everything except politically quiet. The verdict may seems surprise for some, but let me restate, there is a separation of power in the government as Executive branch of the administration (Government’s Cabinet) and Legislative branch (House of Senate and House of People) cannot intervene with Judiciary branch (Courts) when it come to upholding justice in society. That should put the stop for all the accusation receive by the judicial powerhouse for being bias, but guess what, the roller coaster ride goes on, and probably ever higher this time. Why? Because the questions remain, what’s next?

Viewed from the opposition side of the political arena, the opposition team, who going to put the ruling party runs for their money in governing the nation, there’s should be a stop in indication that the government (ruling party) runs the judiciary and actually make the decision for all verdicts when politicians involved. But, no, it is not. As for the past two years of the trial of Sodomy II, Anwar, everywhere he goes, use the trial as a “sympathy card” to gain trust and hopefully the votes from the people, as 13^th General Election (GE13) is just around the corner. From the decision made by High Court, he is now a free man, and the decision may sight as simple, but it will become Anwar’s strongest campaign weaponry. He now can announce to the whole wide world that he is innocent, capable in taking over the government and leads Malaysia to the dawn of a new day. It is a dream that seems impossible on paper, but not unachievable. Can Anwar and the rest of Pakatan Rakyat army accomplish this, well GE13 is just around the corner, and all shall wait and see.

As from the perspective of the ruling party, the current government, Barisan Nasional (National Front) is desperate to triumph over the pressure pull by the Pakatan Rakyat, stirring the unstable ship from sinking call Malaysia. Yes, they are in the place where changes of power may not be so far ahead, but they do gain something from the verdict of Sodomy II. As many left flank journalists or even Pakatan Rakyat themselves keep on feeding people that current government has an “invincible hand” control any conclusion made by judiciary, they are now standing tall because the verdict do not favor Anwar’s loyalists and claiming over the “invincible hand” control can now be axe out. The ruling party now are clean, and that are the weapon of “sympathy card” available for Barisan Nasional to coup with, or at least for another term in the decreeing office. Justice was served, for both side of the battle.

Again, the rising question, what’s next? GE13 is approaching, less a year to be exact, and both race cars is looming to the final lap. And what Malaysian left with? Chaos and disasters roaming caused the nation is now upside down. Rallies straying the streets as people showed their disappointment and those who disagree wrestle back with rallies. It is just another case of fighting fire with fire. And what are the people left with? The leftover of once good virtue of Malaysia, the niceness and respectful attitude, die alongside the aggressive approaches took by both side of political party. Yes, aggressive approaches are taken by the Pakatan Rakyat not us, claimed by the supporters of current government. Do not forget the incident of several explosion incidents took place on January 9 just outside Jalan Duta court, right after Anwar was proven innocent by the court. The explosion injured 5 people, including a lawyer. Isn’t that an aggressive approach? Explosions were used by Palestinian, but their war is for a bigger cause, what do we Malaysian have to go war against? There’s only with each other, and for what, so that some individual can have a seat in the government? Wake up, Malaysian!

Hardcore Reality

2012-01-09T07:17:00.001+08:00

*Click To Enlarge*

Wow! I More Viewers From America Rather Than Malaysia. *speechless

Riddle In The Dust #1

2012-01-08T18:34:00.001+08:00

"You Are Close, But Yet So Far"..

Ouch! Hope Those Aren't Meant For Me

Confused Is Just Another Word For Fucked Up

2012-01-07T01:04:00.004+08:00

I Move On. I Step Out Of The Dark. I Am On The Other Path, The Rightful One. I Made My Choice. I Left Everything That Holding Me Back To Move Forward. You Included. I Rise From The Ashes And Reborn. I Am A New Man,Driven To Change The Course Of My Life. And Then Out Of Sudden...

You Were There. Standing In The Corner Of The Street. Not Saying Any Word But I Know Your Intention. Your Expression Tells. You Are Not Happy With "The New Me". You Wish I Go Back To The Way Things Are Before. You Are Hoping That I Could Turn Back. Go Back To Your Grasp, So That You Can Work Your Magic Over Me, Again And Again. A Puppet-Master And I Was Your Little Bitch. Nay, I Was Your Very Best Creation. The One That Kill Without Hesitation. The Beast That Shallow The Light And Turn The World Cold.

Now Here I Am Kneeling On The Ground. Doubtful, Confused, Angered! Leveling With The Demon That Firmly Suggested To Unleash The Worst. Be Like Before, The Voices Kept On Yelling. This So Called Righteous Path Wasn't Made For You. You Are Confused. You Are Not This Type. You Shouldn't. Remember, Remember, Remember. How Cheerful Life Was Before You Changed. Stop Fighting Who You Were Destined To Be. This World Needs No More Saints To Corrected Misled Soul From Hellish Damnation. Just Go Back, Do Not Refuse, You Cannot Fight This Temptation.

Here I Am. Standing In Between. Wishing To Be Good But Yet Stuck In The Darkness. Waiting To Make A Step. Either Left To Hell, Or Right To The Path Of Unknown.

On Going Poem.

2011-12-18T01:40:00.000+08:00

A World Without Pain Is So Much Fun,
But Its A Fantasy, in Reality There Cant Be None,
But Yet Someway Somehow We Want To Simplify,
But No Worries, I Am Here If You Started To Break Tears of Cry,
Maybe Someday The World World Will Be At Slide,
Till Then Hopefully This Is Enough, A Wish Of GoodNight!

p/s-so far, this is what i had come up with

Lil Piece Of Heaven!

2011-11-28T12:02:00.020+08:00

Diari Seorang Lelaki-Harga Sebuah Kasih Sayang

2011-11-10T04:38:00.003+08:00

Kasih Sayang Memang Boleh Di Nilai Melalui Wang Kertas, Bukan Syiling.. Jangan Bertopengkan Tali Persaudaraan Dan Talian Darah Sebagai Alasan Untuk Mengatakan Kasih Sayang Tiada Nilainya Jika Dibandingkan Dengan Wang Kertas. Sampai Satu Tahap, Kasih Sayang Mampu Dibeli Dengan Wang Kertas. Cuma Kita Yang Tidak Mahu Menerima Hakikat Sebenar. Kasih Sayang Kepada Insan Lain? Wang Kertas Tetap Memainkan Peranan.. Dan Yang Pasti Peranan Wang Kertas Adalah Faktor Terbesar Dalam Kasih Sayang Sesama Insan. Cinta Bukan Bererti Kasih Sayang. Kasih Sayang Sesuatu Yang Ditagih, Diperlukan, Diinginkan, Namun Ia Datang Dengan Tanda Harga. Tanda Harga Yang Kadang2 Bukan Semua Mampu Untuk Membayarnya. Jalan Keluar? Ada Cara Untuk Memliliki Kasih Sayang Dengan Mudah, Tetapi Sekali Lagi, Wang Kertas Memainkan Peranan. Mampukah Kita? Bukan Semua Mampu, Tetapi Jalan Berliku Perlu Ditempuh Hebat, Dan Ada Yang Sanggup.Ini Fakta, Walaupun Pahit Untuk Dimamah!

p/s- tagline- "Muka Hensem, Dressing Stylo, Xkan Xdak Awek Kot"

This Ain't A Lullaby Sleepyhead

2011-10-29T04:10:00.003+08:00

No Matter How Good You Are, No Matter How High To Fly To Reach Your Fn-ing Dream, There's Always Someone Better To Beat You At Your Own Game. Yes, We All Try So Damn Hard To Reach Your Own Goal, But Realise One Thing, Other's Dreams Are Sometimes Bigger, Better And Far More Higher. In Comparison, They Make Us Look Pathetic. In Comparison, We Are Tiny, We're Like Bacteria To Flea. Isn't Awful If We Think Like That? Better Off Not Having Any Dream At All, Aight? Well, In That Case, You'll Be A Loser Forever, And Maybe That's What You Truly Deserve..

Why Not?

2011-10-28T04:07:00.001+08:00

-Untitled-

Kill Or Be Killed , Who Cares, Everybody Gotta Die Sometimes

2011-10-18T02:09:00.003+08:00

"Learn To Hate Before You Can Love"

I know. Some people, no, I should say most people prefer the other ways around. They kept on saying oneself should know how to love before they step on the world of hatred. Well not me. What can I say? I have a twisted mind to begin with. Maybe in this context I'm more protective than before. You know, prevent something bad from happen so you gotta gank up your mind with the worst case scenario so if anything goes wrong, you are ready for it. If you not fully prepared, well the pain will come and get ya. So my advice people, learn to hate before you can love. Hate everything first, so when thing get out of hand, you are not that fucked up because at least you hate the thing first thing first, and if the thing out of good, well just cherish it and act surprise because sometime not everything is negative enough for us to hate. Well, maybe by having this kind of thought make you a negative enforcer but who cares, protect your own self because other right. By all mean, in deep deep truth, all people are selfish, and when push come to shove, they'll show their true colour, and when that happen, you'd wish that you hate it in the first place so you won't be that affected. Regardless, I am not perfect and god knows I'm not always right, so maybe you shouldn't follow my way, but it's your choice, play along and someday you'll get hurt or play my playbook and maybe you won't get hit so bad that you can't step back up. Again, it is your choice though.

p/s- Love Is Addictive So Its Fucking Hard To Hate Anything Or Someone

Wake Up Stupid, Its A Nightmare Not A Sweet Dream

2011-10-06T14:28:00.002+08:00

Waiting.

For Something To Happen.

To Snap Me Up From My Own Goddamn Fantasy.

Hey Little devil, Hear My Confession!

2011-09-23T20:09:00.003+08:00

I Thought That I'm A Slow Starter. The One Type The Chill In The Back Observing Things Before Make Any Move. Trust Me, The Usual Me Just Dive In The Pool Without Even Thinking Twice. Now, I'm Kinda Like Slowing My Pace In Everything And Let Everything Seems Clear And Okay Before I Make My Move. I Guess I Am Nervous At Some Point Regarding The Situation. Not Shaking-My-Leg Nervous But Nervous Of Making Anymore Silly Mistakes That I Ended Up Wishing I Never Done. Well, Maybe What They Said Is Truth, People Changes As Age Keeping Up. Well, I Still Believe In The Concept Where Age Is Still Just A Number But I Just Realise That I Am Moving Up Alongside My Age. Maybe It's A Good Thing. Do I Really Want To Be Just The Same As I Am Before In The Future? Even I Don't Believe That. Or Is It Maybe I'm Just Not Ready To Face All The Changes, To Face The Facts That I Am Growing Up from Teenager To An Adult. They Said "21 Forever" But I Guess I Hate That Stupid Idea. I Don't Wanna Stay 21 Forever, It Just Seems Silly. Everbody Gotta Grow Up Sometimes, Even When They Don't Want It, They're Just Scare To Face The New Phase Of Life. Well, I Gotta Say, Bring In On LIFE!

NOW

2011-09-10T16:06:00.002+08:00

I'm Here, Now. There's No Turning Back, Now. Its All Start Again Somehow, Now.. At Some Point I Wish I Could Go Back Rather Then Be Here, Now.Resemblance Of What Had Happened, I Hate It Here, Now. But I Can Never Go Back, I Am Stuck Here, Now. What Ever I Do, No Matter How Good It Is, It Can't Never Be As Good As Before Not As Whats Now.. Oh I Wish I Am Dreaming Right NOW!

A Baby Steps Is Still A Starting Point

2011-09-08T17:17:00.001+08:00

“There are two mistakes one can make along the road to truth...not going all the way, and not starting.”

“Motivation is what gets you started. Habit is what keeps you going.”

“Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end.”

“The first step towards getting somewhere is to decide that you are not going to stay where you are.”

“All our knowledge has its origins in our perceptions.”

“So many fail because they don't get started - they don't go. They don't overcome inertia. They don't begin.”

“What we call the beginning is often the end. And to make an end is to make a beginning. The end is where we start from.”

Nuff Said

2011-08-26T23:54:00.003+08:00

I Used To Pathetic, Waiting And Moaning For Someone Who I Don't Deserve. Well Girl, How's It's Felt Like Walking In My Shoe?

"selamat hari raya you.. i nak minta maaf ..i byk wat salah ngn u.. n sakitkan hati you. raya nanti jemput dtg rumah :("

p/s- I Ought To Be Angry!

Survive, Much The Same

2011-08-24T11:52:00.003+08:00

We Live In A Dangerous World,
Somehow I Am Still Here.
Somehow, I Still Survived!

blur

2011-08-15T13:45:00.001+08:00

Boredom Is Not A Feeling, Is A Disease, It Can Spread To Other. Better Watch Your Back Bro!

Truth

2011-08-11T15:09:00.001+08:00

She's Dead. Its For Real This Time.. R.I.P ayen

Keep On Speaking Up Moron!

2011-08-02T18:49:00.002+08:00

People Speak Their Mind, What Ever They Wanna Say, About Anything They Wanna Say About, And Thanks To Technology, They Can Say It Out Loud Through A Lot Of Source And Network. But Yet Again, Do They Have The Right To Talk Or Give Their Very Own Opinion About Anything. Not To Discriminate, But What Qualify Them To Give Out Certain Perspective About Certain Topic? Do Their Specialize In That Area? Do Their Hold Any Sort Of Certificate To Prove That They Have The Knowledge And BackGround Good Enough To Allow Them To Speak Up? In Term Of Freedom Of Speech, Yeah They Should Speak out Their Thought. Let 'em Be. The Only Corcerning Matters Is That, The Party Involve In People's Conversation Or Criticism, But Must Smart Enough Not To Be Influence By Those Who Gave Their Comment. Let Them Critics, Let Them Condemn, Let Them Say All The Bad Thing, Just Know This, "Thing Will Be Chaos Is Its Not According To Plan, People Will Start Panicking." If Thing Do Not Fall Into The Plan, Just Try Harder The Next Time Around. Don't Let Any Orthodox Thinker Bring You Down Out Of Your Game.

p/s- People Say That K. Rajagobal Should Vacant The Post As National Coach. Hmm....

Sparks From Within

2011-08-02T14:31:00.004+08:00

If You Ask Me How I Feel About You,

I’m Afraid That You Are Not Gonna Like The Answer,

Because Deep Inside I Really Don’t Know My Feeling Towards You,

It’s All Floundering Around With A Single Thought Of Blur…

Deep Inside I Know You Feel The Sparks Within Us,

Or Maybe We Both Too Chicken To Commit Because It Seems To Fuss,

On And Off And On Again From Time To Time,

Well Darls, It’s Been Two Whole Years, Maybe It’s Time To Make It Rhyme…

If Distance Is The Uprise Question Well You Got Nothing To Worry,

In Few Month, We’ll Be Re-united Again To Claim Our Glowing Glory,

That’s The Thing, When I’m Close To You, You’ll Wash Away My Fury,

One Of The Reason I Gave You That Teddy So That You’ll Remember Me…

Do You Still Remember The First Time You Make Your Move On Me,

As In First Time Meet, You Chose Me Out Of All Your Batch Mate In Class C,

You Take Me As Your Example Even though You Can Pick From Many,

Seriously Babe, You Made Me Blushed That Day, It’s Driving Me Crazy…

Will I Ever Wind Up With You, One Of The Question Of Wonder,

You Are Not Perfect But Yet You Remain As My Heart Warmer,

Always There Every Once In Awhile Dialing Down My Rage Calmer,

Buts That’s The Problems, I Do Wish Our Situation Got Here Sooner...

Darling, I Never Hope For Anything Else Except The Truth,

Your Answer, Yes Or No, It Will Definitely Knock Me Out Of My Boots,

Maybe You Should Just Be My Bench Warmer Forever,

Maybe Those Sparks Should Turn To Something Real As We’ll In Love Together...

2011-07-29T14:26:00.001+08:00

You're DEAD To Me

Breakfast For Champs

2011-07-25T12:49:00.002+08:00

Don't try so hard to leave your mark in the world so that, one day, you'll be remembered by the new generation, just try lil' to leave a trace of your self so that you are not forgotten. Recognition is just an approval, but guess what some people, do not deserve ours. Just leave it be.

p/s-"Average People Is Considered To Be Special In Their Own Way, That's Why GOD Make A Lot Of Them"- Micheal G. Scott

CM Punk- This Fire Still Burn

2011-07-20T14:02:00.003+08:00

From ECW reject to WWE champion, that's what can be concluded as CM Punk WWE career. Despite the tactical errors, Money In The Bank 2011 main event is indeed one of the best match ever. The match itself is legendary, the controversy around the championship created weeks before was epic, and the ending was magnificient. On Raw, WWE try to pick up whats left off from CM Punk action, but truthfully, I already miss CM Punk y'all. I disagree with his statement, whereby he claimed that he is the best wrestling in the world, but I do think he is one of a kind. There's only one CM Punk, and no one can become him.

So, what now? some might wondering. People are anxious to know what to become off WWE championship and the stand of Vince Mcmahon, but I can say that there's one person that won't be to anxious is CM Punk himself. He is now relaxing at home, watching Cub's game while Raw was on air. Damn. Thats beautiful life dude. Well, I gotta say, WWE landscape won't be the same after this, thanks to Punk.

p/s- This Fire Is Indeed Still Burn.. hahaha

Curse Word

2011-07-17T14:22:00.002+08:00

"I'm Not A Risk Taker, Not A Play Save Guy Either. I'm Just A Guy Who Love To FUCK Around"

Please read the statement above carefully. For those who know me, really know me, or virtually know me, i guess you guys are already well known, or sick an tried of hearing me cursing around, in every sentence of words that come out of my mouth, or well written in any of my social network, am i right?.. Some of you, may accept me the way i am, some of you may still in the process of doing so, some of you well totally different way, hate my gut. right? Truth to be told, I don't really care, its just the way i am. Yeah, I cursed, a lot. Its a normal thing for me already. Spoken or written, there"ll be a curse word, some are really hurtful, some are just simply funny in its own way.

It never occurred to my mind that some day I 'll give a damn about what people might think of me until a few days back. The Statement above is exactly what i post in my facebook and out of nowhere, my uncle, whom i never thought having an active facebook account, left me a comment, "nice language".. ops.. and it got me thinking. Yeah, I do love to curse. The only different on this realisation it that, my two different two finally collide. a world there i gotta be me on my own way, and the world where i am a son of my mother, so people always pictured me as a good,loyal, obidient son. Well, its already happen, so one thing that i can say is this, my mom know his only son, she know me, she know how i alway behave when i with my friend, she know that when i'm around her, I am not the real me, im becoming who she want me to be, and she's okay with it, so i'm not gonna change myself, I'm still gonna be me.

Bersih 2.0- The Post Mortem

2011-07-12T19:13:00.002+08:00

Don't call or even labelled yourself as Malaysian if you haven't heard a thing call Bersih 2.0. You can choose to care less about it, but still it is the most talk about issue currently. Well, as people might already know, Bersih 2.0 is a rally of unity which demanded the government to give the people what they want, in this case, fair and clean election. I know its kinda late to make a review about the event but i gotta get something out of my chest anyhow. Same old question arise everytime a political issue been asked upon, where do I stand between both side? my answer, will alway be the same, EITHER ONE, I'M NEUTRAL!!

Back to the matter in hand, the Bersih 2.0 rally. Frankly speaking, Yes I do like the idea of Bersih 2.0. An organisation which fight for the fairness in election. It is a good, nice wishful thinking. A democratic nation without a fair election? better about to call it an authoritarian administration right if there's no clean and fair election. So Yeah, I do support the idea of Bersih 2.0, but not the method taken by them to achieved their solid goal. A rally, it is what it is, a nuisance, public disturbance and many more which it been called. Yet Again, if you want to grab the attention of everyone, even the world, you gotta go big or go home, that's why instead of any other method, a street rally seems to them as the best approach to achieve it. No Matter what, it's does seems unhealthy, disturbing but violence is indeed the best method to get what you want.

Based on every source that is written and read by me, it seem that one conclusion can be made, Bersih 2.0 is indeed a clean street rally, up until there's involvement of self-proclaimed group "Patriot" and yes, the authority. If they just let them march toward the end, nothing will happen, but a blockade cause a lot more problems than its settled. Take other country which had happened to handled street rally cases, some may be ugly, but some are not as bad as it sound. The presence of authority forces in those rally are to control not to block the rally. Yes, the force are asked to do what they'd done, but yet again, without it, Bersih 2.0 will remain as clean street rally, nothing more.

just in case: as stated in the Federal Constitution, Article 10 clause (a) every citizen has the right to freedom of speech and expression, clause (b) all citizens have the right to assemble peaceably and without arms, clause (c) all citizens have the right to form associations.

So tell me, what did went wrong with Bersih 2.0 rally?

p/s- There's no exact numbers been stated, but some sources claimed that the Bersih 2.0 rally is joined by almost 20000 people, from all races. and more than 178000 people joined Bersih 2.0 facebook page.That is unity if you ask me.

Malas

2011-07-08T18:34:00.001+08:00

Langkah Perjalanan Tersimpang Ke Kiri,
Namun Kaki Terus Berlari
Madah Berkata Tak Sempurna Segi,
Namun Niat Pembawa Nan Suci
Kita Sering Jatuh Tersembam
Berselingkuh Kerana Jalan Hidup Yang Curam
Hampir Kita Menyerah Segala
Tetapi Perjuangan Belum Sempurna
Sering Kita Mengeluh Berbunyi Manja
Kerana Hidup Senang Nan Leka
Terlupa Kita Akan Perjalanan Yang Jauh

Membuat Kita Terus Berpeluk Tubuh

Sampah Tak Mungkin Menjadi Bunga

2011-07-06T20:59:00.003+08:00

Kenyataan Di Tolak Namun Hakikat Teguh Berdiri
Kita Semua Sampah "Wangi" Yang Tidak Mengenang Budi,
Lupa Akan Asal Usul Kita Dulunya Keturunan Tuli,
Impikan Menjad Bunga Namun Masih Kurang Segala Segi.

Sampah Tetap Sampah Walau Dikitar Semula Berulang Kali,
Ditukar Ganti, Diubah Rupa Namun Tetap Tiadanya Suci
Habis Madu Sepah Dibuang, Tetap Jua Di Makan Caci
Mati Ditunggu Tiada Ke Mari, Terus Dan Terus Dicemari Badi.

Di Sepak Di Tendang Bukan Lagi Kudis Yang Bernanah,
Tempatnya Tiada Mulia Melainkan Tersungkur Di Tanah,
Dibiarkan Hapus Tanpa Belas Akhirnya Tewas Di Mamah,
Mencari Baru Namun Semuanya Masih Di Ambang Punah.

Tiada Pilihan Untuk Berubah Kerana Hakikatnya Kekal Sama,
Sampah Tetap Sampah, Tak Mungkin Sekali Menjadi Bunga,
Harapan Di Kendung, Sinar Di Puja Tetap Jua Di Pandang Hina
Tiada Jalan Keluar Terbentang, Terus Jua Bermandi Zina.

Sampah Oh Sampah, Bukalah Mata Terangkan Cendera,
Bangunlah, Keluarlah, Jangan Terus Di Empuk Leka
Sampah Tetap Sampah, Tak Mungkin Sekali Menjadi Bunga,
Kerana Bunga Akan Tetap Laku, Namun Sampah Kekal Di Takuk Sama.

Bunga Yang Sering DI Puja, Akhirnya Layu Tumbang Menyembah Bumi,
Tiadanya Seri Hilangnya Keayuan Bau Wangi,
Nasib Bunga Yang Layu Sekarang Hilangnya Bersemi,
Akhirnya Bunga Tetap Menjadi Sampah Yang Di Benci..

You're A Broken Machine

2011-07-02T14:19:00.003+08:00

T-BAG:

"You here to analyze me , doc?
fix me up before I go back to the animal factory?
ask me some probing questions?
find out how I go tick-tock?"

"You wanna know if I kill with ease because my daddy raped his
retarded sister , and I got spit out slightly more useful than
the afterbirth?"

"Or maybe I didn't make captain of the gridiron gang
never had a cherry valance of my own."

"Or maybe cause of the bookworm queens, who later grow up to be PHMD's
stared down their noses at me so much I thought the sun was a big , old
snotball."

"Or maybe it's cause when I watch a man die at my hand,I finally feel
Theodore Bagwell matters more than all those gnat's asses in the world!"

"Because I know, dear kind doctor, in that moment nothing matters more
in that soon-to-be-dead man's eyes than I!"

"Because I!, I am his gatekeeper to life or death."

"well?
Is it that menagerie of misery that make me so special a case study, doc?
is it?"

Lloyd Lowery:

"You know it's not Theodore."

"When we started this case I thought i was going to get some great insight
into why you are the way you are,"

"A look into a complex psyche,
a glimpse into the neurological map of a madman, that could show some light
on some bigger truths, that could maybe help other sick people one day."

"As I got up-close and personal with you and your handiwork, I found a truth."

"It was a small one , though."

"As unexciting as it may sound, some machines just come out the factory broken."

"YOU'RE A BROKEN MACHINE."

T-BAG:

"No Shit."

p/s-Theodore "T-Bag" Bagwell. Total Killed-31 People. A Genius,A Madman, A Creative Killer.A Broken Machine.

Jack Without Sally

2011-06-26T02:44:00.004+08:00

We Were Lucky, Bacause We Were Once Happy

Every Other Couple Seem Suck, And We Were Like Jack And Sally

Our Bond And Chemistry Is Priceless, A Special Thing Of Beauty

On Top Of The World, Others Just Simpleton Peasants, We Were Mighty.

Now I am Just A Face In The Crowd, You Are A Complete Stranger
Hatred Had Now Overruled, And Love Is Something Cannot Be Lingered
Revenge May Seem Sweet, Because It Was Driven By Anger
Driven To The Escalation Point Where We Almost Traded Middle Finger.

When The Dust Is Settled, All I Have Is Myself To Take The Lead
Although I Am Wondering Whether Someday The "Perfect Someone" I Will Meet
But Yet Somehow, I Was Able To Pick Up All The Broken Pieces
Eventhough I am Still In The Search For Someone To Share Blow Kisses.

The Future Seems Scary, Now That I Am Alone To Face It
Deep Inside, I Am Still Wondering That I May Not Be Able To Handle It
Make It To The End Without Have To Experience Another Heart Break
A Hope Of Smooth And Easy Love Without Any Toll To Take.

Jack And Sally, It Is All Now Just Another Sore Memories
Memories In The Past That Keep On Tempting Me Like Crazy
But I Am Stronger Now After That Beautiful Letdown
I Am Now Able To Cross The Ocean Of Doubt Without Being Drown.

Sally, A "Thank You" You Don't Deserve But I Owed You I Guess
I Am Far Off Better Now Without You To Make A Mess
You Are Now Someone Whom Love I Should Not Confess
You Are Now A Scar Of What Used To Be Pain In My Ass.

Soldier

2011-06-23T19:20:00.001+08:00

I fight to make you stronger, to make you love your life.
I fight to show you purpose, to keep you satisfied.
I fight to make you happy. I war to win your heart.
I'd fight forever for you. I ache when we're apart.

I fight to stay together, to bring us eye to eye.
I fight to speak your language, to keep you by my side.
I fight to make it easy. I push to give you time.
I fight our losing battle. I bleed to stay alive.

I fall like a fighter when you give me a shot. I'll live like a lover when you're all that I've got.
I'm fighting for us. My heart is a soldier.
I'm killing myself. My heart is a soldier marching to die.

Only God Can Plays God

2011-06-21T11:45:00.004+08:00

Human is limited. Limited is every possible way that we can imagine. But yet, somehow, some of us gain extra in some way which put them in position where most of people adore, or even worship. But lets face it, they only superior in certain area, not all of it. In this case, they are still need to be consider as human, human whom can and will at any time, make a mistakes. Some are small, some may be big enough to ruin life. So, why we keep blaming those people if a mistake happened. We are whom adored them, worshiped them at the first place, putting them in the highest hierarchy in the system, and when they screw up, we put all the blame to them? That is not fair. Because Only God Can Play God, Not Human.

Runaway Monalisa

2011-06-09T23:13:00.003+08:00

Run Monalisa Keep On Running
Don't Doubt Yourself Now Even Though Nobody Is Gunning
Keep On Your Pace And Your Head In The Game
Keep Pretending Forever That Everything Is Still The Same
But The Fact Remains That Everything Cannot Be Overturned
Every Piece Of Trust Shattered As You Left Me Burned
No Problem At All That's Everything We Build Is Now Ruined
Just Keep On Running Monalisa, For God Sake Keep On Going...

Put Your Act On Now Monalisa, Keep On Pretending
Play Your Roles As Puppet Master Now As I'm Stupid To Still Granting
To Still Be Waiting To Be Justified Even Though It's Never Happening
Toy My Emotion Away As I Moronic Enough To Still Be Believing
Believing Is Something So Impossible That We Will Someday Be Together
Dreaming Of Being At The End Of The Aisle As You Walk To The Altar
Dream Which Appear In Motion That We Somehow Happy Here And After
A Dream Of Stupidity What Left Me Broken And Suffered...

Yeah Monalisa, Keep On Running Away
Don't Stop Now Because I Am Inching Away With A Sway
A Sway Of Payback That I Keep Long Enough Peeling
Once I Release It For Sure You Be Numb Without A Feeling
But Somehow With All That Pain And Anger I Still Choose Not To
Because Right Now The Revenge Is Coming In Due
Not By My Doing But From Someone Who Did Stole Your Heart
Does That Make Me Happy? Happy Is A Funny Word and Yes, It Is A Start...

Redemption Come With A Price

2011-06-06T23:47:00.004+08:00

Erlösung kommt mit einem Preis
la redención viene con un precio
la rédemption vient avec un prix
riscatto ha un prezzo

الخلاص يأتي مع السعر
verlossing komt met een prijs

λύτρωση έρχεται με μια τιμή

הגאולה באה עם מחיר
visszaváltási ára van
penebusan datang dengan harga

"redemption comes with a price"

Justified

2011-06-05T21:03:00.002+08:00

Crush Me, I'll Still Get Up.
Kick Me, I'll Absorb The Pain.
Humiliated Me, I Still Laugh Out Loud.
Break Me, I'll Pick Up The Pieces.
Forget Me, I'll Somehow Survived.
Hate Me, I'll Still Be The Same.
Whatever, I Still Care..
Its You Who Walk Away.
I Am Still Here.
Waiting...
Waiting...
Waiting...
To Be Justified!

Coretan Hati Derita

2011-05-31T12:01:00.004+08:00

Orang cakap hidup ini kadang kadang umpama roda, sekali sekala kita di puncak membelah awan biru, ada kala kita tercampak jatuh "kedebuak" ke tanah dengan kadar kesakitan terlampau. Di tokok tambah pula dengan perumpama seperti, apa sekalipun yang terjadi hidup perlu diteruskan. Kita masih perlu melangkah ke depan tanpa menghiraukan apa yang telah menconteng pada sebuah kehidupan yang bagai sempurna sebelum ini. Yang Mungkin betul apa di coretkan oleh manusia sebelum ini.

Tapi, bukan semua pernah merasai suatu ketewasan , satu kekalahan yang mungkin menjatuhkan kita tanpa memberi peluang untuk bangun semula dan cuba sekali lagi. Sesetengah insan mampu, tapi bukan semua. Sayap yang sama membawa kita terbang tinggi juga merupakan sayap yang bakal membawa kita kebawah semula. Kita rapuh. Manusia sering rapuh dalam perjuangan hidup. Rapuh untuk bertahan, rapuh untuk melawan.

Keseluruhannya, kita bakal tewas akhirnya. Tak kira apa pun yang kita juangkan, apa pun yang kita pegang sebagai pendorong, kita hanya mampu melewatkan penentuan. Penentuan yang noktah, penentuan yang menyatakan kita hanya seorang pengalah yang sentiasa kalah pada cabaran. Tewas pada kepayahan. Terus menghurung derita yang tiada penghujung. Ya, kita sentiasa kalah. Selamanya akan kalah.

Care To Try Again?

2011-05-21T17:23:00.002+08:00

Care To Try Again? I Do Actually
Because I'm The Guy Who Always Do Things Silly
Its Not Stupidity Its Just A Simple Act Of Bravery
Because To Me Rejection Is Whole Lots Better Than Sorry

Crash And Burn Plays Along As My Similarity Outcome
Why? Because Height Is My Phobia But I Still Make The Jump
A Jump Which Simply Defined As Rush Decision
But Is Showed That I'm Reckless More Than My Passion

But I Guess I'm Not Just One The Guy
The Type That Keep It All Bur Rather Than Just Let It Fry
Not One Of The Predictable Typical Type
One Of The Only That Keeps On Rocking The Vibe

Maybe You Are My Next Maybe You Are Not
So I Refuse To Keep In Shut In The Log
Because If You Are, I Have A Chance To Be Happy
Its Lot Than Wondering In Blurry

Care To Try Again? This Time I Am Damn Sure
Its Not Feel Like Love But The Affiliation Is Pure
I Not Gonna Tag Along Playing It Save
Because This Time I Got The Signal You Gave
In The End I Control My Own Choice, And Its You
Because, I Do Like You

Moving On Is Effing Hard

2011-05-19T12:33:00.001+08:00

The sky turned dark make it hard for sore sight,
It make us all helpless, a lost cause without a guide,
Leaving you on thought how to get through the night,
sympathy alone make no good to put a strength of a fight.

A baby steps only easy as it been said,
But a suffering heart knows better as hope starting to fade,
Good 'ol memories repeated itself as sadness created,
In the end, you are all alone again like a confused soul in a maze.

Nobody can really understand how you feel inside,
As perfect moment seized, it disspeared in a glance of slide,
"You Will Never Move On!", this thought comes by as a might,
But you control your own life, you alone capable of making it right.

The pain alone killing you inside, without a doubt,
Makes you wonder on how to put a smile to the crowd
The same crowd of people who keep on asking why,
The same crowd who'll never understand why you cry.

No question that moving on is "effing" hard,
As you keep on trying, everything starting to fall apart,
But do remember, within every heart there's a soldier,
A soldier that haven't decided whether to be a fighter or a quitter.

Do yourself a favor, please be a fighter,
A fighter whom made out of believer,
A believer whome comes from weak becoming someone stronger,
With that you own yourself happiness which is better.

Life is not a fairytale, because you'll never be the same,
Times might heal the pain, but the scars remain,
But the scars do serve you as a reminder,
That you are once hurt but it will not stay on forever,
Bacause you will move on to something greater,
In the end, You, Only You Yourself Which Is Matter.

Bench Warmer With Zero Credit

2011-05-16T12:23:00.002+08:00

One Simple Act Define Every Move,
One Single Mistake Destroy Your Well Build Turf,
The Rest May Relax But Your Still Gotta Fight,
Because You Are The Type Whom Always Need A Guide,
Weight On The World Is Aint On Your Shoulder,
Why? You Got No Guts To Be One Of The Fighter,
Playing It Save Might Save Your Ass From The Pit,
But Nothing Gonna Happen If You Just Playing It Sick,
You Are Not One Of The Tough Guy, Believe Me You Are Not,
Just Another Idjit Whose Ego Can Simply Be Bought,
Yet You Claimed That You Own The World,
Still You Not Getting It And Always Keep Your Card Fold,
An Beautiful Idiot Thats Where You Stand,
A Bench Warmer Who Stay Behind The Grand,
While Everyone Making The Bold Of Every Shot,
You Still Sitting Waiting For Your Guts,
Its Okay, Keep Playing It Save Brother,
Because In The End You Never Gonna Be Any Better.

This Post Is Not About You!

2011-05-11T01:22:00.003+08:00

Miss The Time, Not, The Time Shared.
Miss Being There, Not The Place.
Miss The Spotlight, Not The Fame.
Miss The Hero Attitude, Not The Action.
Miss The Craps Of Life, Not The Shit Going Around.
Miss The Moment, Only The Moment, Not Her.
Definitely Not!

Hear Me Now

2011-05-06T18:51:00.002+08:00

Band- Hollywood Undead
Song- Hear Me Now
Album- American Tradegy

As I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I wear my crown of thorns and pull the knife out my chest.
I keep searching for something that I never seem to find.
But maybe I won't, because I left it all behind.
Now I'm stuck with this, and that'll never change
Always a part of me, until the very last day.

Where to go from here? What road to travel on?
I spent my whole life choosing, and I always chose wrong.
Will I try to have the will to be alive?
Will I try because I've never seen the light?
Blow it to the ground and it's now you see,
You spent your whole life taking the best of me

Where'd you go? Where's your home?
How'd you end up all alone?
Can you hear me now?
There's no light, there's no sound.
Hard to breathe, when you're underground.
Can you hear me now? Hear me now

How low can I keep pretending to be?
That all the stars in the sky could mean something to me.
Heaven will open up if I live on my knees.
A man of many words, but of few deeds.
Walking these streets, so absent of hope.

A pillow of concrete, a man with no home.
Lend him a hand, then we're walking the way.
Leave the virtue of pity, but we live with the shame.
So scared to dream in a world with no sunlight.
When you wake up, you know it's darker than last night.
Quickly we forget, sacrifice gone by.
Born to walk away, been walking my whole life.

Where'd you go? Where's your home?
How'd you end up all alone?
Can you hear me now?
There's no light, there's no sound.
Hard to breathe, when you're underground.
Can you hear me now? Hear me now

Look into my eyes and I see
What do I see? Nothing at all
Take another look around me
What do I see? Nothing at all

Where'd you go? Where's your home?
How'd you end up all alone?
Can you hear me now?
There's no light, there's no sound.
Hard to breathe, when you're underground.
Can you hear me now? Hear me now

Osama Bin Laden- The World Is A Better Place Without Him

2011-05-03T17:41:00.004+08:00

Its definitely a busy day for every news servantsin the world. As the world learned by now, the news strike early today claimed that, the fearless leader of Al-Qaeda network, Osama Bin Laden is now K.I.A in Pakistan. It hits the news pretty damn big, everyone no matter where they are, effected by this news. Even some teacher in U.S finally shaved his more-than-10-years-old beard as the result of this pleasant/unpleasant news. But the interesting news, hit the net again, when someone claimed that the whole thing is a hoax. Claiming that Osama death is just another propaganda by the western to show the whole world that they are indeed fearsome, they are truly the "Police of the world". So, the remaining question lay, "Is It True that America's Public Enemies Number One Is Dead?

As for me, I rather choose either whether to believe that Osama had finally been gunned down or even If he is still alive and kicking. The truth is, I do agree with our prime minister, Najib when he said that, "The World Is A Better Place Without Him". It is though. Osama is without a doubt a disgrace of Muslim. He is Indeed a terrorist. I know I am not a good or excellent example of Muslim myself but I do know one thing, killing is not what Allah s.w.t approve to be done. Yes, Osama is a killer. It doesn't matter if he is killing non-muslim, killing is still a bad deeds in our account. And yet, he claimed that Killing is appoved by the All Mighty? Yes, he is Muslim, so we shouldn't take joy in his death but he is not an purely hearted man with beard. He is the bad example of Muslim, he is on of the reason why people around the world hate Islam to begin with. People viewed Islam as terrorists, as cold-hearted killer because the action taken by Osama and his die-hard followers. We, the innoncence Muslims,paying the price for all the hatred of the world as by some action done by them. So tell me again, why should I feel sorry for him? The truth is, I really do not know whether he is still walking the Earth or ended been shot down, but I do know one thing, Osama is a terrorist who claimed killing as a rightful choice, and thats is just wrong.

Again, "The World Is A Better Place Without Him"

Lose Yourself Bitch

2011-04-20T18:27:00.004+08:00

"If You Had, One Chance, One Opportunity, To Seize Everything That You Ever Wanted, For One Moment, Will You Capture It, Or Let It Slip?"

Shut the fuck up. This Ain't Eminem single. Life is far from that. Trust me. You want your chance? You want your opportunity? You work your ass off, earn it by the hard way. Nothing come by easy in life.

Peace!

Edge Retired- So Long Rated R Superstar!

2011-04-14T20:04:00.004+08:00

When I head about it, to be frank and completely honest, yeah I was in shocked. I really cannot believe it. Edge was gonna retired from wrestling industry? You gotta be kidding me right? That's what first struck my mind. Then I search it all, find out all I can to verify the news, I was starting to adapt and realise that yeah, it is time for Edge. Who can blame him? The guy honestly been to hell and back every single time. As I recall, he got an injury more than any present Wrestler that step into WWE ring nowaday (except for all the legend such as The Undertaker). But do remember, everytime he made a comeback, he will shock the world!

Hate him, love him, despise him, he is who he is. The tag line for himself said it all, "Do You Thing You Know Me?", that's Adam Copeland, that's Edge. I do believe him when he said that if he can, he'll do it all over again in a heart beat. But it's not up to him, his body cannot take it any longer. It is time for him. It's better this way, for the least. If not, it could take his life if he's continue. Plus, as for a fan of him, I think he has done it all through out his career. From championship to Slammy, he won it all.

Rated R Superstar, The Ultimate Opportunist, The Master Of Manipulator, Mr. Money In The Bank. Edge goes with many names, as by the name, he build himself to keep being the nickname the he was labelled with. Rated R Superstar? Who will forget the sex celebration he and Lita have on Raw a few years ago. The Ultimate Opportunist? Edge the most person that i could remember that cash in the money in the bank and steal away title from others. Edge without a doubt a trend setter. He is the first to be the one who cash in the money in bank in suprise, and since then, everybody does is, and it what make the Money In The Bank what it is today. That, prove that Edge is the only person deserve to be called, Mr. Money In The Bank.

Edge, who are without doubt my favourite wrestler of all time. It doesn't matter if who played face or villain, who still are my idol in wrestling. Retiring as 11 times World champion, thats something to be proud of. Edge is indeed some, I do mean some, of the superstar that could hold the World title in double number. The other Wrestler that ever done it, the only that I can think of is Ric Flair (16 times) and Triple H (13 times). Edge, you are among the legend. Truthfully, you do earned it. You earned my respect. You earned everybody else's. Seriously I dunno how I'm gonna keep on watching WWE Smackdown after this because the Rated R Superstar is no longer in it. DAMN!

p/s- Christian will continue Edge "Legacy", trust me!

Make Of Stone And Silk

2011-04-11T14:00:00.004+08:00

"Ambik la Law Adam, seswai dengan hang." "Blajaq la Mandarin Adam, senang nanti nak keja" "Kurang2lah isap rokok tu Adam"

Guess what, aku aply degree ritu 4 choice, satu pun xdak aku apply law. Mummy aku pesan suro blajaq Mandarin utk Third Language nanti time degree, aku still xmau, nak gak ambik bahasa len, German maybe. Isap rokok nak brenti? lama banyak ada la.

So, apa konklusinya? senang. apa yang Mummy aku suro, aku akan wat benda yang bertentangan. Derhaka kah aku? Tak sayang kat Mummy ka aku? No. Mummy tetap priority number 1. Macam yang penah aku ikrar, even kalu Mummy aku bunuh orang sekali pun, dia tetap di pihak yang benar bagi aku, fullstop, no argument there. balik kepada soalan asal, kenapa bila mummy aku suro wat something, aku resist and buat otherwise? kenapa? kenapa? kenapa? Maybe dah lumrah agaknya, aku paling benci bila di suruh buat sesuatu, sebab tu bila disuruh, aku aku memberontak. lesson here, kalau nak aku wat something, manipulate me, jangan suruh, sbb aku xkan wat, point me into the direction you want me to do, then I'll blindly follow. senang kan? well, kalu macam tu kira aku ni memang payah nak handle la kan? memang payah pun. dealt with it.

Acceptance Is One Click Away

2011-04-07T06:50:00.002+08:00

In terms of lying, its an excusable act because no matter what, everyone did every once in awhile. But the most unforgivable lie is that we lie to our own self. Some might ask a sloppy question as such, "How come we can lie to ourself?". Well, one of the simplest example is pretend to be some else just to fit in alienated enviroment rather than to take a stand for what you are. Can't really blame them for the action because acceptance is something that most of people seek. Acceptance not to be labelled as one of the freakshow who may seem a lil different from other.

Why? Why do people willingly pretend to bee someone else just for the exchange of being said yes to? Is it really matter how people view us? it does, but people tense to let go the most important acceptance, the real truth lie beneath every one self, which is people won't accept us as we are unless we accept it sincerely. How we gonna make 'em believe if we ourself didn't put a well amount f trust on ourself? Yes, its silly but undeniable.

If its up to be, i said, to hell with it. I feel comfortable with the way i act, the way i behave, the words i said, the colour i choose to wear, hell i feel comfortable with my own lifestyle. Why? its that mean that i really believe in myself? No. At some point i do question myself, but it really doesn't matter because in the end, you are all by ourself to face the world, and me and myself it all i got. So whether I like it or not, i am sticking with myself. So go ahead, shut me down, reject me, I aint gonna wait for approval, i earned it for those who willing to give. Wishful thinking? No, its the truth!

Death Is Certain, But Its Hour Is Not

2011-02-27T17:37:00.003+08:00

A Single Walk In The Dark Valley,

It May Seem Simple But It Is Certain,
While Some Still Questions It As Maybe,
Many Have Went Through And Become The Fallen

Questioning The Higher-Up Power Seem Approachable
But Yet A Few Survived The Wrath Of Undeniable
Fight It All Against Odds, Some Thought They Were Able
Because In The End, Death Is Not Something Questionable

As Quoted By Joseph Stalin, "Death Is A Solutions To All Problems"
As Influential As Himself, His Words Ain't That Firm
Because What Matter The Most Is Not Death Itself
It's The Timing And The Last Moment Of The Last Breathe

If A Person Spent Too Much Time Thinking About Death
They Surely Will Loose It Along With Their Sanity
Death Ain't Certain, If Some Came Along With Blind Faith
It Ain't Beautiful, It Ain't Mutual, But It Is What Been Called Vanity

People Fear Death, They're Inhumane If They Don't
But Avoindance Of Thought That's What People Been Fought
To Be Thinking About Death Alone, It's Chill In The Bone
Because In The End, Death Is Certain, But Its Hour Is Not

Hope Is Another Dying Faith

2011-02-24T17:30:00.000+08:00

Throughout this unknown I tense to walk alone
Crossing air for any miserable do and don’t
Still, the uncertainty blinded the faith of many
To the point where the right mind turn to another crazy

Left and right seems a lot alike
The understanding of its alone is a losing faith
Which directions need to be followed?
That the million buck question left in dark hollow

Faith is not something sweet with a lovely price
It’s one of the reasons why so many failed to thrive
Losing it only the beginning of one’s Dark Age
Swelling numbers of converters into losing faith

Faith is not alone fighting the creatures of the dark
Side by side a further entity comes to make the both sparks
Together the shoved the light into the darkest heart of elope
It’s none other than faith equitable hand man, HOPE

A dying faith can’t stand alone in all this desolation
Hope ain’t that strong to give any handful resurrection
Hope is also a dead end but some choose to believe
Amalgamation of them both might bring the lost cause to save

But who we to judge compare to them both,
We are all damnation, all together, slave of the sloth
There’s always a magnify darkness bloating in every single heart seize
What’s there left to deem in, faith is losing, hope if far of reach
Alone in the dark, some of us feel already comfortable with,
Just another reason that make us one of the lusting beast,
The battle of light and darkness is far from over,
It’s all on us to be whether free or bond to the darkness forever

Tottenham Hotspurs And Arsenal, The Heroes Of London

2011-02-15T15:49:00.004+08:00

Yes, and yes. Yes I support a football club from London, Tottenham Hotspurs. Yes, I like to watch Arsenal games because they always play magnificently, and mostly because my pop is a big Arsenal's fans so sometimes i watch Arsenal game just to enjoy the beloved game together, more or less bonding a father/son moment. Ask any Malaysian who love football, most of us preferred club from BPL. Only a few stood by chanting for the outside club from Serie A or La Liga.Why? Because in Malaysia we are over exposed to BPL the English League. Youngsters like myself and most of my friends exposed too much to English football eversince we know the round of the ball. We growing up to living the dream with Manchester United, Liverpool, Arsenal or the newlycrown top 4 like Chelsea and Tottenham Hotspurs. Its not on our guilt if we cheer for any English clubs.

For us in Malaysia, the supporters of English Club and others there no better place or championship where bring us together other than UEFA Champions League Where all the best of the best of Europe square off for the prestigious trophy. Its already been halfway of the championship and now its only 16 team left to fight for the title of champion of Europe. All 4 clubs from English League successfully become top 16- Manchester United, Arsenal, Tottenham Hotspurs and Chelsea. For Man U and Chelsea, I'll say they have an easy ride to get through the knock-out phase, meanwhile top Londoners clubs, Spurs and Arsenal, they need a bit of luck to pass through it. Arsenal got it tough when they are again for the second season been drawn with Barcelona, one of the so-called best team in Europe. Seriously, nothing against the Catalans teams, but i am rooting for Arsenal. It really nothing, because I do like Arsenal as whole but like always, I give my support to any circumstances of anything which been place as underdog. As for that match, yes Arsenal is an underdog. They did try their very best last season but ended up been trashed out by Barcelona 6-3 on aggregate. I wasn't really think that Arsenal can get it through though because they need a miracle to beat Barcelona but at least I wanna see an improvement, at least a closer loosing aggregate, 1 ball per se. Go gunners!

Now, Lets talk about my team, TOTTENHAM HOTSPURS! Their draft pick for the knock-out stage is none other than Serie A leader, AC Milan. Tough fight you say? Maybe. But remember, the first time Spurs check in at San Siro in Champions League Tournament, they took the world by the storm with superb come back eventhough by that time, they against Inter Milan with a 10 men. Yes, some might say its all thanks to alone effort of Gareth Bale alone, but remember, back in Whithe Hart Lane, Spurs did trash Inter Milan 3-1. So yes, the match between AC Milan and Spurs, its not unbalance, its perfectly fit well match which its anybodies game to grab hold to. A lil spoiler alert and harsh test for Spurs because they lost several key player like Gareth Bale, the Spurs hero himself, Rafael Van Der Vaart and twinkletoe Luka Modric and it is tough to go and face AC Milan as cripple as that, but Spurs is a fighting team. Watch out for the sprint of Aaron Lennon, stylish play by newly found fitness and touch, Niko Kranjcar. Not to forget, Spurs got chokefull of talented strikers, Peter Crouch, Jermaine Defoe, Roman Pavlyuchenko on their side, so nothing to be afraid of. Plus, AC Milan got problems of their own whereby Antonnio Cassano, Mark Van Bommel and Urby Emanuelson is also being sidelined.And they only can rely on the strike force of Imbrahimovic, Pato and Robinho, no one else left on the bench to come for the save. Through it all, it seems to me as a fair game. Good luck Londoners!

p/s- I know that Chelsea is one of the London club, but i hate Chelsea. Sue Me!

A Man Behind The Curtain Of Great Diversion

2011-02-08T19:58:00.003+08:00

Joseph Stalin

"A sincere diplomat is like dry water or wooden iron. "

"Death is the solution to all problems. No man - no problem."

"Education is a weapon whose effects depend on who holds it in his hands and at whom it is aimed."

"Everyone imposes his own system as far as his army can reach. "

"Gaiety is the most outstanding feature of the Soviet Union. "

"Gratitude is a sickness suffered by dogs."

"History shows that there are no invincible armies. "

"I believe in one thing only, the power of human will. "

"I trust no one, not even myself. "

"Ideas are more powerful than guns. We would not let our enemies have guns, why should we let them have ideas. "

"If any foreign minister begins to defend to the death a "peace conference," you can be sure his government has already placed its orders for new battleships and airplanes. "

"If the opposition disarms, well and good. If it refuses to disarm, we shall disarm it ourselves. "

"In the Soviet army it takes more courage to retreat than advance. "

"It is enough that the people know there was an election. The people who cast the votes decide nothing. The people who count the votes decide everything. "

"Mankind is divided into rich and poor, into property owners and exploited; and to abstract oneself from this fundamental division; and from the antagonism between poor and rich means abstracting oneself from fundamental facts. "

"One death is a tragedy; one million is a statistic."

"Print is the sharpest and the strongest weapon of our party. "

"The only real power comes out of a long rifle."

Lady In Pink, You Make Me Smile Today On Shitty Day

2011-01-30T22:40:00.003+08:00

As I Ride Home Today, I Saw Her. Cute As Ever, Nicely Wore Matching Pink Outfit From Top To The Ground. Nay, Let Me Make A Correction Here. Its Not When I Ride Home That I Saw Her, I Saw Her Right On Time When I'm About To Close My House's Gate. At That Time, I Was Biting My Keys, And I Saw Her. She Look Back And Smiled. Believe Me Folks, Its The Cutest Smile I Ever Saw And She Smile At Me Like She Know Me, Like She Know That I'm Having A Really Bad Day I Could Need Something To Cheer On, And She Did That. It Does Cross My Mind That I Would Want To See Her Again In Near Future. As Lucky As I Am, Near Future For Me Today Aint Needing Me To Wait To Long. Later On Tonight, I Went Out Of My House For My Regular After-Meal Smoke And Guess What, I Saw Her Again. But She Was Walking Straight To The Dark Alley. I Am Definitely Sure That Is Her, Judging From Her Outfit Which I Saw Earlier. Without A Doubt, I Run Towards The Dark Alley To Find Her. But I Guess My Luck Just Run Out Cause I Could Not Find Her. It Seems Like She's Just Disspear Into Thin Air. I Do Shocked At That Moment. Maybe She's Aint A Real Person, Maybe She's A Fairy Or Even Better An Angel, Cause She Does Look Like One. Sorry, It All The Theories Seem Shits, Cause I Just Finish True Blood Season 3 Marathon And In That Series, There's A Ton Of Supernatural Things, Maybe I Just Caught Up In The Idea But One Thing For Sure. I Do Know That Lady In Pink Is Real, And I Really Wanna Meet Her Again, Cause I Wanna Thanks Her For Making Me Smile On A Shitty Day. LADY IN PINK, THANK YOU!

Attitude Adjustment For An Asshole

2011-01-27T16:37:00.003+08:00

If John Cena see me, i guest he'll give me a hell of Attitude Adjustment on a freaking table. Why? Because I have one of the worst kind of attitude which people tense to see it as ruthless,hard-ass and unacceptable. Yeah, attitude. Its how you brought ur self for the world to view and judge. Care less or more, people will alway judge you for what you are. They view you and once they already label you as one of the kind that have unacceptable attitude, you are out of the nice guys turf and you will alway be society reject.

One other thing, the words that come out from your bloody mouth are considered as you in person, more or less, your attitude. If you are one of the type of cursing one, or maybe cursing have become your way to say hello, people will definitely negatively brace you as one of the badass that don't belong or fit in well in pure hearted society. You stand alone afterward. All the slide look and pushed out the way is what coming for you ahead, so stay sharp.

To all badass, dirty mouthful out there, no sweats, I am here for you. I don't give a shit about public acceptance, i don't give a fuck about well behave, I don't give a crap about how people publicly view me as, as for that I just be who ever I decide to be. Despite all the hateful thought, I still manage to fit in, I still make a lot of friend. I still survive in the judgemental thinking of society. How did I do it? By showing them that I am not a lost cause, I am not a negative influencer, I am Me.Because some people, they don't follow society invicible rules of judgement, they accept people just the way they are, they thrive me for being myself and for that, i fit in just well. Just be yourself.

p/s- If Mr.Anderson were able to snatch TNA World Hevyweight Championship, and his an asshole, and people still accept him just the way he is then we all are doing just fine.

Similarity

2011-01-23T20:20:00.002+08:00

Spot The Similarity Of This Two Difference Pix? Here's A Hint, Look At The Finger..

Appreciation

2011-01-21T18:59:00.000+08:00

Speechless. All I Can Say Is, Thanx!

It Takes Failure And Sacrifice To Be A Better Bastard

2011-01-13T20:57:00.003+08:00

Back in the day, when I was just a kid, teenager perhap, I choose to believe that I don't give any craps about the future and what it got hold on me (I still do at some point). But today, i snapped. Really really snapped! Wanna know why? Because I just realise I've arrange or plan my life for the next 8 month. Yeah, seriously plan out everything. Everything I wanna do and all the thing I have to achieve or at least put my heart out and die trying to achieve. What make it a lot difference this time between my life now, and my life 14 days ago? (when the calendar still showing the year of 2010)

At first I don't know what change me. But now, I know. I've fail! Fail in term of life, love and keeping everything on board. Yes, I'd crush to the down earth and reached the lowest part of life that everybody afraid to dealt with, I've been there. And now, I am in a process of getting my life back on track or at least not as doom as I imagine it will be. Guess what, slowly and steadily, I was able to do so. My life aint seem so fuck up as it was 14 days ago. It is now on track based on the par that I've set for myself, and yes I am proud of myself. Well, I guess now i know what it takes to change me to a better person, a well organise person. FAILURE. I faced it myself, and it snap me out of my fairytale dream and knock me out of my shoes so that i can keep up the pieces and make it whole again. That's what I'm doing right now, preparing myself to become somebody, an responsible to himself adult. I'm not saying that it isn't a bumpy road, cause it is hell of a situation, but i got through it, barely. I am now got what it takes. I am ready. Adulthood, bring it on!

p/s- In the matter of all this, I lost one precious thing but I seem okay with the fact that I loose it, and I am doing better without you. So, bye bye black bird!

Demotivational Tool Is My Wishful Thinking

2011-01-05T11:38:00.003+08:00

Changes may be sum up as two different things. Something which is good, things that can make you a better person in the end or the other one is making you being much worst than before. Thats the facts that you have, no, need to accept in life. Me in the other hand, i prefer things stay the same. Some may refer this as being afraid to move forward, or even being a coward whom want to keep in the safety zone for the rest of his godpity life but I do call it as survival tool. Why should we change ourself or even worst our surrounding if we ourself wasn't even sure that the changes will bring great fortune. iI rather keep thing at the same par if the consequences that I need to suffer is unpredictable in the end.Maybe someday I am no longer afraid to do so, but until then, i I keep my head high and stay on reality, which I already comfortable with.

Hey Superstar, YOU SUCK!

2010-12-29T03:02:00.003+08:00

Band- Madina Lake

Song- Hey Superstar

Album- The Dresden Codex

Your such a beautiful gift from above,
When I fell so hard in love and you always said
Because your taste of fame filled you up
Then I became just hard to know
Cause I'm the idiot

Hey Superstar,
So popular,
When you gonna learn nobody cares who you are
Hey Superstar,
Don't try so hard
Maybe someday you'll see who you really are

I'm such a hideous, ridiculous,
But understand all your misfit and I'm okay with it
But you got swept up inside our new media whole world
And I'm so over it

Hey Superstar,
So popular,
When you gonna learn nobody cares who you are
Hey Superstar,
Don't try so hard
Maybe someday you'll see who you really are

I'll never be rich and I'll never look perfect,
I don't care it's who I am
You'll never be happy, chasing all the wrong things
And you'll never understand

Hey Superstar,
So popular,
When you gonna learn nobody cares who you are
Hey Superstar,
Don't try so hard
Maybe someday you'll see who you really are

Arsenal VS Chelsea 3-1

2010-12-28T06:03:00.004+08:00

After four straight time being humiliated by Chelsea, finally Arsenal had return the favor. 3-1 cortesy of Alex Song, Cesc Febregas and Theo Walcottt. The Blues seems like they are about to bounce back and win the match with the beautiful free kick n head in by Ivanovic but there's just it. well, well, well, what do we have here? Chelsea with only one win in 8 matches? Its this the sign of the end for the defending champs? Oh my, me likey! Keep playing like that guys, you might not even be in top four and lose the right in competing in UEFA Champs League. I am not Gunners supporters but i do rooting for them to win this match. Why? Because I want Chels to lose, so that my Favourite, Spurs can keep up with the title chase, or at least the top 4 spot. Its only 1 point seperating Chelsea with Tottenham Hotspurs. All Spurs have to do is defeat Newcastle at home soil next week and hfinger crossed that Chelsea lose again against hot-runner Bolton Wanderers. Through it all, I think that Arsenal still lacking in term of defense. Vermaelen really is needed so i do hope that he heals fast enough if they do want to be seriously considered as top contender of English football. Quoted from Shebby Singh which i really like is "Drop all the aspect of age and young factor, Arsenal players are now have experience, so they need to step it up". They do. All in all, its a good post-Boxing Day. Viva La Gunners!

AFF Suzuki Cup Final- The Shining Story Of Young Tigers

2010-12-27T16:54:00.003+08:00

Well, Well, Well. Malaysia bantai team Indon 3-0 smalam kat Stadium Bukit Jalil? Amacam? Ada sapa2 ragu2 lagi dengan skuad bola Malaysia? Tapikan, sapa la ble agak skuaq muda Malaysia yang ni ble shine kan? Since Asia Game ritu dah ble nampak kebolehan skuad baru ni. Aku rasa actually sangat baguih senior team yg sblom ni suma pakat dok injured ramai bru bagi chance kat suma players baru ni suma uk tunjuk bakat kan. Sebab agak la kan, suma player dalam skuad Malaysia skrg average umuq 23. player plaing senior pun Amri Yahya kot. So, finger crossed, hopefully Malaysia still ble shine kat Indon untuk second leg of the final. Xyah teruk2 sangat sebab dah ada 3 gol dala tangan. koman2 pun pi score lagi sebijik and then defense ja sbb seriesly defense Malaysia, Sabree Abu n the gang, mantap siot. Keeper Kelantan pun Khairul Fahmi on form skrg. So, to be frank, AFF Suzuki Cup tu dah ada dalam tangan dah, cuma jangan buat spoil dah. One more thing, main kat indon ni bahaya skit, tol x? hopefully, everything will be fine, and hope that the squad can bring the cup home. fly high young tigers, keep on roaring.

WWE- 10 Years In The Making

2010-12-23T22:17:00.002+08:00

Remember This Dude? Stonecold Steve Austin. Austin 3:16. The Toughest Son Of The Bitch In Pro Wrestling. He's Now Retired From Wrestling Circuit And Not To Forget He Is Now WWE Hall Of Famer.This Pic Was Taken In 2000 When Austin Was The WWF Champion. One The The Best There Is And The Best There Will Ever Be. He Is Indeed Among The Greatest That Achieved What He Deserve By Putting His Blood,Sweats And Tears To Be Able To Hold One Of The Prestigious Title In World Wrestling. "Thats The Bottomline Cause Stonecold Said So, Hell Yeah!"

Now, Look At This Dude. The Miz. Self Proclaimed "I'm Awesome" and "Most Must Watch WWE Champion Ever In The History". Yes, The Title Had Change In Term Of Its Original Look, But The Miz Held The Same Price Of Title As Austin And Yes He Is The Current WWE Champion. But Whats The Different Between The Miz And Steve Austin? Well, Its Pretty Simple. Even After 10 Years, People Still Talk About How Great Steve Austin Is But 10 Years From Now, Will People Still Talk About The Miz Or Maybe He Is Just One Of Those "One Hit Wonder" Champion? Well, Nothing Against The Miz, He Is A Good Wrestler (Eh..), But Maybe The Problem Here Is That Steve Austin Set The Line Pretty High For A Guy Like Miz To Achieved. I Mean, Come On Austin Career Live On Because Of The Attitude Era Of WWE, One Of The Best Era In The Business, Miz Is Just Trying To Keep The Business Running.Comparison Between Both, Austin Is An Empire Builder And The Miz Is Just An Empire Maintainer. And One More Thing, Austin Is The Past, Miz Is The Current And Hopefully The Future Of The WWE (*Finger Crossed*).

Now Thats Is Someone Who Can Make Us Proud. Luckily For Us, WWE Now Have Two World Champion, Which Is WWE Champion (Hold By The Miz) And The World Heavyweight Champion Hold By This Guy, EDGE. The 10th World Champion. The Ultimate Opportunist. The Master Of Manipulator. The Rated "R" Superstar. The Current World Heavyweight Champion, Which He Won 4 Days Ago At WWE TLC Pay-Per-View. Some Might Not Know This, Edge Sit Along Among Legend. Why? Because He Is One Of The Few That Manage To Hit The Double Digit In Term Of Holding World Title. The Greatest Of It All, The Current Top In The List, Ric Flair, 16 Times World Champion, Triple H, 13 Times. Guess What, Edge Fit In Among Those Guys. You Think You Know Edge, Think Again.

The Difference Between Love And Like

2010-12-20T18:30:00.002+08:00

In Front Of The Person You Love Your Heart Beats Faster,
In Front Of The Person You Like You Always Get Happy.

In Front Of The Person You Love Winter Seems Like Spring
But In Front Of The Person You Like Winter Is Just A Beautiful Winter.

If You See Right Through The Eyes Of The Person You Love You Blush,
But If You See Through The Eyes Of The Person You Like You Smile.

In Front Of The Person You Love You Can't Really Say Whats On Your Mind,
But In Front Of The Person You Like You Can Say What Ever You Want.

In Front Of The Person You Love You Tend To Get Shy,
But In Front Of The Person You Like You Can Be Yourself.

You Can't Look Straight Into The Eyes Of Someone You Love,
But You Can Alway Smile When You Look Straight Into The Eyes Of Someone You Like.

When Your Love One Cry, You Cry With Them,
But When Someone You Like Cry, You Comfort Them.

The Person You Love Comes To Your Mind Every Two Minutes,
Because The Feelings Of Love Starts From The Eyes,
And The Feeling Of Like Starts From The Ears.

So If You Stop Liking Someone You Just Cover Your Ears,
But If You Try To Close Your Eyes,
Love Turns To Tears And Remain In Your Heart,
Forever After.

Blood Fued

2010-12-19T15:08:00.005+08:00

We Cross Through Time And Space,
Literally Through It All Just To Find Each Other Again,
After All We Been Through, Still Nothing Is Been Forgiven,
We Still Find Our Way To Shoot At Each Other,
Still Try To Get On Each Other Nerves.

Ultimatum Given, Attitudes And Position Shift,
Still Nothing Ever Really Changed At All,
Its Just One Stupid Cost Of Living,
No Matter What Our Constants Are,
We Still Try To Find Each Other Wrong Doing And Focus On That,
Blood Have Spilled Over, Live Losses Among Another
But In The End, The Differences Rules Over.

United Had Never Been Our Strong Perspectives,
That On Of The Reason Why We Keep On Loosing The Battle,
Over And Over Again,
Faces Changes By When Times Took It Tolls,
Alliances Made Under The Terms Of Survival,
Yet Again, We Are Loosing Our Self,
The Blame It's Not "Others" To Hold,
It's Our Own To Be Perfected,
There's No Cursed, There's No Bad Luck, It's Just Simple Rules Of Believe,
Destiny's Call Upon But No One Willing To Step Up,
Many Tries But Failed In The End,
That's The Costs Every Single One Of Us Pay With Such High Price,
In The End, It Takes Our Life.
Why?
Just Because We Can't Let Out Lil' Disagreement Slide Away,
The Blood Fued Continue, Forever!

p/s- Tibute To LOST TV SERIES!

I Am One Pacthetic Loser

2010-12-19T02:32:00.003+08:00

No Matter How Prepared You Are,
No Matter How Ready You Set Up Your Mind,
No Matter How String To Try To Put Your Face On,
No Matter How Cool You Try To Act On,
But No Matter What Once You Screwed Up,
Everything Starting To Fall In Line.

Yes I Did Mentally Prepared To Face The Consequences,
6 Month I Tried To Round Up My Mind Around The Facts That I Screwed Up,
But Once The Time To Face The Music,
I Failed,
Emotionally I Loose To The Dying Fact That I'm Lacking Behind,
Yes, I Know I Screwed Up.
I Deserve This Torture!
Please, Give Me More!
I'm Begging You!
Gimme More!!

p/s- If One More Person Asking Me About My Continuation Study, I'm Kill Him/Her For Sure!

1Malaysia- The B-Side Story

2010-12-15T16:52:00.003+08:00

Kali ni aku betui2 akan tulih dlm bahasa Melayu. Series. Ok, penah dengaq konsep 1Malaysia? Sapa xpenah dengaq baek, nyah dari Malaysia pi pindah dok tempat laen okay? Tolak tepi suma politik2, xkesah sama ada anda pangkah nama2 cabangan parti, kerajaan atau tidak, konsep 1Malaysia sudah jadik sebati dalam kehidupan seharian rakyat Malaysia. Tak kira di mana, tak kira apa masa, konsep 1Malaysia acapkali jadik sebutan dan buah mulut orang Malaysia. Walaupun tidak dipraktikkan secara menyeluruh, tetapi sekurang-kurangnya orang tetap tau apa tu 1Malaysia.

Apa contoh terbaik 1Malaysia? Kalau ikut apa yang digariskan oleh Najib, 1Malaysia ialah konsep dimana semua rakyat Malaysia, berkongsi negara Malaysia bawah satu rumpun yang sama dalam keadaan harmoni dah hidup tanpa prejudis antara satu sama lain. Contoh paling ringkas ialah, ambil satu salah jenis kedai makan, Mamak atau Kopitiam. Kita boleh lihat sendri bagaimana suma penduduk Malaysia, tak kira bangsa atau kaum suma makan dan lepak di Mamak atau Kopitiam. Mungkin jarang untuk kita lihat penduduk Malaysia yang berlainan bangsa lepak sekali pekena teh tarik sama2 tapi masih ada sesetengah yang boleh dibanggakan. Koman2 ada la kan.

Bagi aku, contoh terbaik perlaksanaa konsep 1Malaysia berlaku yang aku tengok depan mata aku sendiri 2 3 hari lepas. Aku baru balik keja dan aku pi Shell nak isi minyak moto kapcai aku. Dah abih isi aku blah r dari situ. Dekat simpang ada satu lori tengah jalan stret dan satu keta Camry rasanya tengah nak kluaq simpang tu. Selamba rock lori tu lori tu jalan stret ja laju dan hampir langgaq keta Camry tu. Dua dua kenderaan berhenti serta merta. Ini adalah apa yang dua2 pihak sembang. Aku ble dengaq dengan clear sebab aku ada depan tu.

Camry: Xda Tengok Ka?
Lori: Sorry2.
Camry- Puki, Bawak Elok2 La!

Apa yang special sangat depa dok sembang yang ada kaitan dengan 1Malaysia? Okay, orang yang bawak lori tu India, yang bawak Camry tu Cina. Perbualan mereka dalam bahasa Melayu, dah orang Cina tersebut guna perkataan "PUKI". Seriesly, aku jarang dengaq Cina maki guna puki. Standed makian yang akan seorang Cina katakan biasanya, LANCAU atau CIBAI. betul x? Tapi Cina tu guna perkataan puki, kata makian yang feymes dikalangan orang Melayu. Apa yang spesel lagi pasai pertelingkahan depa ialah depa gaduh dalam bahasa melayu. Mana nak jumpa org India ngan Cina sembang dalam bahasa Melayu tol x? Itu, adalah contoh paling sempurna di mana konsep 1Malaysia dipraktikkan. Situasi dimana 2 berlainan bangsa bertembung dalam satu pertelingkahan tetapi masih menggunakan bahasa kebangsaan dan menggunakan bahasa makian kebangsaan. Itu, 1Malaysia.

Panggil aku kurang ajar tetapi itulah realiti sebenar penduduk Malaysia.

p/s- Akhirlah, berjaya jugak aku tulih dalam bahasa Melayu tanpa ayat2 yang skema. Maybe ada sesetengah ayat yang ala2 skema, tapi ble la kan? hahaha. Peace out!

Turning Point Of A Pure Hearted

2010-12-14T18:05:00.004+08:00

All Our life, We Dream
Dream About Having It All
And Yet There Very Few Of Us Few Live That Dream
We All Imagine Whats Its Feel Like To Be A Big Superstar
All The World That We Wake, Just Trying To Survive Another Day
For Years, Thought If I Was Doing The Right Thing I Will Be Rewarded
I Find It Out The Hard Way, That If You Want Something You Take It!
Have I Let A Lot Of People Down?
Of Course I Have
But That's Doesn't Matter
There's No Turning Back Now
At Turning Point, I Will Take Again At Any Course
Celebrate The Anti-Christ Of The Goods.

As I Look Down At The World
From 25000 Feet Above
It Become More And More Clear To Me
That I Was Always, Always In Control Of My Own Destiny
I Was Always Above It All
I Was Always Better Then Everybody Else
As I Catered To The Creatures Of The Night
Looking For Acceptance
They Look At Me And Said, "Your Acceptance Is Meaningless"
It Did Not Bring Me Fame
Because Importantly, It Did Bring Me Wealth
I Am The "Here", I Am The "Now"
I Am The Anti-Christ Of The Goods

The Gunners Against The Red Devils

2010-12-13T14:32:00.005+08:00

Lama siot aku x sembang pasai bola kat blog aku ni. And satu lagi, lama dah aku xtulih dalam bahasa Ibunda aku. hahaha. okay2, sorry if kalau selama ni blog aku nampak macam bajet semacam ja asyik tulih omputih ja. Bukan pa aku kalau tulih dalam bahasa Melayu nanti ayat jadik skema len macam ja, tu aku maleh tulih bahasa Melayu.HAHAHA!

Alright, back to football. The grandest stage of all is happening tonight at Old Trafford when The Red Devils welcoming their biggest rivalry in football, Arsenal and the Big Guns to their house. A match that involved Manchester United and Arsenal always bring good stuffs together and its really fun to watch those boys fighting their asses to be on the top. Only this time, it is for the top spot. As Chelsea is dropping their ace performance, it seems like The Gunners and The Red Devils is the only available contenders for the title as champion in English football. Let face it, Chelsea draw with my favourite team Tottenham Hotspurs last night, and the biggest news is, bigger than Frank Lampard making his appearance back is that Didier Drogba miss the penalty and Heurelho Gomes magnificiently save the penalty right after he carelessly miss to punch out Drogba shot earlier which cause him the ball hitting the net. So, the only question remain is which team gonna remain on top right after the epic match tonight?

Lets check the statistic shall we? Starting with Alex Ferguson boys, Man U starting 2010/2011 campaign with 15 match without a lost and now holding the second place in the league table with a game in hand(thanks to Blackpool's field been frozen over). the players? Dimitar Berbatov which such perfect perform, eagerly to take on Gunners with his great record scoring 5 goal against Blackburn Rover a few week back. Alongside Berbatov, there's come Wayne Rooney. Nothing can be as such headline if Rooney perform well tonight and bring him back to be one of the fierce some striker in the league. He desperately need a goal to shut up all the critics if not he will still remain in shadow, so Wayne please shine tonight.

Talking about great team, The Gunners is especially one of them. Young, eager, powerful enough to be taking serious, Arsenal squad had perform very well this season an they are thrust for glory since they haven't won any silverware, any recognition trophy in the matter fact since 2005 so they want this season campaign to be something that we can be proud of. As the player of Emirates flag, no one is better to be aware of rather than French young gun, Samir Nasri. He is the player that United Defense need to be taken seriously and watch carefully. But Nasri is no Cristiano Ronaldo. Nasri is more a team player then Ronaldo. That's Arsenal. They work as a team, not finger crossing hope for one player to shine an save their asses. Lead by young and charismatic captain, Cesc Febregas, Arsenal is a squad of hungry wolves than ready to strike in pack.Watch Out, Devils! The Gunners are bringing big big artillery to you doorstep.

Once again, which team is gonna secure their spot in top of the table, we are gonna find it out tonight!

p/s- sembang nak buh post dalam bahasa Melayu last2 tulih gak dalam omputih. bajet!

Hail The Villains

2010-12-12T02:21:00.004+08:00

Any organisation, big or small, future thinking or not, will always involve in our bitchy thing, POLITICS. Like it or nor, politics is like a disease spreads through every inch of the vein which what make a organisation run. But the only thing left to question is whether politic make it smoother or make it even worse. People tense to try out and use politic as a tool to take them higher in term of achievement. Hate them, blame them, but they are the one that should be call smart, because they used any available source in which will be beneficial for career building. It may seem dirty, but yet again, is there anything pure in organisation?

Put aside the thinking of hard work in your line of work, because it doesn't really matter at this point. Try as hard as you can, you'll still going nowhere because without any influential back-up, you always reached a dead end. To be able to reach the top, you need a helping hand. A helping hand, with "strong" enough to pull you up, climbing faster then anyone else to the top of the authority. Back stabbing? its just butter and bread. You have to be cold heart enough to play the game.

One way of another, politics will get you. all you can do, is survive n don't take part. Yes, it may lead you nowhere, but you are still secure, you are still in the game, you are still surviving from any chance of being sacked. If you try to be the righteous one, believe me, you are exposing yourself. Because you can't fight it, politics is untouchable. You'll end up in the wrong side of the fight once you choose to do the right thing. Its okay, to let down your belief and principles, because in organisation, there are no rules book. Everything that happen surround you, its a judging eyes.Beware, and stay survive!

p/s- DPA, you want me to be an political science student, there you have it! I'm in the game!

What Really Cooking Behind

2010-12-06T15:26:00.003+08:00

Call me stalker, but I'm just an observer. I prefer seeing thing with my own bloody eyes and think for the thing from all perspective there is. Yeah, some might labeled my kind as stalker but we are not. We loved seeing things that serve to us by everyone else and think. Weird huh? It's perfectly normal.

Lets drop the stalker stuff before I started rambling. Few days back, when I was working at Swenz kopitiam, a family came in. 5 happily seen family. A father, caring mother, one cute daughter and tough-act son. To be frank, from my eyes, they seem perfect happy family. Sharing dinner with laughter and such joy. Kinda make me think about my family when we had our family outing. From what i heard they just got out of cinema watching movie, Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows. They'd been talking about the movie all the time. When they walked out the restaurant, all I can think about that I wanna have a family of my own just like that, seriously.

A few hour later, a couple walked in my working place. Suprising enough, it's the dad from that happy couple with another woman. Guess what, she's Indonesian. Yeah, I in shocked. The very same happy dad that good with his kids walking proudly with another secret girlfriend to the same restaurant that he take his family for dinner a few hour ago. Come on dude, at least take her some place else okay. You just had dinner with your lovely wife here. damn it.

I know, one of my stand is don't judge people so I am not going to, all I'm gonna say is this, why in hell all married dude in Malaysia will always end up having affair with Indonesion girl? Ae they that hot? I don't know.

I Wish I Can Tell You This In Person

2010-12-04T01:37:00.003+08:00

You've got a lot to say
for the one that walked away.
I give you take,
its the way it's always been

how do i know?
if i should stay or just go
the bottom line is this way that i'll never know

you've got a lot to say
for the one that pushed me away
i give you take
some things they'll never change
please change

these things take time to grow
it's been said that time heals wounds
but no, i won't be controlled
and so, this story goes

I know that I could be this way
I know that I could walk away

Please, stay away
Please, stay away
Please, stay away from me

Pure

2010-12-03T17:37:00.002+08:00

Noor Hajar Binti Mohamad Rasdi

You Break Her Heart, I'm Gonna Break Your Leg.
You Mess Her Head, I'm Gonna Kick You Ball.
You Touch Her, I Swear To God I KILL YOU!

One Step Closer

2010-11-27T01:49:00.003+08:00

Don't Ever Say I Didn't Give You A Chance, I Spread Plenty.
Don't Question My Heart, Because I've Gain Caution Fully.
Don't Hesitate Now, Because Time Is Running Out.
Don't Criticise Just Yet, Because You Don't Want To Shout It Out Loud.
Don't Blame Me For What Might Happen Next, I Did What I Must.
Don't Runaway, There's A Lot More Lust.
Don't Pretend No More Because Thing Have Changed.
Don't Crush Down To Earth Because It Might Not Stay The Same.
Don't Fight It To Hard, That Just Seem Silly.
Why? Because I've Move On And I Am So Sorry!

Stalking Is Somebody Hobby But Don't Make It A Daily Unpaid Job

2010-11-26T15:11:00.003+08:00

Not that I'm keeping score, but you stalk me more than I do. Facebook, Tagged, Blogger Formspring, even my unactive Twitter account. Well, who's paranoid now? hahaha. Well, all I can say right now Karma aint that bitchy it just a simply concept of what goes around comes around. Goodluck on your search of finding what ever you're looking for. Trust me, it aint there. Keeping on rolling baby. Like I said, it just another cute cover to blow. ahaks.

p/s- I know You be smiling when you read this post. YES, it is for you!

Love The Way You Lie

2010-11-25T13:26:00.003+08:00

Love is just another impression right?
So, just play along see where it lead you.

21 Aint Forever

2010-11-22T16:22:00.003+08:00

146 days left. People keep on saying that age is just a number. Hell even I used to say that. Believe it of not, this statement only useful if it is under the matter of love. But in term of life, it does matter a lot. Take an example of working for a big damn company. Do you think all the corporate greedy guys willing to risk hiring any 20 and below years old to run the big show? Never in a million light year. Another interesting quote crossed my mind. "21 Forever". Well, as for this one, it's just silly. It's for those who never want to move on with their life to the next level and choose to stick with the basic and keep on living in fantasy. Good luck to you guys. Keep on living in or fantasy, living in fear to be exact.

146 days from now, I'll be 21. Why on earth is that matter to begin with? Well, as for me, I always put 21 as a benchmark. A benchmark within two things, two different world actually. The world between teenagers and adult, and 20 for me is the thin line between both or the changing period (which where I am at). But yet again, a question arise. Is it 21 really the time for people to change their status from teenager to adult? For me it is. Why? Because as you turn 21, you are eligible to vote in election. Government had already set up the age line which is 21 to be mature enough to make a decision of choosing the entitled and power house to rule the nation. Well, if the government said so, it must be count for something right? (BULLSHIT)

21. Wow! in 146 days I'll be turning 21. Through out this years, at the age of 20, I always assume that this is the time for me to involve, to change myself from the creepy lil teen whom always confused in life, whom always disagree and protest a lot, whom always didn't give a crap about anything toward some one whom matured, serious in life, successful, and wise. Well, me myself put that line to be cross. I set up the goal for myself and in 146 days i need to achieve that goal. Can I? To be completely frank, I can't give a straight answer. Yes, I admit I'd change a bit for who i am 2 years ago. I did realise the changes that happen to me personality-ly and from the perspective of life itself but I don't know whether I will be the man i thought I will in time. There's a lot work be done, there's a lot more changes need to be happen and I am still confused a bit. To hell I am.

Changes need sacrifice and as for now, there's a lot of stuff that I am not willing to let go just yet. Yes, I am still living in my own fantasy world and I am not planning on leaving it just yet. Procrastinating is my best buddy. Once I'm willing to be serious, to be responsible, to be the man of the hour, that is the time that Adam Ar-Rashid has step into the world of adulthood. My best guess is, I am still a young teenagers who live his life to the fullest and not ready to face the big world call reality. Once I done that, there no looking back. So, I am waiting for that time to come. A time for me to completely change. A time that when i look back I can simply say, "YES, I AM AN ADULT NOW"

p/s- I am still hoping to get a poetry collection book for my birthday. I didn't get any for my 20th Birthday so for my 21st I am crossing my finger! please, anyone!

You Just Another One Of My Mistakes

2010-11-21T17:35:00.002+08:00

You are so beautiful,
You are the kind of girl
that has the chemicals that makes me fall in love
Beautiful, you are the kind of girl, that has the chemicals
That makes me fall in love Fall in love

Believing Against The White Flag

2010-11-20T00:31:00.004+08:00

In the motion of fighting a losing battle, some smart ass may conclude that rising a white flag is the best way to put an end to the miserable lost cause. It's not completely idiotic move actually because why keep holding on if you know that in the end you are going to lose anyway, right? That's what most of us preferred. Hell, history proved that this is fact. People rather surrender to stay survive if they already know that there's no point in resisting if the bigger picture shown that we are not going to win in the end. That what survival is all about, surrender if there seem to be no hope left.

This is no a story about bloody war. This is just a story of fictional battle that every single one of us face everyday. We give up easily. We choose to stay down when reached to the point where's it seem to be a dead end. I'm not making a point where I'm the hero that keep on fighting until my final breathe. I'm not making a legend out of myself which hope to be remember in near future. I'm just a normal guy. I did surrender sometimes in my life when things are hard. I'm no hero. But the fact is, who does? We are all not Clark Kent.

The real reason for this post it that I wanna tell about an on-going battle I'm facing in my life. Nothing serious, it just a stupid fling. Yes, all fact directed me to the extent of proof showing that there is no hope in winning this battle. I know the fact that I'm going to lose in the end of the struggle. Usually, at this point, I'd raise my white flag already. But somehow, I'm still fighting. I'm fighting to win even though I know I'm going to lose. Still, my fighting spirit ain't going to fade away. That's faith. Yes, I do have faith that I'm going to win after all. I'm betting against myself, I know, but somehow, something keep me going. I am not planning of giving up, ever. I want to keep fighting. Because I do believe that I can pull it off. I am going to WIN! Mark my words.

p/s- Dear You, I'm not giving up. Brace yourself. I will succeed!

Can U Read This?

2010-11-16T15:36:00.000+08:00

i cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mni d deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt!

The Ring Is Still On My Finger

2010-11-10T03:14:00.004+08:00

Yes, pathetic maybe the right word to be call upon. Yes, false hope is maybe what I really counting on. Yes, dignity sacrificial is needed in my situation. Yes, desperate my had become my gene nowadays. Yes, I maybe a bragging bastard. Yes, I am acting cool when I'm supposed to be pissed off. Yes! Yes! Yes! Call me what ever you want, I don't give a shit. Pathetic is only a state of mine, not an action. maybe I am waiting for something that will never happen, period. But, I kept my hope high. Because I am a believer. I am someone stupid enough to dream. I am. Faith had become one of my new character building. Till the day i die, I'm gonna try to touch the sky.

Malaysia Will Remain Harmony Unless Theres Politics Involvemennt

2010-11-05T14:18:00.004+08:00

Choose any chillax places. Place where you be in when you want to relax and hang out with our friends and buddies. Mamak stalls? Coffee houses? Even street hawker stalls? There's always hemegenous kind of people mixing together having a nice quality time of chit chat and small talk. Yes, Malaysia is one of the most harmonious country where any race can sit together under the same roof and sky while not giving each other the hatred glance. taka any Premier League match at a mamak stall. You'll see various type of Manchester United fans, Malays, Indian and Chinese sitting there's together, cheering when Rooney score a goal, cursing "BODOH!" all together when the Red Devil's army miss a shot. The most precious moment yet to share is half time break. All together will shout their opinions out on the first half performance. There's will always be a sweet disputes about the club latest news but when the second half whistle is blown, all together will unite again as one. Sweet isn't it?

Well it isn't as meaningful moment of unification if there's politics talk is involve. Take the same chillax place, Mamak stall. Every minutes, every moment there's always been a politics talk in those stall. People clashes opinions on everything with politics tag line on it. Politics was and will always been the irrational mechanism of Malaysian. On top of the that, politics cause a lot of interracial disputes but the main problems is that Malaysian cannot live on without politics. Politic had and always been bread and butter of Malaysia. Imagine the harmonious lifestyle if we take politics out of the equation. Malaysia will remain strong as ever.

p/s- Congrats to the winning party at Galas and Batu Sapi. And Happy Diwali!

I Don't Deserve

2010-11-03T23:17:00.001+08:00

Band- Linkin Park
Song- Burning In The Skies
Album- A Thousand Sun

I used the deadwood to make the fire rise
The blood of innocence burning in the skies
I filled my cup with the rising of the sea
And poured it out in an ocean of debris

I'm swimming in the smoke
Of bridges I have burned
So don't apologize
I'm losing what I don't deserve
What I don't deserve

We held our breath when the clouds began to form
But you were lost in the beating of the storm
But in the end we were meant to be apart
Like separate chambers of the human heart

No

I'm swimming in the smoke
Of bridges I have burned
So don't apologize
I'm losing what I don't deserve

It's in the blackened bones
Of bridges I have burned
So don't apologize
I'm losing what I don't deserve
What I don't deserve

The blame is mine alone
For bridges I have burned
So don't apologize
I'm losing what I don't deserve

I used the deadwood to make the fire rise
The blood of innocence burning in the skies

I Aint Beautiful

2010-11-02T00:54:00.003+08:00

Don't Ever Presume To Know Whats Inside My Head. To Ever Think You Know Whats Its Like To Walk In My Shoe. I'll Always Be One Tough Act To Follow. And Yes, I Tend To Push People Away From My Life. But Note This, It Is For Their Own Good. I Can't Stay Responsible For Whats Might Happen To Them. Because I Am Explosive. I Am Incurable Curse. I'll Suck Everything Deep Inside A Hell Hole Once Their Close To Me. Stay Away! I Am Giving You A Choice. I Am Doing This For Your Own Good. Yes, It May Seem Cruel, But It What Must Be Done. Hate Me Now, I Can Endure That. Because Hate Has Become My Fruitful Meal. I Just Can't Let You Drown Inside My Darkness Side. I Can't Let That Happened. That's Why I Choose To Push You Away Rather Then Let You Get Any Closer To Me.Be Friend And Be A Close Friend Is Two Different Terms. I Know That You Can't Handle Me. You Are To Good To Be Mine. I Am To Fucked Up To Be Yours. You Can't Handle Me. And I Can't Assure Your Safety Once You Near Me. And I Can't Afford That To Have. I Rather Let You Go. Even Though The Scar Will Continue To Show. Well, That's The Price I Have To Pay For Being Me.Yo Don't Know Me.

We Shouldn't Be Together, The Horoscope Compability Said So

2010-10-30T02:59:00.002+08:00

Aries + Virgo

Fire + Earth = Lava

The cool, critical, perfectionist Virgo is a difficult kettle of fish for you, Aries. In fact, Virgo is so different from you that you may feel completely at odds with them, even irritated by them. You could also find yourself getting pretty angry with their moral attitudes.

And looking at it from the other side, your fast, furious and impulsive nature will throw Virgo into a complete tailspin. You aren’t too concerned with what people think, and you don’t mind the occasional in-your-face shock tactic. This just won’t work with Virgo.

This is, therefore, not a combination for the faint of heart. Think deeply before you jump into this one.

Although the snapshot above shows you and Virgo as quite incompatible, there’s still hope. You can learn a lot from the order and meticulousness of Virgo: you could benefit by applying some of their practicality and orderliness to your own life.

As with the other earth signs, Taurus and Capricorn, Virgo relates best to the financial and work areas of your life. There are many lessons to be learned by both of you here. If you’re open enough and willing to accept the advice Virgo has to offer in this field, you could learn how to prudently apply your wisdom. And likewise, if Virgo is open enough, they will learn about risk-taking and bringing more vital energy to a task.

If you do choose to work with each other, the combination could be very successful, because Virgo will support you completely. You see, Virgo is very interested in two ideas: service and perfection. You might describe them as fastidious, but you mustn’t be too judgmental.

One big plus is that Virgo will be more than happy to listen to all your ideas, and to take them seriously. They will then home in on them and refine them into something that works in practice. On this level, both of you could be quite surprised at how fine a job you do together.

Your straightforwardness and your honest, unadorned style are very unlike the complex, intellectual and deductive mind of Virgo. The two of you often have similar ideals, but you will present your views and live out your principles in vastly different ways.

This difference in style is also very noticeable in the sexual relationship between you. Virgo is prim and proper — probably overly so for your raw and primitive approach. But remember, Virgo was born to serve, as you were born to lead, so there could be a kind of compatibility between you. Don’t be too quick to jump to conclusions, especially in matters of love — it may just work!

If you do feel attracted to a Virgo, possibly due to some karmic longing, those born in the third portion — between 13 September and 23 September — will be the most suitable for you.

Try to avoid partnerships with those born between 3 September and 13 September. This is a really tough combination.

Virgos born between 24 August and 2 September are moderately compatible, so you might want to give it a try with them.

Mummy, I Am A Killing Plague

2010-10-29T23:40:00.004+08:00

If I Am A Precious Diamond,
You Are Surely My Diamond Cutter.

If I Am A Fresh Meat In The Market,
You Are Gonna Be My Lovely Butcher.

Sometimes I've Become A Really Bad Mega Disaster,
But You Are Always There To Be My Well Arm Protector.

Advice And Guidance From You Make Me See The World Clearer,
Now I Can Totally Recognise All The Gladiator And Traitor.

If I Am The Killing Plague, I Know You'll Be There As My Cure,
Even Thought The Always Hard Words, I Know Your Love Is Pure.

If I Am A Heart Breaker, You'll Be There As My Savior
But If You Are Drowning, Can I Bring You Back To The Shore?
That's The Ultimate Question, One That I Can't Quite Figure.

Life Aint Sweet, Outcasters!

2010-10-29T21:24:00.000+08:00

Reality mean nothing, perception is everything
We try to denied it but it won’t cling
The says, the words we try to take it for granted
Because in our head it still flustered
Should we care about all of the filthy thought?
They don’t even know us, isn’t that an obvious odd?
They said we the doubter, but we do believe in god
But still, their perspective and speech hurts, a lot

Maybe we don’t belong maybe we just the exile
Trying to fit in, but the world is another plays of child
Maybe it’s them with constructed mind
Or it just us that too blind to find

WE DON’T HAVE the right path to go
WE DON’T HAVE the right voice to mellow
WE DON’T have the perfect click to follow
WHAT WE HAVE IS JUST The cute cover to blow

We try our best to fit in
Still all of the efforts blown away and drowning
Still people see the worst of us
They Lust for more and we starting to fly dust

It’s time to seize back what ours
The rightful marks to be belong and fuss
ALL WE WANT IS Society membership not TO BE freaks
Can we, or can’t we? it just another break
Another swing we must alert ON
To be apart, nah! To be heard Upon

The Nexus

2010-10-28T21:21:00.002+08:00

Band-12 Stones
Song- We Are One
The Nexus Theme

We walk alone In the unknown
We live to win another victory
We are the young Dying sons
We live to change the face of history
so be afraid
It's the price we pay
The only easy day was yesterday
So hear our voice,We have a choice,
It's time to face it

We are one We are one We are one
We will stand together
Number one Number one
The chosen ones
We are one We are one
we will fight forever
we are one and we won't tire

We are the bold United souls
We live to win another victory
Our sacred scars Show who we are
And tell the story of our memories

Don't be afraid It's the price we pay
The only easy day was yesterday
So hear our voice We have a choice
It's time to face it

We walk alone In the unknown
We live to win another victory
Our sacred scars Show who we are
It's time to face it

Choice

2010-10-27T05:42:00.000+08:00

~Mymy Mox~

The End